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I forgot to put in a disclaimer last time, so I'm just going to put in one that counts for the whole fic.

I DO NOT OWN DEATH NOTE!! THE ONLY THING I DO OWN IS TSUKIA AND HER FAMILY!!!

This part starts off right after L dies. Don't worry, I didn't skip twenty five episodes, I'm just going to show what happens before this with flashbacks.

Enjoy! ^^

I stumbled into my bedroom, feeling like I was drunk.

Maybe I was drunk. That would explain why this all felt so unreal.

L was dead.

Kira finally killed him.

I shook my head, attempting to clear it.

No, it wasn't possible. L couldn't be dead.

You were there, dumbshit. A voice in my head told me. You saw him die.

No. It wasn't true. It was a lie. It had to be.

You just came home from his funeral.

I imagined it. L wasn't dead. He couldn't be dead.

Just face the facts. He is dead. Your in denial. And your also about to lose what little sanity you have left, seeing as your talking to yourself.

Shut up.

My arms hung limply at my sides.

Light Yagami.

He was Kira.

The bastard was going to die.

I'd do it myself, if I got the chance.

I walked over to my computer and turned it on, then flopped facedown on my bed.

I didn't cry.

I didn't think about anything.

I just layed there, listening to the noise of the old computer turning on.

I didn't care about the birds outside my window.

I didn't care about the sun shining.

I didn't care about the fact that I hadn't eaten in days.

I didn't care if everyone thought I was going insaine.

I didn't care if my brothers saw me like this.

Did I want to give up...?

No. Not until Light Yagami was dead.

Then I could lose myself. I wouldn't have to worry about anything anymore.

Maybe I'd be dead by the time this was over.

Heh. Like I ever worried about that...

There was a strange beeping noise coming from my computer. Slowly I lifted up my head.

The screen had turned entirley white with a black N in the middle.

"Deja vu... What the hell...?" I muttered, getting up and slowly walking over.

"Tsukia? Are you there? It's me, Near."

My eyes widened. "... Near...? What the hell...? How did you..."

"It wasn't that difficult. I already know where you live."

Even though he couldn't see me I smiled weakly. "... Yeah I guess your right."

He paused, most likley twisting a lock of his hair. "What's wrong? You sound depressed."

"Nothing's wrong." I said, trying to sound like my usual self. "I'm fine. Why have you contacted me? Is something wrong on your end?"

"No. I was just wondering if you had the time to drop by for a few days."

My eyes widened. "Go to Wammy's...?"

"I understand if you don't want to. It's perfectly okay with me if you stay back home with your brothers." In other words 'PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE I AM SO EFFING BORED I'M ABOUT TO KILL SOMEONE!!!!!'

"... Sure, Near. I'd love to." I smiled a real smile for the first time in a very long time.

"Good. I'll ask for someone to pick you up in... Three days? Then you can take a plane."

"Sounds good. I'll see you soon."

"Goodbye."

The screen went back to normal. I sighed and turned around.

I couldn't break down. People depended on me too much for that. It would be selfish to let go of who I am because of one thing. I was needed. And as long as that fact remained I had to get a grip.

I was lucky Near had called when he did.

I sat on the plane, doodling absentmindedly on a scrap of paper. Planes are boring, and after screaming "THERE'S SOMETHING ON THE WING!!!!" five plus times people started to ignore you.

And shoot you the occasional dirty look.

How rude.

After I scribbled random chibi's of people I know onto the page and running out of room, I put the scrap in my pocket and leaned back against the seat.

Closing my eyes I vividly remembered the last twenty four hours.

"TSUKIAAAA!!!!" My younger brother, Shatei sobbed, latching onto my arm. "DON'T GOOOOO!!!"

I sighed, trying to shake him off before I lost all feeling in that limb. "It's not like I'm running away and joining the circus..." I muttered.

My older brother, Jikei, watched, an amused look on his face.

"Don't just stand there!! Do something!!"

"Okay." He patted the top of his head and rubbed his stomach. "There. I did something."

"I hate you."

Amazingly I'm actuially the mature one in our family. Jikei is a lazy ass and Shatei seriously needs to lay off the sugar.

Though I swear Jikei was enjoying this.

"Listen, I'm just going to Wammy's for a little while! I'm not gonna move back!"

"TAKE ME WITH YOU!!" He squeezed tighter.

"NO!" Jikei and I both said at the same time. The last time Shatei went to visit me at Wammy's he stole Mello's chocolate, who, naturally wasn't pleased.

So he hotwired a car.

And tried to run Shatei over with it.

He still has the scars to prove it too.

After about ten minutes of struggling, Jikei finally broke down and pulled Shatei off of me.

I glared, rubbing my arm, trying to get the circulation back.

"Took you long enough."

"It was entertaining."

I was about to make a very rude gesture when Shatei elbowed me in the side.

"Damn it! What is with people hurting my spleen?!"

"Your friend's here."

I turned around. Standing about ten feet away, most likley enjoying my pain, was Light Yagami.

"Jikei, Shatei, can you go and get my things from the house?" I said, keeping my voice even and emotionless.

"But I don't want-"

"I'll buy you something, okay?!" I said, irritably.

He nodded and followed Jikei into the house.

"I heard you were leaving." Light said. "I guess I was right."

Oh, yeah, just keep up the act, eh, pretty boy? I can see right through you.

"Yes, but it's only for a few days. I'm just visiting some friends. In the meantime..."

I took a few steps closer. "I would seriously appreciate it if you looked after my brothers for me. They're all I have, you know."

