Ch2 Are you ok?

Emmett Cullen was having a really bad day. Not only did he break up with his on and off girlfriend, Jane but also lost his very best friend Grace because her boyfriend is a complete jerk and a jealous freak. If that wasn't bad enough, his other friends and siblings decided they wanted to go out and have fun and that Emmett should come along. But Emmett didn't feel like joining them, even though Rose, his other really close friend had asked him to. He would normally do anything for her but he just wasn't in the mood. He spent the time laying in bed, just thinking; which for any normal person that would have been fine. With Emmett, that was like asking for disaster to strike. Of course he was blaming himself for everything that happened between him and Jane and between him and Grace and even between him and James, Grace's boyfriend. He was a real piece of work, a jerk among jerks, but in the end he was good with Grace and seemed to care a lot about her so Emmett had to keep his mouth shut. … Even if James didn't. After a while of sitting, … or mopping around and thinking he had finally driven himself crazy and felt totally crappy then his cell phone buzzed in his pocket. He had gotten a text from Rose and after talking with her for a little bit he was starting to feel better again, like he usually does after talking to her. Then she said something about a boyfriend and Emmett wasn't too happy about the topic. He's always been protective of his friends and all but Rose having a new boyfriend while Emmett was going through all this was just not what he wanted to hear. Of course, it was just her brother making jokes so it was alright but then Emmett noticed that something was a little off on how Rose was texting him. When Emmett tried to ask her about it she said they were leaving and he didn't hear back from her after that. Emmett was worried about his friend Rose but had no idea where they were going, still he couldn't let her just Not tell him like that.

"Mom, I'm going out!" Emmett called down the hall as he rushed out the door but he didn't hear her answer him back.

He knew there weren't too many places to have fun in this little town so it shouldn't have been too hard to find them. Or at least that's what Emmett though when he went looking. Emmett went all over the place, searching for Rose and the others but he never found them. They weren't at the movies, the Mall, the diner; HELL, Emm even went to the park to see if they went to hang out on the swings or something. He couldn't find them any where and it was getting really late, the sun had been close to setting by the time he left the house. He was running very low on places took look and now he was just going to random streets because that was all that was left to look. Emmett didn't want to give up but he didn't know what else to do so he went back home, hope he would find everyone hanging out there. He wasn't feeling very hopeful.

"Hey, I'm back." Emmett called sullenly.

In the living room he found Edward with Bella curled up on his lap. "Where have you been, Bro?" Edward asked with a smile.

"I went out looking for you all. Is Rose still here?" Emmett answered with a little more hope then he though he had.

"Sorry Emm, Rose left for home just after Alice went out with Jasper." Bella said and her smile fell when she saw Emmett's completely disappear. "She said she was tired and just wanted the house to herself so I guess she's at home now."

Emmett didn't bother leaving the house again to go out and find her, she wanted to be alone and he understood that. He didn't like it much, but he understood it. After running around town he was really tired so he ran up to his room and crashed in front of his computer. He wanted to check his mail before going to bed.

You've got mail! … 135 unread.
135: Rosalie Hale: Sorry for everything!

The rest didn't matter to Emmett. After he read the subject title to Rose's message he clicked it and started reading. What could she possibly be sorry about? But as Emmett read the email that basically outlined everything Rose had been feeling from earlier and how she wanted to tell him but couldn't, he realized something very important. Emmett was an idiot. How could he not know that all this was bothering her or that she was so worried about him? But even more importantly, how could Rose think Emmett didn't really want her to be around him? It was crazy, he needed her for so many things, for so many reasons! He needed Rose around. As he logged into his instant messenger he saw that Rose was still on and decided he had to talk to her about everything.

Instant chat message between Emmett Cullen and Rosalie Hale.
Emmett Cullen (11:35:11 PM): i want you around because you help me
Emmett Cullen (11:35:21 PM): not just because i know you want to be around me.

Rosalie Hale (11:35:58 PM): ... sometimes I'm not so sure about that.

