I'm redoing this chapter. I didn't like the way it was done the first time and I added some things that I feel should have been there.


Kendall sobbed into his porcelain hands. His mother rubbed his hands up and down her son's back as he sobbed into his own lap, his body shaking from the impact of the sobs wrenching threw his body.

"Don't cry daddy!" Ari cried, trying to pull Kendall's head up, Kendall yanked himself away from her not able to deal with his daughter at the moment.

Nathaniel picked the little girl up and he and Gabriel brought her so they could play with her in her room.

Kendall sobbed into his knees once again,his fingers twisting into his hair,almost as if he was going to pull it right out or something.

"Sweetheart,please calm down honey,everything will be okay." His mother tried to assure him.

"No it wont! Logan's gonna leave again! He already did!" Kendall sobbed.

"He just got mad sweetheart. You both did. He probably just went to go let out some steam." Joanna insisted.

"No. He doesn't want me anymore or the babies. He's never coming back." Kendall wailed helplessly.

"Logan would never do that to you again,Kendall. He loves you. You love him. You too are getting married and having more babies, you'll move into a bigger house and have more kids, grow old together in a beach in Cape Cod,and live happily ever after." Lacey insisted.

"No. He wants me and the babies to die."

"Kendall dont be ridiculous. Logan would never want that to happen." John said, rubbing a hand up and down Kendall's back as he continued to sob loudly.

They were all interrupted by the front door opening and Issac and Jordon walking into the room, arms littered with goosebumps and foreheads covered with cold sweat, they shook there heads at the un asked question all there eyes gave them.

"He's not here. We looked everywhere. On the staircases, the roof, all the other floors, the lobby." Jordon told them.

"He's car is gone. He's not here guys. He left." Issac finished for Jordon.

Kendall started to sob harder. He really was gone. He had left. He probably went to go find a new girlfriend or boyfriend,or some random bitch to fuck so he could get away from Kendall. Fuck. Why, why did he have to be such a fucking idiot? Why did he have to be such a hormonel pregnant man?


Why was Kendall so frustrating? Logan slammed his fists onto the steering wheel of his car. He slammed his fist against the horn and the empty parking lot he was parked in was filled with the obnoxious noise of the car horn.

Logan rested his head against the steering wheel, growling under his breath darkly.

He couldn't help but be upset. Well maybe he could. He knew that Kendall was more emotional and sensitive now and Logan shouldn't have been so careless when talking to the little blonde.

Sometimes he wished he could be better. He knew. He knew. He knew. Knew that Kendall was different now. Knew that for two or so more weeks until he had the babies he would be grouchy. And even after that, they wouldn't be getting a lot of sleep. So both of them would be in a bad mood.

It would take a while but soon everything would be better. He knew it would be. It had to be. But even if it didn't get better, Logan would never leave. He loved his daughters and Kendall way to much.

Because there love didn't come from there attitudes,or there bad moods. Love came from that feeling. That feeling you get when you look into someone's eyes and you just know, know that there your one and only,and your their one and only and no matter what you would always be together.

That was what true love was.

And that's how he felt when he looked at Kendall.


Kendall let out a quiet sob into the pillow on the couch in the living room in the dark. He had to be quiet. Must be quiet. Ariana was sleeping finally it had taken forever to get her to sleep after she had seen Logan leave. Kendall knew why. How could he not?

She had been abandoned by Logan before. They both had. Or so it had always felt like to them.

They couldn't live without Logan,and they both knew that. Kendall knew that with all his heart. Ariana knew it to,even if she was a little three year old girl.

Logan was not only their provider, he was his lover, her father. He was what they needed. What they wanted. What they loved.

And just the very thought of having to live without him was murdering them.

Kendall knew what it felt like to lose Logan. It was the most, terrible, horrible feeling he had ever been threw in his entire life,and he never wanted Ariana to have to feel the same way he had.

And he didn't want his babies to feel what Ariana had. To be brought into the world without a second parent to have,to love them.

That would always affect her and Kendall knew it. The first few years of a child's life were the most important, and even if Ariana didn't remember Logan not being there, there would always, always be a part of her that would feel it.

