Sakura's P.O.V


My curtains were closed, so nothing but darkness filled my room. I laid in bed with my middle and index finger pressed against my lips. I could still feel his lips intertwined with mine. My body felt weird. I couldn't even begin to explain the feeling that overcame me. I'm so confused.

My heart was in overwhelming pain. Were old feelings starting to surface again? I've tried to convince myself that I didn't love anymore. That I wasn't in love with him anymore, but this happened. Right as I thought I gotten rid of this unbearable emotions, they come rushing back like a bullet through the heart.

How am I going to face him again after what happened? How am I going to face him again knowing I still love him? I need a sign or something. Someone please help me. Kami-sama, please help.

My bedroom door opened up and a thin line of light flashed into eyes. My eyes squinted instantly from the burning light.

"Salad?" I inched myself up.

"Mom, you're still in bed? Get up. You have to go pick up your papers at the hokage's office today."

"I know, I know. I was just feeling a little exhausted."

Salad flicked on the lights in my bedroom and came sat down next to me.

"How was school?"

"It was okay. Same old, same old."

"You didn't want to play with your friends today? I'm going to be gone for the rest of the afternoon 'til late. Have work to do at the hospital."

"I know." She took a long pause and looked at me directly in my face. "Mom…. When's dad coming home?"

The question caught me off-guard. My chest started to tighten up because I knew I didn't have the answer. I was pretty sure Sasuke was never coming back unless he wanted too.

"Darling, I'm sure your dad will be home soon. Don't worry alright." I forced a smile on my face, hoping to give her some reassuring feelings.

"Thank you." She smiled at me and hugged me tightly. "Now get ready, mom. You don't want to be late."

"Right." Salad walked out of my room, closing the door behind her. As the door closed, I threw myself right back on the bed."

"Salad, I'm leaving. Come lock the door behind me."

"Okay, mom."

I grabbed my lab coat off the rack and left.

I felt horrible from earlier. Salad must really miss her dad, but I couldn't stop Sasuke from doing what he wanted. He just left.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled to myself.

I rather face Naruto than think about Sasuke returning.

Maybe I'm just a horrible person and these things are happening for a reason. Who knows?


I walked up the long pathway of stairs up to the door of the hokage's office.

"Well here I go."

Gently I knocked on the door awaiting for someone to respond.

"Come in."

I pushed open the door the door.

Naruto was standing there in front of his desk with his hokage coat off. He still had the cast on his arm. I was thankful for that. Naruto was always stubborn and hard-headed. Knowing him he would of taken it as soon as he gotten home.

"Hey Sakura-chan."

"Hey." I closed the door behind me. "Are you finished with the papers?"

"I just have to stamp them, then their all yours."

"Alright, Thank you." I couldn't look him in his face. My heart was pounding.

"Here ya go." Naruto stamped the papers and handed them to me.

I reached out in front of me to grab the papers from him. While I pulled on them, Naruto wouldn't let go. I looked up to him. He was staring directly in my face.

"Why don't we hang out anymore?"

"What?"

"I mean, like, it just feels like after the war we've all kind of drifted apart. I miss what we used to have."

"Well I kind of assumed you were happy. Being hokage, married and having kids and all. Which reminds me, how are you and Hinata doing?"

Naruto grimaces and lets go of the paper turning his back on me to walk towards his window.

"I really don't know where this marriage is going. I'm bored. There's no excitement. No spice. No AGGGHhhh." Naruto let out an aggravated groan.

"Naruto calm down"

" No no sakura you dont understand! Every single day I come home to the same dry ass crusty ass weave and dont even get me started on her crunchy ass lips. like jesus, it takes two seconds to put chapstick on. And she can't even cook! She burnt rice, Sakura. RICE! How the fuck do you burn rice?!"

"Naruto..."

"And our sex life. Ugh. Nonexistent. I secretly work overtime just so that I don't have to feel obligated to have sex with her. Nothing about her turns me on anymore. She can't get my dick hard. Do you know how frustrating it is living with someone you have no compatibility with what so ever? I can't, Sakura. I'm losing it. "

"Naruto…" Sakura puts her hand on his shoulder, "We all have our share of ups and downs in relationships. I'm sure you two will be able to work something out soon. Just talk to her."

"Yeah, you're right." he turned away from the window to look at her. "I appreciate you listening; I know that was a lot all at once."

"No problem. We're still friends after all?" I patted his face twice and gave him a smile.

"Yeah." He smiled back, "How's your marriage been with Sasuke?"

"Ooh, well look at the time. I have to go file this paper work. Thanks for your help." I tucked the paper into my pocket and made a dash for the door.

Before I could reach for the doorknob, Naruto was in front of me blocking my way.

"You didn't seem to be in such a rush five minutes ago. What's the sudden hurry?" Naruto slides his hand to the doorknob and clicks the door locked.

"Naruto. What are you doing?" I glanced from the locked door to his face.