Emmett Cullen (11:36:00 PM): why?
Emmett Cullen (11:37:08 PM): i know you want to be around me but i never ever like to be truly alone, i always like knowing that someone close to me is just a click away

Rosalie Hale (11:38:16 PM): b/c you seem reluctant to tell me anything I do that Doesn't help. You always tell me things are ok even though I can tell that your not... I just feel like sometimes you tell me that so I won't worry as much or to make me feel better even when your not better.

Emmett Cullen (11:38:35 PM): right i do but thats what good friends do in comforting others...do you want me to tell you everything sucks and it won't be ok? I don't want you to worry because i hate to see anyone who worries
Emmett Cullen (11:40:03 PM): i would never let you come see me just because i know you wanted to, I always love your company it makes me feel needed or even wanted sometimes...
Emmett Cullen (11:40:18 PM): i try to help, even if i have to lie

Rosalie Hale (11:41:23 PM): I don't want you to lie to me. I've never wanted that. I don't want you to tell me everything sucks unless you really feel that way. But i DON'T want you to tell me things are ok when I KNOW they aren't

Emmett Cullen (11:41:36 PM): ok then i wont
Emmett Cullen (11:41:47 PM): but can i say they will be?
Emmett Cullen (11:41:55 PM): you do all the time?

Rosalie Hale (11:42:12 PM): sure, they will be is acceptable.

Emmett Cullen (11:42:25 PM): Ok.

Rosalie Hale (11:42:31 PM): Good.

Emmett Cullen (11:42:49 PM): secondly i didn't know the "are you ok's" bugged you so much?

Rosalie Hale (11:43:08 PM): they don't... not exactly.

Emmett Cullen (11:43:21 PM): not exactly?

Rosalie Hale (11:44:22 PM): sometimes its like... something bugs me and without even saying anything you can just tell and I don;t want to tell you b/c you have enough things to deal with. You don't need to deal with me and my problems but you do it anyway.

Emmett Cullen (11:44:40 PM): ditto

Rosalie Hale (11:45:44 PM): no not ditto. I have a right to do it to you.. you don't to me. I can and will handle my problems YOU do not until someone makes you

Emmett Cullen (11:46:28 PM): lol i deal with them, but not directly as you make me do...and i do have as much of a right as you do

Rosalie Hale (11:48:40 PM): No you don't deal with them... you let them build and build until something explodes and by then its too late. I have to make you deal with things b/c you need to learn how to somehow. ... Its my job to help my friends that need it and ... I didn't mean for that to sound cruel I just meant that its not as necessary for you to do it to me then it is the other way around.

Emmett Cullen (11:49:21 PM): lol but i can and that drives you nuts?

Rosalie Hale (11:50:34 PM): yes slightly. ... I've never had to deal with someone that does it back to me. I'm trying to help you and then you end up being the one HELPING me. Its slightly confusing to me

Emmett Cullen (11:51:08 PM): lol it happens and its ok that it does...just let it happen...

Rosalie Hale (11:52:08 PM): I try, honestly I do ... but I just feel like I'm always failing b/c I can't help you with your stuff without you, ending up comforting me for something or other.

Emmett Cullen (11:52:36 PM): lol its fine its what friends do and are for
Emmett Cullen (11:53:01 PM): … my sitch you described it as...

Rosalie Hale (11:53:24 PM): ... what?

Emmett Cullen (11:53:41 PM): my thing that i always do

Rosalie Hale (11:53:54 PM): yeah what about it?

Emmett Cullen (11:54:01 PM): how?

Rosalie Hale (11:55:01 PM): ok I'm going to need a full sentence now... what how ... what exactly do you need me to explan?

Emmett Cullen (11:55:50 PM): you say that i've fallen out with Jane...
Emmett Cullen (11:56:03 PM): and that i'm depressed because of that?

Rosalie Hale (11:57:28 PM): Ok well that wasn't exactly correct but to a point its your past. ... technically if you think about it I have a good point.

Emmett Cullen (11:58:09 PM): maybe...but thats not what happened is it?

Rosalie Hale (11:58:46 PM): You tell me. ... Its your mind set that matters for this answer.

