Akashi was woken up by shouting and yelling. He opened his eyes to see that the sun was already up in the sky and he groggily got up and used his gear to get off the wall. A man ran past him and Akashi grabbed him by the arm.
"What's going on?" Akashi demanded and the man looked scared.
"Wall Maria! A giant colossal titan took it down!" The man yelled and Akashi's eyes widened. He whistled loudly, his horse running to his side immediately. He quickly jumped on and rode off to the higher ups who were probably having a meeting at this moment.
Kuroko was instantly startled awake as someone slammed open their door. It was a man in panic, telling them about a colossal titan that had created a huge hole in Wall Maria. Kuroko stared in surprise, before turning to his roommates who were freaking out visibly. He told them forcefully to calm down, before he got his gear.
There were probably titans in the village that was surrounded by Wall Maria, so he would have to be quick. He could tell all of his teammates had the same startled awakening, as the building they all slept in was full of panic as well. Irritated, Kuroko quickly left, using his gear to get up to the wall he was with Akashi last night, to see what was going on.
Everything was in utter chaos. Everyone was panicking and arguing about what to do. Akashi had hoped that the higher ups would have their shit together but he was sorely mistaken as he watched them argue.
The survivors of Wall Maria were coming over to Wall Rose but the problem was supplies and if there was enough food to feed everyone.
Akashi sighed as he walked along the sea of survivors who's eyes were full of sorrow and horror. Most of them were just kids and his heart genuinely went out to them but there was little to be done. Such was the world they lived in. Still, he noticed some kids had fight in their eyes and he had no doubt he would see them again one day.
The sun was setting when he got back to headquarters and he hoped that everything was in order and not as chaotic as the main city.
Kuroko stayed on the wall for the most part. After seeing the titans wonder the city that was surrounded by Wall Maria, countless times he wanted to swoop in and villas much as he could. But he couldn't take on that much by himself, and he didn't have orders to do so.
He was left to just stand there and watch, seeing that the people were getting transported to Wall Rose. The poor people, who had to witness and experience this. Kuroko watched from the wall for most of the day, watching countless soldiers die and try to get everyone into Wall Rose. Though he didn't expect to see a big titan that had charged, coming from nowhere. An armoured titan.
Everything was taken care of, so Kuroko guessed he should head back. Using his gear, he reluctantly went back to the headquarters, glad that everyone wasn't freaking out still.
Akashi was also glad so see that no one was freaking out but he didn't make his presence known. Instead he just sat on his horse staring at them all, wondering for a brief moment, why they were fighting. For just one brief moment he allowed himself to despair for humanity, before he sat up straight and smoothed away the emotions from his face.
"Today we lost Wall Maria." Akashi said loudly, garnering everyone's attention. "But the fight is not over, if anything, it proves that we must fight harder. We can't let the titans win! We will fight back, we will keep fighting until we win!"
It was all lies to him though. Pretty words to keep moral up but he could see it working as he gave them a false confident look. He spent a couple of hours with everyone, making sure they were mentally stable, before he wondered off by himself.
Kuroko arrived upon seeing Akashi there with his horse. He heard Akashi speak, though be felt like Akashi didn't believe any of his words. When have they ever won? But that didn't bring him down, it only told him that he had to try harder.
He spent the next few hours away from everyone, even Akashi. He didn't need to be reassured, or to reassure his teammates, since other people were. But once Akashi left, he followed, not even keeping himself secret this time.
He walked up to Akashi, walking beside him. "You saw everything, didn't you?" He asked, looking over at him. Akashi was a higher up, so he had to have seen.
"Yes." Akashi said shortly without looking at Kuroko. "It about dinnertime you should eat."
Everything felt numb right now and Akashi felt oddly weak. It was not a state he liked but he was sure that with a few hours he would be back to normal. He was just in shock most likely. He couldn't get the survivor's haunted eyes staring up at him out his head.
Kuroko eyed Akashi, watching him. He didn't seem like himself. He moved up, stopping in front of Akashi to get him to stop walking. "Akashi-kun, you should eat as well. You don't seem well."
"I thank you for your concern, Tetsuya, but I am fine." Akashi said politely as he took a step back and turned to make his way back to the wall, considering sleeping there once more.
Kuroko watched him, before sighing. He reached out, lightly gripping Akashi's elbow, in case he didn't like to be touched. "Akashi-kun, you have been out all day, I suggest you take care of yourself better."
"I'm going to go rest right now." Akashi informed him as he gestured to the wall. "Please, don't worry about me I will be fine Tetsuya. You should take care of yourself as well."
Kuroko sighed, letting Akashi go. He was just worried for his team leader. If it wasn't for him, everyone would probably be freaking out all the time. Or eaten, for the first two days they have been out. "Fine.."
He guessed since Akashi had been out all day, he was more tired then hungry. He would let him go just this once.
Akashi nodded his thanks before he numbly walked over to the wall and quickly got on top of it using his gear. All he wanted to do was pass out for a while, collect himself and get back to normal. Everything would be chaotic for a little while since everyone was still trying to come to terms with the wall. He would have to appear confident at all times or moral would drop.
Once Akashi walked off, Kuroko headed back towards the dining hall. He wasn't really hungry, but he knew to keep his energy and strength up. He only ate a little, seeing that every one wasn't as talkative as they always were. They seemed down.
Not liking the tension in the air, he finished up and left quickly. He would think of some way to get these people's fighting spirit back. If they ever had any.
Akashi fell asleep immediately up on arriving at the wall, succumbing to nightmares that he faces each night of past and future failures. Luckily nobody really walked across the wall so he would be left alone for a frowned in his sleep, twitching every so often.
