From now and on the story will be told from the first face, Kate. Love you

Damon told the truth. I am actually I was a bad girl. I mean inside i am who i am but people see me differently. It depends not on me but on them. Everyone sees what they want to see. It works with every person in the world. But never mind, i'm not that depressed.

It was a week when i tried to be liked by everyone, well not really tried, i just acted normal. I am fun. Indeed.

Parties at Tyler's house with shots were the most awesome ones. I didn't pretend to have fun here, i just did. Yes, Stefan was there, but apparently my little lovely Elena was falling for him and it wasn't really fair since she was the one who didn't want to date somebody, so i took my chance and started flirting with Stefan. Don't mishjudge me or him. Everyone gets what they deserve. So true.

-Stefan, i'm terribly sorry, but i'm a bit drunk and i got something in my eye. Could you have a look? Maybe it's a bad thing there. I can't see.

-Yes, sure, but let's get somewhere with more light.

-Outside?

-Yeah. just hold my hand so you don't fall

-not with you. you're very protective you know.

-I try to be. here, let me see...No, i don't see anything wrong

And there i kissed him. Yes, it was me who did it. But our time is complicated. You can't always wait for a knight in shining armour. And like in typical romcoms Elena saw us kissing and with a dissapointment in her eyes she ran away. Luckily i was drunk. Didn't care much.

That time Stefan was kissing my neck which was weird because i definitely felt his teeth, but it was so good. Like with Damon. No, not like that. Because this time was real. I like someone and apparently someone likes me back. Super good.

-"beep" "beep" "beep" - thank you my phone that you ring always at the right moments. ALWAYS

-Sorry, i probably should take it.

-Yes, of course. Don't worry.

-Hello?

-Just hello? What is with your greeting? what about hello- best- person -all -over- the- world- where- are- you-i-miss-u-much greeting?

-I'm busy Damon

-Damon? Stefan asked. -Really, Kate? Give me your phone. - i passed him my cellphone

-Damon?

-Stefan? So did you two make out?

-What the hell? What are you doing talking to Kate? She did nothing. Don't touch her because of me

-Who said anything about you? The world center is not always about you, my brother. Just remember even if she's with you now, doesn't mean that i am not her only love.

-What? love? Are you insane? You have to leave me, leave Kate, this town and get your life. I don't want to hear anything about you or your Katherine's obsessions. Got it? Good bye. - he was very furious

-Kate, how the hell do u know Damon?

It was my time to make some excuses. - Well, you know, NYC and stuff. People meet.

-Right. Of course. NYC. Though Damon has never been to New York. That's for sure.

-How do you know it? How do you know Damon - that's more important?

-He's my brother.

-Your brother? Like for real?

-Yeap. like for real - he laughed.

It was huge. So many thoughts, angry ones.

-I think i have to go home. I am tired and it was probably too many shots.

-Yeah,sure. But can we meet tomorrow maybe?

-Of course. I'd love to. oh shit...I've got auditions tomorrow.

-Auditions?

-It was kinda my secret. Don't tell anyone. I want to try something new and there are auditions into the local choir club. I think it can be fun. You know kind of small town fun.

-that's great. I really think so.

-Really? Maybe you could come with me and after we could do something else together?

-Sounds perfect. I'm in.

-U are?

-Of course! I will gladly be there for you.

Any girl would die for Stefan. And so would I. And i hate Damon now. So, it's obvious. ha.

As i entered my room, there was Damon in m window.

-What are you doing here? - i sighed

-I want to talk to you.

-Ok, come in. But i warn you: I HA-TE YOU!

-Don't care.

-Fine. what's up? wanna tell me Stefan is your brother?

-That's you know. Just stay away from him. He's not that good for you.

-And who is?

-Me. But that's not the issue. I know we can't be together. Just don't be with Stefan.

-We can't? why?

-Because we are not destined to be. We are from different universes, and if our path is crossed now doesn't mean we will be together forever.

-Just go. I don't want to see you anymore.

-Stop it. I mean stop dating Stefan, it's not you right now. It's the pale and grey version of bright and powerful Kate. You could be with anybody. superheroes are the only persons i would approve, not the good one of courses.

-Are you high?

-Stop saying bullshit. I'm serious. I don't want you to change. You are beautiful who you are. How can i prove it?

-Stop saying things like we can't be together forever. Damon, you know i'll die without you. I need you like air. This time when i haven't seen you for a long time i was like a dead body. I can't lose you. there, i said it. Now go, please. I am embarassed enough.

and then he hugged me very tight. i couldn't breathe. i didn't need to. I had him. I blinked and he disappeared.

Again. Like i don't suffer.

Stefan and me came to the music hall an hour earlier. He said i should get used to the place. Meet it. I started to like Stefan. Actually i didn't talk to anyone except him. And yeah, Damon. and nobody else. I didn't need anyone except them. Even Elena. I didn't tell anyone at home where i was going to go. I just escaped.

-There. I met the place. What's next?- I questioned Stefan

-You have to make it like you. Can you do it?

-I guess. Hi,hall.I am kate. and I'm adorable. Please, like me. - i yelled to nowhere.

-I think you did a great job. -he said.

-Thank you. i tried to. - it was excellent. And then he kissed me

-Sing to me something.

-I don't know what song. What about something very sweet?

-Yeah, totally.

But there i saw a bunch of people who entered the place with a laugh and smiles on their faces.

-You should come and say hi. - Stefan said - You may need their votes. Though i don't know maybe there are not any votes.

-You're right. Let's come.

-no,it's your thing. Go alone.

-Sure. Stand there.

I came to these strangers who wore yellow berets and weird shoes.

-Hi. I am Kate. I am here to try out. I'm new so i am probably early, right?

-Indeed. But don't even try. We don't care who you are or what you do. We just judge. We don't meet people. got it?

-I was just being friendly. And i advice you do the same or something bad can happen. I mean it. No one of your little dwarves can hepl you when you meet Kate Gilbert. Don't you dare to pretend you're a powerful bitch, you just created a small town choir club. Yeah, that's an achievement. You should be proud of yourself, because that's the only thing you're capable of. And if you still have the doubts of my ability to sing, so here i am. - i said getting on the stage. I came to the band and whispered something in their ears. They nodded.

Anf here i am, singing Girl on fire, performing by miss Keys.

Of course it was fabulous. Nobody can beat me, especially when I'm on fire. And while i was singing, i noticed somebody looked really like Damon. It couldn't be him, i didn't tell hime about auditions,but it was him. He came.

"Everybody stands, as she goes by
Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes
Watch her when she's lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she's a lonely girl
And it's a lonely world
But she gon' let it burn, baby, burn, baby"