"ROXAS!"
Roxas was rudely woken up by Sora, who literally sprung all the way from the door, and landed right on top of the dozing blonde. The said blonde didn't even register anything, until he saw Sora's smiling face inches from his.
"Sora," Roxas grumbled, still half asleep, "what are you doing?"
"Guess what time it is?" Sora asked eagerly. Roxas didn't reply; instead, he turned his head to escape his twin brother's disturbing stare. "Rox?"
"Go away." Roxas mumbled, closing his eyes to fall back asleep.
Sora pouted and bounced on the bed, the entire frame shaking violently. Roxas's eyes widened, holding on for dear life. If he hadn't done so, he'd be on the floor right now.
"Let's go out to eat some breakfast!" Sora demanded, bouncing harder. Roxas was instantly awake, and he tried with all his might to shove Sora off. It didn't work. "Come on! I want some pancakes."
"Then go without me!" Roxas snapped.
"No." Sora stopped the shaking and nuzzled Roxas. "You're my older brother."
Roxas paused. "Riku's not coming?"
"He has practice. I think we could have a little bonding time."
Roxas wasn't convinced. "You just want those pancakes. I'm not stupid, Sora."
"Fine!" Sora finally got off the bed. Roxas saw that his brother was already dressed, while he was still in his pajamas. "Let's go, sleepy head."
Roxas knew Sora was as stubborn as a mule. When he wanted something—he'll never give up.
"Whatever." Roxas yawned and sat up, stretching like a cat.
"We're leaving in five minutes." Sora concluded, leaving the room. Roxas could hear Sora talking to Cloud.
First Roxas took a shower, and fixed his hair for the day. He then got dressed, putting the clothes he dumped yesterday into the dirty hamper. He found some matching socks and put them on, along with some shoes. In five minutes exactly, he was ready to go.
Cloud was drinking some coffee with Sora, who was begging for some.
"Sorry, Sora." Cloud said, not giving in. "But you're too hyper. Giving you coffee would, well, be very unhealthy."
"But I like the smell." Sora insisted.
"Let's go." Roxas said, walking into the room. Sora turned his attention away from the coffee, and grabbed his phone.
"Pancakes here we come!" Sora said, too loudly for Cloud's taste.
Cloud snapped in irritation, "Sora, tune down your voice. Jesus."
Sora winced. Cloud wasn't a morning person, like Roxas. Sora seemed to be the only one who was bright and awake in the mornings.
"Take your phones." Cloud added. "So you can call me if anything happens."
Roxas found his phone on the table and stuffed it into his pocket. He and Sora headed out, walking on the sidewalk. Normally Roxas would ride his skateboard if he went somewhere, but Sora didn't know how to ride skateboards.
"Isn't this great?" Sora nudged Roxas with a grin. "We're going to spend the morning together."
"Like I said, those pancakes are your only interest." Roxas replied.
"They're part of my interest." Sora looked away. "So I talked to Kairi yesterday and she said that Namine wants to talk to you."
Roxas groaned. He just got his mind off of her!
"Apparently she's really sorry." Sora continued. "And Kairi said she really likes you. She thinks she messed up."
"To be honest, I don't like her anymore." Roxas admitted. It was true. Whenever he thought of her, he felt sick. Sick to the stomach, like he was thinking of dog poo or something. He no longer felt any attraction to her whatsoever. Hell, he wasn't even sure they could still be friends, knowing what her ass looked like.
"Really?" Sora looked shocked. "But I thought you said she was the one?"
"I was wrong."
"So…Namine wanted to come over to our house and talk to you. To apologize." Sora looked very uncomfortable with the conversation.
"She can come. But I'll tell her I don't like her anymore."
"How come you don't like her?"
"I just don't."
Sora knew Roxas didn't want to say anymore, so he quickly pointed ahead and exclaimed, "LOOK! There's a squirrel!"
Like Sora said, a squirrel ran up the tree, terrified of the two boys. Roxas merely blinked, while Sora laughed.
"How come it's afraid of is?" Sora asked.
Roxas shrugged.
