"NO!" I cried tears fell down my cheeks as i colapsed to the ground it pain i saw jacob walk in with a shocked look on his face he kept opening and closing his mouth no words i screamed in pain "GRACE!" i couldnt breath i looked up to see her body hanging i couldnt look at her dangaling like that so i undid the leather belt around her neck,jake catched her body as it fell and he laid her on the ground beside me.i put her head on my lap as i stoked her hair,my tears fell omto her cristal skin.i held her tight in my arms"im so sorry"
i cried "i love you" pain shot through my body this wasnt happening no it couldnt but the truth is it has and i felt like the shitest best friend.

i felt jacob try to move grace body but i pushed him away "dont touch her!" i shouted in pain i watched him back away and get out his phone.I memoried her feathers every freakle and every scar on her body and kissed her forehead with a frown on my sat down next to me but i didnt bother to look at him i was to upset.i wouldo of done anytihng to just hear her voice for the last time,no one unstands the pain i was in.

it felt like i sat their for hours when i heard a car pulled up "CARLA!"my dad roared it just made me cry even more.
i saw a group of men who where all shirtless and looked a little like my brother they started whispering to jake about something i look back down to grace it broke my heart "i love you Grace Lucy Garland your always be my little angle"i cried outloud i felt everyones eyes on me but i didnt in an eye blink my borthers friends where trying to more grace but i gripped her closer to me "no dont take her!"i cried "please i need to be with her!"i screaming with agony and fear as jacob picked me up and carried me away for her "NO NO NOOOO PLEASE!" i scramed as he carried me down the stairs i saw one of the boys give me a look of sorrow and closed her bedroom door.i started to kik and punch and scream. "LEAVER HER!" i screamed at the top of my lungs.

Jacob carried me down the stairs to the pourch where my dad was and moments later the ambulance rushed inside,i wanted to see my Grace just one for time."Put me down to want to see her now! i want to speak to her!" i cried "you cant carla"dad told me "yes i can let me go"i tried to wiggle out of his grip but he was to strong.i finally gave up and cried my eyes out.
Jacob put me down but as soon as i felt my feet hit the ground my legs gave way on my was i fell with a thud to the ground jacob came down to my level and wrapped his arms around me was i cried.i cried her me,i cried for grace,i cried for everyone.

i lookd up and saw the ambulance men carrying her body in a body bag i looked up and ran over to the bag wanting to see her face "I want to see her!" a small man patted my back while saying in a soft tone "you cant sweetheart shes on her way to heaven" "thats my grace" i whispered and let tears drown me.

i looked back at my dad in his wheel chair,my brother next to him and his friends all standing next to jake "what am i going to do?" i ask as tears fell like rain. "come to daddy"dad whispered but lound enough so i could hear him.i dragged my feet behind me,as i reacher the wheel chair i sat on my dads lap and curled up in a ball as dad stroked my hair as if i was a a word was said the only thing that people could hear was my cries.

i heard the thunder rummble across the la push sky as it started to rain "i think it would be best to head back to Billy's house and get sort everything out their"
said a husky man he looked older than all the other boys but tell attractive like the dad of their group.
"yeah i think thats a good idea" dad said looking down as me as he pressed a kiss in my hair.

Jacob lifted he of dads lap and held me untill we reached his red rabbit be built in the garage a couple of weeks ago.
the ride homw was silent i looked out the window watching the trees pass by and then my eyes looked at the sky and i thought that if grace was up their she was in peace.

as soon was i got home i ran to my room,got into Graces top she left and my house last weekend,i was a little on the big side but i was the way i like it the shirt came just above me knees and the blue material made me look like a ghost,my was was put into a lose side plat that went as the way down to my hips and my red eyes stood out the most.

i unlocked my door and walked into the living room to find everyone sitting down chatting but as soon as i walked in everyone went silent.i look at each and everyone to see nothing but looks of upset.

Graces face flashed into my head he beauty,her kindness,her bitchness and her came into my head like a wave had just hit me and the memores had so much force on me my legs started to shake."are you ok?"a boy said who i think was seth "no i feel like a part of me is missing"i stated dryly "i want Georgia" i said in a firm tone jacob looked at dad as if they where having a conversation in their heads "i dont think thats a good idea pricesess" dad relyed with "i didnt think Grace killing heself was a good idea but it hapened"

i heard one of the boys cough"i have to go on pa... i mean work" jake walked him to the door.
i walked into kitchen and sat at the table for a whole hour.
everyone was still in the living room i heard the frount door swing open but i didnt move "what the fuck is going on jacob i have a slut waiting to get fucked at my place"said a deep voice,istood up and walked into the living room to see Paul the man whore of la push and my brother in each others faces.i got angry that the man whore had been so rude in my houseso i snaped "i just watched my best friend hang herself thats what happened!"i bellowed.
He looked me straight in the eye and i felt like gravity moved me,i felt all the pain go for a couple of seconds he beautiful eyes looked at me as if i was his world,i felt like he was my cure.