Emmett Cullen (11:59:23 PM): i dont think thats what i meant to happen...but it seems to be true

Rosalie Hale (12:00:10 AM): I know its not what you meant to happen and n fact it really doesn't have to but ... again its your mind set that matters.

Emmett Cullen (12:00:28 AM): my mind set?

Rosalie Hale (12:01:00 AM): yes, it depends on what mind set your in for the moment. It changes from time to time.

Emmett Cullen (12:01:18 AM): i guess it does but i do love them both

Rosalie Hale (12:01:58 AM): I know.

Emmett Cullen (12:02:16 AM): i guess its that noncommittal bastard in me saying that i should always want something else

Rosalie Hale (12:03:29 AM): Probably and I have always know he was there so I understand it better than most people. Thats why certain things never bothered me like they may have with other people.

Emmett Cullen (12:03:51 AM): like?

Rosalie Hale (12:05:00 AM): like when you talk about Grace its like nothing else matters to you and when you lost her you lost everything ... Jane was just forgotten and so was the rest of the world. … little things like that and all.

Emmett Cullen (12:05:26 AM): i was being overdramatic

Rosalie Hale (12:06:28 AM): I Know that and I have always understood that about you. but most people wouldn't have been as understanding.

Emmett Cullen (12:06:39 AM): thx
Emmett Cullen (12:06:53 AM): ill try to tone it down a lil

Rosalie Hale (12:07:26 AM): It might help you in your next relationship lol

Emmett Cullen (12:07:34 AM): lol maybe.

Rosalie Hale (12:09:17 AM): its not really all that uncommon though... its kind of rare to be as strong as you are but its still common ish

Emmett Cullen (12:09:27 AM): strong?

Rosalie Hale (12:10:11 AM): well thats not really the right word but I .. I'm having trouble explaining it right, Trying to think of a better word

Emmett Cullen (12:10:20 AM): ok

Rosalie Hale (12:12:04 AM): its just that your so ... umm passionate as well as one-track minded so you get conflicting point of views. sometimes about different things and stuff and in other cases…. about different people

Emmett Cullen (12:12:18 AM): i see
Emmett Cullen (12:12:24 AM): so im a mess lol

Rosalie Hale (12:13:13 AM): no not exactly, just confusing for other people to follow unless they know what they are doing... unless they know you well enough to keep up with what you really mean

Emmett Cullen (12:14:10 AM): lol ok
Emmett Cullen (12:15:17 AM): brb

Rosalie Hale (12:16:05 AM): Ok ... yeah. looking back sometimes I think Jane did the wrong thing by allowing you to break up with her the first time. It really hasn't helped you over the years

Emmett Cullen (12:23:50 AM): back
Emmett Cullen (12:23:58 AM): why didnt it help?

Rosalie Hale (12:27:13 AM): well for one thing it didn't help the situation from back then it just cause another one

Emmett Cullen (12:27:29 AM): IT'S NOT HER FAULT THAT I DO THE THINGS I DO!
Emmett Cullen (12:28:49 AM): how did it not help?

Rosalie Hale (12:28:51 AM): it allowed you to continue your self-destruction, even back then I could see it happening. I just didn't realize just how bad it was. not exactly

Emmett Cullen (12:29:05 AM): we were naive

Rosalie Hale (12:30:02 AM): true and I was just starting to get to know you so I couldn't have know really... its just a "shoulda woulda coulda" thing, thats all

Emmett Cullen (12:30:29 AM): yep but we, Jane and I over it now

Rosalie Hale (12:30:56 AM): no not over it exactly just moved on

Emmett Cullen (12:30:58 AM): so we will be ok'
Emmett Cullen (12:32:47 AM): am i a womanizer?

Rosalie Hale (12:33:41 AM): no not really it was just the best word I could find at the time.

Emmett Cullen (12:33:51 AM): so what am i?

Rosalie Hale (12:34:33 AM): idk ... exactly but I will figure it out at some point. I just need better words.

Emmett Cullen (12:34:46 AM): lol ok you've got time

Rosalie Hale (12:35:26 AM): yep I know

Rosalie Hale (12:41:15 AM): so was there anything else that needed more explaining or anything else in general

Emmett Cullen (12:41:39 AM): yea how do you feel about it?