Since there was nothing else to do, Roxas casually took out his phone and turned the screen on. Hm. That mysterious person had texted him in one in the morning.
Depends on what you mean by "innocent", Blondie.
Blondie? Roxas stared at the screen like it was a puzzle. Did she just call him…blondie?
Should he text back?
What the hell. He didn't know the girl, nor did he ever think he'd get to see her, though she could live right down the block. So he texted her back.
I mean when a girl seems different than all the others, and she turns out like all the rest. I'm so confused now.
Seconds after that, there was a reply.
Confused? Define confused.
Roxas glanced at Sora, who was walking with a bounce in his step. He was busy looking up at the trees.
I don't know…just confused. Now, whenever I think of her, I feel sick. Like I'm disgusted.
Roxas sighed. Great, he blew it. Now the girl was going to think he was crazy and stupid. He was almost afraid to look at the text when his phone vibrated. Nonetheless, he looked at it.
Maybe you're gay.
The words stared back at him.
Roxas dropped his phone. Sora stopped to look at his brother, who looked like he just saw a ghost.
"Rox?" Sora asked.
Roxas just stared ahead. Gay.
Gay.
Gay.
The words echoed in his mind. Gay was when a boy liked boys. Roxas wasn't gay. He couldn't be gay! He had to carry on the family's name for Pete's sake. That meant he had to have kids. With a girl, not a guy.
Cloud was already disappointed in Sora for turning gay. Roxas just couldn't be gay. He couldn't. He liked girls. He loved their boobs, and their soft skin and their soft voices. He—
-was already feeling sick from the thought of a girl.
Was he…gay?
Was that why he felt so confused?
Roxas glanced at Sora. Sora looked like a typical guy, and he was gay. Riku was a girl's dream—and he was gay! They were awesome people, and they were gay.
Was he a bad person because he was gay?
Roxas shook his head. No. He wasn't gay. He was born straight, and he'd die a straight man.
"I, um, just saw a weird bird." Roxas said, making up an excuse. "Sorry, let's keep going."
The two continued their trek to the diner. They found a booth next to the window, and a waitress came up to them.
"What can I get you two boys?"
"The biggest pancakes you have!" Sora said excitedly, not even looking at the menu.
Roxas looked at the girl. She had blonde hair, pulled into a long ponytail. Most guys would find her hot and pretty. But when he looked her over, he felt bored. And sick at the same time.
Maybe you're gay.
No. He wasn't gay. That was ridiculous.
"I'll have an omelet." Roxas said passively.
"Aw come on, Rox!" Sora said. "Get a pancake. They're good, with syrup and stuff."
"No. An omelet, please." Roxas smiled at the girl.
She winked at the twins. "Are you two brothers?"
"Twins." Roxas and Sora replied in unison. The girl looked stunned, while they were used to that happening.
She laughed. "Well I'm Rikku. You're order will be right up." She walked away.
"So what kind of bird did you see?" Sora asked Roxas, fiddling with the menu out of boredom.
"A weird one."
Roxas took out his phone and looked at the text. Those insulting words stared at him, as if mocking him. He glared at the screen, wishing they would just disappear.
He used to have nightmares about him turning gay. They were always about his ancestor who would look down on him in disappointment since he wouldn't get married to a girl. And there was always Sora, who was proud and with his husband, living a happy life. Roxas had all the pressure.
So he couldn't be gay. It wasn't an option.
So why did he find those words so insulting? Was it because they were…true?
"Was it big?" Sora pressed on.
"No."
"Small?"
"In between."
In between. He was like the bird—in between. He had to be straight, yet he felt…like he was almost gay.
Okay maybe he was gay. What would happen then? Cloud would get pissed off and more disappointed in his children. Sora would probably be happy for him, and most of the girls at school would be surprised.
"So it wasn't big," Sora said, "and it wasn't small."
"Exactly." Roxas shifted in his seat, and lowered his voice. "Hey. Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure." Sora had no idea what was going on.
"What would you do if I was…gay?"
Sora blinked. Roxas expected him to smile and be all happy, or congratulate him. But all Sora did was stare at him.