Kuroko got into his room, laying down. When he tried to sleep, he remembered everything he saw today. From the titans, the big armoured one, the people having to flee to Wall Rose. With all these new people, food and supplies were going to be hard to come by.
The next morning came all too quick for Akashi who stared at the sky for a few hours before forcing himself to go to the dining hall. His presence would be important for his team who looked up to him and looked to him for strength.
He didn't eat, promising himself he would at dinner, instead he made sure to talk to as many of his teammates as he could, forcing comforting smiles and making small chat. It was also a great way to get to know them and forge bonds.
Soon people began cheering up a bit which was good.
Kuroko sat in the dining hall the next morning, not really eating much again, too focused on reading. He didn't know if he was unconsciously trying to distract himself from what happened the day before, but he knew that wouldn't be possible anyway.
Once in a while he saw Akashi talking to their teammates, putting out smiles and good words to everyone. He saw it worked into making everyone a bit more hopeful.
"Alright, today we're going to the practice area to coordinate with each other. Before, you guys were out to compete with each other for marks but this time you'll be trying to work together as if the titan dummies were real." Akashi called out as he settled on a table, coincidentally the same table as Kuroko.
He could see the looks of relief on everyone's faces and he was glad for his decision. Nobody was ready to see a titan again, not after the fall of the wall. Akashi sighed and ran a hand through his hair. Everything was going to be okay.
Ah, finally they would practice. Rather then facing real titans, they would just be practicing with dummies. It wasn't as if he didn't like facing real titans, but he was concerned for everyone else's mental health. They were all focused on their strength and killing them, but never focused on gathering the courage to do it.
Pausing from his reading, he looked at Akashi. "Everything alright now?" He asked, looking up at him.
"Of course." Akashi said lightly with the same tone he used with everyone. "Nothing to worry about."
Kuroko studied him, before looking down at his book. "If you say so, Akashi-kun."
Breakfast went by rather quickly and a couple of hours later they were in the forest, flying through the air. At first they didn't take practice seriously, much more focused on flying together and Akashi allowed it. They needed some fun.
He just sat on a tree branch idly watching them through the green foliage. He tried to relax although the jitters just wouldn't leave him so he joined them. He flew through the air, spinning and doing flips, letting adrenaline run through his veins.
Kuroko was one of the few who actually took it seriously. Well, he took everything seriously anyway. He wanted to improve his strength and stamina, though he doubted that happening. He was making some short cuts into the titan dummies they had, but they weren't good enough to Kuroko.
Add the fact that he got tired after slashing at only a few titans each time. It was truly frustrating, but it didn't faze him. Once Akashi joined, he saw the deep cuts he was making. Huffing slightly, he sprung forward with his gear, making slashes next to Akashi's to compare. His were horrible.
Once the jitters finally left him, he flew back into a tree to settle back down and watch everyone. There were a few decent people with natural skill that just needed to be refined.
His eyes narrowed at Kuroko in particular though. He had talent, perhaps not as much as the others, but he was tiring much too quickly. Everyone else still had full energy but not Kuroko who was beginning to pant.
Perhaps they needed to do extra training together, a special regime to help him build up his stamina. It would be taxing on Kuroko and him but it would help them in the long run.
Akashi sighed softly to himself as he looked around at everyone, pleased when he saw them working together. There was hope for them still wouldn't give up, trying to make his cuts deeper, but he just didn't have the strength for it. Or the energy. He quickly landed on a tree branch, sitting down instantly. He was panting heavily, looking around. Everyone was still going, having fun, being happy.
While he was trying his hardest and couldn't get better.
He knew this practice was to get along better with his teammates, but with his lack of presence, he mind as well as look out for himself. The only one who noticed him this whole entire time he was here was Akashi, but he was the team leader. He couldn't pull him away from his job for his selfish reasons.
Akashi saw Kuroko land on a nearby branch and he called Kuroko over to discuss a new regime. Hopefully Kuroko would accept it although if he refused it, there wasn't anything he could do about it. He wasn't going to waste his time if Kuroko wasn't willing.
Hearing that Akashi called him over, Kuroko nearly groaned. Though he only sighed, as he slowly stood up. He swung over with his gear slowly, landing on a branch on the same tree as Akashi. Looking at him, he tilted his head, trying to even his breathing. "What is it, Akashi-kun?"
"What would you say to extra training between the both of us to increase your stamina and strength?" Akashi asked slowly and carefully, hoping Kuroko wouldn't get offended.
Kuroko stared at Akashi, before thinking. He knew he wasn't strong or had the best stamina, so he understood that Akashi was just trying to help him. But he didn't want to waste his captain's time. "...I would like to get stronger and have better stamina, but I do not want to take up your time."
"I rather spend the time training you than see you dead because you were too tired to get away from a titan." Akashi said bluntly although not unkindly. "We'll start whenever you're ready."
Now he felt offended slightly at that, but he knew it was a possibility. Sighing, he just nodded. "..I accept your offer. And I am always ready and willing to train, so it's whenever you are ready."
"Alright we'll start after dinner." Akashi said decidedly as he resumed watching everyone else. His brain began to think up regimes that would help Kuroko build up his muscles and stamina without overdoing it.
Kuroko nodded again, showing he understood. Deciding to continue, since he regained a bit of breath, he swung away again. He was still trying to make deep cuts efficiently, though he wasn't as angered or determined as before. He was going to have training, so he shouldn't over work himself before hand.
The day went by lazily, Akashi watching the team carefully and giving pointers whenever needed. Still, everyone was improving especially the older teammates helping the new recruits. Kuroko was left alone since no one could see him so Akashi tried helping him out especially, giving pointers when he could. It was a shame, Akashi had an inkling that if more people paid attention to him and helped him, he would have been a lot better by now.
