I don't own glee or the characters, I just play around with them

Ok so here's the second chapter, It takes me a little long to write since I want to make sure I'm writing something coherent and still I often doubt about that!

again if you see any spelling or grammar errors let me know

We are getting some Rachel now and I'm introducing yet an other character to the plot, I hope you don't hate me for this

Thanks for the lovely reviews so far, please review and let me know your thoughts! I really hope you like it


The sky was beautiful that night, filled with stars, a quality she came to appreciate while living in New York, being a big city, the sky rarely was filled with that amount of stars, it made her happy, she took one of her old pic-nic blankets, a bottle of wine and made her way to the roof, placing the blanket piece memory came to her, but instead of dealing with it, she just blocked it like she learned to a few years back, with the excuse of protecting her heart, she wasn't sure that was true anymore, but that was an other thing she wasn't ready to deal with, she wasn't ready then, and hell, she wasn't ready now, lying to herself seemed to be working just fine for her, so she just did

She poured herself a cup of wine and laid there peacefully, trying to remember the last time she took the time to come out, it had been a long time, but it was ok, that's why she loved this so much, she never had to prove anything there, there was no fear of disappointing or the pressure to look groomed and ready, she just had to be there and that was enough... no pressures

Looking at the stars made her feel safe, together, they were like a little piece of everlasting hope, they had always been her comfort, the reminder to be strong, to keep fighting, to stay true to herself, she remembered how she used to add the little gold star sticker next to her name up until college, when she traded the sticker for her own doodle, she still had a good amount of the stickers though, he gave her a box full of them at the beginning of their senior year, she remembered being impressed, not only he cared enough to make her a selfless gift, but he'd gone for the trouble to find different sizes as well, those memories made her smile and before she knew it she was seeing him, his hopeful smile, looking at her like she was the only one in the room, she tried to avoid the memory, but it was too late, she could feel her heart hurt, and looking at the stars she wondered, if he ever remembered her, if he ever forgave her... she could only hope


Her alarm was buzzing, and she was still lying there, not wanting to get out of be just yet, it wasn't like she had gotten any sleep, she kept tossing and turning all night thinking about him, filling her head with memories and regrets, it didn't seem healthy, but she couldn't help it, it always took time to block all those thoughts all together, but at least she'd have two weeks off from tomorrow, she'd get herself cry for a day or two and then everything would be better, she was about to get what she worked so hard for, what she wanted...

"Excellent, good job guys take five, um Rachel can you come here for a minute" she walked off the stage trying to get a believable smile on her face

"are you okay? I mean you seem... distracted, don't get me wrong your singing was flawless like always, but, should I worry?" she hated herself for allowing this to show

"I'm fine, I'm sorry, I just had a terrible night, I'll just grab some coffee and I'll be ready to go" she smiled trying to sound as convincing as she could

"I'll tell you what, just take the rest of the day off, the rehearsal is almost over anyway, just go home and rest, and I'll see you in two weeks" She didn't know what so say, a part of her wanted to stay and finish the day like any other day, but the other just wanted to go home and crawl to bed "Okay, Thank you" walking to her dressing room she felt a little defeated, but she needed to get some sleep, so she gathered her things and made her way out.

The mere touch of the fresh air, was enough to make her wake a little and be aware a little more of her surroundings, on her way to her little apartment she found herself in front of a big spectacular of the play, she stared at it and a genuine smile formed on her face, but she was still exhausted.

When she arrived to the apartment, dropped everything and crawled in to bed, she let herself cry, even though she wasn't sure why exactly she was crying, and she was too tired to even care, for the first time in a long time, she cried herself in to a deep sleep losing herself in dreams.


The ring of her phone knocked her out of bed, it was already dark, she had no clue how long she'd been sleeping, she picked up

"Where the hell are you?"

"Cam?"

"Who else would it be? Are you ok? You are NEVER late!"

"I'm really sorry, I was... tired, I overslept, but um I'll be there, give me 40 minutes"

"You better be here Rachel Berry"

She couldn't believe she forgot, Camila, Cam for short was her closest friend there, they've meet her first year at New York, at university accommodation, they were room mates, she was a quirky aspirant photographer, she always thought she was a lighter version of herself, everyone seemed to like her.

She had a big show tonight and now she was completely late for it, she jumped to the shower, and got herself together as fast as she could and got there in record time.

"You're here!" was the first thing she heard when she crossed the door

"I wouldn't miss it for the world" she was genuinely happy for her friend, and after a hug, she took a glass of wine and looked around, once again she was helping her through her pain without even knowing, one moment she was looking at the pretty photograph and the other she Cam walking to her with a guy next to her... she knew exactly her intentions, her attempts to run away were pointless

"Rachel, this is Kevin, Kevin this is Rachel Berry, look for her at Broadway she's going to be big!" before either of them knew Cam disappeared in the crowd.

She smiled, and he returned the smile, she was awkward, Cam insisted she needed some fun but she explained thousand of times before she didn't wanted the relationship drama, it was a lie of course a cover up, truth to be told, no one was tall, smart or interesting enough, at the end of the day no one was him, no one was her Finn.


So it's clear they still have feelings for each other... but what happened between them?