So this was originally a one shot but since people have been wanting another take on this, well, here you go guys!
Omniscient POv
What else could go wrong? Jayma thought as she walked down to her trailer. The whole summer vacation she hadn't made any effort to contact Matt. Hoping that by doing so, the small flame she had for the man, but as soon as she was walking to her trailer and she saw Matt, everything came flooding back to her. Her heart fluttered as he gave her that lopsided smile he always reserved for her. She ran as she came back to reality, that this wasn't supposed to be happening.
She had a good summer in bath in the United Kingdom. Here in-laws were very welcoming and she really enjoyed their stay there. It also really helped her from getting away with media. But one thing she had known was that Matt had a kissing scene in his Broadway debut. As she scanned their photos the night before, she couldn't help but feel jealous, unknown tears were falling from her eyes in which she immediately regretted. She was not in a place to be jealous of this co-star of his. After all, she not only rejected and ignored him but she had also made him cry and made no effort of comforting him whatsoever.
Matt had been sending Jayma letters of love for a mere 3 months. He wasn't willing to give up on her that easily. True love only comes once and you'll regret letting it run away from you. 2 months in, he knew that Jayma was trying to ignore him, but he hadn't gave up that easily, hoping that even if she didn't reply that she knew how much he loves her and that he'll wait till she's ready.
But this morning was a blur to him. He had gave her one of his signature lopsided smiles and she bit her lower lip in a flirtatious way. What was she doing playing games with him? But he was flustered at the thought of Jayma doing it. Her look was stuck to his head. It was hte day they were all going to meet again. As this was their photoshoot promotional session for Season 2. He was looking forward to this day
He hurried to Jayma's trailer knowing that they weren't due on the photo set until about 30 minutes from the moment. Matt had two cups of freshly brewed latte that he is going to offer to her.
He knocked on the door, hoping that she was kind enough to answer. Jayma slowly opened the door, her hair still tied up in a messy bun, her hair still a bit curly for the normal "Emma Pillsbury"
"Jay, I wanted to give you this." Matt says handing her the grande sized cup.
"Thank you. Um do you need anything else?" She asks concerned.
"I wanted us to talk." Matt simply said.
He swore he heard her murmur "Oh God." under her breath but he decided to leave it in the air.
"Jayma? So?" Matt snapped his fingers across her shocked face.
"Come in." She says stepping inside and closing the door.
He makes his way inside, it's a cozy little trailer, her things neatly packed on one side and a hug couch on the other. She sits down and motions for him to do so as well.
"So, it's our first day. Yay!" She exclaims in an "Emma" like manner.
"You know that's not what I want to talk about Jay. I know you've been receiving my emails." Matt says looking at her and grabbing her hands. Rubbing the softly. He loved the feel of her skin, it was so soft, angel-like.
"Matt." She says shyly. He continues his ministrations until he feels her wedding ring. He jerks and pulls away. Jayma looks at him confused, but she gasps at the realization. He felt her wedding ring.
"Jay, I just love you so much." He says truthfully.
"You know I can't Matt. Why are you doing this? Spending all this time telling me your feelings, all this time chasing after me?" Jayma asks keeping her tears at bay.
"Because I love you. You and only you Jayma. You know that." He always told her that through his emails. Always.
"I want you to move on Matt. We only bonded for who knows how many months. I know it's going to be hard at first." Jayma cups Matt's cheek so he would look at her. "Matt, I want you to be happy. You're my best friend. I don't want to see you this miserable. I don't want you to be jealous whenever I go home to someone else. We both know that we can't-"
"Can't what Jayma?! Can't be together?! Can't?!"
"I'm married. You're a good guy. I know that. That's what I love about you."
"I'm willing to wait. A day with you is like a life time spent with anyone else." He says closing his eyes and leaning on Jayma's shoulder. She tried to shrug him away, but she knew that she had to comfort him.
"Matt, please don't cry."
"Why not?! What do you do when the only woman you ever loved is unfortunately married?" He cries harder. At this point Jayma was speechless. Not knowing what to do. She wished she could be "Emma Pillsbury" at this moment who could comfort him. Help him. "I just want to be with you. Spend the rest of my life with you."
"I promised that t someone else. And that's one thing I couldn't break." She looks down and Matt pulls away from her. "Look at me Jayma. Do you really want to spend your life with him?"
Jayma nods. "Yes." she whispers. "I want to spend the rest of my life with him but you're making it so hard." Now it was her turn to cry. It was true, if she hadn't met Matt here in Glee again then she would be happily married to Adam, to which she still is, but there was a part of her that wanted to run away into Matt's arms. "Do me a favor and let me be happy with him." She whispers.
"That's one thing I can't do. Would you let the person you love just run away from you that easily if you know that they also have feelings for you?"
"The thing is I don't love you Matt." Jayma closed her eyes and turned away from him. I don't love you Matt. It echoed on both of their heads. Jayma couldn't believe what she had just said. Once she did, she regret it immediately.
"How could you possibly lie to me? I know that you do Jayma. I saw you mouth it to me." Matt insisted.
"Okay let's say I do love you. But I love my husband too. I wouldn't just let go of him that easily. He's been with me for three years Matt. I can't let all those go to waste. I love you but we have to sacrifice." She says looking back at him. She puts her hands on his shoulders and guides him back to her shoulders."That doesn't matter. I just want you to move on Matt. Find someone else. You're a good guy and who wouldn't fall in love with you?" She adds.
"They would but I won't. You've ruined every girl out there. I don't think I'l find anyone who can at least be half you."
"Well, I'm telling you that I'm not perfect! And I'm telling you that you have to because I will never be yours okay Matt?! Do you understand that?! I will never be yours!" Jayma shouts standing up.