Rosalie Hale (12:41:48 AM): about what?

Emmett Cullen (12:42:34 AM): the whole thing

Rosalie Hale (12:44:09 AM): Oh... it really helped me to type some of the things out since I couldn't say anything to you.

Emmett Cullen (12:44:41 AM): glad to her that

Rosalie Hale (12:51:39 AM): ok, now I have to ask b/c I'm just making sure but how do you feel?

Emmett Cullen (12:52:56 AM): better
Emmett Cullen (12:53:02 AM): lol
Emmett Cullen (12:53:20 AM): why couldnt you say that earlier?

Rosalie Hale (12:53:55 AM): idk ... I just couldn't. Its like I wanted to and should have but something wouldn't let me say anything.
Rosalie Hale (12:54:41 AM): like I just couldn't get the words to come out

Emmett Cullen (12:54:56 AM): Aww srry

Rosalie Hale (12:55:36 AM): yeah, I usually don't have that problem so its weird when I can't say something but I can't explain it either.

Emmett Cullen (12:56:10 AM): lol only with me

Rosalie Hale (12:56:28 AM): yep, only ever with you. idk why.

Emmett Cullen (12:56:38 AM): lol me neither

Rosalie Hale (12:57:13 AM): so you see why I was so frustrated and confused today. I just couldn't say anything.

Emmett Cullen (12:57:43 AM): lol its ok

Rosalie Hale (12:58:13 AM): yeah maybe lol. I'm not a fan of when it happens.

Emmett Cullen (12:58:54 AM): lol me neither

Rosalie Hale (12:59:05 AM): I could tell
Rosalie Hale (1:01:29 AM): do you think that any of this really made a difference though?

Emmett Cullen (1:01:38 AM): it can
Emmett Cullen (1:01:46 AM): and i hope it will

Rosalie Hale (1:02:12 AM): its going to take some effort for it to happen

Emmett Cullen (1:04:15 AM): what should i do first?

Rosalie Hale (1:04:53 AM): well what do you think you should do? what seems to be most important to you at the moment?

Emmett Cullen (1:07:24 AM): getting my friend back and having an awesome summer

Rosalie Hale (1:09:15 AM): thats going to be more difficult. Its going to take time and patient. You have to trust me when i say that Grace doesn't want to loose you as a friend but she's not going to loose (Bf) over this either.

Emmett Cullen (1:09:51 AM): i know

Rosalie Hale (1:10:58 AM): ok well what are you really afraid of with this situation with Grace?

Emmett Cullen (1:11:42 AM): of not being able to see her or talk to her i said it before...she's like the other me lol

Rosalie Hale (1:13:20 AM): Ok, well whats the harm in allowing her this time to fix things with (Bf) so when the next time you do talk, he isn't down her throat about every little thing? ... Can you see how this time apart will affect her as well was you?

Emmett Cullen (1:14:13 AM): yes but its still cruel
Emmett Cullen (1:14:54 AM): and it has weighed in my mind that i would like to date her but shes with (Bf) and happy so thats that
Emmett Cullen (1:15:44 AM): just to make that clear

Rosalie Hale (1:18:29 AM): Do you know how bad an idea it would be for you two to date though? ... I don't want this to sound cruel or anything I'm just saying. Think about it for a minute, even if she didn't have (bf). If you two did date it wouldn't end well. You both are way too similar for it to work. Grace would drive you crazy and you her because you both would be constantly thinking the other was unhappy. You both would be feeling like you were doing something wrong and you'd always be feeling like there would be something wrong. It would make you both miserable. ...

Emmett Cullen (1:21:02 AM): maybe...but then again maybe not because we'd understand each others faults so well...
Emmett Cullen (1:21:14 AM): but you're probably right XD
Emmett Cullen (1:21:52 AM): yes we'd be worried but most normal couples are XD

Rosalie Hale (1:24:28 AM): I am right. Grace and you do the same things when it comes to relationships. And Yes normal people worry but not to the extremes that you both do. Its over the top worry and its that you both Create problems that don't exist.

