usual disclaimer, don't own anything, wish i did.
sorry about wait. My computers hasn't been play bal resently. sorry, but i've made this chapter the longest one yet. hope you like. xxxx
Becker POV
I walked down the corridor to the armoury, there was an EMD that needed fixing. I don't know how they do it. I've never broken I weapon in my life (unless you count that one that got eaten but that wasn't my fault, it was Conner's) But my men were breaking one a mission and quiet often more. I wouldn't mind as much if they fixed them afterwards but they don't, they can't. As skilled as they may be at shooting, not one of them knows the first thing about fixing a gun. Even Matt had to ask for my help when his EMD was broken. Between you and me through I quite like it, people having to ask for my help. And it helped me get one up on Matt. I was soon distracted by the clipping of heels.
Jess's heels.
My gut flipped. I was used to this sensation, it occurred ever time Jess's name was even mentioned. But this time it court me off guard. It took all myself control to keep my exasperation neutral. I am a solider should not be having this problem. But a small voice inside my head keeps saying "but you don't want that feeling to go away do you hill." I shunned the voice away but the truth was my life would be hollow without it, and the feeling gave me a rush that I could only previously get from fighting dinosaurs. As I listened to the heels I realised that Jess was walking a lot faster than usual, I quicken my paste. Was she ok? It was probably just Lester telling her she needs to do some paper work by the end of the day. But what if it wasn't? I took a calming breath ,it didn't help. I could just see her in the distance. I fixed my eyes on the folder in my hands, desperately trying not to look at her. I knew after the day I've had, one look at her eyes and what little resolve I have would crumble to dust in seconds.
Just look at the file, keep looking at the file, the file Becker.
The foots steps were getting louder ,just like my heart beat.
The file, just keep looking at the god damn file!
I didn't look up until she walked straight into me. She stumbled, I disregarded the folder without a second thought. I reached out and put my arms around her waste to stop her from falling. But that doesn't explain why I kept them there, but I didn't really care enough to ask myself. I was to busy trying not to think about how right to felt, her being in my arms.
"Are you ok?" The words stumbled out of my mouth. I tried to keep my voice even despite how she was affecting me. I failed. "I'm fine. Thank you" she was still looking at the floor and her voice was a lot more subdued than usual. Not a good sign. "Jess, look at me." I needed to see Jess's face, those beautiful blue eyes, I needed reassurance that she was ok. She slowly raised her eyes to meet mine.
I think my heart broke.
Her eyes were blood shot, on her cheeks and fresh ones were on there way. "Jess, tell me wants wrong? Please?" I all but begged. I slid my hands from her hips to her hands, enjoying the sensation to much for my own good, or Her's. I know that but a that moment all of my reserves were down, Jess was upset. And all that mattered was making her feel better ."I'm fine Becker." She said her gaze returning to the floor. I Looked at my hands, her beautiful delicate fingers in mine.
Then the emotional retard inside of me had to ruin the moment, I dropped my hands. "I need to get back to the ADD" she said in a rush and ran passed me. Not really registering that the ADD was in the other direction. I wasn't registering anything at that particular moment. I just stood there, stunned. Trying to regain anything that even resembled logical thought.
I wanted to run after her, hold her, tell her everything was going to be alright. I needed to know she was going to be alright again. But my legs just wouldn't work.
"CAPTAIN BECKER!"
I heard a screech for behind me that snatched me brutally from my daze. I turned sharply towards the noise. Abby was storming towards me. And right then I understood completely the phrase face like thunder.
next up the show down between Abby and Becker. i won't take as long to up date this time i promise.
mousey
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