Kuroko would often stand on a branch, watching the new recruits get taught. For a second, he thought he felt lonely, but shook his head. He had been like this his whole life, it was his life. No one saw him when he was younger and no one saw him now. Except Akashi, of course.
Though he continued on training himself, taking Akashi's advice. He trained until it was time to go to the dining hall.
Akashi paused when he was entering the dining hall. hesitating slightly before sighing as he grabbed a piece of bread. He wasn't hungry still but if he didn't eat something then his health would be effected.
"I'll meet you outside when you're done." Akashi said as he began to make his way out of the hall.
Kuroko got inside, settling with something small once again. He was slowly chowing down on down bread, and he noticed the food supplies weren't as much as they used to have. It must be because of those people who came from Wall Maria.
"I won't be long." Kuroko replied, before continuing eating when Akashi left.
Akashi nibbled on his bread, his stomach growling for more but he ignored it. He walked around, greeting passing people before he made it to the stables where Rakuzan was giving people trouble.
"Here." Akashi said as he fed the horse the rest of his bread. The horse eagerly ate it, nickering happily as Akashi entered his stall. He sat down on some clean straw and petted Rakuzan's head. "The team is going well. Might actually survive if I'm lucky.
Rakuzan neighed and nibbled on Akashi's hair playfully. The redhead patted it's neck and leaned against the wooden stall.
Kuroko finished quickly, as usual. Though this time was faster as he wanted to train, but also because he didn't have much food. He walked outside, and saw Akashi wasn't there. Perhaps he was already in the forest where they were training.
Heading to the stalls to go fetch his horse, he realized he still didn't name it yet. He'll figure out a name hopefully soon. Walking into the horse stalls, he was surprised to see Akashi. "I thought you were already at the forest."
"Nope just visiting Rakuzan." Akashi replied as he stood up and stretched. "The best way to increase stamina would be jogging so we won't be riding horses."
Akashi lightly began to stretch his muscles, gesturing for Kuroko to do the same, warming up.
Really? Kuroko really wanted to argue with that, but he wasn't the complaining type. Besides, jogging did help. He just wasn't sure if he would be able to, especially with the 3D Maneuver gear.
Sighing lightly, he copied Akashi, stretching his own muscles slightly.
"You should take off your gear." Akashi said as he made no move to remove his own. He had higher stamina so he was able to run with his own gear and it would give him a better work out.
Kuroko blinked, staring at him. "I will need my gear for later, so I would need to carry it. I can do it." He said, placing his hands carefully on the side of the 3D Maneuver gear.
Akashi considered arguing about overworking himself but shrugged. Kuroko would need to learn to run with his gear anyway and they could just shorten the time they jogged.
"Alright." Akashi said as he began walking away, Rakuzan neighing behind him in disappointment. "Let's jog through the forest then."
Akashi started jogging, a nice slow pace so Kuroko could get used to it. They would go easy for now and as Kuroko gained stamina then they would increase the distance and speed.
Kuroko was glad he agreed, and nodded. He couldn't be a burden and drag Akashi and the team down by not having the strength or stamina to fight titans.
Kuroko watched him for a second, before shaking his head and jogging along side him. The beginning was easy of course, even with the gear. Though he knew the further they got the more tired he would become.
"We're going to jog and then walk in intervals." Akashi said as he kept up the light pace. "Tell me if you need to rest."
"Alright I understand." Kuroko said, before shaking his head again. "No, I'll be fine. I don't want to rest when I get tired, otherwise I won't get better."
"If you overwork yourself you'll do more damage than good to your body." Akashi said from experience. "You have time to improve you don't need to push yourself so hard."
He sighed lightly, continuing to jog slowly. "Fine, I guess you are right.." He hoped he wasn't letting the fall of Wall Maria cause him to overwork himself.
They jogged for a couple of hours, taking plenty of breaks, until the sun began setting. Lightly covered in sweat and breathes coming out in light pants, Akashi wiped his brow before he slowed to a stop.
"I think that should be good for tonight." Akashi said.
Kuroko had to stop a lot, even as he tried to refrain from showing he was tired. Once they stopped for the last time, he was panting softly, looking at Akashi. "..Can't we do a bit more?"
"No, but we can jog more tomorrow morning." Akashi said as he began to head back, clapping Kuroko on the shoulder as he passed him. "You did good tonight, don't push yourself."
Kuroko sighed, accepting the praise. "..Alright. I guess that is fine." He murmured, before following Akashi again. He was going to be going straight to bed once he got back.
Akashi walked with Kuroko to headquarters before he longingly looked up the wall, tempted to spend yet another night on the wall but knowing he should get started on progress reports on his team.
"Night, get lots of rest." Akashi said as he clapped Kuroko on the shoulder before he began making his way to his room.
Kuroko was extremely tired once they got back to headquarters. He nodded towards Akashi, yawning ever so slightly. "Good night Akashi-kun. You get some rest as well."
He went into his room quietly, careful of his sleeping roommates. He laid down in bed, instantly falling asleep.
Akashi worked on the reports for the better part of the night before he also fell asleep. By morning he was already awake once more and working on paperwork, waiting for Kuroko to come by for the jog.
Once Kuroko got up, he was going to head to Akashi to start that jog, but he figured Akashi was a bit hungry since he saw he didn't each much the night before. He quickly went to the dining hall, getting Akashi and himself one small bread.
Walking back, remembering Akashi's warning, he softly knocked on his door.
Akashi heard the knock and walked to the door greeting Kuroko with a small smile as he grabbed his gear and put it on.
"How do you feel?" Akashi asked politely as he finished, turning to Kuroko to assess him.
Kuroko waited for the door to open, though it didn't take long. He waited until Akashi finished putting on his gear, before handing him one of the breads. "I feel fine. Did you sleep well?" He asked, looking up at Akashi.
