A/N: Hey, guys. A new update with a different settings. This story was set around 2015 after Radio Garden was finish. Where our precious Jolks a little bit lonely from not meeting each other for a couple weeks. Hahaha... The settings will be changes in the next several chp... Hope you all enjoyed it. And... lastly don't forget to review. Bye2x


"Today is a valentine... You know what it supposed to mean,right?"

"Eh? Is there anything we should do in valentine day?"

"You don't know?! How about giving out chocolate to someone you like? Have you heard it before?"

"I see... Than give me a chocolate~"

"Eeeh?! Why me?"

"'Cos I want to hehehehe"

"Hahahaha..."


It's have been several days after the end of the radio program, she still remember how sad they are when they just finished their recording and how sad her partner is that she need to be with her for while to make her calm. She didn't mind it all because for her she is just more than a friend and kouhai to her as she look her as someone precious to her. So, when Nanjolno suddenly reminiscent her memory from several months ago in her dream she just knew something must be going on with Kussun because it's been several days since she saw Kussun. She then waking up from her bed looking at her phone and little bit annoyed as she got up early than she expected it. She just got slept in 2 am after playing around for several hours and she was hoping to get a good rest today especially when she knew her schedule a little late than it used to be but suddenly her plan is totally ruined now because she didn't expect to having that kind of dream early in the morning that wake her up from her peaceful slumber. "W-wha...?"

'Wow... That's the first time. I dreaming about her. I mean just literally... If you can say my own reminiscent as a dream. But, still that's kind weird. Did... Did I do or maybe said something that make her hurt? Argh! I can't remember it! That's been a long time. Hah...I really need to see her'. She than reaching out for her iphone, she then scrolling down the screen until find a certain name and she dialed the number with some hesitation.

"Hai, Kussun. It's me...Nan-chan", said Nanjolno a little bit nervous.

"Nan-chan?! H-how are you?", suddenly a familiar voice can be heard from the other end. It's looks nervous but in the same time she happy hearing Nanjolno voice.

"Fine. How about you? Are you okay? ...You didn't get any flu, are you?",tease Nanjolno.

"I'm not! Mou, Nan-chan you meanie"

"Sorry... Do you have plan this weekend? Can we meet for a while? If you're not busy! But... If you have a work that day I'm don't mind it. Well... I don't want to enforcing you to meet me, however there is I -", Nanjolno stop her sentence as she hear a mumbling from the other side.

"..."

"Kussun?"

"I...I don't have a work in Saturday...And I kinda miss you... You know after our radio end we never have seeing each other... Anymore...", said Kussun a little bit sad.

"So...This Saturday?"

"Hm"

"I'll sent you an email later for our meeting place. And... You don't have to worry this time will be much better compare to our previous meeting", said Nanjolno proudly.

"I'll waiting for it. Bye"

"Bye"

It's was a simple call between friends. But somehow it feels differently as she can feel her heart begin beating faster just hearing Kussun melodious and sweet voice. She can't stop to think about their meeting in Saturday; how fun their conversation will be and how many interesting story they will be share in couples of weeks. Nanjolno than fell to her bed; she clutching on her t-shirt as her heart still beating on faster every time she thinks on Kussun. 'I can't wait to see her. Kussun... Oh no... My mind can't stop thinking on her, I maybe should go now. Before my mind starting to betrayed me...' Nanjolno then stand up from her bed into her bathroom and she then decide to take a quick bath. After she finished dressed up and drying her hair own Nanjolno then walking out from her own apartment to a nearest coffee shop; she then order her usual coffee and looking through her memo once again as she preparing for today recording session.

Among all those important memo she have there is one piece of note that take her interest; she then take this note and look at the content carefully. It was an encouragement letter for her from her beloved her friends to always be strong and never giving up. They also said that they will be waiting for her to return to her position even it will takes times because her place is just belong for her alone. No one else can replace her in this small group. Seeing this heartwarming words makes her eyes became teary until she found a small note in the corner of this letter from a certain woman who became her partner for a while and suddenly appeared in her dream this morning.