He nodded. "Of course I will."

Juuuuussst keep playing the nice guy... Damn I really want to punch him...

"Because... You know If something happens to either of them... Even if it's not your fault... If Jikei kills himself... Or if Shatei suddenly drops dead..." I smiled plesantly at him. "I'm going to blame you for it. And I'll kill you."

He looked confused. "Are you implying that you think that I'm Kira? Because I'm not-"

"Thats exactly what I'm implying, pretty boy."

He was about to respond when Jikei and Shatei walked out of the house dragging two giant suitcases.

"What the hell do you put in these things?! Rocks?!" Shatei complained.

"Yes, Shatei, I packed two cases full of rocks just so I could watch you drag them around."

He muttered something that probally wasn't complimenting my sarcastic skills.

We waited for half an hour, Jikei trying to start a conversation that lasted more than thirty seconds. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Light throw me a look once or twice. I ignored him, grinning. He was nervous. Good. He should be.

Eventually a large limoish black car pulled up.

Shiny. I approve.

I put my bags in the trunk and hopped in before Shatei could start begging to come with me again.

There was ac inside and a bunch of other random shit that my thirty second attention span passed over.

Even though the windows were tinted I waved anyways.

My brothers, as if they could see inside, waved back. For a second I saw Light throw me a hate-filled glare, then the expression was wiped off his face.

The ride to the airport went... Normally. I didn't even break anything. Though that was probally because I was to nervous to cause trouble.

My mind kept coming up with ways that this could go wrong.

The plane could crash.

I could get hit by a car.

It could be a trap set by Kira/Light to kill me.

I took a deep breath. Nothing bad was going to happen.

The plane wasn't going to crash.

I wasn't going to get hit by a car.

And it wasn't a trap. Kira/Light didn't know my real name. And even if he did, he doesn't know if I was merley baiting him so he would kill me and expose himself as Kira or if I was just being cautious.

I guess thinking of stuff like that was in my nature. Yay for morbidness.

At the airport things got.... A little complicated.

"Your up next, Miss." The scary security guard told me, motioning towrds the metal detector thing.

"Ookay..." I walked through. It beeped.

"Er..."

"Please remove all metal things on your person." He said in a bored monotone.

I took off my belt, my boots and my necklace. Not wanting the security guard to get even more pissed (I swear he was looking at me like he was going to eat me) I quickly walked through the arch.

It beeped.

"Please remove all metal things on your person." The guard repeated.

"Okay, okay..."

Sheesh... He sounds like a broken record... And why the hell do people say 'your person'?! Why can't they just say take off all metal or get tazed?!

I emptied out the contents of my pockets, and took off the chains on my pants.

I walked through.

Guess what?

It fucking beeped.

"Please remove-"

"All metal things on my person, yeah, yeah. I know."

I looked around for something else that was metal. There was nothing.

"Yeeaah... I think the machine's broken."

He glared at me and pressed a button on his belt.

Three huge guys walked over and surrounded me.

"Umm..." Tsukia you really know how to let your mouth get you in trouble...

One of them grabbed my jacket. "HEY!!!" I screamed. "I CAN SUE YOU FOR THAT!!! YOU WENT IN MY PERSONAL BUBBLE!!"

Ignoring my protests he stuck his hand in one of the pockets and pulled out something small. "Try now."

I snatched my jacket back and walked through the arch, waiting for the unholy beeping to start.

It didn't.

"What did you take out...?"

He opened his hand. In it there was a shiny gum wrapper.

I stared. A GUM WRAPPER?!

It's official.

I hate this...

...They are extremley lucky there's no juicy fruit around...

After demanding multiple bags of peanuts (I was hungry, and the food resembled something Shatei fed his pet bunny. The poor thing died three hours later.) and scaring the crap out of the other passengers (A hobby of mine.) the plane landed and I got off.

After wandering around for an hour, getting glared at by the people who were on my plane and eating a bag of peanuts I was greeted by a man who asked me if I was in fact "Miss Tsukia."

"Er... How did you know...?"

"I was told to look for the girl with blue hair that no one seemed to like very much."

I sighed. "Yep. I'm Tsukia."

Damn albino...

I sat in the car, staring out the window.

I'll admit, I was nervous.

"We're almost there."

... Make that on the verge of making a run for it.

Shitshitshitshitshitshitshit.....

Usually I didn't care what people thought of me, but this was different. These were people I could actually stand to be in a room with for more than three minutes.

Er... Friends...?

Yeah. Let's go with that.

"Ummm..."

"It's called Wammy's house. It's an orphanage for children with exeptionally high intelligence levels. Think of it as a boarding school." Jikei said.

I looked at him. It had only been a few weeks since the fire.

"You're sending me away...?" I asked. My voice was perfectly calm, but inside I was reading the hidden meaning behind his words.

We didn't have enough money to support a family of three.

So he was sending me somewhere he didn't have to worry about me. Somewhere he knew I would be taken care of.

"Well yes... It's only for a little while..."

"You've taken this harder than any of us. I think it would be better for you to get some rest."

"I see... Well if thats what you think is best..."

"I'm fine! Damn it! I don't want to leave! Please. If it's really that bad I'll get a job. I'll figure this out. Please, just don't split us up!! Shatei needs me... He's too young..."

"Thank you for understanding."

"Your hurt, Tsukia. You need time to heal. I'll look after Shatei."

A week later I stood in front of the gates leading to Wammy's house.

Just as I did right now.

I took a deep breath and pushed open the gates.