"Yes." Akashi said as he ate on the bread. They headed out together, the sun barely rising as they stepped outside. Akashi began stretching once more, wanting them both stretched before they went for the run.
Kuroko quickly ate his bread, seeing how they would begin soon. He stretched just as Akashi had, before following him in their morning jog. He just hoped all of this was worth it.
Days passed by lazily and a routine presented itself for everybody. In the evening and mornings, Kuroko and Akashi would jog while in the day they all did team exercises in the day.
Eventually Kuroko's stamina began building little by little and they slowly increased the regiments when Akashi thought it was time. They were doing good and Akashi felt that it was time to start an actual mission with real titans to put their teamwork to the test.
So on the day planned, Akashi got them all together and once more, they left the wall and into the dangerous titan infested lands.
Kuroko would often get tired more now that he was having to jog for long periods of time three times everyday. Though he never once complained. It was slowly helping him, and if he continued, he would only need to work on strength.
He was glad that everyone was training as well, so hopefully they learned a few things over the past days since their last mission. He was really hopeful but careful for this mission.
"Here we go again." Akashi said softly to his horse who nickered and began to run when Akashi snapped the reigns. Hooves pounded on the ground as they traveled across the large plain and Akashi began to guide them toward a forest.
It would be better if they were in the forest, the tree would make their gear more effective so hopefully it will go smoother than the last time. There didn't seem to be many titans fortunately and the ones they did cross were easily taken care of.
Kuroko followed Akashi and the team quickly on his own horse. He was glad to see they were in a forest, as their gear would be easier to use, and the titans would be able to be heard when coming.
Though when a titan came by, Kuroko didn't go for it like he planned to. A lot of the other teammates finally gotten the courage, and defeated them as a team before he could get there. He was happy that they now fought with no fear controlling them, but he wanted to do something.
"Stay safe." Akashi said to Rakuzan before he flew into the trees with his gear, traveling through top speed. He kept an eye on everybody, as hard as it was in the forest. It was on of the reasons he preferred the plains for the first few trips, it was easier to keep everyone in view.
Kuroko softly patted his horses neck, before following everyone into the trees. As he used his gear to get through the forest with everyone, he kept an eye out for titans. He didn't want to lose another teammate under unnecessary circumstances.
"Everyone try to stick together or I'll be your personal partner and trust me when I say it won't be pleasant." Akashi called loudly. They weaved through the forest easily and they killed any titans they came up on. It was going good and Akashi couldn't help but be suspicious.
Kuroko killed any of the titans he could get at before everyone else did. It would be unfortunate if he went for one, and accidentally got hit by a teammate because they didn't see him as he went for the kill.
All was going well, until they came into a large clearing in the forest. There wasn't many titans in the clearing, only two. But Kuroko couldn't help but feel a little overwhelmed at seeing them. They were 15m titans. Very tall and strong, one of the most powerful titans, besides the colossal and armoured titan.
"Fuck me." Akashi groaned before he shrugged. "Alright runts, I'm going to circle in front of them and you guys kill them. Do try not to miss."
It was a tactic his old team fell on many times simply because he was the fastest out of everyone except for one man who's skill was unmatched. Still, Akashi should be fast enough to distract them. Actually, if he was really fast he would be able to kill one of them and leave the other one for the team.
Kuroko shook his head, looking at Akashi. This was not the time to stare at the titans, while someone could get killed if he didn't pay attention. He nodded slowly, not sure if Akashi should risk it.
He knew this was Akashi he was talking about, but he wanted to make sure. If anything happened, he could be there to save Akashi. Also the team, if they get into trouble.
"Alright." Akashi said, more to himself than the others, before he moved as fast as he could. He circled to the front of the titans, both of them reach out to grab him, but he managed to avoid the hands, but barely.
They were faster than he gave them credit for. He swung around,, waiting for the team to jump out and kill the titans while he swiftly tried to avoid the attacks.
Kuroko waited until Akashi was moving around and getting the titans attention. Seeing that he barely escaped their hands, he instantly dove into action once there was an opening.
Using his gear, he latched onto one of the titans backs and swung towards it. Gathering up as much strength as he could, spinning a bit to get more force, he sliced into the back of the titans neck.
It was deep and effective, though it could have been better. It didn't matter, because one titan was down. All they had to do was get the second.
The second one was quick and Akashi gritted his teeth as it managed to slap him. It wasn't too bad he managed to stop himself from careening into a tree but he was going to be sore for a little while. He swung into the air gingerly before using his gear to swing around the titan and slash its neck.
Kuroko jumped back, away from the fallen titan and the other one. He looked up seeing Akashi had the second one handled, before looking back at the team.
Kuroko wasn't surprised to see them there, frozen in fear just like the first day.
He never felt this irritated before, but he cooled down, in case more titans were around. He scanned the area, just to make sure.
Akashi landed on the ground and his leg immediately buckled slightly and he looked at the team and sighed warily. This had been his fault he had thought that they could handle it but it turned out he had been wrong. He began walking out and he subtly pressed against his side to make sure nothing was damaged and was thankful that he wasn't.
"We're going back." Akashi called out.
Kuroko glanced over, seeing Akashi didn't have the most graceful landing. It must have been when that titan had hit him. He sighed lightly, if only he was faster he could have spared Akashi getting hit. Hopefully he wasn't too hurt.
Before they set off again like Akashi said, he walked over to him. "Akashi-kun, are you alright?"
"Fine, just a miscalculation." Akashi said as he briefly touched Kuroko's shoulder. "Good job out there."
Kuroko stared at Akashi with soft eyes. "..Yeah.." He didn't want praise at the moment, he just wanted to make sure Akashi was okay. "Well, we better head back like you said.. If there were two 15m here, there might be more as we head back."
