AN/I got one review, I need more! There was even a cliffhanger.
I don't own Twilight or the characters. But the plot is all mine.
Chapter 3 Believe
I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
And all I think about is you
If you believe in me
Life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams
Believe- Staind
Bella
Once my hand touched the doorknob I realized I was still in my Spongebob Squarepants shorts with the matching tank top. I looked threw the peephole. What was I going to say to him. And then I realized I didn't have to say anything, he wasn't here to talk to me. I opened the door.
"Hello, I assume you would like to talk to Alice?" I said biting my lip.
"Hello, yes that would be correct," Jasper said with a smile.
"Well I'm pretty sure she wants to talk to you too, I'll go wake her up, come in and have a seat," I said pointing to the couch.
"Thank you," he said as he sat on the couch.
I walked into my room and nudged Alice.
"Wake up."
Nothing.
"Mary Alice, wake the fuck up!" I yelled.
"What the hell Bella?"
"You have a visitor," I said handing her my hairbrush. "You need to fix yourself before you go out there."
"Who's here?"
"Guess," I said with a smirk.
"No fucking way!" she jumped off the bed and did a happy dance.
"He's waiting in the living room."
"Okay I can do this," she said fixing her hair as she opened my door.
I followed her out and went into the kitchen to make coffee. I pretended to open drawers and close cabinets, as. I was peeking around the corner trying to hear what they were saying, but all I got was an eye full of Alice. She didn't say anything but pointed down the hall to my room.
I ran to my room and tried to go back to sleep but I was too antsy. So I decided to get dressed and go down and work on getting the bakery together. I ignored whatever was going on in the living room and headed into the kitchen, I got my coffee ready. As I left I couldn't resist one last peek.
"Alice, I'm gonna head down, let me know when you want to go to breakfast, okay?"
"Okay, see ya later."
"See ya," I said as I closed the door.
I found myself smiling as my thoughts went back to my dream, that was interrupted by Alice's visitor. I was surrounded by sunshine and trees, me of all people in the woods. It was so beautiful though, all the shades of green. While walking towards the sunlight I suddenly looked back and I saw my green eyed savior. And then I woke up, what the fuck.
I opened the door and looked at the mess we had left last night.
"I need some aspirin." I said to myself.
Edward
We got to Jasper's place, a typical guys apartment, not neat but not messy and very comfortable, his couch was better than my bed. I hoped that after our conversation Jasper would not question me anymore.
"So what happened with that girl, Jazz?" I said hoping to keep the subject on him.
"Alice said she didn't want to be picked up in a bar, so she told me I'll have to figure out a way to find her."
"What are you going to do?"
"No clue," he said rubbing his forehead. He doesn't act like this often so I enjoy seeing him a little uneasy.
"Did she or one of her friends have a tap?"
"I'm not sure; I'll have to check with Rose."
"Yeah, that sounds like a good idea."
"Speaking of friends, the long haired one was pretty cute not my type but pretty cute."
"Yeah I guess so," I said looking away.
"And she was really funny too."
"I'm going to bed," I stood up and headed to the guest bedroom.
"Night," he said under his breath.
I changed my clothes; I seemed to always have spare clothes here. I ran my fingers through my hair and fell back on the bed. I hadn't stopped thinking about her all night. I should have talked to her before the incident. Her presents kept drawing me in. That smile, those magical eyes, the way she interacted with her friends and even mine, she seemed to put everyone around her in a better mood. The way she danced around erratically like she didn't have a care in the world. The way her hips swayed and that ass.
I looked down and noticed my very obvious physical reaction to this brown eyed girl, I reached out and grabbed myself and sighed loudly.
"Oh God," I moaned.
I started to rub up and down my shaft picturing her dancing shaking her hips, her long curls bouncing. Oh fuck, her eyes looking at me and she smiled. I stroked faster. She looked down shyly and bit her bottom lip. I lost it, my muscles tightened and for a few seconds I felt relief and she was there with me.
As I came down from my high, I realized I just jacked off to a girl I knew nothing about, but I want to. No, I had more important things. What was I doing? I let my mind drift as I fell asleep.
