Tossing Our Hearts.
Chapter 3.
The darkest nights.
A/N
I tried to add more of the Edward wanting Bella, Bella wanting Alice thing into this.
Hope you like it. (:
The faded noises of squealing children were starting to disappear as we walked further and further away from the police station.
I looked back.
Hoping to see at least one happy child, parent, teenage, police officer, any sort of person with a happy emotion found across their face.
But none.
Even the youngest of the children there, the little 2 year old that sat in her mothers arms, clinging furiously to her shirt collar, didn't have a smile, or any indication that she was the least bit happy.
At that age, your biggest worry should be not finding your crayons, or your juice box's straw had a hole in it, nothing like this, this seemed wrong.
"Alice?" I asked after a moment of trying to find her in the darkness.
I pulled the blanket Edward had strung across me, over my shoulders, shivering at the sudden warmth.
"Yes, Bella?" Alice held her hand out, stroking it gently over mine.
"Where did Carlisle and Esme go?" I glanced down at our hands, then back to Alice, waiting for some kind of hope or faith in her voice.
"Well, Carlisle.." She croaked. "has gone back to the ward, a lot of people were injured, they need his assistance. As for Esme, she's gone to take the.."
I watched the pain in her eyes, she was aware of the circumstance, I was aware as well.
Emmett came up behind us before, frightening us at the least.
His arm buddled up around Alice, he towered over the top of her, kissing the top of her head, gently as he spoke. "It's not your fault, Al. You needed to keep Bella safe."
A quick pain shot through my heart, tears filled my eyes, and my knees quickly gave way, leaving my body to fall to the ground.
This was my fault.
"Bella!" Emmett took his arms from Alice and directed them towards me. "Bella, you have to be careful, it's okay, it'll be okay."
His was booming in my ears, he had me in his arm, my legs dangling over the side of his muscles, his voice became more of a distant noise, more of a heartbeat sound, one that rocked me off to sleep.
To dream about the reality.
"Edward? Is that you?" I tried opening my eyes, but they felt as though they were superglued shut.
"It's fine, Bella, I'm here." I recognized that tone instantly, a smile spread across my face, as I attempted in sitting up, I noticed Edward had his arms wrapped around me, I laid back down, trying not to ruin the moment Edward had created.
"What.. Where am I?" I sighed, briefly thinking I'd fallen over and ended up in the hospital again.
"You're in your bedroom, Bella." I could start to see a little clearer now, Edward was in the same clothes as the day before, his hair looked rugged and played with, I bit down on my lip, had he been with a woman?
"Why am I here? Shouldn't we be at your house? I was sleeping over there last night because Char.. Charlie! He'll be home any second an-."
"Bella. Settle down. Charlie's down at the station. Do you remember anything at all from last night?"
I shook my head, a slight pounding against my ear starting.
"No, last night? I.. I don't think so, no, what happened?"
Edward let go of his embrace, sighing slowly as he fixed up his hair.
"A clan of newborn vampires crossed through town last night, they've been going from state to state, town to town.. They passed through last night."
"Newborns?" my voice was almost at that of a yelling range. "What? Is everyone okay? That's why you all had to go? That's why Alice had to stay? Alice! Why didn't you tell me?"
"Your safety has to come first Bella, we had the Denali clan up with us and Jake and his dogs eventually came, we thought we could take it on, and for a fair while we had control.. But the rest came through and.."
His voice trailed off. I lost my hearing. I stared up at the roof, and watched it spin.
It started coming back, the moment with Alice, the beauty she made me feel, the fun we'd had.
The sudden way my heart felt.
"..they took 5 public buses to the forest, you don't understand how many there were, we couldn't stop them, as hard as we tried, they over-powered us, Bella. We didn't know their tactics, they were knew, they were blood-thirsty."
Edward stopped, staring down at me, brushing his finger over my cheek.
All these people were killed.
People will have to live with this the rest of their lives.
That night people were thinking their last thoughts, taking their last breaths, saying their last words.
And all I thought about that same time was how I wished the night with Alice would never end.
"I've let you down." he repeated non-stop. "I'm so sorry."
They didn't know their tactics, that's why they needed, Alice. Alice. Alice. Alice.
It all came down to her.
And why wasn't she there?
Me.
It was a few months later, the town had all their patrol out still, searching high and low, making sure every single part of town was safe from whatever it was that had attacked that night.
All the children who lost their parents, still lived in their crowed orphan home.
All the parents who lost their children, mourned in pain.
The few survivors of the attack, were still in a comma's.
Everything had pretty much stayed the same.
I needed to shake it up.
"Edward." my voice shook a tiny bit as I called his name, he quickly rushed to my side, just like always when I'd call his name.
"Yes, Bella?" he helped me up from the chair I was sitting in. "let's go to my room, yes?"
I nodded my head, following in his tracks as we walked up the stairs.
"It would've made a difference if Alice was there, wouldn't it?"
"Bella, we don't need to talk about this."
"Yes, Edward! Yes we do, it's important to me, you need to talk to me." my lips curved into a frown.
"It may have made some altercations to the process, but I'm not promising that it would've made a bigger difference."
"That means yes, doesn't it?" I took 3 deep breaths, letting my body fall onto the couch, then let them go, left them to flutter off in the air.
"Stop blaming yourself, Bella." Edward began making his way to me, stopping over my body, as he sat on the of the couch.
"I want to do something for the orphans."
It was partly my fault that this tragedy was struck upon them, and this whole time I'd done nothing, the Cullen's already had their minds made up that I needed to be protected from the newborn clan that had already skipped town.
I needed to make it up to the community somehow.
"What do you have in mind?" he got closer, crawling beside me, tracing a finger down my neck.
I coughed slightly, I'd tried my best not to give him the wrong idea, but still somehow.. He'd gotten the wrong idea.
"What do children need most? Love. They need love, Edward. Fun, hope, someone to be there for them." I watched as he nodded. I decided to keep going. "I was hoping maybe.. Esme and Carlisle would consider giving me some money, to buy the kids gift, and take them out for a day of that, maybe help them overlook things for a little while, even if that while is a few hours, it'd be progress, they're getting nowhere just sitting in that orphanage."
Edward's face lit up, his eyes closed, then re-opened, peering straight back into mine.
It made a little giggle come out, I could feel my cheeks start to burn red.
"That's a fantastic idea, Bella."
His fingers reached out, gently touching the side of my face, running up into my hair, he tugged softly as he ran his fingers through.
"Well, I kind of hoped you'd think so." I looked to the side, trying not to meet his gaze.
"I do." he whispered softly, turning my face back to his with his index finger.
"I do." he repeated before placing his lips on mine, holding my cheek softly with his left hand, he pushed his tongue in deeper, playing lightly with mine, I bit carefully on his bottom lip as his lips grew into a smile.
I forced a smile back.