"That would be fantastic." Akashi said blandly. He looked up at the trees but he didn't want to use his gear quite yet so instead he whistled for Rakuzan who came to him swiftly, probably having followed further behind.
Akashi patted his neck before carefully getting on the horse and riding off. He made sure to keep an extra eye out just in case there were any titans but strangely enough he had faith that if he missed one Kuroko would spot it.
Seeing that Akashi had his horse to ride, he reluctantly let him ride off. He was sure that Akashi had been hurt at least a little, but maybe he was mistaken. Sighing, Kuroko used his gear, taking the trees.
He stayed in the trees, above Akashi as he rode, keeping an eye out for titans. He also watched the team, who seemed to recover from the 15m titans. Now they gain there senses.
The trip was hard on Akashi but he didn't let anything show although he couldn't completely keep the relief from his face when they left the forest and entered the plains. He waited for everyone to regain their horses impatiently, Rakuzan feeling his impatience and pawed the ground with a hoof.
Kuroko saw the plains and their horses, and swooped down. He landed on the ground, before quickly hopping on his horse. He much preferred the back of the group, but decided to take the front until they got to the wall, in case any titans come.
Akashi kept the pace quick, wanting to get home quickly so he could see just how badly he was hurt, not wanting to do it now in case he worried anyone. They only came across five titans but the team was quick to pounce on them as if to make up for their complete failure with the two titans earlier.
As soon as they got back Akashi dismissed them as he quickly led Rakuzan to his stall before hurrying off to his room. He entered it without closing it completely before he took off his shirt.
His entire left side of his torso was bruised but other than that nothing was wrong. No broken ribs or an bones which was good. Akashi looked down his scar littered body and sighed warily as he thought about earlier and what better decision he should have made.
Kuroko was aware of the quick pace, but didn't note on it. He just let the team handle the titans so they could make up for freezing in fear earlier. When they got into the wall and were dismissed, he noticed Akashi was in a hurry again. Was something wrong?
He led his own horse into the stall, giving it a moment before going after Akashi. He didn't see where he was, but he guessed he was in his room. He was going to knock, but then noticed the door was opened slightly. Looking inside hesitantly, his eyes widened a bit.
Sure it was a bunch of bruises, but it still seemed bad. He didn't know if the titan broke anything, but all he knew was that if he was quicker, or the team would man up, then Akashi wouldn't have his side bruised like this.
"Che." Akashi noised, not noticing Kuroko as he lifted his arm experimentally. It hurt but he could handle it, it wasn't like anything was broken it was just sore. He turned around, intending to go outside, maybe ride Rakuzan a bit, when he saw Kuroko. Blinking, Akashi began putting on his shirt to hide his torso, internally swearing when he realized he hadn't fully shut the door in his haste.
Kuroko continued watching Akashi, wondering if he should leave soon or not. He wished he did, as his eyes met Akashi's. Once Akashi began putting his shirt back on, he quickly headed towards his room. Maybe he could play it off as Akashi seeing things.
Akashi sighed as he saw that Kuroko was gone and he shook his head. He was slipping. This was the hardest team yet, never had he had a team that froze, even his season soldiers had frozen and that wasn't alright.
Akashi swore quietly before he left his room and went to the stables where Rakuzan was. The horse nickered at him happily as he entered the stall and sat down. His stomach growled but Akashi didn't want to go to the hall to eat, he wasn't sure if he could deal with seeing his teammates at the moment.
Kuroko didn't want to deal with his team, knowing he would just feel irritated again. Sighing, he walked into his room, sitting down. As much as he wanted to go to bed, something told him to check his gear. He cleaned and made sure they worked, before putting them away.
How could he let that happen to Akashi? Even if it was just a hit, their team, he wasn't fast enough to react to anything.
Akashi was about to take a nap, god's new he needed one, but then he realized that he hadn't informed Kuroko that their usual jog would be off. So with a sigh Akashi stood up and walked over to Kuroko's room. He saw Kuroko on his his bed, the door being open, and he knocked tentatively.
Kuroko looked over at the door seeing Akashi. Now he was forgetting to close his door. Standing up from his bed, he walked over to Akashi. "Yes Akashi-kun?"
"Just wanted to let you know that I'm post phoning our jog to tomorrow morning." Akashi said regretfully.
"..I understand..." Kuroko said slowly, trying to decide if he should bring up the bruises. "..Akashi-kun, if it hurts too bad, we don't have to jog together. I can go and you could rest."
"It doesn't hurt, it's nothing." Akashi said amiably. "I just can't tonight but I can tomorrow. If you do run without me today make sure you eat first, it's been a long day and you need energy."
Kuroko didn't believe Akashi, but what could he do? Sighing lightly, he just nodded. "Alright.. I'll go run a bit today, so I don't gain a habit of not going. Please rest up."
Akashi nodded, reach over and ruffled Kuroko's hair before he left the room. He didn't go back to his room and he steered clear of the dining hall. Instead he went back to the wall, his favorite spot there where no one really walked, and went to take a nap or sleep for the night. Depending when he woke up.
When Akashi departed, Kuroko did as well. He took Akashi's advice, going to the dining hall to eat. It was little, but the energy counted. Once he got something small to eat, he headed to where he and Akashi always ran. He decided to run a bit further, but take more breaks so Akashi didn't scold him for over working himself.
Akashi didn't wake up for a long while, more nightmares haunting him. It worried him that his team was improving so little, that they froze up when they saw titans each time and not even the sight of a teammate about to be killed motivated them. he dreamed of their deaths and past deaths he had experienced.
Kuroko stayed out late, thinking about the team. If he didn't get them motivated, it might costs all of their lives, and even some of humanities. He would have to train harder in case that happened. He lost track of time, and didn't make it back to headquarters until early in the morning.