P.S. Stop pushing yourself to hard, okay? We know you doesn't like to disappointed everyone else. The staff. The members. Even our fans. All of us know how hard you are to recover from you injury. Even me. But if you end up become worse than before I will put you in your room for weeks. Without your precious game. You better remember that, senpai~ From Kussun

"Hmm... I said no senpai among us. How could you forget about this? ... Kussun...", as she caressing the note very dearly. Suddenly her phone begin buzzing off. She then take the phone without looking at the caller.

"Hello?"

"Nanchan~ I-I just asked my manager right now. T-to make sure... about my day off. And he said I was free this Saturday. So...this Saturday, right? I'll waiting for your email. Bye~ Ah, almost forgot! Don't overwork yourself or I'll going call you senpai until you became tired with it. Hehehe~", said Kussun.

"Got it... I'll be careful starting right now. So... I can came back in the same stage with you"

"I'm waiting. Bye, Nanchan"

"Bye... Senpai... Kouhai... Can we be more than that? Or it was something destined for... us"


After their radio program end, both her and Kussun didn't have any chances to going out together again as used to especially when both of them have so much work to do like promoting their own album or doing other anime project beside Love Live that makes them have a tight schedule. She doesn't know why she dreaming about her old conversation with Kussun in the middle of February; she remembered that time they have a recording about valentine day. 'Hmm. Everything seems fine that day so why I'm dreaming about this? Argh. This doesn't make sense at all. Could it this is some kind of sign that my friendship with her will be... Turned worse?' Nanjolno looks so confused and begin to thinking negative regarding her relationship with Kussun. She begin to rummaging her hair into a mess as she trying to forget her negativity. She taking sigh as her hand fell down from her head into the sink. "I hope that's not true..."

Seven months has been passed since Nanjolno and Kussun discussing about valentine days in their radio program, as other recordings they have been done that day feels same, everything they doing in that day is quite same like other weeks the slight differences is in Kussun behavior where she not as focused as she used to be. Nanjolno still remember how she looking at her that time, a mesmerizing eyes with a hint of hurt and guilty in the same time. All she knew is that Kussun is hiding something important from her and whatever it is she don't have a courage to discuss it even among the members or herself ;who she always go talked to if she having troubles; but lately they are not close as they used to be even though both of them always be pretending to be close within each other in front of their fans.

Nanjolno realizing a shift of changes in Kussun behavior after they have just done recording their radio program four months ago; is it because of the topics that happen that day or could be she said something bad to her but she didn't realize. Whatever the reason is Nanjolno want to know, so without thinking much further she called Kussun and asked her to meet her a week ago. Where she suddenly wake up by one of their conversation in February. So when the time comes Nanjolno already go to the meeting place after finishing her weekly radio program. Inside a cafe not to far from the local radio station, it can be seen two woman where busy chatting with each other, they were Nanjolno and Kussun who is having a secret meeting between the two of them.

"Hey, Kussun. How are you today?", Nanjolno started a conversation with her kouhai in front of her.

"Hm? ...hehehe, I'm fine. Are you okay 'cos you already asked this question before?", response Kussun as she smile sweetly to Nanjolno silliness.

"Ah... That's right. Sorry", Nanjolno look a little bit embarrassed. She look very nervous as this is their first meet up after their radio program ended.

"No problem.", Kussun didn't mind the awkwardness in her senpai as she closed her eyes while enjoying a cup of tea in front of her.

"Haaah... What is wrong with me? It's just Kussun. Not a stranger I just meet for the first time. Calm down, Yoshino. You can do this", as she letting out a sigh.

"So... What is it?", asked Kussun

"E-eh..."

"It's so unusual for Nan... Nanjo-san to asking me out. Usually, it was me who always asking you for a dinner or some couple of coffee when we recording our radio program together. But... you. Out of sudden calling me after we didn't see each other for seven months. I-Is there something you want to discuss with... me?", asked Kussun with her formal tone.

"Eh?"