So Roxas panicked. "I-I know, it's stupid. I know Dad's going to be pissed off at me. But I'm so confused. Whenever I think of a girl, I feel sick. I feel bored and disgusted."
"Roxas."
"And then I think of boys and I get those butterflies. And I'm so jealous of you because you get to be gay when I can't!"
"Roxas." Sora silenced Roxas, who looked scared. "Being gay isn't bad. It's who we are. If you're gay, then Dad shouldn't be mad. He should accept who you are. What makes you happy." He paused. "And I went through this confusion, trust me, while I was with Kairi. But you have to come to a standing point, you know? I guess the Namine thing kind of woke you up." He then grinned slyly. "So. You're gay, huh?"
Roxas felt his cheeks blush. I am so dead when I get home.
"Yeah. I guess I am."
For once, those words weren't so bad. In fact, they made him feel better.
"Promise me you won't tell Dad." Roxas demanded.
Sora rolled his eyes. "Fine, fine. But when do you plan on telling him the truth? It's not good lying to him, Rox."
"I know." Roxas sighed and leaned back into the sofa. "It's just…I don't know if I can handle his anger right now."
"How do you know he'll get angry?"
Roxas shot Sora a "duh" look. Sora agreed.
"So you're officially gay? That's pretty fast—I mean, you realized that in three days. That must've took a lot of thinking."
Or a couple of texts.
Speaking of texts.
Roxas took out his phone and decided to message back the person. Yeah. Guess what? I think I'm gay.
He felt proud. Prouder than being straight. It wasn't so bad being gay.
Until people would call him "fag" at school. Roxas frowned. That didn't sound very promising.
I had a feeling. Guess what? I'm gay, too.
Roxas's eyes popped out of his head. HE WAS TALKING TO A GUY! He thought he was talking to a girl!
Holy—
"Rox? Can you hand me a pillow?"
Roxas felt like he was hyperventilating. His chest was moving rapidly from his fast breathing, his skin got all pale, and he knew his eyes were bright red.
He was "talking" to a guy this entire time?
You're a guy?
Roxas texted him back, not thinking properly.
He got a reply.
Last time I checked, yeah.
Great. Not only did Roxas find out he was gay, he also found out his mysterious texter was a guy!
Roxas texted back.
What's your name?
His phone vibrated almost instantly.
Tell me your name first, blondie.
Roxas never thought he could text this fast.
Roxas. Now tell me your name.
Another reply.
Hmmm. Nice name. Eh, I don't want to tell you my name. I'm too lazy to tell you.
Roxas threw his phone at the wall. Sadly, it didn't break. It only landed, safely, onto the ground.
Sora looked at Roxas in shock. He had been trying to get his attention for the past five minutes, but Roxas seemed to be playing some kind of intense game on his phone. Little did he know that he was texting someone.
"Stupid phone!" Roxas blurted.
"I guess you get into the games." Sora observed. "I do, too. But not that much into it."
Roxas grabbed his phone, and ran into his room without another word. He replied to the texter.
Jerk.
I'm no jerk. I just don't give my name to random people }:D
I didn't want to know your name anyway. So see if I care.
Oh you care. I can tell you do.
How?
I have ways. Got it memorized?
Roxas stared at the screen. Got it memorized?
Is that a saying?
You can say so. But I invented it. See, I'm a genius who invents things. Ha.
No you aren't.
Got that right. They say Einstein copies my math homework. That's how smart I am.
I doubt that.
Aw don't be a hater! I know I'm lying, but who doesn't lie?
Nobody doesn't lie.
See my point?
Whatever.
So how's it like being gay? Fun, right?
It's…confusing. I just found out today.
Let me guess. I'm the one who "woke you up"?
…shut up.
Oh! I was right! Score for me. Anyway, you'll find that being gay is fun. Guys aren't little tricksters like girls. Well, some are, but not most of them are.
Okay.
Anyway, I need to take a shower. I'll talk to you when I'm out ;)
Tmi.
Roxas lay on his bed, staring at his ceiling.
"Roxas! Now can you hand me those pillows?"
A/N:
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