"We could keep it down low. Jayma we could, we could. I know it's going to be hard but we could be together." Matt says standing up and taking her hands in his. "For once let's forget about him." He grabs her wedding ring and throws it aside. "For once let it be all about the two of us." He cups her cheeks and leans in closer to kiss her. Jayma bites her lip and pulls away.
"We can't. I can't do this." She looks at him, he was still stuck in his love daze. He leans in to kiss her again. But once again she pulls away.
"It's going to be worth it. I promise you. Just one kiss Jayma. One kiss and maybe you'll give us a try."
"One kiss and I'm leaving." She swears.
"Why are you trying to get away from me?" He asks.
"Why wouldn't I? I'm married and you're asking me to have an affair with you." She slumps back to her couch. "Do you know how wrong that is?"
"It's not wrong we're in love." Matt says. He steps nearer to her. "We're in love." He repeats. This time cupping her cheek and kissing her passionately. Jayma was shocked but she gave in sooner or later. Kissing him back. He was really a good kisser. She pulled away when her phone had vibrated. She stood up and went to the other side of the trailer.
She felt extremely guilty when she saw who it was. It was Adam, her loving husband who didn't know a wink about what she was just doing. Kissing Matt. She answered it.
"Adam?" She asked curiously. "Yeah... I'l see you later at dinner." she giggles. "Of course Adam..." She grins widely. "I love you so so so so so so so so so much!" she says. she giggle awkwardly at her phone when she puts it down and Matt looks at her dumbstruck.
"I-uhm." She honestly, really forgot he was there.
"Yeah, he's your husband, I shouldn't be jealous. Maybe this us thing won't work after all." Matt smiles her way and breathe's deeply. He puts his hand on the door knob.
"Matt, don't leave. You come here and kiss me and take my ring off and you tell me that we won't work." She goes to his back. "What's happened to Matt? Did you eat him?" She asks jokingly. She hugs his waist from his back. He turns back at her. He pushes a few strands of red hair out of her face.
"You're beautiful. I want you to be happy, even if that happiness isn't going to come from me." He smiled awkwardly.
"So you honestly think that I'll be happier without you?" She smiles weakly.
"Yes, you were smiling and giggling and just look at you, your face brightened by just the sound of his voice. Your three years in a marriage and there's no sign of anger towards each other. I've never seen you happier in that 2 minutes. I've never seen you as happy as when you spend hours with me."
"You don't know how sad I was when I saw you having a kissing scene with some other girl on Broadway." Jayma pouts.
"What did you do to Jayma!?" He looks at her. Jayma bites her lower lip. "The kiss did change you. I told you so."
"Well then. Shut up and kiss me!" She smirks. Leaning her head so that she could kiss him. "I love you. I love you. I love you."
"You don't know how long I've waited for you to say that." Matt grins sitting on the couch and letting her sit on his lap. "Ten minutes." He whispers.
"What?!" Jayma asks confused.
"Ten minutes till we have to go to the photo shoot."
"Damn that."
After they were done with the shoots for today, Jayma had rushed to her trailer. Adam was taking her out tonight so she had to get ready. She quickly changed into some more appropriate clothes and packed her things when she heard a knock on the door.
"Wait a minute Adam, I'm not yet done packing!" She shouts. In thought that it was her husband.
"It's me." Matt says in a low tone.
Jayma rushes to the door. "Uhm Sorry it's just I didn't expect you here." She looks down.
"No need to say sorry. I just wanted to give you this." He says handing her a box.
"You don't have to. I-This is too much." Jayma says coyly.
"Come on I bought it already! Pleas Jayma, accept this for all the stress I've given to you." Matt says.
"Okay." She sighs and opens the box. There was a necklace that says JM she smiles.
"I thought it wouldn't be too obvious since JM also stands for Jayma Mays. But for us, it can be Jayma Matt or Jayma Morrison." He winks at her. "If you know what I mean."
"Hm I think I prefer the latter. But Jayma Mays would be a good excuse." She says wearing it. "I'm so sorry to put you in all this Matt. I know that in some point you would want to give up on me." She looks down.
"We will have our moments. Oh, would you agree if I ask you to come to my pace for dinner?" He asks.
"Matt, this doesn't change the fact that I'm married. I'm sorry but I promised Adam we would go out for dinner tonight." She says shyly, looking down and not wanting him to get angry at her.
"I'm sorry for asking. Well, I guess I better go now." He says without waiting for Jayma's reply he walks away.
They finally did have the chance to love each other. What they didn't know is that if it would last. Jayma was still happily and legally married to Adam and she had no intention of breaking his heart. She was very confused of her feelings now. Just like Emma's feelings towards Carl and Will. She didn't know what to do. But being with Matt makes her very happy and she just couldn't think of losing him. Or having him as just a friend. But there was Adam, the man she loved three years before and still continues to. She can't just forget about her feelings for him because of Matt. Though there was more for Matt, she still didn't want to loose Adam as her husband. Everything was just a blur.
Matt was happy to have finally persuaded Jayma to this relationship. He knew it isn't right. But what could be right? Allowing someone to just slip away from you? He loves her and she loves him back. He couldn't help but feel jealous of Adam, how he can hold Jayma at night. How he could see her wake up and fall asleep. How they could live in one roof. How he can take her to dinner whenever he wanted to. It was frustrating to love someone who already belonged to someone else. But if this was the only chance he got, then he'll take it. That's how much in love he is with this woman. He doesn't know if their relationship will last, but he knew he could conquer all their hardships as long as they're together, fighting for the love they think they deserve