Akashi woke up early and he softly groaned before he got up, wincing slightly as his side flared up a bit, soreness making itself known. He ran a hand through his hair before he got off the wall and stumbled over to the stables, frowning when he saw Kuroko.
"You're kidding me." Akashi said. "Do not tell me you're just getting back."
Kuroko was tiredly stumbling to get to the headquarters, though once he heard Akashi, he straightened up. "..Not at all. Shouldn't you be asleep?" He asked, his head tilting.
"I don't believe you." Akashi said bluntly as he rubbed his eyes. "I was then I woke up. Morning jog is cancelled do it again and you're grounded for an entire day."
Kuroko blinked in surprise, before shaking his head lightly. "Why? Shouldn't I try to get better?" He said, trying to argue with him carefully.
Akashi rubbed his face, feeling more tired than usual, before he sighed and looked at Kuroko. "There is no point in overworking your body Tetsuya. You will injure yourself in the long run. I've told you this, I thought you got that."
"I did get it. I took more breaks since I was out longer. I just lost track of time, I'm sorry, okay?" He said, not wanting to be 'grounded' for a day. He wanted to get better.
Akashi ruffled Kuroko's hair then slid his hand onto Kuroko comfortingly. "I understand you want to get better and you will but not if you strain yourself. Doing shit like this will make you worse, not better. Trust me okay?"
Kuroko stared at Akashi, not minding the hand. He sighed heavily, nodding lightly. "Yes, I understand. I trust you. Now.. we should get some sleep."
"I already got sleep, you get some sleep." Akashi said, not wanting to go back to nightmares. "Get some rest I will see you later. Today is a day off for everybody."
Kuroko nodded again, go to the headquarters. "Alright.. good night, Akashi-kun."
Akashi waved to him and he continued to make his way to Rakuzan's stall. He saddled his horse and for the entire afternoon he rode him through the forest, trying to forget everything. It was a glorious few hours until something went wrong.
He began to get lightheaded and weak. No doubt from not eating enough for the last few days. His eyes blurred for a second and he stopped Rakuzan and got off of him. He stumbled a bit before he lay down on the grass, staring up at the sky blearily.
Rakuzan ran off and Akashi tried to get up to stop him but he didn't have the strength. He figured the horse wouldn't go too far, at least he shouldn't. All he needed to do was rest for a bit. Just for a little and he would be fine.
Kuroko headed to the headquarters, getting a few Z's in. Though he couldn't sleep long, as he felt restless. When he woke up, he felt a bit weird, like he should know something. Perhaps it was just a sore feeling from jogging until early morning.
He went into the dining hall, getting something small to eat as Akashi told him he should eat more for energy. Heading towards the wall, he stood upon it after using his gear. It seemed strange to Kuroko, to have Wall Maria taken down not long ago. Maybe that was the nagging feeling.
Minutes turned into an hour and Akashi tried to muster the energy to get up but he didn't have the strength to. Rakuzan didn't return which was unfortunate since Akashi wasn't sure how he would get the energy to walk back.
Akashi sighed as he closed his eyes and slowly drifted off into unconsciousness.
Even if they had a day off, Kuroko didn't know any other way to spend his day. He wasn't much if a sleeper, and he didn't have friends to be with so he didn't know what else to do. So he decided to go out for a ride, and maybe a jog if he felt the urge.
Going to the stalls, he picked out his horse. He really needed to name it. Getting on his horse, he headed out to ride about in the forest.
Akashi remained asleep assaulted by dreary nightmares. He tried to wake up, succeeded a couple of times but he just drifted back to sleep. All the while he told himself, even in his dreams, that it would be alright.
Kuroko was calmly trotting through the forest, though a noise caught his attention. For a second, he thought it could be a titan, but it was very unlikely. So looking around, he found what seemed to be a horse.
Getting off his own, he headed over to the horse slowly. There shouldn't be wild horses around. Once he got close enough, he realized it was Akashi's horse. What was it's name, Rakuzan? "..Rakuzan?" He tested the name, to see if the horse responded.
Rakuzan nickered and stamped it's hoof impatiently. It trotted around Kuroko before running off a distance. It stamped its hoof on the ground once more, neighing loudly.
Kuroko tilted his head, before going to his horse. He got back on, before going over to Rakuzan, as if the horse was leading him. Let's just hope it wasn't something bad.
Rakuzan, pleased that the little human understood him, ran off quickly. He knew his human wasn't well but he didn't know how to help him. Hopefully the human will know what to do.
Rakuzan weaved through the trees to his human, remembering where he had left him. It took a long time, nearly too long, when he finally arrived where his sick looking human was.
Kuroko stared at the horse running off in confusion, as he quickly followed it. Rakuzan seemed to take a long time leading him somewhere, but once he was there, that didn't matter.
Kuroko jumped off his horse before he even stopped it, and ran over to Akashi. Was something wrong? It was still dangerous to sleep in the forest, even if a titan did somehow appear, but he doubted that. "Akashi-kun?"
Akashi heard a name call his own, the voice dauntingly familiar, and he felt himself drift to the surface of consciousness just to drift back down. It was probably apart of his dreams anyway. Maybe it was someone that died because of him. At that thought he mumbled out an apology although he wasn't sure if the words even made it past his mouth.
Kuroko looked at Akashi a bit worried, before shaking his head and calming down. He looked at Akashi, seeing that there wasn't any wounds really. So, he carefully moved his arms under Akashi's, being careful of his bruised side.
Akashi was heavy, especially with the 3D Maneuver gear. Sighing, Kuroko placed him down. If only he had more strength. He started removing the gear in hopes it would make everything easier so he could at least lift him onto a horse, as it seemed like he wouldn't wake up for a while.
