First of all, I really want to thank all of you who read, reviewed or put this story on alert, I'm very happy you liked it despite its stupid plot. And I have to apologize for the horrible delay, it was supposed to be out last week but life when in the way. This part is more mature, so pure and innocent souls, stay away. It's kind of cheesy too, it can't be help, I'm a sugar-coat fluff addicted.
So this is the edited fully checked version! Woot to wonderful Perpetual who managed to do the beta despite her overfilfull life. Thanks again, girl, you're my savior!
And as I said before, one day, there will be a last part. Yeah, one day...
Her request was somehow innocent and Sousuke should have felt relieved; she didn't ask for more, but unfortunately, he was more stressed than ever. His body refused to obey and he couldn't move.
He remained with his back on the door and Kaname wondered if he really understood how serious her situation was.
The silence around them was unbearable, but neither could find a way to break it.
Kaname was a little afraid, but she was more in a hurry to have him touching her, and she couldn't think of a way to make him do something.
She felt as if she was on the verge of auto combustion and Sousuke only looked at her with that blank face of his, not showing any kind of emotion, as if he didn't feel anything at all.
It unnerved her, but what she didn't know was that, deep inside, he was dying. Doubts were eating away at his mind; part of him feared he wouldn't be able to do what she requested, and another part was afraid of not being able to stop once he started… of not being able to control himself.
He clenched and unclenched his fists in frustration. Kaname assumed he was trying to make up his mind on what he could do, but she failed to understand why he was vacillating so much. She had been quite explicit with her demands, so what was stopping him now?
Was he wondering if what she wanted him to do was right or wrong?
Whatever it was, as far as she was concerned, she wasn't known for her patience, and right now wasn't the best moment to find out if this was true. She needed her release and, as surely as the sun, she was going to get it!
Her whole body was screaming for a man's touch; her nerves were oversensitive. The heat inside her loins was practically unbearable, so if he didn't try something, she was going to jump him and get her way, whether he was willingly or not.
Without a word, Kaname untied the bow of her uniform and unbuttoned her shirt before taking a step to him.
She was shivering, but not from the cold, or because she was afraid. Only the power of lust was making her look so feverish, and when Sousuke saw her dark eyes full of desire, he wondered if those feelings were there because of him.
Of course, he knew it was a side effect of the pills she had taken, but nonetheless, he was quite enticed by the idea of being the one she had asked for help.
He didn't exactly know what he was supposed to do, or when he could start.
More than that, he was more preoccupied with losing the control he had established with years of rigorous training. He had always been indifferent to pornography, sex, and all the dirty and undignified conversations his fellow soldiers ever had in his presence, but despite all this, he wasn't immune to Kaname.
Worse still, he was still a teenager with raging hormones, so he was no exception to the ways lust taunted his body just like it did every male his age. However, he also grew up in a different world; a different culture where women were treasured and their innocence considered sacred, so he never dared to think of his charge in any sexual way. Kaname was under his responsibility thus he always assumed feeling any form of desire for her was completely unacceptable. Of course it was inappropriate, he always told himself. It was unprofessional, so at best, all he could really do was consider her a friend, a very close and dear one, but nothing more.
He just had no right to do otherwise; therefore, his sense of duty as a soldier and his moral as a man forbade him to fully grant her request.
One the other hand, maybe if he were able to limit his help with nothing more than a few touches, perhaps he could satiate her lust until the side effects wore off, and he wouldn't need to betray his ethics.
At least, that was his theory.
Unfortunately for him, just seeing Kaname with her shirt open made his blood boil. Whether he liked it or not, he couldn't deny her anything, sexual or not.
He felt the overwhelming pressure of adrenaline just by imagining what was going to come.
She hadn't been very demanding but it was more than enough to put his senses on fire.
"Touch me," she had requested.
Her words echoed in his head, and, even before he had a chance to decide, he found his charge cuddled in his arms.
His hands acted on their own volition and gripped her hips to mold her body even more to his.
Kaname's breath caught in her throat as she felt his hard chest rubbing against the soft curve of her breasts.
That simple action seemed to ease her lust but it didn't last.
Quite the contrary, the heat pulled in her belly and rushed throughout her whole being, making her quiver once more.
In a quiet whisper, she managed to breathe her plead in Sousuke's ear:
"Please, Sousuke, touch me."
She hadn't intended to sound that desperate and she was more than aware she was begging him, as opposed to ordering him, but her pride could be damned as long as she got what she wanted.
She rocked her hips in a very sensual way and brushed her thighs against his unconsciously.
