Remus
Remus, James and Peter returned to the common room after dinner, Remus went upstairs to their dormitory but Sirius was nowhere to be found.
»Where is he? «, he asked after coming down again and joining his friends on the sofa, looking at James.
»Don't look at me. How should I know? «, James replied aggressively.
»Well, « Remus began, ignoring his friend's bad mood, » He's your best friend and you usually do everything together. «
»Best friend, yeah…well I don't know where he is and I don't care. «
»Geez, did you two have a fight or something? «
»No. «, James answered even more aggressively.
»I'll take that as a yes then. «, Remus mumbled and was just about to ask what had happened when the portrait hole opened and Sirius came in, followed by tall, blonde guy Remus didn't know. They seemed to say good-bye to each other, for Sirius went then to his friends while the other boy watched him go, with a slight smile on his face.
»Who's that? «, James asked, nodding in the direction of the blonde and Sirius looked at his friend, frowning. »Why do you care? «.
»I don't. «. And with that James got up and walked to their dormitory, Remus sighed.
»Honestly, can you just talk about it, whatever it is? You two act as if you were in the middle of some huge marriage crisis. «, Peter let out a small laugher due to that little joke but soon stopped when he met Sirius' look that would have made a Dementor back off. Without any further words Sirius turned around and followed James upstairs.
Those two, Remus thought, they have been acting very strange the whole day.
He did notice that they have snuck out of their beds nearly every night for the last two weeks and of course he wondered what they were up to. He couldn't remember anytime where James and Sirius ever had a serious fight, of course there was a tiff once or twice, stupid things mostly and a day later or so they laughed about it, but this time? They hardly spoke to each other the whole day and when they did it was rarely more than a few words and always in a distant kind of way. Something must have happened last night. It was strange indeed, James and Sirius were inseparable since their very first day at Hogwarts. Remus remembered as if it had been yesterday. The excitement, the fear, the joy, it was still there.
The four of them had become friends very quickly and it had gotten harder and harder for Remus to keep his secret, well, a secret. He constantly had to make up new lies about his absence and of course James Potter and Sirius Black would find out the truth eventually.
It was during their second year, Remus had just returned from the Hospital Wing to their dormitory and his three friends had already been waiting for him.
»There you are Remus. How's your mum? «, James had asked.
My mum? Remus had forgotten which excuse he had used this time, but apparently his mum was 'ill'.
»Oh, she's better, I think…«
»Is she, now? Was she ill? «,
»Nothing serious - «
»Weren't you supposed to be on a funeral? Of your aunt I think, or was it his godfather? Do you remember Sirius? «, he had turned to Sirius who had grinned,
»Not really James, no. Of course it is always possible that the funeral had been last month…«
»Or the month before that. «, James had finished the sentence and Remus had felt three pairs of eyes staring at him.
»Yeah, you know, it's kind of difficult to keep track with where you go off to - «
»Every month - «
»At full moon. «, Sirius had said.
»What? I…er…I…«, he had been lost for words which made Sirius only grin more,
»We kind of know, Remus. «
»Know? Know what? «, it was hopeless, that he had known, but maybe, he had thought, maybe they've got it wrong. Maybe they don't know.
»About your…furry little problem. «, James had said and Remus heart had sunk somewhere near his feet.
That's it. He had thought. His friends had watched him very closely, waiting for a reaction. »Look, guys…«, Remus had begun. »I will talk to Dumbledore, okay? You won't have to spend one more night with me in the same room, I promise. Just don't - «.
But James had interrupted, »Whoa. What are you talking about? Do you know what he is talking about? «, he had asked Sirius, who had shaken his head, »Not a clue, James. «, and Remus hadn't either, »What? What are you talking about? «.
Sirius had sighed, »Remus, this is us, telling you, that we don't care. We don't have a problem with it. «.
Remus had blinked, »You – you don't? «, he really couldn't believe it.
»No we don't. You're a werewolf, so what? Not everyone's perfect. «, James had said.
»Exactly, James right. We're friends remember? You'd have to try harder to get rid of us. « and then he had smiled his 'I'm Sirius Black and I'm gorgeous' – smile, which he had perfected by then already.
»I – I don't know what to say. «, Remus had told them truthfully, that might have been the best and happiest moment in his entire life. James too had given him a big smile, »You don't have to say anything except, maybe, that we are the amazing, although that wouldn't be any news. «. Remus had laughed, that is true, he had thought, but still…
»You're not gonna tell anyone, are you? I mean - «
»You're disappointing me. We might not be as brainy as you are but we are not stupid either, are we Peter? «, Sirius had asked Peter, that had been silent until then, »Yes we are…I mean, no we're not…I mean - «,
»I think, what Peter is trying to tell you Remus, is that we will of course not tell anybody. « James had said and after that they had played a party of Wizard's Chess and the topic had not come up, until the next full moon.
Dwelling on those memories now, it seemed even sadder that James and Sirius were not speaking to each other. I looked down on my watch. It's been half an hour now, since the two of them had gone upstairs, if there was anything to sort out they must have done that by now and if they haven',t then there was nothing to sort out. Remus got up, told Peter that he too would go to bed now and went upstairs but waited a heartbeat or two before he actually opened the door to their dormitory, everything seemed quite and peaceful, maybe that was a good sign, maybe not. When he had finally entered the room, James and Sirius sat on James' bed and red a book together like nothing has ever happened. »Hey, Remus. «, they greeted their friend without looking up from the book.
Remus blinked, really, he thought, those two…