Rakuzan saw the human try to pick up his human so he tried to help by grabbing the back of his human's shirt and picking up some of his weight. Usually his human was heavier but after the sky haired human took off the weird things his human liked to wear, he was much lighter.
Kuroko blinked, before nodding thankfully towards Rakuzan. Kuroko then looked at Akashi, wondering how he could get him onto Rakuzan's back. He gently lifted Akashi again in the same way as before, and with Rakuzan's help, got him onto the horses back. It took a lot of energy, but it was worth it.
Rakuzan nickered and butted the sky human with his snout thankfully before he began to trot back home, trying to not drop his human. He was a good horse to his human who had been there his entire life since he was born. He was also thankful for the sky human for his help and he said as much to the other human's horse who nickered back.
Kuroko gently patted the horses snout before it walked off. Though he wanted to make sure Akashi didn't fall, so he got back onto his own horse, and trotted next to Rakuzan. He kept a hold on Akashi, making sure he didn't fall, and keeping his horse from bumping into Rakuzan.
Something was off, the ground was moving a lot like his horse and that wasn't normal the last time he checked. Akashi groaned as he twitched, fighting to regain consciousness. He forced his eyes open and the first thing he saw was the dark fur of his horse and he didn't quite know how he was on the horse. He felt someone holding him on the horse and he looked around with bleary eyes to see Kuroko right beside him.
"What's going on?" His voice was hoarse and he cleared his throat.
Kuroko looked down at Akashi thinking he heard his voice, and stared in surprise at seeing him awake. Though he didn't stop, and kept his hand on him. "You were passed out in the forest. Did something happen?" He asked, looking ahead to see if they were close to home.
Akashi frowned before he closed his eyes trying to regain his strength. To be seen like this in this sort of state was embarrassing, he was a leader he should always be strong.
"I just fell asleep." Akashi mumbled as he struggled to sit up although his movements were sluggish. He really did overdo it this time.
"If we give our best in something we love, we'll enjoy the victories from the bottom of our hearts." - Kuroko Tetsuya
Kuroko kept his hand on Akashi, even when he tried sitting up. "Akashi-kun, you didn't wake up at all when I tried waking you. Don't push yourself."
"I was just tired." Akashi said softly as he kept his gaze on his hands which gripped Rakuzan's shoulders in order to steady himself. His vision kept blurring though but he refused to appear weak.
"I said don't force yourself. Captain or not, you shouldn't push yourself either. I don't care if you are trying to not act weak, it only hurts you worse, not help you." He knew he was throwing Akashi's words right back at him.
"I'm fine, I was just tired." Akashi said stubbornly although there was less fight in his tone, recognizing the words Kuroko spoke. "How did you find me?"
Kuroko didn't reply to the first statement, but looked at Akashi. "I found Rakuzan and he lead me to you."
"Did he?" Akashi said with a proud smirk as he gently petted Rakuzan's neck and the horse nickered in reply. "Well, I'm sorry for the trouble."
"Yes." Kuroko said reassuringly, before shaking his head. "There was no trouble, it's alright."
"There is no better companion than your horse. They can be the difference between life and death." Akashi murmured softly.
Kuroko glanced at Akashi, before nodding. "Maybe I will get a bit closer to this one.. Though I don't know what to name it."
"Well, take your time naming him." Akashi said as he leaned down on his horse slightly, trusting his horse to continue walking with guidance. "I didn't name Rakuzan for a few days after he was born."
"I will." Kuroko said, lightly running a hand carefully through his horses hair. "When we get back, get something to eat and drink and then rest."
Akashi hummed as a reply, already back to half asleep, struggling to stay conscious. He hadn't been this bad since he had first been made team leader and he had struggled with the responsibilities.
Seeing Akashi about to fall asleep again, he returned his hand to Akashi's back to make sure he didn't fall off if he slept again. "Please try to stay awake."
"I'm fine." Akashi said although his words were slurred, barely even conscious of what he was saying. "Better than when Hanji experimented with the food."
Kuroko looked at Akashi was a strange look, before shaking his head. "No what. You go to sleep, you aren't even aware of what you are saying."
"What do I do with my team?" Akashi mumbled, not even hearing Kuroko, his eyes closing though.
Kuroko continued watching Akashi, shaking his head lightly. He decided to stay quiet, lightly patting the redheads back.
Akashi hummed at the feeling and felt himself doze off slightly, feeling comforted by Kuroko's presence which was odd since usually he was soothed by nobody since he perfered to be alone.
Kuroko looked at him one more time, before looking ahead. They would be approaching the headquarters soon so he figured he should get Akashi some food first.
Rakuzan, seeing them near headquarters, neighed loudly which brought Akashi back to full consciousness. He looked up and saw that they were nearly back so he did his best to sit up straight and make himself look presentable for anybody walking by.
Kuroko hesitated, before taking his hand off of Akashi. "If it's too tiring, you can go to sleep again. Don't worry on how people view you."
"It's shameful for a leader to act weak, it's bad for moral." Akashi said as he fought to keep up his appearance as they approached. He nodded to a random passing person who looked at him with awe before speeding away. "You shouldn't have seen me like this at all."
"Stop acting like that. You are going to stress your body like that. Who cares if someone sees you like this, we fight titans. They will understand that we get hurt at times, and even captains and leaders need to rest." Kuroko argued quietly, so no one overheard them.
"If a leader can't be strong then the people following that leader will give up. It's a leader's job to keep up moral as well as train them." Akashi said tiredly as he guided Rakuzan to the stalls. "Weakness invites more weakness and we can't afford that right now."
Kuroko followed him, before getting off and putting his horse in his own stall. "When a leader dies or gets extremely injured because he didn't want to rest and keep morals up, then there will be nothing left. No more hope of keeping morals up."