Her breasts were heavy, her nipples were hard and painful and she knew only his touch could appease her.
His voice was low and a bit husky when he asked her: "What do you want? Tell me."
He'd do anything for her, but she had to guide him. He couldn't be the one who decided what was right or not; he didn't want to be responsible if he did something he wasn't supposed to. But more than that, he found the idea of following her every lead very appealing.
Kaname was surprised by his tone, far more seductive than his usual monotone one, but she wasn't sure if it was just her delirious brain messing with her.
She was so aroused she couldn't think properly, much less make a full sentence to explain Sousuke what she wanted him to do.
So, in order to obtain some kind of release without having to voice her fantasies or damaging even more her reputation, she turned around, maintaining full contact with him and she took his hands in hers.
Sousuke thought she was leading him somewhere else but he was completely wrong.
Kaname stayed still, her rear firmly pressed on his groin and she put his palms on her stomach and led them slowly to her chest.
She arched her back to get a better angle and more pressure, resting her head on Sousuke's shoulder while moving his hands.
She kept her eyes shut to avoid seeing his more than likely disapproving look on her behavior, but she could avoid the strangled moan that escaped her lips.
She loved how good it felt just to have him caressing her but it still wasn't enough.
Sousuke tried to stay calm and not focus on what she was making him do, but when she let go of his hands, he continued to stroke her, unable to stop.
She was soft and firm and hot. She kept whimpering… he couldn't help but to wonder what would be the next step. Part of him dreaded it and another part looked forward to it eagerly.
His hands moved up and down, his fingers lingering on her hipbone, each time lower. His hands then went up to her collarbone, where her shirt exposed her flesh.
His hands wandered briefly on her skin and Kaname felt a rush of desire blowing up in her mind.
She bit her lip hard and dug her nails into her palms in hopes of maintaining the last bits of sanity she had left.
He seemed to enjoy teasing her, but considering her condition, that wasn't exactly what Kaname had in mind.
"It's very considerate of you to think of foreplay, but right now, all I need is a good fuck, Sousuke. I thought I was quite explicit on the subject, so could you just… proceed? "
Kaname didn't know where she got the guts to be so crude, but even if she would die of embarrassment later, right now, it was precisely what she needed, so she would deal with it when the time came.
Sousuke remained silent, dumbstruck by her words before getting their meaning and sliding a hand under her skirt to get a grip on her thigh.
"I told you I was waiting for your instructions. So, I'm listening."
Neither of them wanted to actually take the initiative, but Kaname wasn't in the mood to play that game or to wait for him to make his move. He was teasing her on purpose with those fingers of his, itching on the lacy hem of her bra and the side of her butt.
"I have no experience in that kind of stuff, you see. But what I do know is if you continue this way, I will get really mad. So just go ahead and fuck me!"
She couldn't believe she had really said that. But it didn't stop her and she continued to show him her anger and frustration by turning around to face him as she spoke:
"It was you who offered to help, so deal with it! I told you what my problem was and still is, and you followed me here. It's too late to back down! So now, sergeant, do your job and complete the mission!"
And just like that, she gripped his jacket and pushed it off to unbutton his shirt quickly. Just when she reached for his belt, Sousuke took her wrists to stop her. He pinned her with his glare and spoke in that low tone that made her weak in the knees.
"I said I was here to help you and I will. But I have no experience with women, okay? And I really don't want to hurt you in any kind of way…"
His eyes softened when he whispered: "and I'm sorry, but I can't just fuck you, as you say."
He didn't want to admit it, not to himself and especially not to her, but he cared too much for her to just fuck her senseless because some stupid pills.
If they ever considered getting intimate one day, he wanted it to be for the right reasons, even if he had no idea what those reasons were.
But Kaname didn't wait for him to explain more. Even if he still held her hands, she took a step towards him and breathed a few inches from his face.
"Close your eyes."
She stood on her the tip of her toes to be at eye level with him and kissed him.
Sousuke dropped her wrists and snaked his arms around her waist to pull her closer.
Her kiss was enough to erase his fear, his doubts and all his inner conflicts. All mattered was Kaname and what she wanted.
The sensation of her lips finally made him realize just how aroused she was and how the fire burning in her body threatened to consume everything in her until her very soul was all that remained.
His hands slipped under her shirt, stroking her belly before he decided to unbutton it. He pushed it apart and relished in the softness of her skin.
His fingers wandered everywhere on the upper part of her body while his lips stayed firmly on hers.
Kaname moaned once more, arched into his touch and rolled her hips to rub her groin on his and when Sousuke cupped her left breast and let his thumb brush her nipple, she cried out and threw her head back, breaking their kiss to give him a better access to her chest.
