Chapter 3: To Uncertainty and Misguided Friends

He waited until Monday, afternoon, when Matt had gone off to work. He had debated calling her, but he still hadn't turned his phone back on, he feared the number of messages he had missed from everyone. So instead, he just walked to her house and knocked on the front door.

She opened the door in a huffed, obviously annoyed and expecting someone. But by the way she froze when she saw him it wasn't him.

"Jeremy." She looked taken back.

"Hey." He smiled.

"Umm. Come in." she backed away from the door to let him in, he entered and closed the door behind him.

"So umm I was hoping we could talk?" He watched as she looked him over and then she turned and waved him in to her living room.

She didn't even wait until they were seated before she broke into a lecture," Jeremy what the hell are you thinking, Elena is worried about you and you haven't returned her calls." The witch paused and took a breath, as if she had to calm herself down. It made Jeremy's blood boil, he was the one that should be angry not her.

"Jeremy, you have to let us fix this." She sat down next to him and took his hand. He was stuck with the childish need to rip it from her hand but he refrained. Barely.

"I think I understand that to you it feels normal. Like you really have feelings from them, but Jeremy to have to see how wrong that is. Klaus killed your aunt, Kol lied and pretended to be your friend so that Klaus could threaten Elena." Again, she took a breath, "I mean even Elijah wanted Klaus dead. Until Klaus told him he would bring him to the rest of his family." She squeezed his hand and he felt something, a slight itch run up his arm. It made him uncomfortable.

He pulled his hand away from her and placed it in his lap. "Bonnie." He tried but she cut him off.

"Jeremy, I can feel the magic around you. It is so strong, that's why you don't want to believe what we are saying, it's messing with your head."

He frowned, "No it's the binding and protection spells. Bonnie, the witches in the past even looked it over. It is not effecting my head."

She sighed and tried to take his hand again, he pulled it out of her reach. He saw hurt in her eyes, he wondered if she was trying to comfort him or if this had more to do with her feelings for him. He knew that they had been on the brink of something before they decided they would be better as friends. Maybe she thought differently now.

"You can't know that for sure. Jeremy, you know so little about magic, and the Mikaelson's aren't above dirty tricks to win!" Her voice had raised as she talked.

"What are they trying to win?" He demanded.

"I don't know maybe the cure, Rebekah wanted it for herself and Kol doesn't want anyone to go after it. Maybe they reached a decision and are planning on using you." She tried to explain.

"Rebekah is in a box and Kol hasn't once! Not once, in the whole time we were together mentioned that damn cure. Your wrong." He shouted.

"He was probably trying to gain your trust, Jer, I still don't believe you traveled back in time. It makes more sense that they planted all this in your head to get you on their side. I mean really Jeremy time travel." She sounded so condescending that Jeremy grinned his teeth.

"Bon, you have no idea what it was like, trust me it happened. And None of them are trying to gain my trust. In fact, they are the only ones that have left me alone since I got back."

She didn't seem to believe him, and it hurt. After everything they had been through in the last few years you would think a witch would be more open to the idea of the impossible happening.

"Jeremy please let me try some spells to break the magic around you. Once I have it broken you will see that you wrong and that you don't really care about them. Please." She gave him the wide eye, pleading, look and there was a brief flash in his head, that maybe, she could be right. "Jeremy, besides haven't you noticed their all men?" And it was gone, that hesitation, all because it clicked that in her head, it had to be magic because they were men. And Jeremy obviously didn't like men.

"Bonnie," He spoke her name, and the anger had to be clear because she stiffened, "I didn't realize that them being men was an issue. They are not the first men I have been attracted to. So, don't try to use that for you messed up reasoning." He got up and headed for the door. Over the conversation.

As he pulled the door open, it was slammed closed with magic, "BONNIE!" He shouted and turned around.

She held her hands up, in a way to show she meant no harm, "Even if you have liked guys before, how can you just ignore everything else they have done? Jeremy, they are monsters." She seethed.

"Like Damon?" He growled out, "He killed me, he broke my neck because he was in a shitty mood, or did you all just conveniently forget that when Elena started dating him."

She went to speak, but he had had enough, "Don't. I just want to go. Open the door."

She looked around, " I will just please listen. Your confused, I know you don't want to believe us right now, because to you, you care about them and can't see that they would hurt you. But Jer, please remember everything they have done, Jenna, attacking Elena, Tyler, even Alaric, think about the people and vampires alike that Kol has killed. They aren't good people. They don't have a good side that can be saved." She closed her eyes, and Jeremy felt the door behind him open, "Please Jeremey, just think about it."

He didn't look back as he left her house.

He hated that her last words kept playing over in his head. He didn't want to think about the fact that maybe she was right, that somehow, they had done something to mess with his head. He remembered the things she had mentions, Klaus killing Jenna and trying to kill Elena, he remembered him high jacked Ric's body and using him to spy on them, he remembered the vampires that Kol had slaughtered to stop him from killing them, and he remembered the past.

Kol helping him understand the past, keeping him safe and feed in the Tavern when he would have had no way to do it himself. Elijah making him go with them to keep him safe and traveling with them. Playing cards and reading, in the carriage that made him miss cars more then he thought ever possible. He remembered fighting for them, when Mikael and the hunters attacked.

They had all taken him in. He remembered how happy he had been when Kol showed up back alive and how amazing it felt when Kol kissed him.

Falling asleep in each of their arms and feeling safe and protected knowing that they were going to keep him safe.

Despite all that he remembered Klaus turning Tyler into a hybrid controlling him and how each of the vampires would kill anyone that stood in their way.

There were tears in his eyes, wanting to fall. He was so overwhelmed. There were so many emotions running through him. All mixed and twisted in his head. There was the love that he had come to feel for each of them, anger at them for everything they had done in the past, betrayed by his sister, who should have been by his side, helping him when he needed hurt. Frustration at everyone telling him how he should feel. And doubt, the last one was the one that finally caused the tears to fall.

Could it all really be so messed up spell?

He let himself cry as he made his way to the cemetery Vicki used to hang out at with her friends. It wasn't the best place to hangout but it was empty. Empty meant quiet and that is what he really needed.

Just a few moments alone.