I was walking in the forest towards the sunlight when I saw up head of me my brown eyed girl was walking between the trees. I started walking faster to catch her. She disappeared, and I started running into the blinding sun. When I got to the open meadow I saw her bending down to smell one of the tall blue flowers surrounding her. She smiled and her gaze fell upon me. I jolted awake and sat up, my finger instantly in my hair. Oh God that smile, I thought to myself as I flopped back down to the bed. I raked my hand across my face and rolled over hoping sleep would set in. It didn't.
When Jasper finally woke up, I was sitting in his living room surrounded by DVDs .
"Dude, what the fuck are you doing?" Jasper asked a little concerned.
"I couldn't sleep so I organized your CDs and now the DVDs,"
"Okay," Jasper said with a puzzled look on his face as he headed into the kitchen.
"I'll buy you more coffee, I drank the last of it,"
"I need coffee to make me suitable for normal human interactions," Jasper said a little annoyed.
"Get dressed and we'll go get some coffee,"
We got dressed and we walked to the coffee shop down the street and ordered it to go.
"Why couldn't you sleep?"
"The bed was too stiff,"
"Bullshit you love that bed more than beer"
"I just couldn't sleep."
"Why?"
"I don't know."
"You're a bad liar, I can see you're torn up inside."
"What do you want me to say?"
"I want you to be honest with yourself and figure this out"
"There is nothing to figure out," I argued.
"Yeah everything is just perfect, you can start a late night organizing business."
"There is nothing wrong, nothing has changed."
"Yes it has, I can see she is in your thoughts."
I just looked at him.
"Edward, I don't like seeing you like this,"
"Thanks for your concern but I don't know what to say to make you understand," I said with a little attitude.
"I'm sorry I pushed, I gotta go, you want to meet up and rehearse later?"
"Yeah, text me."
I went home and took a shower and did some chores. Nothing from Jasper. I grabbed my guitar and started slowing strumming the first song that came to mind and sang along.
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on the music.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
Picturing her singing along, those lips.
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
This had to stop; I put my guitar in its case, still nothing from Jasper. The computer, I had gotten an e-mail from a friend, Seth wanted me to play with his band nest week and was giving me address of where to go. I typed a quick reply saying I would be there.
Still no Jasper, I stared into the empty space and imagined that beautiful smile and those eyes fluttering open as she looked up at me. I had kept replaying our brief moment together. I stood up and walked to the kitchen, as if the kitchen would make her image magically disappear when I got there. It didn't. I walked back to the computer. Maybe I could Google her. I turned back towards the kitchen. No what would I put in the search? 'Beautiful brown eyed girl'? I'm sure nothing that came up would compare to her. I sat on the couch with my head in my hands. What was I going to do? Then my phone went off. Thank God.
Twenty more minutes of pulling my hair out and Jasper was here. I opened the door, and he pretty much jumped in.
"What's got you so hyper?"
"I found her."
"Who?
"Alice."
"Oh, how did you manage that?" I asked as I grabbed my guitar case and left.
"I talked to Rose and you were right she had a tab and she left her credit card."
"So what are you going to do?"
"I looked up her phone number and got her address, I'm going to go over there tomorrow"
"I hope she doesn't think you're a stalker or something."
"Yeah, me too, you don't look so good by the way."
I just shot him an uneasy look.
"You can't keep doing this, you're going to worry yourself to death."
"I know, but what am I supposed to do?"
"You deserve to be happy too."
"How?"
"What you're doing now obviously is not working, so anything would help,"
"I can't do anything that could hurt anyone,"
"Just see how things go, you could just get to know her."
"I just don't know."
"Think about it," he pleaded.
"Yeah," I shrugged.
"Oh I forgot to tell you Emmett is meeting us here." Jasper said as we walked into the bar.
"Thanks for the warning," I said sarcastically.
"Eddie!" Emmett yelled.
"Hey Em, where were you last night?"
"The Cubs were playing,"
"You should have been here, your brother met a girl," Rosalie chimed in.
"Thanks Rose," I said annoyed.
"Don't be so shy, little brother, who is she?" Emmett asked.
"I don't know her."
"She threw up on him and he was in a daze the rest of the night," Rose laughed.
"And he hasn't stopped thinking about her," Jasper added as he was setting up the stage.
I looked down and ran my fingers through my hair because I knew Emmett would keep talking about it.
"Emmett, don't start." I pleaded.
"Why Ed?"