"You're not going until you tell me what's been up with you. I haven't seen or even spoken to you in forever. "

"It's terrible okay! Sasuke's never home. I hardly have enough time to do my medic stuff because I'm home housekeeping. Salad is getting older and realizing his absences more. He's been gone in the "woods" for 6 months now, doing who knows what."

I glanced away from him. "I think he's cheating on me."

"Now, Sakura, you don't know that. Don't jump to conclusions."

"I smelled her perfume on his clothes. The one time he decides to come home, he comes in the middle of the night reeking of it. The next morning, by the time I woke up, he was gone and the majority of his belongings. He left a note on his side of the bed saying 'I'll be back.' "

"Sakura…" I could hear the concern in his face. It was making me feel awkward.

"Don't… There's nothing anyone can do about it. Sasuke is going to do what he wants. I'm fine with that. I knew this when I got into this relationship."

"If I were your husband, I wouldn't make you worry like this."

When he said that my eyes widened and I stared at him. Looking into his face was painful. The expression on his face told me he was being serious.

"I could have been… I could have been your wife, but you changed on me. You made it seem like your feelings were a lie for me. I know it took me some time to realize how I felt about you, but you weren't there like you said you would be. You said you were always going to protect me. You weren't there."

I was trying my best to fight my tears back once again. "You told me you hated people who lie to themselves then you turn around and lie. You told me you didn't love me anymore, and then you come in do this? I didn't marry Sasuke cause I wanted too. I married Sasuke because he was the only one willing to take me. He doesn't even want me. He got his child out of me to restore his clan and now he's gone!"

"I don't know what was going on with me Sakura. I was confused and I didn't know what I wanted to do. After that last battle we had, when I left out of the genjutsu, my mind was warped. It was like a whole different Naruto was trying to leave out of me. A Naruto that wasn't me, a totally different person."

"There's no need to say those things anymore. What's done is done right?" I took a deep breath, calming myself down. "Now I need to go file these papers."

"You can't leave Sakura… I love you."

"Stop saying that! You're confusing me..."

"I do love you. I'll always love you. Nothing in this world is going to change that."

The tears started to seep down my face.

Naruto started to wipe my tear away before he started to pull my body in closer.

"I know there's nothing I can do to make up what I've done to you, but I just want you to know that I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry."

Naruto leaned into me. His tall body was hovering over mine. He tilted my head back gently with his fingertips. I knew what he was about to do, but I didn't try to fight it. This isn't what I wanted it. Am I going to be in a possible love affair with him now?

My mind was clouded by the kiss at the hospital. This felt like deja vu, but this kiss felt different. It was more passionate and caring.

My body started to move on its own as my arms wrapped around his neck. I felt so milked of my emotions. Was this just my body's way of letting out all of those unwanted emotions? I didn't want to feel anything anymore. All I wanted was someone's embrace. The man I love embrace.

"We can't do this… This is wrong…"

"It's just a kiss Sakura-chan. It's not like I'm stripping you down in the office." He smirked at me.

I didn't know whether I wanted to punch or smack him in the face. He always managed to make me feel flustered. I wonder would Sasuke care if he found out that I kissed Naruto and actually enjoyed.

These emotions that were overwhelming my body needed to be locked away again. We were going to get ourselves in trouble.

"We can't speak anymore, Naruto. What will the people think if they find out about this? This can't turn into anything more."

"Sakura, please… We just started talking again. I can't lose you twice."

"We can't do this! What will my child think of me if she knew?"

"Just please, listen to me. Just think of this as a friendly kiss of us reestablishing our friendship."

"You're a fucking idiot okay."

"I love it when you get all aggressive." His arms tightened up around my body.

"Shut up! I'm serious." I looked away from him. "Your lips feel good, really good, but this isn't right. Ugh what am I saying?" Anything was spurting out of my mouth. I felt confused. "I have to go. My head is killing me."

"Before you go, will you at least promise me you'll come see me tomorrow? Meet me here at 11 p.m?"

"Are you mad?"

"Just promise me."

I looked him in his eyes. "Fine, I promise." I don't know why I did that, but I felt dumb as the idea started to drown deeper in my mind.

Naruto unlocked the door. He distanced his body away from mine giving me some room to leave.

As I opened up the door and eased out, I could see Hinata standing there with two kids. My heart dropped when I saw her standing there.

"Did she hear anything that happened?"

"Oh, Sakura, Hello! How are you? Is everything alright? I heard some bickering in there. I couldn't hear anything but loud mumbling."

"I was just trying to get the hokage to approve for the medical equipment and supplies. Stubborn man he is." I awkwardly smiled at her.

"He is, isn't he?" She smiled back me.

I looked over to the two kids waving at him. "Hello Bolt and Himawari."

"Hi Ms. Haruno." They both spoke at the same time.

"I have to be on my way now, take care." As I walked away, they walked into the office. While walking away I could hear the children laughing along with Naruto.

My heart started to ache. I got away from there as quick as possible.

All things happen for a reason right?