Monday. Day one.

Dear diary, thank you for being here when nobody seems to understand me. These days I was blind, I couldn`t make any movement. I felt no fear of anything, I was immune to everything. Butterflies in my stomach turned into massive bats. Everything seemed to spin around every time I made a step. You could have said I was drunk. I was another person, a person who I didn't use to know before that time, a person who I didn`t even recognize. For those who don`t know me, I'm Lucy, a simple girl who used to have a simple life, to write fictions and dream about the day she would get to find the right guy and live her perfect own love story. I was just an ordinary girl, I listened to music a lot, because it was the only one that could understand and describe my feelings, I was that "momma's girl", using to go shopping and have a lot of fun with my friends and so on.. Until I met him! He changed my life completely, he transformed me in something else and now I had to discover the new me, to know that person who took the place of the old Lucy. With him I was feeling like the whole world was going to stop and stare for a while, I felt I was powerful and optimistic.

OK, now I`m gonna tell you about what happened after that night. It was my first day at school after a long weekend. I couldn`t get why the fuck I decided to go there? I was late. I came in the classroom and everybody was staring at me. I was looking at them like an idiot. The teacher's frowned face was scaring me. I didn`t understand anything. What the hell am I looking for here? OMG, I felt a horrible pain in my head then I sat down on my chair before I said a faded "Sorry for being late." All day long I was dreaming about Harry, I was absent, my classmates were asking me what happened to me but I didn't answer. Why for the God's sake does HE have to be so incredible and irresistible? I was a woman now..but, in fact, I didn`t even know who I really was anymore. I also didn`t care.. I felt so good. A mixture of anger, happiness and lust was tingling my sensation was flooding my entire body. I could still feel his hands touching me, his lips pressing mine, his hot breaths hitting my neck even now. I couldn`t focus on anything, my mind was far, far away from here. I didn`t just realized I had a message on my iphone. I thought it was my mom. Obviously she had to be worried and really angry because I didn`t sleep home last night. I decided not to open it, I was not in the mood. After 10 minutes another one came up on my display. I made up my mind and opened it. When I saw it, my hands were trembling, my heart rate was getting higher and I could hardly breathe. It was from…