Emotions get to me very easily, I let them take over. I wish I was that strong girl that I use to be, but I guess everyone just thinks I'm that strong girl behind my smile. My point exactly everyone thinks I'm so strong but little do they know is that I'm hurting so much inside. I know I'm a tough soldier but I guess I let every little thing get to me all at once.
I guess I could live a happy life if I let go of everything but it's too hard. I'm losing hope and my heart is slowly crushing. I let myself cry everyday even cry myself to sleep over everything. Even the little things get me upset and truthfully I don't know why. I guess all the doctors are right, I'm depressed and mentally messed up inside.
I guess feeling like this makes me want to isolate myself and just drown in a pool of emotions, listen to sad music, read quotes about life, drink tea and basically just feel empty. Maybe I feel like the people around me are trying to push me away but I get emotional in that way. I just need my friends to understand that I need them and they are very important to me. I just forget to mention it to them sometimes.
'It really hurts that we aren't friends anymore. We walk past each other in the hall, and it didn't use to be like that.' This quotes is like based on my life.
It will all get better one day
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