Ichigo's P.O.V
The loading screen was said to load for a good 10 minutes. I sat there, my head hung as I wander into my thoughts. Rukia and Renji left for what I thought was ages ago. Renji said something like "Stay strong." What does that mean?
The screen let out a fuzzy sound.
I leaned closer to it.
"Kurosaki-kun!"
I stumbled back.
There I saw, a princess, curled up in her bed, her mouth repeating the same words as two white streams of tears continuously flowed down her face. She looked so empty; so lost…
So hollow.
I felt my cheeks flare up as my visions began to blur in a thick glaze of water. Is this Orihime? Her eyes were swollen from crying. Her shirt was wrinkled beyond human recognition. Her hair lost its shine. I let my hand reach towards her, trying to just somehow touch her. My hand materialized over the screen as the screen let out a loud buzz.
I pulled my hand back. My hand traced towards my heart. "Orihime…" My voice was cracked. I clenched at my heart, and looked at the sunset. "How long have you been doing this, Hime?" My eyes hurt from looking at the sun. My eyes looked into the screen. My heart aches so much. She was still curled there, tugging at the bed sheets, soaking the bed in her endless streams of tears.
"Hime…" Did it hurt so much to her that I'm up here? If I've been in her place, would it hurt so much too? My thoughts trailed. And I came to a conclusion. It did. It will hurt so much I probably can't move. It hurts so badly… To know that we're worlds apart.
I saw Byakuya at the corners of my eyes. Realizing my tear stained face, I rubbed at them hard as if I could erase them from existence. My bandaged body hurts, but it'll never hurt as much as my little beating heart. "Byakuya? What are you doing here?" I called out, facing him with a fake grin. "No need to act fake with me, Kurosaki Ichigo. I brought in your dinner." Byakuya scowled as he brought in a tray of delicious food that I had no intention of touching. "Why are you wearing that?" I looked at his outfit. For some weird reason, he wore a frilly maid costume.
Maybe he's into it? The cosplay thing.
I then noticed the chappy bunny drawn with markers on the right side of his silk white apron. Hichigo snickered in amusement as I tried my best not to break into a fit of laughter. "The chappy bunny… Rukia-" I couldn't finish my sentence. "Yes. She told me to cheer you up." His face was dotted with sweat.
I snickered like Hichigo, but regretted it immediately after. Why am I laughing when Orihime is over there crying? It felt so wrong. Everything feels so wrong here.
I miss my psychotic dad.
I miss Karin.
I miss Yuzu.
I miss Chad, Ishida, Keigo, Mizuiro and even Tatsuki.
For some odd reason, I miss Don Kanonji.
I even miss Kon and his perversion with well-endowed women and with Rukia.
I miss everything that I had when I was still alive. Regardless with my powers or even before that.
Looking at the tray of sashimi, katsu and rice, and a whole lot of stuff that I wouldn't care about in front of me, I feel as if I could cry again. I'd prefer Yuzu's curry than any of these expensive stuff, even more, I'd prefer Yuzu's curry than the most expensive food on Earth.
Looking at my constipated face, Byakuya sighed. "I will take my leave now. Enjoy your dinner, Kurosaki Ichigo." Byakuya got up and left, a thud as he slid the door back in its place. Good, I thought. That's good. There's nothing I want more than to be just alone, with a hologram that was nothing like the Inoue Orihime that I loved so dearly.
My spine gave up on supporting my bandaged frame. I leaned against the wooden floor as my hands covered my eyes. I like it dark. I just want to feel the slightest bit of what she has to feel now. Locked up in a cage in an empty void. No one caring for her. Helpless.
"Hime…" I whispered in my awful crackling voice. "Hime…"
I feel so tired. I pressed hard on my eyelids, to feel the weird pain as if my eyes were swollen. I heard her voice from across the room. Soft and cracked, just like mine. "Kurosaki-kun…" she started, her snuffles and chokes pained me. I got up, my thumbs wiping away my tears as my eyes face the screen. My eyes already hurt from my rubbing and pressing and crying.
