It had been a couple of days since Poe had walked in on the Twins argument. He still couldn't believe that Luke was Rey's father; he had been avoiding Rey like the plague since. He saw her when necessary but no more. He couldn't look at her the same way any more, knowing that her father was so close yet wouldn't tell her a thing. He couldn't speak to her in fear he would reveal the truth, and if what Luke had said was true, about Rey having killed her mother, he didn't want to be the one to put her through the pain of remembering that.
Meanwhile Rey had been trying to figure out what had happened between her and Poe. They had gotten very close and then suddenly she just started avoiding her, and she couldn't understand why. One day they were the best of buddies, possibly more, and suddenly they weren't even on speaking terms. She had tried to speak to him many times but he immediately rushed off or just plain ignored her.
Both had feelings budding, everyone but the 2 of them saw it plain as day.
I was on my way to see Leia to talk to her about what I had learned, this time maybe with less yelling. I knocked gently on her office door, and heard a light 'Come in'
"General" I started as I closed the door
"Leia in here Dameron" She told me "I know why you're here. I was wondering how long it would take you."
"Leia, I need to understand more. I don't know how to be around her anymore. I see her, and know exactly who she was, but now I see a different version I have never seen before. I don't know which is the real her anymore. Leia-"
Leia cut me off
"Shut it Dameron." She said in a harsh strict voice, one I had never heard come from her "Don't you dare judge her based on her parentage or her past" she hissed
"Many did that to me, they judged me upon whom my father was, when he was never my father. So do you judge me because my father is Darth Vader, or do you judge me of my actions, all in account not just a few?" She asked
"I judge on who that person is overall the good and the bad" I told her honestly
"Then don't judge her on anything but that. I know you she has feelings for you, whether she is willing to admit it or not, and you have feelings for her, deny it all you want, deep down you know it is true." She told me thoughtfully "Right now, she needs you to be there for her. She is going to need a rock to lean against once she finds out, I know she will break, shatter even. Though she is strong and will put herself back together, but only if she has a reason to. Only if she has someone there for her, willing to do whatever it takes, and not judge her over it. She will need help, and Poe..." She looked straight into my eyes for this "You and the one she will look too, but only if you are there now." She put her hand on my shoulder
"I understand, Leia." I told her and I meant it, I was going to be there for her, no matter what it takes "and I will be there for her" I told her and started to walk out when she called out behind me
"Treat her right, I'll talk to Luke, and I will let you know when he is telling her."
"Thanks" I told her and walked to the Falcon where I knew she would be around this time of day.
I walked up the open ramp and found her in the pilot's' seat, sitting hugging her legs spaced out looking off into the distance.
"Hey" I said quietly taking a seat in the co-pilot's seat.
"I thought you weren't talking to me anymore" she mumbled her slightly hoarse
"No, I am still talking to you. Look, I'm sorry for not talking to you." I told her putting my hand on her shoulder "Everthing just became really messed up, and it's not your fault. I will tell you soon. Just not right now okay?"
"Ok" she mumbled
"And, I am sorry I reacted like I did, and I won't do anything like it again" I promised now kneeling down next to her
She simply nodded her head
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"I... I was worried I had done something wrong and that was why you weren't talking to me anymore... and I thought I had lost my only friend here- and I" she broke off, and finally let the tears that seemed to have been held back out. I immediately jumped into action, pulling her into a hug and picking her up and moving her to the small couch by the table and sat down rubbing her back
"shhh... shhhh. It's ok, I got you. You don't have to worry about any of that. Shh.. shhh. You're okay" I told her continuing to rub circle on her back as she cried into my shoulder. I was glad I was only in a t-shirt, jacket and jeans rather than my flight suit as that would not have been comfortable at all
We stayed like for what felt like an eternity, when finally she had cried her last tear, and had fallen asleep against me.
I wanted to bring her to her bunk but that would have ruined her reputation and not looked good on either of our parts if I walked through base holding her as she slept against my chest, but then I remembered there was a bedroom on the Falcon and decided to bring her there instead. I gently picked her up and carried her to through the halls and by doors until I finally found it and gently put her down on the bed, but as I did she stirred
"Poe..." she said quietly
"yes?" I asked gently
"Will... will you stay with me? Atleast until I fall asleep?"
"yea, of course" I told her and sat next her on the bed, she gently moved to where she was leaning against me, and that eventually turned into her laying in my lap
I leaned against the wall and ran my fingers through her hair pondering on what General Organa had mentioned earlier. He did have strong feelings for Rey, he never had truly allowed himself to think of her as more than a friend, ignoring every hint his heart gave him. I was pulled from my thoughts as my comm went off, I jumped and immediately silenced it in fear of waking Rey, she moved slightly but then went back to being still
I checked it and saw it was from the General, "Come by my office" it said simply, which meant this probably had to do with Rey.
I gently slid out from underneath her and replace where I had once been with a pillow, and snuck out as silently as I could, and made my way to her office
I knocked gently and her her say come in as she had earlier.