Sousuke accepted her invitation and began to lick her neck, his tongue going down her throat before he nibbled her collarbone.
He continued his journey down the valley of her breasts, alternating kisses and licks and some teeth scrapping right up to her navel.
His hands moved down her arms and pulled down her bras' straps before taking her fingers in his.
He could feel the heat coming from her and he read the desire in her chocolate orbs, but he still needed some reassurance to really begin some serious business.
If they followed that path, they could never come back at what they were before.
Kaname understood his dilemma and nodded slowly to show him her consent.
Her eyes were glossy and they shined with lust, but something else, too… much deeper and more intense. He saw trust and fear, and need and shame, and all her contradictory feelings for him.
She wanted him and when she glanced at him, she saw in his dark eyes some kind of desire too.
"My room?" she whispered.
Sousuke nodded and followed her without letting go of her hand.
His heart was pounding in his chest and his blood seemed to boil but he refused to succumb to his fears.
It was too late now.
Kaname put her hands on him and he stopped thinking.
She pushed down his shirt, took off his wife-beater and snuggled to him before falling back on the mattress.
Her legs bent apart to allow him some room on her body and she rocked her pelvis while stroking his back. Sousuke could tell she had little control over what she was doing, that she was only letting her feelings guide her.
His skin, the way his muscles moved under her fingers, his smell, and the weight of his body on her… everything was perfect to her.
She needed him and needed to touch him. She kissed him as if her life depended on it and in a way, it did.
She bit slightly his lower lips before her tongue slipped in his mouth forcefully searching for his. The only sign showing she was not completely driven by her hormones was the tenderness of her touch and the small whimpers she allowed herself to let out when he caressed her.
She repeated his name like a prayer when his hands found their way up her thighs and she nearly begged for more.
Sousuke wanted to take his time, to explore her body with all the care he could manage, but Kaname couldn't wait anymore.
Her loins were aching, the heat pooled between her legs making her panties damp and sticky was unbearable, and the lust that ran through her veins was driving her insane.
She reached for his belt once more; her fingers followed the leather to the loop in order to remove his pants, but Sousuke drew back before she opened it.
He was more than a little embarrassed at letting her touch him there, even if his body screamed for it, so he rolled on his side to avoid her.
Kaname groaned at the loss and he quickly told her he was there for her and not the other way. It was a lame excuse but in her state of mind, she didn't care.
To distract her from her anger, he pushed her skirt up and reached for her underwear. Immediately Kaname bucked her hips and Sousuke tried to keep his mind focused and not to lose his control. It was not the time to ravish her, even if by the wet heat under his fingers, he could tell she'd whole heartily agree with the idea.
He only brushed her inner lips over the cotton but it was enough to make Kaname squirm and wriggle. She felt a wave of pleasure washed over her and she closed her eyes to relish it fully.
For the first time, she realized how ragged Sousuke's breath was, as if he was affected by her condition.
A ghost of a smile enlightened her face and she turned her head to kiss him slowly.
She needed him, but not in the same way as when they came into the apartment.
Now, it wasn't just her body that wanted him.
She was still horny but there was something more.
It wasn't just physical anymore.
It wasn't only for her, as he had said.
She wanted him, not just his body or his touch.
And so, she felt the need to make him see that she understood now.
Sousuke, for his part, was quite surprised by the desperation in her kiss, and it wasn't because it wasn't as hard and needy as the others. It was because it was sweet and sensual; the way she ran her hand through his hair was tender and kind.
She let her fingers wander on his back and on his torso while he continued his ministrations between her legs.
When she left his mouth to kiss his jaw, Sousuke pushed her panties aside and very slowly let his hand cup her sex.
He felt her nails digging in his shoulders and her teeth on his neck when he thrust between her inner lips but somehow; he found the pain enjoyable.
He loved listening to her small gasps when he circled his clitoris with his thumb or her throaty moans when he pushed deeper in her.
When Kaname reached for his belt this time, he didn't stop her.
He focused only on her, the rhythm of her hips guiding him perfectly.
He felt her inner muscles throb and clench around his fingers and he kissed her neck all the way up to her ear.
"Come for me," he whispered, stroking her with more force.
And she did.
She climaxed right then and there like she never did before. Her whole body was overwhelmed by the strong pleasure of her release… all she could do was lay in his arms, breathless and happy.
However, it wasn't long before she realized that the need in her loins was still there.
Her hand still on Sousuke, she opened up his pants and sought in his boxers with a mischievous smirk.
"I still want you, you know."