She opened her window, and there was a bright reflection imprinted on her face. Her eyes looked so dull. Her skin looked dry. Dark circles loop over each other under her Payne grey orbs. My princess…
Her fingers, wriggly lines on the tips, drew a circle again and again. "Kurosaki-kun…" She stated again. "How is it up there? I bet it's nice, having Rukia and Renji with you. Are you promoted, Kurosaki-kun? Did you find a place to live? I'm so worried about you, Kurosaki-kun, even until now." Her fingers traced the circle for about the 15th time. "After you left… Time felt like it stopped. I cried so much. I miss you, Kurosaki-kun." Her nose was red, like Rudolph's.
I sat quietly, listening to her words carefully. She didn't sound cheerful at all. She sounded devastated. "Tatsuki came over 3 times since the day after your…" She choked and coughed, her tears overflowed from the rims of her eyes. Her hand clenched at her heart. I felt my hand tugging at my bandages too. "Your death." She hiccupped, her eyes glistening in tears.
My death…
"I can't do it, Kurosaki-kun!" She let her voice rise a bit. I found that depressing. "I can't let you go, Kurosaki-kun! You're the one who made me find myself. You saved me. You helped me. You cheered me on so many things. You let me find a reason to be myself again. You brought me back from the edge of death!" I can feel her shaking even from here.
I sat quietly, hearing all her confessions to the moon.
"Thank you, Kurosaki-kun!" Orihime tried bowing, but I understand if she's not in the mood to.
At that moment, I heard a strange vibration from the screen and Orihime froze. "Ah…" She put on a faint smile. "S-sorry, Kurosaki-kun… It was my phone." She tried to play it off, her embarrassment. "Orihime…" She's faking it so that if I could see her, I would be relieved. "Honestly…" The eyes that shone when the moon's soft glow reached it looked down at the windowsill. "Tatsuki, Chizuru, Michiru and a whole lot of people had been texting and calling me." She hiccupped, her tears collecting at the rims of her eyes. I wanted to wipe them dry. I wanted to hug her. I wanted to kiss her and tell her everything's going to be alright. I wanted to rescue her from her little cage of insanity.
No, this is not the Orihime I love.
My hands hovered against the cursed screen. Why couldn't my hands just reach her from this hologram? "I… I don't want to read them. I don't want to look at those messages if there isn't any from you!" Her eyes squeezed itself shut, her hands tugging at her heart, her head shaking from side to side, her tears falling like the shattered pieces of our hearts. My eyes widen at this. My phone…
So what if I couldn't get back into the world of the living? I'd text her! I'd call her! I'd let my call last for as long as I live. I swung open the door towards a lit room. "Rukia?" I nearly slipped as I slid the door. "Ichigo? What are you doing here?" Renji looked at me, his green tea in his hand. "My cell phone! Give it to me!" I yelled at Rukia. I don't care anymore. I just want to listen to Orihime myself. I just want to feel her close to me.
Rukia handed me the phone, her eyes full of suspicion. "Thanks." I barely said it as I ran back to my room. My fingers dashed across the keyboard. I miss you so much, Hime.
I love you.
I love you so much it hurts.
I pressed the send button, only to be greeted by a face of Captain Mayuri Kurotsuchi in a chibi version. "You can't send anything out!" It yelled. I pressed send again. "You can't send anything out, substitute shinigami!" It yelled again.
I tossed my phone away. My fingers ran over my bangs. My cheeks burned as I felt the first tears fell.
I just wanted to be with you, Hime.
Why did fate have to separate us?
"I love you so much, Inoue."
Hime.
I'll do whatever it takes, if it meant I'll see you again.
I rubbed my eyes and looked at the screen again. Orihime slept by the windowsill.
I smiled to myself.
I don't care about being a king or whatever, I just want to be Orihime's boyfriend, maybe even more than that.
I let my hand through the screen and let it buzz there.
I'll find a way before squad zero.
"I promise, Hime."
I saw a lot of grammar mistakes in the previous one! =="
I hope you guys will like this.
Sorry again if i space too much... It adds more drama.
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