Nanjolno raise her head, in her faced it can be seen how surprised she is hearing Kussun calling her name with so much formality. 'Nanjo-san? What's happen with Nan-chan? Isn't that what she used to call me? So, why she suddenly call me... Nanjo-san...'. Feeling sad as the person who is been sharing her difficulty with her and become a special person in heart suddenly calling her name with such formality and cautiousness as she was a stranger to her. She keeps her head down when her vision begin blurry with her own tears; she keep strong for this whole conversation but hearing Kussun unfriendly respond just make it realize that Kussun never think the same way as her. 'All this time... I just a stranger to her? Than... All of it... Was nothing but a lie...'

Nanjolno finally understand the reason why Kussun keeps her distance away from her. It's because she been hated her for several months but she keeps this issue with her because she didn't want everyone else beside herself worried or concern regarding her relationship with Nanjolno. Nanjolno knew how stubborn Kussun is so she never pushed her unless she really wants to talk about it until now. If Kussun really hate her and doesn't want to she her again she can understand it and accept every decision she make because she was nothing but a senpai who working in the same job field like her. Who watching at her growth and letting her go when she mature enough.

'That's right. I must letting her go now... I can't keep helping her like this. She have a bright future in front her. I-I must letting her go...' Tears begin falling down from Nanjolno eyes. She didn't understand why something like this affecting her so much; somehow it feels really hurt like something crushing her heart when she heard every words that coming from Kussun mouth who thought her as a hindrance. She can't keep her forever beside her as what they showing to their fans was nothing but a fan service. She should know about this than anyone else. As she already know it from the start; the time where this project ended it will be the same goes with her relationship with Kussun.

"Hahahaha... It seems I can't fool you. Actually, I... Want to asked something, it has been concerning me for a while. Are...you...mad at me?", Nanjolno raise her head smiling as tears trailing in her cheek.

"..."

"Kussun. Said something... please..."

"..."

"Did I said something to make you feel uncomfortable? I-if I did that... please tell me... Kussun, I-I begging. Say something... sob...sob...sob...I-I..."

"You never said anything to make me mad at you. It just... I feel hurt every time I watching you..."

"H-hurt? Me...W-what are you talking about, Kussun?"

Kussun didn't say anything, she just sit there watching her senpai quietly. "A...", before she can finish her words Nanjolno standing up abruptly from her sit and taking her stuff with her. She then leaving her alone in there before glancing at her for the last time, "I'll go now. The longer I stayed in here the more I realized how hated you are with me. It seems my existence just a disturbance for you, so before it takes worse I will leave now. And I'm sure this will be our last conversation outside our jobs. Bye" Hatred. Sadness. Betrayal. That's what can be seen in Nanjolno face. She maybe very serious when it comes to her work; but when you became close with her you will see different side of her that she never show it in front of everyone else unless to someone she considered special for her.

So, when Kussun saw her furious faces, without she realizing a tear rolling down from her eyes into her cheek leaving a small trace. She doesn't want to her relationship with Nanjolno turn out like this especially how close they have been in these couples of months, she doesn't know what trigger her to said those all words but now she begin regret everything she said just now. "Is this what it feels like when you lose someone dear to you? Feeling broken into a little pieces that can't be fixed no matter how hard you try fix it. Why...why...I did that to her. To Nan-chan." Kussun can only regretting everything what she done to Nanjolno as Nanjolno's back became farther and farther away from her reach.

Sound of bell can be heard, Kussun quickly raised her head and saw her beloved senpai start to leaving the cafe as those protective back begin to walk away farther from the cafe she currently in. The more distance between her and Nanjolno, the more tears flowing in as she knows the person she care so much will not return to her even though how hard she is trying to apologize to her because she just betrayed her; not just only her trust but also her place as someone she consider special. Kussun realized the mistake she did a couple minutes ago can't be fixed easily but she never once in her lifetime feeling regret to meet with such wonderful and amazing person who always give her support and courage whenever she feelings down; so when Nanjolno said those words to her she can only watched her quietly as there is one question that keep bugging her mind. 'What Nan-chan means to me? A friend? Or more than that?'.

