Hi everyone I'm back! I know this is a day early but I just couldn't wait to post this chapter as I really enjoyed writing it and I hope you enjoy reading it! I realise you may think this story is going slow but please remember that the more I write the better my writing gets. The Christmas holidays are coming up for me in a week so I will be writing and updating a lot more regularly! Yay! Also I would like to thank each and every one of you who has followed, favourited and reviewed my story, you guys are great and it is truly inspiring. The people who have reviewed have given me great advice and I apologise for not replying but it isn't working at the moment so I'm listening to you and thanking you here. Without further ado ... THE NEXT CHAPTER!
I don't own Merlin.
Arthur had been doing a lot of thinking of late. He was baffled by one person, a person who he shouldn't be baffled about or thinking about for an excessively long amount of time. He had been acting very strangely recently, he was far more reserved and when Arthur insulted him he smiled but it didn't reach his eyes and that just wasn't normal. It just wasn't how he behaved. It wasn't Merlin. For example yesterday Arthur had been making some comment about how pretty Gwen had looked today when he had seen her picking flowers in her garden and Merlin went all stiff and had turned around to face the wall, hastily dismissing himself and referring to Arthur as 'My Lord' which meant only one thing. Something was very wrong with his clumsy manservant.
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Merlin had been thinking a lot recently. He just couldn't get Arthur out of his head no matter how much he tried! He tried stuffing his head full of spells, doing an overly excessive amount of chores, even mucking out the stables twice! However, it was all to no avail as thoughts of the prattish but handsome prince flooded his mind all day and all night. To make matters even worse Arthur had been talking non- stop about Gwen. Gwen this, Gwen that and 'Oh Merlin, did you see how pretty Gwen looked today?' Merlin soon felt guilty, this wasn't Gwen's fault and Gwen was his best friend so he shouldn't be jealous or angry towards her. Should he? He cared about Gwen very much and Merlin tried again to push all thoughts of Arthur from his mind, Gwen was far too important to him to risk losing over something she didn't even know she'd done. Besides, in what world would Arthur care for you like that? You don't even know if he likes guys. Not likely. As he makes it apparent to insult you every day, even as friends, there is no world, none at all. In his eyes you are nothing but a useless manservant. He is the prince and future king of Camelot and you are but a servant, a dark part of his mind screamed at him. One day that will change, he will know of your magic and together you will unite the lands of Albion, a more positive part of his mind protested loudly. Ha! Not for a long time. Arthur would have you killed if he knew of your magic. Oh yes, the perfect pair! The other part of his mind sneered. Merlin grabbed his head demanding silence but it didn't listen and as Merlin continued thinking about all this he felt very lonely and the feeling of increased self- loathing coiled inside him like a snake.
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Gwen had been thinking an awful amount recently and it was making her head hurt. Merlin was a thought that was constantly in her mind. She couldn't help it. She was in love with him. His pale ivory skin, his deep sea blue eyes that when she looked into them she felt herself drowning under his gaze. His strong well defined cheekbones and his gorgeous locks of soft raven hair. Gwen was drawn to him in a way she couldn't explain. It's as if I am under his spell, she murmured softly to herself. The maid sighed to herself. He doesn't even notice my feelings for him, he is completely oblivious and I think he may be in love with Arthur. Gwen's heart ached and throbbed protesting loudly in her chest at this revelation. She had noticed. Secret looks and snatched glimpses when Merlin thought no one was looking. Merlin looked at Arthur the same way Gwen looked at him. She wasn't stupid but it didn't mean she was going to give up without a fight. Arthur was ruining everything for her. Stealing Merlin's heart from her and completely oblivious to it. Tearing and ripping Merlin's heart out again and again for he failed to notice the way Merlin felt. Arthur to stupid, to idiotic and far, far too prattish to appreciate what he had and what was staring him in this face as he foolishly chased after her even though she told him to leave her alone. No, Arthur didn't deserve Merlin's love and no, Gwen was not giving up. Ever.
Ooooohhh strong words from an intelligent and confident Gwen! I think I made her seem quite stupid in the last chapter but I am correcting that as it was not my intention. I want her to stay true to her character and keep her wise. I want Gwen to be good competition for Arthur and not a silly maid. Poor Merlin! Why will Arthur not notice him? Arthur's seeming quite oblivious recently as well as full of himself but he has a Merlin radar and can just pick up when something isn't quite right with his adorable manservant but the radar doesn't tell him what it is! It's getting a bit more angsty now as I felt it was lacking in previous chapters. I hope you have enjoyed. Please, please, please, pleaseeee review! Review to comment on your thoughts of the story or the plot or to give advice. Anything really just pleeeaaaassseee review! Reviews are love.
See you all next Saturday!
Hannah xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
