Still Here

He awoke with tears on his cheeks. It took several moments for him to recognize the satin drapes around his bed. He gave a shuddering sigh, brushing his tears, his weakness, away. Turning to the pale man resting cheek against his broad chest, slender form tucked against his lover's body, Sinbad sighed. A callused hand stroked the soft hair. Ja'far murmured in his sleep, nuzzling into the touch. At that moment, the king's consort appeared as defenseless and fragile as a newborn.

There was a potent pain that flashed through his chest. Turning onto his side, Sinbad wrapped his arms around the sleeping official, inhaling the scent of his skin, relishing the pure solidity of his existence. A dream… No. a nightmare.

It had been terrifyingly real: the cold body in his arms, the hot blood. The burning rage and soul-destroying anguish. He had felt his hope slip away, the last of his sanity vanishing. Why maintain the balance, then? He had been willing, in that moment, to give up everything to the darkness within him, to allow the golden rukh within him to be consumed by black. He had been about to curse his fate, curse it for giving him love, light, and joy, and tearing it away before his eyes.

Tears once again threatened, and Sin bit his lip hard enough to split the skin, holding his lover closer just to feel the warm pulse that rang against his naked body when they touched. His own frantic heartbeat began to calm as reality settled over his thoughts. The Lord of the Seven Seas gave a low chuckle that was almost a sob.

Ja'far opened his eyes, shimmering like pale jewels behind mussed bangs. "What's wrong, Sin?" He reached up and touched his lover's face, white fingertips coming away stained with rose-petals. "You're bleeding." Lightly he kissed his king, licking the blood from his skin. And then he placed his hands on either side of Sinbad's face. "Sin. Look at me. Meet my eyes."

Sinbad hesitated, brow creased.

"Sin." He couldn't help but look, and he felt again that pain when he saw the concern on the pale man's face. "Please."

"Ja'far…" he took one of those slender hands in his own, kissing the palm tenderly. "It's nothing. It was just a dream."

"Tell me."

"It was nothing," Sinbad repeated, but his consort glared. He shook his head, violet locks falling freely down his back as they escaped the remnants of order that had survived the night. "I…" he trailed off unable to continue.

Ja'far pulled back the hand that his king still held, taking Sin's hand with it, and returned the kiss. "It's alright." His voice was calm, soothing. "Tell me. I'm listening."

A shuddering breath, and then another. He closed his eyes. "I dreamed you were dead," he whispered. And then he waited, eyes still closed, wondering if Ja'far would laugh. He wasn't sure if he could stand that; the terror had been so real… and so was the pain.

Something touched his forehead, and he felt warm breath against his face. The hand that his consort held was placed against a smooth chest. "Do you feel that, Sin?" Sinbad opened his eyes, and his beautiful lover smiled at him. "Can you feel it?" he asked again. "My heart, and my breath. I'm alive. I'm still here."

The king nodded, feeling tears escape the barrier he had set for himself. He wrapped his strong arms around his consort and allowed them to find their way down his cheeks as he rested his face between Ja'far's neck and shoulder. "You might die if you stay with me," he murmured. "Whether Al Thamen, or another country's vessel-wielder, or a stray arrow. You could be killed at any time, standing beside me. Ja'far…" he clutched the delicate form against him, feeling the fragility of his partner, imagining how easily this life could be lost. I don't want to lose you.

"This isn't like you, Sin." Gently, the official removed his lover's hands, once again holding the king's gaze with his own. "You're stronger than this. Don't allow yourself to use me as an excuse to give up that strength. Do you understand? I am still here." His eyes were fires of light in the dim room. As morning whispered through the curtains, highlighting their entwined bodies, that fire seemed to be given by heaven. "I am beside you, Sin. I'm not going to die."

"I'll protect you," Sinbad growled desperately, feeling a hint of his usual determination returning.

Ja'far gave that thin, knowing smile. "And I'll protect you." He pulled his golden-skinned lover into him, wrapping his arms around the still slightly trembling king. "Remember, Sin," he whispered into the amethyst locks, "When everything is done… I'll still be here."

No matter what you become.

THANKS TO THE READERS

Big thanks to all of you who favorited, followed, and reviewed. Thanks to you, the Sinja romance will continue.

So here's how it's going to go: This is NOT one of my weekly-update stories, so don't spam me (you know what I mean if you read the MESSAGE FOR READERS on Broken Shackles). I will update if I get a great idea, but otherwise will only write a new chapter if I get multiple requests to do so. I'm sorry to do this to you guys, but with everything going on in my life and the multiple stories I have going, I really won't make myself make the time unless you all make me make myself make the time.

... that made sense?

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