She's been asking the same question for several months but until now she can't find the right answer to that question; she knows deep inside she really like Nanjolno company and just seeing her face or heard her voice alone makes her safe and secure in the same time. However, Kussun doesn't know the true meaning of these feeling she have right now. Sometimes she thinks it just a loneliness feeling when she didn't meet or see Nanjolno for several weeks or jealousy feelings towards Rippi especially whenever Nanjolno talks or mention about her. She knew that Nanjolno always nice towards peoples around her including her however she doesn't like it when someone to close with her; seeing her close with someone else makes her heart itching and hurt in the same time. She always wondered way she acts like this but she knows the reason now, it because she see her more than senpai or friend. But all this times she always keeping away all those feelings because she don't want her friendship with Nanjolno turn sour from her uncertainty regarding her own feelings and that's the reason why she choose to let it go her own feeling even though it makes her hurt more than before.

"N...nan-chan...don't go...please", as she stands up from her sit and stretching out her hand to reach Nanjolno back. And before her hand can reach Nanjolno's back she stop it; as she doesn't have a courage to saw those tears coming from those caring eyes.

"Fool. This is what I got from my curiosity... A heartbroken. Haaah, I guess spending with her a lot didn't get much. It seem she never see me as important as I am", said Nanjolno as she looked back to the cafe. Inside the cafe she saw Kussun sad look; even though she was far away from Kussun she can saw a trail of tears in her cheek. 'Why? Why are youcrying for me? Don't you hate me, Kussun? Haaaah... I'm really the worse even though she hates me she still thinking about my own feelings. You really need to stop it... Kussun' though Nanjolno as she glanced back to cafe and start walking away from there.

"Nan-chan..."

"Halo? Ah, Shika-chan. Hahahaha. That's okay. I'm just finished with my recording session. Hm? Have a coffee? With you? Sure, why not. You didn't invite Rippi with you? Well... She going to jealous with me if I'm going with her precious Shika-chan. Hahahahaha. I'm just messing with you. I will see you later. Bye" teasing Nanjolno as she end her phone call with Shikaco.

"Guess... I'll going to meet with Shika-chan now. Maybe meeting with her can make me forget about Kussun" said Nanjolno to herself.


"What?! Kussun said that to you that's unbelievable"

"Actually... She didn't explain much about her words. But... Just seeing her reaction is enough for me. She... She really hate me"

"You don't know for sure. She maybe have her own reason why she didn't give answer for your question. Whatever the reason is she is the only who knows it"

"Hm hm hm. What Rippi said just now is right"

"Thanks. By the way, didn't you said to me it's just going to be the two of us. So... Why Rippi here?" asked Nanjolno with her playful tone.

"Aaa..." hear Nanjolno statement makes Shikaco looks nervous out of sudden.

"Shika-chan...so you doesn't like me in here? Then I'll go before I'm disturbing both of you. Sorry, for wasting your time. Bye" said Rippi angry as begin leaving from the table.

"Rippi, wait for me! I'm gonna pay for this! You heard that!" Yelled Shikaco from across the room as she following Rippi from behind.

"Hahahaha. I'll waiting for it!", reply Nanjolno with her usual playfulness.

The time goes by as night came down in the city, Nanjolno who just finished with her practice for her live event can be seen walking out from the studio to nearest train station as she decided to finish her day a little bit early than she used too. She was supposed to meet with Satoshi-san this evening to discussing next material for fripside latest single after she finished with her practice but she canceled it because she didn't have a mood anymore to talk about work especially after she having a fight with Kussun. After she gets down from her train Nanjolno go to nearest convenience store to buy something for her dinner, she didn't buy much just a couple of instant noodles with some beers to ease up her feelings. She begin walking down the street as the rain begin pouring down out of sudden.

The rain begin pouring at her body but she didn't do anything, she just stand there as she watch the dark sky that begin pitying at her. Suddenly tear begin streaming down from her eyes into her cheek leaving a small trail in her already drenched cheek. Nanjolno never expect the supposedly her reunion with Kussun after seven months can be like this. She regretting everything that happen just now. Those harsh words that she said to her. She was really upset that time after hearing Kussun answer and without she notice all those words coming through from her mouth. And now she can only regretting everything she had done. "Why? Why... I'm saying those thing to her? I-I... didn't mean it. I-I don't want this to be last... Kussun... I'm sorry..."