Kendall was laying down on the couch in the living room, his head on Logan's pillow and there blanket wrapped around his body, his green eyes were locked onto the front door.

Waiting,Waiting,Waiting.

Waiting for Logan to come in the door. Waiting for Logan to let him apologize. Waiting for god to give him some god damn slack and give Logan back to him.

Kendall let out another quiet sob as he heard a soft,hesitant knock on the door, Kendall threw the blanket off of himself and ran towards the door.

Logan stood on the other side of the door, his eyes were bright red and his cheeks tear stained,his usually spiky hair was flat and sweaty on his head and he had goose bumps running up and down his arms and it was only then that Kendall realized it was chilly outside and Logan had nothing but a dark blue V neck on. Kendall looked down at the blondes hands to see one filled with a bag and the other holding a banquet of roses.

"Logie..." Kendall muttered sadly, he knew he must have looked just as bad,perhaps even worse then his fiancee did. His eyes were burning with salty tears and he could tell were bright red, and his cheeks were tear stained, his hair messed up and his big pregnant belly was swollen and looked even bigger in the moonlight.

"Can I come in?" Logan said softly.

Kendall nodded and took Logan's outstretched hand, bringing to the brunet into the living room, the two sat on the couch in the living room, Kendall pulling his blanket around him looking at Logan with wide green eyes, Logan put the plastic bag on the floor and offered Kendall the roses in his hand which he gladly took.

"Thank you Logie." Kendall whispered laying them down on the coffee table.

"I'm sorry I hit you." Logan whispered,tears falling from his eyes.

"Logie you didn't hit me. I hit you. Its my fault." Kendall insisted,slowly moving closer to the brunet, Logan opened his arms and Kendall slowly moved into his lap,cuddling into his strong chest.

"I pushed you. I could have knocked you over,and hurt you,or the girls. I could have killed seventy five percent of my family right then. In a single moment. Just because I was mad." Logan whispered, tears falling into Kendall's hair softly.

"Don't cry Logie. Please dont cry. Or I'll cry more." Kendall begged as Logan began to rub his hands up and down Kendall's swollen belly tenderly.

"I dont ever wanna hurt you,or Ariana,or the babies,but I always fuck up one way or another." Logan whispered, his eyes clamping shut as his face twisted in pain.

"Baby,Logie,no no baby no, I- Its okay Logie, e-everyone makes mistakes." Kendall insisted,littering kisses all over Logan's neck and his face.

Logan shook his head. "I'm always making mistakes. I'm fucking this up,I'm fucking that up. I fuck up all the time,everyday over something or other."

"No your not,Logan. Everyone makes there mistakes. I do. You do. Even Ariana,she's three years old and she fucks up too. Logie,you make life easier for me everyday. Your amazing. You go to school and work all day long, come home at five,work your ass off to help me with Ari til nine or whenever she decides to shut up and close her eyes. You move furniture for me, put this whole apartment together, save your money for your family, you cook and clean when I'm to tired to,you shop for this family and you provide for this family and your amazing,Logie." Kendall finished,kissing at Logan's neck softly.

Logan ran his fingers threw Kendall's hair.

"How come your so perfect?" Logan wondered.

"Perfect? Logie I'm far from perfect." Kendall laughed. "Though I do find it sweet that you would say that. If anyone was perfect Logie,it would be you,you silly man,not me." He giggled,kissing the brunet's nose, Logan swiped his butt playfully.

"Your absurd,darling." Logan smiled, before kissing the blond softly.

Kendall broke away and rested his forehead to Logan's.

"I'm sorry we fought. I dont like fighting with you." Kendall told him softly, resting his head on Logan's shoulder.

"Me too. Besides, you always win,what the hell is the use of fighting?" Logan asked.

"Its the thought that counts. Its cute that you think you can win." Kendall giggled happily.

"Yeah,yeah,whatever. I'll win one day."

"Sure you will Logie. But there is still one thing that's bothering me..." Kendall trailed off.

"What?"

"Where the fuck was Carlos and James with the fucking pizza?"


So I re-did this chapter because I felt that it was missing a few things and before I uploaded it the first time I knew I didn't really like it,so I decided to take it down and re do it...what did you all think of this version? Like it better then the first?

Lots Of Love,

Sarah