CPOV

I loved our house in Alaska. It was so remote that we could go hunting for days without ever having to leave the property. We didn't have to worry about coming across any humans because it was isolated enough that we could fully let ourselves go and permit our instincts to lead our way.

That is just what I had been doing- hunting; letting all of my anger, pain and sorrow out on the beautiful wildness around me. There are some areas that no matter what would never be the same again. In one of my fits of intense rage, I managed to destroy a dozen 100-year-old fir trees as well as leaving a gaping hole in the middle of a mountain face. I also managed to scare off any living creature within a one-hundred mile radius.

I looked at the mess around me and deeply sighed. It was times like this that I truly missed my family. The only ones left were Alice and Jasper, and as much as I loved them, I didn't have that attachment with them as I did the others. They were my actual children, which I created out of love and need. Jasper, understood this more so than Alice, having children of his own, even though they were mostly scared of him.

I got off the floor and brushed myself down as best as I could considering the amount of mess I had made. I started running back to the house. The closer I got the more the loneliness began to encompass me again.

I truly did miss Esme. She was always the one that could balance me out. She was the one to remind me that it was okay to be young once in a while. The day she made the decision to leave us behind forced me to withdraw. I don't blame her for leaving. She needed her freedom. She loved me as I did her- but we were never soul mates and she wanted to find hers. She was one of my children, and like most children she desired to spread her wings and see the world through her own eyes. She parted with my blessing and the knowledge that she would always be welcomed back anytime. She was always a Cullen, no matter who she may love.

The house came into view. It was different than most of our other houses. Unlike all of the others, this one was built around a courtyard. It was three stories high and three of the walls were made of glass. We were encircled within by blue mountain stone that made up the back wall. The doors were solid oak which I had shipped over from England. They were especially designed with our Cullen crest engraved in to the deep, lovely wood. The roof and floors were made of black slate, giving the whole house a modern flare. This one, unlike all the others, was Esme's pride and joy. It was the one place we were always drawn to as a family. It was our safe haven when we needed to lay low in between integrating with the humans.

I drifted aimlessly into the family room and collapsed on the white sofa, putting my feet up on the coffee table. Alice walked in a gave me a small smile before knocking my feet off the table and wiped away my shoe tracks that I had left on the polished furnishing. Alice doesn't smile that much anymore. Never since we left Forks. Not since that fool I call a son made us leave the heart of our family behind.

Oh yes, Edward. My body started to fill with anger again just thinking his name. It's a very good thing that he wasn't here at the moment or else his body would have been dismembered and his parts spread over the globe. To say I was upset with my son would be beyond an understatement. Not only did he make us desert the one place where we were a complete unit of family for the first time in 80 years, but the fact he just left us as soon as we were across the border! His parting words still ring in my mind and it was at this point I wished I could have forgotten them entirely.

"Stay away from Forks; most importantly you are to stay away from Bella. Alice: don't look for her future and don't contact her in any way. We've already done enough damage".

No goodbye or I'll contact you to let you know where I am. Just an order and the roar of an engine as he pulled away. At that moment I felt like I should go after him and drag his sorry backside back home- but I just didn't care. God, I missed Bella.

She was the heart of the family. She reminded us what it was like to feel a fresh sense of humanity again. I loved her more than anything in the world. Whenever she was around, my whole life seemed better. Like she was my personal angel that god had sent down to earth just for me. Jasper, on more than one occasion, had to fill me with calm because I would become so giddy. I missed her so much. I don't blame Alice or Jasper for what happened that night. It wasn't their fault. Edward, however, I did blame. It was due to him that we were isolated here in Alaska, a broken family. This was his wish. One that I wanted to break. I would often get as far as the border before Jasper, would stop me though I could tell he wanted to go to her as much as I did.

I was brought out of my thoughts by Alice running into the room screaming. I jumped up so quickly that the sofa fell over with only the sound registering in the back of my mind. All I cared about at this moment was Alice. I opened my arms and she curled herself in them. She was dry sobbing as she pulled us to the floor. Less than a second later, Jasper ran into the room gaping frantically at Alice with fear-laden eyes. I could tell that the atmosphere was causing him problems. He managed to get a grip on it long enough to ask

"What happened?"

"I saw Bella…" she sobbed, "jumping… off a cliff!"

If my heart wasn't still already, those words had the power to silence it. If I wasn't all ready on the floor I would have collapsed to my knees, however all I did was clench Alice tighter to my chest, trying to stop myself from craving the urge to rip my heart out. My eyes were filled with tears that could never fall. Alice's body wouldn't stop shaking, no matter how much I tried to calm her down. I couldn't- no we couldn't- believe what Alice had just said. Why would Bella have done that? Did my family leaving destroy my sweet darling angel?

Without realizing it, a growl ripped through me and into the stillness. Jasper joined me. All I could think of in my rage was one name Edward. He would be angry if we went back to Forks, but what choice did we have, really? We were going back to my angel, and no one was going to stop us. I looked up meeting Jasper's eyes for the first time in weeks only to see them mirror my own emotion. Without breaking eye contact, I spoke to Alice.

"Your vision hasn't happened yet. There is still time if we leave now. If we are to late at least we can help Charlie."

Jasper nodded his head at me as he got off the floor.

"Come on," he invited. "We're going home".

Alice untangled herself from me, saying that she had better let Rose and Emmett know that we were heading back to Forks and why. A minute later she came back, I held out my hand and she took it as we walked out the door to my car.

Hold on my angel. I'm coming for you- just hold on.