"Because this subject is not up for discussion."
"I talked to her and she is really nice, and sweet." Rose said.
"And funny," Jasper added.
"Look bro this self loathing attitude shit has to stop you look like shit Eddie,"
"You never smile, and you smiled at her," Rosalie said with emotion in her eyes.
I looked at them and they all had worry in their eyes, I wasn't just hurting myself but also my family. I had to change something, but to what degree?
"I know guys but it's just not that easy."
"Yes it is, this situation has been fucked up since the beginning," Jasper said.
"It's what's best," I answered.
"It was what was best," Emmett spoke up.
"All this shit from you guys for a girl I don't know, not even her name."
Rose and Jasper looked at each other and then at me.
"What the fuck guys?" I asked.
"Do you want to know her name?" Rose asked with a smile.
"After that look, I'm not sure I do."
"Maybe we should let him figure out what he wants on his own?" Jasper asked Rose.
"Yes, I'm not sure what I want to do."
"Maybe," Rose said leaning against the bar in thought.
"Baby do you know her name?" Emmett asked Rose.
"Maybe," she smirked and pulled Emmett close and whispered something into his ear.
"Oh... I see," Emmett laughed.
"Oh you guys suck, really you're gonna whisper secrets like children?"
"Just for that I'm not gonna tell you," Rose huffed as she went in the back.
A few seconds later the little stage lit up.
"I guess that's our cue, Ed," Emmett said as he hopped on stage.
We sometimes play together but most of the time I just play by, me and my guitar sometimes piano. But Jasper has the piano today and Emmett plays drums. Every other weekend we have live music and open mic at the bar.
I sat down and began strumming, Jasper and Emmett slowly joined in. I started singing.
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
My mind glanced over at the spot where I caught her, my heart sank.
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I closed my eyes and all I could see is her.
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life
What was I going to do. We finished the song and Rosalie ran over and hopped on Emmett's lap and kissed him. I saw the devotion she had for Emmett. It was obvious seeing him play brought her joy but there was so much more to it. I couldn't put it into words. It kind of made me envious of their love.
"I saw the look on your face," Rose said.
"So?"
"I know you want to ask me, are you gonna?" Rose asked.
I did but didn't want to admit it. What would be so wrong with knowing her name?
"Yes, I do want to know,"
"It's Bella, her name is Bella." Rose happily said.
I smiled, beautiful Bella, beautiful brown-eyed Bella.
Bella
I had gotten a lot done, I was finishing up sweeping the floor, Alice and Angela tapped on the door, I grabbed my purse and met them at the door.
"Ready for waffles?" I asked.
Alice smiled and said "Yup," popping the 'p.' I looped my arms around theirs and headed towards the restaurant on the corner. We all ended ordering blueberry waffles, damn Alice, I couldn't even think about another type of food, nothing else even sounded good.
"So, what happened Alice?" I finally asked.
"Well, he said he figured it out the credit card was mine."
"How?" Angela and I asked at the same time.
"The bartender Rosalie helped him put it together."
"Ah, I see, when are you going to go out?"
"He's going to come over Thursday, I'm gonna cook for him."
"That sounds good, I wont be around around so you will have your privacy."
"And where will you be Missy?"
"I have to start prepping for Friday and I wanted to have a meeting with everyone, Ang can you remind me to call Jessica and Mike to have them come in?"
"No problem, I'm going to come by after I have coffee with Ben."
We ate and chatted about our plans for the day. Alice had got an e-mail for an urgent order that was needed for next week. The next few days Alice was planning on working 16 hour days and and was barely going to be at home. Ang and I are basically going to be attached at the hip for the next week. I payed the bill and we went our separate ways.
I walked to the bakery letting my mind drift, why has this man been in every spare thought since I met him. I had to occupy my mind, keep busy, I had too much to do, didn't have time to think about guys and definitely didn't have time to date. I decided to work on paperwork.
Angela had came by a few hours later and started to wipe and disinfect every counter and I was in the middle of starting a list of what we needed from the grocery store when my phone went off.
Take me on the floor dadada da dadadada
"Hey Alice."
"Hey do you and Ang have want to have a quick dinner?"
"Sure, do you have time to?"
"Not much but if I don't get out of here for a while I'm going to stab Lauren with my scissors."
