A/N: I'm not as proud of this as I was for the first one, but hey. I hope you like it.

Disclaimer: I don't own anything but the idea. But who wouldn't kill to own Munro Chambers? ;-)

Chapter 2

Clare Edwards had enough. She'd been moping around her house for weeks. Eli was gone. No amount of apologies, and condolences could change that. Her boyfriend was gone. She wanted nothing more than to be with him. Adam wouldn't let her cut since he knew the feeling. Alli made sure she actually got out of the house. And her parents just didn't care. They just continued fighting, as usual. Clare was pretty disappointed in it. She missed Eli's hugs, his kisses, his smirk, his sarcasm, everything about him. It wasn't fair. He promised he would always be there for her. He lied. She grabbed a piece of paper.

Dear Adam,

I'm sorry. It just had to be done. I'm losing my memories of him, and I can't stand living without him. I miss him, and nothing can help me anymore. I love him, and I need to be with him. I hope you can understand that. Life just isn't working out for me. Mom and Dad keep fighting, Darcy's gone, Eli's dead. My life is slipping away. Who's next? You? Alli? I can't rely on God anymore because I don't want to ever believe in a God that took my boyfriend away. Adam, I'm leaving you some stuff of mine, and I'm leaving Alli some stuff. Just...give the rest to charity or something. I want to leave my clothes, shoes, jewelry, and stuff like that to Alli. I'm leaving my laptop, my ipod, my notebooks, and my cd's to you. I love you, Adam. You're like my brother, but I need to leave you behind. Please don't do anything dangerous? I hope not to see you again for a while. Live life. Go after Fiona. Get married. Make a life for yourself. I know you'll be great.

If Darcy ever comes back, tell her I'm sorry, and I love her. Tell Alli, I love her, and to take care of you, Jenna, and Drew. Tell Jenna, I'm sorry. That baby will be beautiful, but she needs to look for a new Godmother. Tell KC, I forgive him. Tell Mr. Simpson thanks for being a great principal. Tell Ms. Dawes I said thank you for pairing me and Eli up. Tell Sav I said thanks for being such a great almost brother to me. Tell your brother I said the same thing. Tell Holly J I said it's ok to cry. Just let someone in to help her out. Tell Fitz I forgive him for everything that went on between him and Eli. Tell Spinner and Peter, I'm sorry, and they were huge parts of my life. Thank you. I love you, Adam Torres. I'll miss you, and me and Eli will wait for you.

You'll always be 100% guy in our eyes. ;)

Love, Clare Edwards.

Clare signed the letter, and decided to write one to her parents.

Dear Mom and Dad,

Seems like a while since I said that. Well, you guys have been fighting an awful lot, and I'm sick of it. I don't have my boyfriend anymore, and you guys just told me to get over him. Get over yourselves. I'm not doing this just because I miss Eli. I'm doing this because I can't stand our "family" anymore. Darcy's gone, and you guys were going to sell the house. I can't deal with any of it. So I'm taking care of it. Maybe it is "the weaker" way out. But it's the way I'm handling it. Don't you dare, EVER, blame this on Eli. At least he was there for me before. I'm leaving my ipod, my laptop, my notebooks, and my CD's to Adam. I'm leaving my clothes, shoes and accesories to Alli. Now I'm going to do it. Again NEVER blame Eli or Adam! They were there for me all throughout your pathetic divorce. I am done with your shit.

Sincerely, Clare Edwards.

She put the letters in their separate envolopes and put them next to her alarm clock. The only thoughts going through her head were thanking God her parents weren't home. She picked up her phone and dialed the number she knew was only for emergencies. "Hello? Darcy speaking." The voice asked. "Hey, Darce. How are you?" She asked. "Clare, you know this number is only for emergencies. What's wrong?" Her sister asked. "Um...Sorry, Darce. Just wanted to hear your voice. I miss you." The younger sister murmured. "Clare bear, you know I love you, but the cost for these calls aren't cheap. They're long distance." Darcy murmured. Clare couldn't believe it! Her older sister couldn't waste two minutes of her precious time to talk to her! Darcy came for Eli's funeral, then left two days later! "I haven't spoken to you since the funeral! just thought I could talk to you this once, Darcy! I-" Darcy interrupted. "Clare! I have more important things to do! I have to build this school! I have to help these kids!" Clare started crying. Here she was about to commit suicide, and her sister was yelling at her? "Fine. Good bye, Darcy! This will be the last time I ever call you. I wish Eli was here." Clare screamed. "Well, newsflash, Clare! He's not! Okay? He's dead! He killed himself!" Clare started sobbing. "And by tonight...You'll be an only child." She hung up. How dare her sister! How fucking dare she! Clare picked the pills up that she had set up. "Here I go. Two for Darcy. Two for Adam. Two for Alli. Four for my parents. Five for Degrassi. And three for Eli." As she took the pills she felt herself slowly slipping away. She dialed Alli's number. Four rings and she picked up. "Hey Clare. What's up?" She asked. "Um, nothing. I just wanted to tell you I love you like a sis. Okay? You're closer to me than Darce ever was. Love you, Alli. I'll see you." Clare hung up. "Eli, I'll be joining you soon." She cried, as she let herself slip into darkness.

She did something no one ever thought Clare Edwards would do. Even after Eli died, nobody expected her to follow in his path. Nobody expected she would commit suicide. Eli Goldsworthy thought she was smart enough to not follow after him. Darcy Edwards never felt so ashamed of herself. She told her baby sister she had better things to do than talk to her. Clare was one of her top priorities. Then she went and said the thing about Eli. Who speaks about the deceased that way? A monster that's who. A monster named Darcy Edwards. Alli Bhandari never cried more in her life than when she heard what her best friend did. She felt like she failed Clare. She let her best friend slip through the cracks, when Clare so obviously needed her. Her life would never be the same again. Adam Torres never felt so horrible. The only two people in the world who accepted him for him, were gone. His best friends died. Maybe he shouldn't have told them about being an FTM. But Clare did say Adam was 100% guy in her eyes. He would never find people like Eli and Clare ever again. Sav Bhandari couldn't believe his little almost sister died. The second he heard, he knew Alli would never be the same again. Jenna Middleton and KC Guthrie couldn't believe it. Clare had just forgiven them for everything. She agreed to be their baby's Godmother. Everything was going smoothly. Then this happened. Degrassi lost too many people as it was. From the whole situation with Rick and Jimmy, to JT being killed, to Eli almost being stabbed, to Eli actually dying, and now Clare. Degrassi would never be the same. They lost the hearse boy and the church girl.