BPOV meeting her
We still had five more days before school starts but my nervous were having the best of me, I wasn't settled down yet, Alice and I were going furniture shopping but I wasn't in the best mood. Since dinner yesterday all that was in my mind was that I lost him forever. He had a girlfriend who loved him and he loved passionately. I couldn't compete to that, but I have to move on, for my own and everyone's good.
Alice told me to be ready at eight and it was just 5:30 am. I couldn't sleep so I decided to get ready and then make some breakfast. After my shower I put on some dark blue skinny jeans, a white tank top, a blue cardigan and some flip flops, I wanted to keep everything simple so I kept my hair down with loose curls. When I just finished breakfast I was surprised by a know on the door it was still pretty early so I didn't know who could it be.
When I open the door Edward walked in with the most gorgeous girl. She had a huge long reddish hair, make up all over her face, tall and a rocking body. Tanya. How could I compete to that?
"Hey Bella, I want you to meet my girlfriend Tanya. Tanya this is Bella, my childhood best friend" Edward said with a bright smile.
"Hi nice finally meet you. I've heard wonders about you" she said with the most hypocrite face ever. I could tell she didn't like me. If only she know that I was no one.
"Hey, me too. This one really loves you, huh. Your lucky" I said with a warm smile. it was the truth why deny it but I saw Edward cringe a little when I said it. What would that mean?
"So Bella, Alice told me you two were going furniture shopping so I thought maybe you could take Tanya as well. She needs some stuffs and she doesn't wants to go alone and I cant come" Edward said with a pleading face.
"Sure it would be nice to get to know her better. Come in Tanya we'll leave at eight." I said smiling at her.
He said thank you and said goodbye to her. When I saw him kissing her forehead and kissing her lips tenderly I turned around. I couldn't stand see the love of my life doing that to the woman he loved. I wished I was her, I wished he would love me the same way. All I could see coming from his eyes was unconditional love for her. He left leaving Tanya and me alone. I could hear Alice in the shower so this wasn't going to last long thanks God.
"Do you want something to eat Tanya?" I asked politely
"No thank you. Edward and I had breakfast at Denny's" she laughed.
"Oh, ok then. I'll be right back, feel yourself at home."I wanted to get out of there. I didn't know how to do it. I wanted to dislike her, to hate her, to find bad things about her. But she was good for him, something I could never be. I was plain Bella, the friend, the one on the left. I tried to put myself together I couldn't let myself cry.
The day end pretty fast. At first Alice wasn't happy with the idea about Tanya shopping with us but then she ignored it. Tanya acted a little bitchy but I guess it was because she was left out. Alice and I saw her talking weird with Mike, the blond guy who helped me the first day and they looked like pretty close friends. When we get home Edward picked her up. He didn't notice me where I was seated he just said hi to Alice and left. After dinner with Alice and Rose I went straight to my room to cry. This was the hardest thing I had to deal with. I needed to do something because I couldn't keep on crying every time.
EPOV
Yesterday when I saw Bella I was amazed. She was gorgeous. She sure changed a lot. But I couldn't keep on thinking about it. I had been in love with here since I know her but then we stopped talking to each other. I thought it was the best thing for both of us because maybe we weren't made for each other. She was too good for me, and when I found Tanya I felt whole again. Not seeing Bella was one of the most painful things that has ever happened to me and I was destroyed. But I moved on and surely she did.
I cant deny that I still had feelings for her, and think she is the most beautiful I've ever seen but Tanya was a great girl and I cared about her. Introducing them though was hard. Bella was totally ok with it. She didn't care and she thought I loved Tanya just exactly how I love her.
What's wrong with me? I have a girlfriend! I have to stop this. I sure as hell have to stop this. I won't talk too much with her just hi's and goodbye's. This is going to be hard but it has to work.