"Okay point taken, how about I get some Chinese food and meet you at home?"
"Sounds good get me some orange chicken."
"Will do, see ya in about an hour."
We did rock, paper, scissors to decide who would call the order in. I hated to call and order for carry out. I almost broke an ankle jumping up and down when I found out Pizza Hut let me order online.
"Yes, rock beats scissors, Ang"
Angela called in our order of orange and sweet and sour chicken. We finished up what we had started and headed to get the food.
"So you've been kinda in a trance today, what gives?" Angela asked as we walked.
"I've just got a lot of stuff to get done and my head is just a little crowded."
"Yeah, but I keep seeing you smile all day."
"I'm just happy to have finally open," we got to the restaurant around the corner and picked up our food.
"Yeah, I guess, you just seem to be really in thought, more than just looking forward to opening."
"I've just been thinking about how I threw up on a guy and how gorgeous he is, how embarrassing."
"Yeah he was cute, I got a good look at him and I think he liked that you threw up on him."
"You're crazy Ang, who likes being thrown up on?"
"Most people don't but he just kept looking at you with this deep look in his eyes."
"Really?" I asked as we entered the apartment.
Alice was sitting in front of the TV laughing at whatever Jon Stewart was talking about.
"It's about time, I'm starving, I was about ready to start gnawing on the furniture."
"We can't afford new furniture after the great pizza famine of '09," I joked.
Angela giggled as she grabbed us plates.
"So Lauren's being a bitch?"
"Yeah, she is just going overboard and controlling, so what were you two talking about when you came in."
"Oh, just..."
"Her green-eyed mystery man," Angela cut in.
"Aww... do you have a crush Miss Bella?" Alice teased.
"He was just nice and I'm a bitch for running away scared, I'm embarrassed."
"So find him and thank him," Alice said with a smile.
"Oh thank him, How? What is the proper etiquette for throwing up on someone?"
"I'm sure he'll take anything you give him," Alice smirked.
"So a blow job it is?" I joked and Alice almost choked on her chicken.
"Oh my God Bella," she laughed "You can't say shit like that when I'm eating, I could choke to death."
"What can I say?" biting my lip and kinda starred off.
"Bella did you just picture yourself blowing him?"
"Maybe," I smiled.
"You got it bad," Angela joked.
"He had long fingers...you know what that mean?" I smirked.
"I can't believe you said that out loud," Angela said laughing.
"Was that theory ever debunked?" I asked.
"I'm not sure, maybe you should do the research Bella," Alice said holding in a laugh.
"I should? Your joking right?"
"I think you should find him." Angela said.
"How?"
"Go back to the bar," Alice thought.
"I couldn't, what would I say to him?"
"Offer to buy him a new pair of shoes?" Alice suggested.
"I guess, then what?"
"I remember talk about some mouth action," Alice joked.
"Yeah, not gonna do that the first time we talk, maybe the second," I laughed.
"So you want to see him more than once?" Alice asked.
"Dear God Alice, I should have never started."
"Oh, you love it," Alice joked.
"I want my fortune cookie," I said as I grabbed mine and handed Alice and Angela theirs.
Alice opened hers, "I'm not telling, It's bad luck."
"That's birthday wishes silly Alice," I said patting her head.
"I'm not taking any chances."
"Ang?" I asked.
"'You'll be hungry soon, order takeout now'," Angela laughed.
"That's too funny mine says 'An unexpected acquaintance will resurface."
"Now you have to find him," Alice stated.
"Yeah, or maybe I just got your fortune."
"No, you were meant to get that fortune," Alice said.
"You and your psychic tendencies."
Alice had to leave soon after we finished eating, she said she would bring breakfast in the morning. We watched and episode of Scrubs and then Angela had to go, we were both worn out.
I closed the door behind her and then I was alone, alone with my thoughts. This man was going to be trouble, not that I knew anything about him but because I wasn't going to get a good night's sleep again. I just couldn't fathom why he was stuck in my head. And should I find him? I think I have to.
AN/ What do you think some Edward self lovin' kinda hot? (I got some help from my hubby on that part)
I am really starting to enjoy finding the music for my stories, if anyone has some music for me to check out let me know.
Songs in this chapter...
Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
Broken by Lifehouse
My beta sisterhoodfan is awesome.