"When a leader dies, he gets replaced." Akashi said as he stayed on his horse while someone passed him. "You have to wonder which is worse, keeping the moral of a bunch of people up to keep them fighting or a single person who can be replaced."
Honestly, he didn't care if he was replaced or not. He hadn't even wanted to be leader but the person in his position had retired, the stress had gotten to him and the only person he wanted to take his spot was Akashi.
"I give up then. Keep straining your body like this then." Kuroko said, before sighing. He walked over to Akashi, reaching out to help Akashi. "Come on, I'm not going to leave you alone."
Akashi thought about refusing his help but sighed as he allowed Kuroko to guide him onto the ground. Rakuzan immediately turned and took a bit of his hair in his mouth before yanking it as if to reprimand him. Akashi winced and patted the horse apologetically.
Kuroko kept a hold of him, making sure he didn't fall from exhaustion. "Good. Now let's get you something to eat first. Please do not argue."
Akashi took a deep breath as his vision swam for a split second and he wanted to argue that perhaps taking a nap first would be best but he didn't really want to argue anyway. Instead he stepped away from Kuroko, determined to walk on his own. He could do this much at least.
Kuroko watched him, before shaking his head slightly. "It would be best to get at least a little food in you, since you didn't eat so much these past few days." Of course Kuroko noticed when Akashi wasn't even there to eat most the time.
Akashi nodded in resigned agreement as he began walking toward the dining hall, nodding and waving to anybody who passed by, putting any energy that he had to look like he wasn't about to pass out on his feet.
They finally arrived at the dining hall and luckily there was barely anybody there. Akashi grabbed a piece of bread before he walked over to a lone table and sat down.
Kuroko stayed close to Akashi, in case he started swaying or showing any signs of passing out. When they arrived, he didn't get anything since he already got food earlier. He just sat across from Akashi, looking around slowly.
"Tell me about yourself. I looking into everyone's past but there was barely anything about you." Akashi said as he leaned against the wall and picked at the bread in his hands.
Kuroko looked back at Akashi, before shrugging slightly. "What would you like to know?" There probably wasn't much on him since no one even knew him really.
"Just in general. What kind of place you were brought up in and such." Akashi said as he popped a piece of bread in his mouth and slowly chewed it.
"Hmm.. Well, I guess it was just your average house with an average family. Exclude the practically invisible child and low money." Kuroko said, resting his head in his hand.
"About that, were you born with a low presence or was it developed?" Akashi asked curiously.
"Born with it." He answered, sighing a bit. He was alone since birth, besides his parents.
Akashi tilted his head before reaching over and ruffling Kuroko's hair. "It must have been hard."
Kuroko looked up at Akashi, feeling him ruffle his hair. "..Why do you ruffle my hair so much?" He asked, avoiding what he said. Plus he didn't hate it, he was just curious.
Akashi blinked before shrugging and retreating his hand. Truthfully it had been almost reflexive to do so, he didn't do it with much thought. "My apologies."
He shook his head lightly. "No, it's alright. I don't mind, I was just curious." He paused, before closing his eyes slightly. "What else would you like to know?"
"Why did you join the corps? I believe I asked before but I don't think you properly answered." Akashi asked as he set half his bread down.
Kuroko looked up at Akashi in surprise, before he looked at the table in thought. How should he explain? "Well.. My whole life I have always felt like I was never there, that I wasn't useful since no one could see me. Though as I heard about the corps, and saw some go outside the walls like we do, I realized I could use my ability to attack titans. I could help save humanity.
Though I knew it would be hard either way, since it could put my life at risk, and I would need to improve my stamina and strength, but I didn't hesitate to join."
"And now you're the most useful person on my team." Akashi said with a small smirk.
"Only because I don't freeze up. I only have the courage, I don't have the strength and stamina to fight titans. Everyone else has that strength and stamina, but they don't have the motivation to fight." Kuroko explained, not really sure on how to take compliments.
"The fact that you can't be seen by the titans is invaluable. The possibilities are endless." Akashi pointed out. "The only real thing that needs improving is your stamina which is already getting better."
"Yes, I know.." Kuroko said, before slowly standing up. "You should get some sleep. I can walk with you to your room."
Akashi nodded as he stood up and he began making his way to his room, stifling a yawn. Sleep sounded real good and he was going to sleep as long as he could. Nightmares or not he needed the rest.
Kuroko followed him, staying close again in case the signs shown. He wanted to make sure Akashi was okay and resting. When they got to his room, he waved lightly to him. "Have a good rest, Akashi-kun."
"Thank you. Please inform everybody that tomorrow will also be a day off. I will most likely be missing our nightly jog but if I find out you overdid it I will keep my word and ground you from the next trip." Akashi said tiredly but his eyes narrowed on Kuroko to make sure he knew he was serious.
Kuroko nodded quickly, showing he understood. He didn't want to be grounded. "Yes, I'll Inform them, and I won't over do it. Just get some rest."
Akashi nodded as he entered his room and pushed the door the closed. He was about to go to his bed when he paused at his desk, his eyes looking at 4 different colored beads. He lightly touched them and sighed.
"I screwed up today." He said softly. "I can't do this again. I have a team to lead and I need to get them stronger. I'm not sure if I'm the right one to do it, not after your deaths but...If Tetsuya could try so hard then it would be shameful of me not to also try."
Akashi sighed as he let go of the beads and staggered to his bed. He didn't even bother putting the blanket of him he just flopped down and was almost immediately unconscious.
Once Akashi closed the door, Kuroko sighed slightly. He would inform everyone when they wake up. Heading to his own room quietly, he moved into his bed and gone to sleep quickly. This time he really would take advantage of their day off.
