Chapter 3 – The Ghost of you
A/N: Ok, this story is a HUGE thank for those of you who have been reading & reviewing my story. Thank you guys so much for the love. You wanted more so I'm going to give it. I think this is the longest chapter so far. Disclaimer: The song 'The Ghost of You' is by My Chemical Romance. I don't owe or am making money off of this. BTR does not belong to me either.
Kendall's POV
As we walked on stage I couldn't help myself as I stared down at Logan's ass. Especially in those jeans. I went and sat down at seat next to Ellen's desk and who, you may ask is sitting next ot me, than no other than Logan Mitchell. I groaned in my head that the universe was being an a-hole today since it knows I have a girlfriend but then Logan shows up. Well might as well roll with the flow
Ellen smiled at us as me and her shook hands, "Very nice to meet you 4. I've liked some of your music and It's a great honor to have you guys here. So I understand that you" She pointed to me, "Kendall have a new song you would like to sing for us today. Is that correct?" I nodded, "Yes it is. I wrote this song for my grandmother who had passed away about 7 months ago and I really wanted to honor the fact that today is her birthday and that she would have been 63 today" The audience applauded as Ellen motioned for us to get our intruments set up.
I got my guitar strap over my head as I spoke to Ellen,"Contrary to popular belief we don't just only sing and dance . . . " and then Logan spoke as he put on his bass guitar strap, "and back-flip" I smiled and laughed, "or just back-flip, yes, we also play intruments."Ellen smiled as she looked over at the audience, "Please enjoy this song from the group BTR as they sing their song 'Ghost of you'." The whole audience cheered as Logan started playing his bass guitar and Carlos played the cybal on his drum set.
I never said I'd lie and wait forever
If I died, we'd be together
I can't always just forget her
But she could try
I jumped over to Logan's side. Looking into his brown eyes as me and him sang the next verse.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
I could see the emotion as he sang his part. Logan had such a beautiful voice. I turned and faced the audience.
Could I? Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever...
Ever...
I grabbed onto the mic-stand and leaned forward, trying to convey the emotion and the heartbreak onto my face.
Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies
I lifted my arm as I cried a little, remembering when Nana Knight had passed. We had just finished 10 of our 25 concerts and my mom had called saying Nana was really sick. I would have cancelled the rest of the tour but she told me not to. That to just have fun for her. So I tried my best, no matter how much I didn't want to be on tour anymore.
At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
Could I? Should I?
I placed the mic back on it's stand as I looked back over at Logan. He was smiling at me. He remembers too. I can see it on his face. He's the only one who knows why I'm truly crying. I feel my heart flutter again at his 'comfort' smile telling me to keep going.
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me
And that's when it all started to get calm now. This was my favorite part of the song. I liked to call it 'the calm before the storm'. Raising the mic to my lips, preparing for the tears to fall, no matter how bad I didn't want them to.
If I fall
If I fall (down)
I looked at the audience, watching them watching me cry. I don't know if they thought I was truly crying, if it was the moment or I was just doing this for the song. But I did, I looked back at Logan. He looked at me, mouthing the words 'I'll be okay' with his lips as I took a deep breath. At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
I closed my eyes at Logan's voice. Almost finished with the song that was causing me to remember the heartbreak I felt. But the more I remembered, the more I realized I had possibly been in love with Logan then too. 'How could I not realize THIS?' I blinked back to reality as I tried to finish this song.
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
(Never coming home)
(Never coming home)
Could I? Should I?
I cried more, realizing that I was irrevecoably, undeniably in love with my best friend Logan Mitchell. Singing the final verse with all the passion I could muster.
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...
A/N: That was actually a fun chapter to write. I loved putting all that emotion that Kendall was feeling during song. He realized he has feelings for Logan! But guess what, he's still with Jo. What's going to happen with them? What is Logan feeling? Stay tuned and review to find FOREVER! Also, since I don't have internet at home. This story won't be update til Monday. But I'll write on paper and work on the next chapter during the weekend for you guys. So I hope this tied you guys over til then.
