Another chapter and another huge thank you to my wonderful beta Markslove. I don't own Glee.
Blaine ended up carrying Ruby the last few blocks home. By the time they got to their destination, she was completely exhausted. Pushing the front door closed with his foot Blaine silently carried his daughter to her room. It was well past her usual nap time. When he tried to get her into her bed she grizzled and held on a little tighter. He held his breath hoping she wouldn't wake. Eventually he managed to place her into bed and tuck her in. As soon as she felt her favourite bear's fur touch her skin she latched onto him and stuck her thumb in her mouth. Blaine had to bit his lip to stop himself from cooing over how precious she looked. Pulling out his phone he snapped a photo of his sleeping daughter and sent it to Kurt with the caption Moments like this remind me of why I am a Dad. Slipping his phone into his pocket he grabbed the baby monitor and headed to the lounge to write some music.
Yes, Blaine's intentions were to write music; to write wonderful, beautiful, heart wrenching music. Instead he found himself staring into space wondering about Kurt. Wondering about what he was doing, what Olivia was doing (she really was sweet.) Kurt's laugh, Kurt's…
"I need to get a grip." Taking a deep breath he twirled his pencil in his hand and slowly began to write.
Kurt's phone buzzed just as he and Olivia walked into their apartment building. Making a mental not to check his phone, Kurt grasped his daughters hand and walked with her to the elevator.
"What button should I press?" Kurt asked his daughter.
"The home one."
Chuckling Kurt pressed the button for the sixth floor "Up, Up"
"And away" Olivia shouted jumping up into the air. "I had funny Today Daddy."
"Me too sweetie. What did you think of Ruby?"
"I like her lots."
"And Blaine' he asked biting his lip.
"He's super cool Daddy and he's so pretty like a dismee prince."
Butterflies tap danced in Kurt's stomach.
"We see him again?"
"I hope so Livvy."
The elevator door slid open just as Kurt grabbed Olivia's hand.
"Which door's ours?" He asked as they turned the corner.
"Red one" she pointed to their door.
"That's right baby girl."
Swinging the red door open the Hummel's walked into their home.
Dropping her Daddy's hand, Olivia rushed to her room. Once Kurt had emptied their bag he checked his phone. Smiling at Blaine's message he typed back.
She looks gorgeous. Could use a nap myself.
Groaning Kurt threw his phone on the couch as he made his way into the kitchen. It was stupid; he was being stupid, "fawning over Blaine." He shook his head. Making a coffee on autopilot he continued to think about Blaine. He probably just wants a friend and like he said a playmate for Ruby. Kurt smiled at the thought of the little girl who looked so much like her Daddy. Grabbing his coffee he shuffled over to the couch, knowing he'd have about 6 minutes before his daughter demanded his attention.
Blaine loved Ruby's afternoon naps. It wasn't that he didn't love his daughter, he did, but, her naps meant that he got things done. So far in the thirty minutes that his little girl had been asleep he managed to start on a song and clean up her toys in the lounge and now he was considering if he should text Kurt back. Falling onto his couch he stared at his phone, reading and re-reading the words that Kurt had said. Without thinking of the consequences he typed a message. Once the send was confirmed, he dropped the phone onto his lap as though it were hot.
Kurt was right. Approximately seven minutes after he sat down, Olivia walked into the lounge in her dress up clothes. So far he'd taken pictures of here as a bumble bee princess, a panda and a sunflower. Just as Olivia ran back to her room to get changed into her normal clothes Kurt's phone beeped. Sliding his phone across the screen he pulled up the text.
I was wondering if you'd like to meet me for coffee tomorrow?
Kurt bit his lip. Is this a friends going for coffee date or a date date? "Why is life so confusing?"
Is this a date?
He deleted the message.
I like you can we…
He didn't even finish that message before deleting it.
Sounds great. When and where? I'd love to see you again. So would Olivia.
There. He smiled. The perfect message, not to flirty, but letting Blaine know that he wanted to
see him again.
Blaine looked down at Kurt's message and smiled.
How about Enigma again, I liked it there. Say 11am?
Kurt sent a text message agreeing. The smile on his face fell a little "What the hell am I going to wear?"
Blaine didn't really sleep much that night. He was excited about tomorrow. About seeing Kurt and Olivia again, but, underneath that excitement was fear. Fear of getting hurt by Kurt. Clearly the demons of his past were catching up with him. Closing his eyes he let his mind wander.
The front door slammed causing Blaine to jump; he held his breath hoping that Ruby hadn't woken up.
Blaine's boyfriend Ethan came walking into the lounge.
"Hi Sweetie." Ethan lunged at Blaine who was sitting on the couch.
Blaine managed to dodge him and instead stood up and faced Ethan. "Where've you been? I had to cancel a meeting with a potential record company because you weren't here to look after our daughter."
Ethan rolled his eyes "relax. It's no big deal."
Blaine took a deep breath "no big deal." He repeated through gritted teeth. "This was a great opportunity for me, for us and Ruby."
Ethan stood at took a step towards Blaine "Why does everything always have to be about Ruby?"
Blaine took a step back "are you fucking shitting me? She's our daughter."
"No Blaine. She's not. She's your daughter, not mine."
"You're angry because she's biologically mine?"
Ethan shrugged.
"Is that why you've been staying out late every night for the last two months?"
Ethan shrugged again.
Blaine was furious. Ethan had been a little resistant through the whole surrogacy, but, he'd never said that he didn't want this just as much as Blaine did. Blaine had pretty much been a single Dad since Ruby was born a little over two months ago. "It's not my fault your sperm are fucking retarded!" Blaine winced at the volume of his voice. "Sorry" he mumbled
Ethan took a deep breath "I'm 25 Blaine."
"So am I" Blaine countered.
"I'm not ready to be a Dad." Ethan's voice was barely audible.
"You could have told me." Blaine blinked his eyes trying to keep the tears at bay.
Shuffling forward Ethan reached out to Blaine who took another step back "you were so excited." Ethan explained "and I didn't want to hurt you."
"S'too late for that. There's a baby now and you don't want her."
Although it wasn't a question Ethan shook his head.
"In that case" Blaine cleared his throat "in that case. I don't want you."
Ethan's eyes widened "what? Come on. Are you being serious right now?"
"You're damn right I am. Get out."
Blaine was greeted by a blank stare. "Pack your shit and get out." Blaine's voice was unhurried and low. "I can't be with someone who doesn't love Ruby as much as I do" he whispered between tears. Turning on his heel he headed to the kitchen.
Looking back Blaine feels kind of stupid. He should have seen the signs with Ethan. He never went to any of the doctor's appointments; always claiming that he was too busy with work. Squeezing his eyes shut he tried to stop his mind from reeling. Baby steps. He reminded himself. Friends first. Always friends first. He repeated the mantra until his eyes grew heavy.
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