"Poe, I finally convinced Luke to tell her. He is telling her tomorrow after their morning meditation." Leia told me
"I want you there" suddenly came another voice, I saw Luke walk out from a door that connected the twins offices "She needs you there, you know her better than me and she is going to need someone there for her that isn't me. Especially when she learns what happened to her mother, let's just say it's something nobody especially so young should ever have to see or do. So please be there for her tomorrow, she will need you."
"I will sir, thank you" I told him respectfully
"No need for formalities in private, call me Luke" He told me "Plus, I have heard your quiet the pilot" He added with a smile, I smiled back and we both let out a small laugh while his sister rolled her eyes at us
It was the morning, the morning that Rey would learn the truth about her family. Not only that but about her past, about killing her own mother.
I got dressed quickly after taking a fast shower and started my way to where they had their morning meditation just on the other side of the hills surrounding the base.
Once there I sat above watching off to the side Luke hiding my presence from Rey, finally they had finished, and as Rey was about to get up I heard Luke stop her, I was close enough to hear their conversation
"Rey, I need to talk to you. About your parents." Luke said hesitantly
"What about them?" Rey asked
"Rey, you... You are my daughter." He told her, finally getting the words out
Rey froze, her eyes widening, she started shaking. I took that as my cue to rush down there, assuming that meant she was getting her memories back. She pulled her legs up against her chest shaking her head buried into her knees. I immediately pulled her into a hug and started whispering in her ear it was okay, she eventually turned and dug her face into my chest holding my tight as she started to scream, screaming about how it wasn't real, it didn't happen, and that Luke was lying. her body shaking and she pounded her fists into Poe's' chest, taking every hit thrown at him. He held her closer until she was just shaking out of tears to shed, and her voice so hoarse she could not longer speak. Poe finally looked up to Luke and met his eyes. Luke's face was covered in tear streaks, his eyes glazed over, it looked as though he felt and saw everything she did, which he probably did, I thought to myself. He simply nodded his head, as if saying good job and stay, as he stood up and walked away never saying a word aloud.
I stayed there holding Rey close, until all the crying and stress and findings had exhausted her. When Leia suddenly showed up
"How is she?" She asked softly
"She finally fell asleep from pure exhaustion, she didn't take it to well; she just stopped shaking."
She sat down next to me and ran her hand through Rey's hair once and then placed it in her lap.
"Poor girl, to learn all of this after wishing for years to know the truth."
"You know, one night I asked her, if she really wanted to know about her parents and her past, if she thought the answers would be worth it. She told me, that anything would be better than not knowing. Now I truly wonder if she was wrong, and it would have been better to have been left in the dark about some of the stuff"
"I know what you mean... You know not many people know this, but what turned Anakin Skywalker to the Dark Side, was his love for our mother and Luke and I. He wanted to save us, he had apparently been having nightmares about Padme, my mother, dying. And when he thought she had died, he lost all hope and everything that tied him to the light, and he gave up fighting the dark side from taking over, he let it, he channeled his sadness and pain through the force, wishing to never have to deal with it ever again. You know, we never knew it til years after his death, but Vader means Father. Sometimes I wish I never learned my parents were Bail and Breha, but other days I am glad I found out, because now I have my brother. I would have never learned that if I hadn't learned about my father."
"Wow" I said simply, not knowing what to say
"Right now, it may only bring pain but later, it will have it's purpose" she told me looking at her niece
Suddenly Rey started to shake again, but this time it was more of jolting around, she was having a nightmare, she started screaming again, no word was understandable
"Rey! Rey! wake up! It's ok, shhh... Wake up." I told her shaking her, Leia helping as well trying to wake her, when she finally shot upward, breathing heavily
"Rey, shhh... it's ok, I got you" I comforted
"Poe... Poe... I- I killed my mother. Poe I killed my mother! How- how could I have... Luke, Luke is my father... nooooo, nooo it was all a nightmare it's not real, it was just a bad dream noo!" she shook her head burying it into my chest, I rubbed her back, as she broke down, and fell apart, shattering into pieces smaller than the remains of Alderaan after it was hit by the Death Star
"The base should be mostly clear right now, most everyone is either at lunch or at a briefing right now, I can get you back her quarters, you can stay with her there as long as she needs, and if you ever have something you have to do or you just need to take a step out or just take a break, me or Luke will go sit with her." Leia told me and I just nodded my head and stood up with Rey pulling her closer, as we made our way to her quarters avoiding everyone in the halls that had remained which was very few but were easily gotten rid of by Leia before they could even see Rey. I walked in and set her on her bed sitting next to her as she fell asleep in my lap like she had done yesterday, I took down her buns and ran my fingers through her hair until she was calm, I awaited the nightmares that would come...
Wow guys, I just wrote that all in one sitting, I hope you all enjoyed I have had writers block, review follow and favorite!
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