A pained expression fell across his face, and I immediatly regreted asking.
"Forgive me, I just... was curious... for lack of a better word..."
I couldn't stand seeing him hurt anymore.
" I don't want to hurt you either Soloas, I care for you a great deal regardless of what happened. I don't want to add to that sadness behind your eyes.."
I leaned in towards him, staring into his eyes.
" You.. can see the pain of others ? "
He gave me a puzzled look and I smiled at him,
" Only yours.."
I leaned back into my couch and shut my eyes as Solas finished his glass and made a face. I laughed,
" Terrible isn't it? This is what happens when we let Cassandra pick our tavern staff haha, but at least it gets the job done!"
I poured him another glass. He hadn't spoken much, and was clearly thinking something but he seemed... lighter than before and it made me happy. I wasn't sure what to say to him at this point. Sure, I was hurt but so what? I just want to ease his pain. If only just a little bit. I felt so shut out. I sighed and downed the rest of my bottle
" ugh" Dizzyness had began to set in, and it looked like Solas had already finished another glass.
"Y-you know Solas, you could talk to me too"
Shit,
I didn't want to be this wasted yet...
" I...am unsure what to say at this point. "
"Drink more, it helps" I laughed and just handed him the bottle this time.
By this point the sun outside had set. After he took the bottle, somewhat unwillingly, I tugged on his arm again motioning towards the balcony. He followed and I began to fall forward. I awaited the cold embrace of the stone floor, but instead was greeted by his warm arms and chest. His embrace sent me in bliss...
" This can't end... not yet. " I thought
" You really shouldn't drink quite so much" He helped me steady myself , and I couldn't bring myself to feign anything for attention. It just wasn't me.
"Can you stand alright?"
I sighed and nodded.
" I wanted to show you the stars... The view from here is like nothing I've ever seen, and I wanted to share it with you..." I leaned on the railing and looked at the beautiful sky before me. The slight breeze felt good on my flushed face, and my hair seemed to flow gently with it. Solas leaned over and looked up at the sky with me.
" You know Solas.. ever since this all began everything just feels like a dream. I've never seen the world in such a way, being Dalish and all..."
A happy memory hit me and I began laughing,
"Remember when I first put on that gown for the Winter Palace? I was so infuriated with all the fabric everywhere I had to get Josephine to come help!" I laughed some more and a smile drew across Soloas's face.
"You never cease to amaze me vh- Aliah"
I was so out of it at this point I didn't catch him almost call me vhenan, so I just giggled in response.
"Feeling better I assume?" I grinned turning towards him, proping myself upon the ledge, one leg dangling while the other supported me. He gave me a smile and nodded.
"Surprisingly so. I had expected something else when you first invited me up here and you just continue to prove me wrong. " He shook his head, smile still on his face.
"I don't think ..." I watched the sadnedd return to his eyes.
"Solas..." I pressed my hand against his face.
" I am so sorry I am hurting you... I just... I want to see you happy.."
His hand ran over mine and he pressed into it.
" I can't keep taking you away from the world like this..."
I smiled at him and leaned forward,
"To be fair I took you away this time" He took my arm and pulled me up against him.
"You, are the only thing in this bizzare world that feels real to me vhenan. I never anticipated that you would be the amazing creature that you are, and I never anticipated falling in love with you.. I am unsure... how to continue at this point. " He said holding me close. Being pressed againt him like this I could feel his heart beating against mine. My face grew hotter as he drew his face closer to mine, and our breath clashed. We became lost in each other at that moment, and nothing else existed.