Emmett Cullen (1:24:53 AM): lol but two wrongs make a right?

Rosalie Hale (1:26:24 AM): lol no in all cases. ... think about how Grace would feel when you start thinking your not being a good boyfriend? ... who will she be blaming when you say stuff like that?

Emmett Cullen (1:26:38 AM): herself

Rosalie Hale (1:26:56 AM): and when she does it ... you will blame you.

Emmett Cullen (1:27:31 AM): hopefully i can learn from this time and not do it any more

Rosalie Hale (1:27:56 AM): well, what have you learned?

Emmett Cullen (1:28:12 AM): that i am not always at fault
Emmett Cullen (1:28:23 AM): and that humility is good
Emmett Cullen (1:28:39 AM): and to watch what i say...
Emmett Cullen (1:29:08 AM): along with patience that i need

Rosalie Hale (1:29:56 AM): yeah all good points, now try to remember that i the morning and we may have made progress

Emmett Cullen (1:30:15 AM): lol ok saving convo now

Rosalie Hale (1:30:31 AM): good boy

Emmett Cullen (1:31:04 AM): ill learn and hopefully shell forgive me...and come back

Rosalie Hale (1:31:05 AM): She will but its going to ok in time.
Rosalie Hale (1:40:52 AM): ok so everything will be ok at some point.

Emmett Cullen (1:41:18 AM): yes

Rosalie Hale (1:41:47 AM): so anything else. you think you need to work on then?

Emmett Cullen (1:42:06 AM): probably but not off the top pf my head

Rosalie Hale (1:42:20 AM): ok thats fine, I was just checking.

Emmett Cullen (1:55:35AM): Holy Crow, its late!

Rosalie Hale (1:57:20 AM): Yeah it is. You should be sleeping.

Emmett Cullen: 1:58:00 AM): Yep, you 2. Gnight Rose

Rosalie Hale (1:59:10): Goodnight Emmett!

Emmett Cullen has signed out.
Emmett had no idea what to think after all that. He didn't even realize they had been talking that long until he looked at the clock. He was starting to feel really tired but better. He also felt a little bit better because what he and Rose talked about made a lot of sense. Some things were easier to hear and understand than others but he was trying his hardest. He knew that Rose was right but still he didn't know if he had the patients to wait or the restraints to not keep wanting things to happen between him and Grace. It seemed too tempting to resist but he was trying his hardest and he would keep trying because Emmett didn't want to loose any more friends.

Emmett didn't want to loose any of his friends and Grace and Rose were becoming very close friends to him. He wanted everything to work out and for everyone to be happy, including himself. He knew he would always have his family but sometimes they just got on his nerves and all the friends he used to have, have either gone away or moved on with their lives so Emmett had been feeling like everyone that was important around him had been disappearing left and right. He didn't know what else to do but cling very tightly to the ones he had left. In the mean time this clinginess was causing problems where it shouldn't have because of complications. Jane and him weren't getting alone as great because Emmett was too stressed to deal with an actual relationship but they were still going to be friends and stuff. But on the other hand, things with Grace and James had just blown into this mess of epic drama that was mostly unnecessary. Still, Emmett had hope that things would work out… maybe not soon but in time. As things always did, one way or another. He had to believe that he would be alright and to remember that not everything that happened was his fault.

A/N: A short message to anyone out there that is like this, If you are one of those people that thinks everything is your fault or that you just can't seem to do anything right. Take a look around at the people that love and care about you. I mean REALLY look because I bet, if you asked even half of them that they would say they wouldn't blame you for anything. Most of the time people blame themselves rather than blame someone else and that can lead to problems. Think about it this way: How would you feel if someone you cared about blamed Themselves for everything? That would probably drive you nuts because you're always thinking its your fault. But guess what? … Its not your fault and its not their fault either. Things happen and yeah, they suck but you can't blame yourself for things that you didn't do! Learn to love yourself and then learn to trust that others love you in return!

{Sorry that was a little longer than I thought it would be but I got my point across and I'd love to help anyone who needs it!}

JUST MESSAGE ME!