Well here is the third chapter! It's a little short, but with work and school work I have been uber busy...yes i just said uber. I really hope you like this chapter i mean its kinda odd, but i hope it makes sense...Thanks for reading this has been so amazing for me. I hope to have another chapter out sometime by the middle to end of this new month.. I am so sorry I didnt have this one out by the end of july(Im only one day behind, but that is still behind.) Well enjoy..
After we had gotten home from the doctors we sat on the couch. All of a sudden I had a strange craving for pickles. I had really never liked them, but they sounded so good at that moment. I looked to my left and saw my brother eating one.
"Can I have a bite of that, Xavier," I asked, not wanting to just take it. He lifted his eyebrows and shrugged his shoulders. He handed the pickle to me. I fell in love with it. I went to the kitchen to get my own. I walked back in the living room with a smile on my face.
"Bella, you're so weird," my dad said as I sat back down on the couch next to Jake. I nodded my head. Jake sat there tense. I wondered what was happening, until he shot off of the couch.
"Bella, I've got to go. I love you," he said, as he kissed me on the forehead. I sat there dazed and confused for a couple minutes. Then I received a text message from him.
Bella,
I am done. I'm moving this is over. I don't want to leave, but I have to. Goodbye and please don't do anything stupid.
- Jake.
I couldn't believe what was happening. The room started to spin in front of my eyes. I thought I could trust him. I love him. I ran outside and took my car to his house. He was still there, but for how long, I wasn't sure. I ran to his room and knocked on the door. I could here him sobbing through the door.
"Jake! What are you saying? That you don't want me anymore?" I screamed through clenched teeth. He looked at me with tears running down his face.
"Bella, I do want you. I just can't take it. I know you don't love Edward anymore, but knowing that the baby will never be our baby is a constant reminder that I'm not your first love. I love you and the baby, but I need to get away from here. I want to be as far away from you as possible. I love you, but I just don't want to be a father to a baby that is not my kid." I could feel the hurt across the room. I went and looked him in the eye.
"Then tell me that you don't love me. I will go away if you do. I know that you love me and this baby no matter what. If you want to leave me just tell me you don't love me. I wont stop you." I looked at him, and in that moment he sat down. He pulled me onto his lap and let out a sigh.
"Bella, I can't say that because it wouldn't be true. I do love you and I always will. I just don't know what to think about that baby." I knew that it would be hard, but I know he can be the father this baby needs. I loved him. I know what kind of man he can be. He looked at me as if he could hear everything I was thinking.
"Jake, don't leave please don't leave. I'm begging you to not leave me. I don't know where I would be without you." I couldn't help the tears flowing down my face. I couldn't stand the thought of losing him forever.
"I wont leave. I promise, but if that baby looks like him more than you. I promise you wont hear the end of it." I laughed at him and kissed him on the lips. It was so passionate I could feel his heart start to race. "Wow, I didn't think kissing anyone could be that amazing." I smiled , and thought, I really hope he means that. That makes me feel so good about myself. I had been having doubts myself, but I never thought twice about them. I knew that this could happen, but I never thought he would act on it. I knew he loved me and love would keep us together. There is just something about him.
"Well I have to get back home, my good sir." I kissed him again and drove back home. I walked up to room and finally laid my new pictures of the baby on my nightstand. I looked at them and smiled. I couldn't wait to have my baby, but then again I could be wrong. I fell asleep easily that night. I was to happy not to fall asleep. I woke up to get a shower. As I stepped on to the rug after my shower I heard the a little meow. My dad opened my bathroom door, and walked in with a beautiful kitten in her arms. "Dad, why do you have a kitten?" I was so excited I smiled like there was no tomorrow. My father put the kitten in my arms, as its little eyes started to open.
"My friend at the police station has a cat at home. They didn't know the poor thing was pregnant, and they were giving away the kittens for free. So I decided maybe we could have on animal in the house. On one condition, you take care of it. That means making sure he is fed, watered, and knows where the litter box is. That also means cleaning it." I was so happy with him. I ran to my bed, with my towel around me. I hadn't noticed it was starting to slip. As I got to the bed the towel fell to the floor, and Xavier decided to come in to see what all the commotion was about.
"Omg I think the moon is out a little bit early tonight." I put the kitten on my bed and picked up my towel. I felt the warmth spread across my cheeks. I was really hoping this never happened.
"Shut up!" I yelled at him and he backed out of my room in defeat. I heard him laughing down the hall. I knew that he was just picking on me, but my ass wasn't that huge and white. I chuckled at that thought. I picked up my new kitten again. " I should probably start thinking of a name for you." I got dressed, and sat the kitten in the cat bed my father had bought for him. I sat at the computer looking at cat names. As I was searching I noticed that the kitten was trying to fast to get off his bed, and kept falling on his face. As I watched him the name came to me. "I think I'm going to call you Comet." He looked at me for a second, and let out a soft meow. I nodded to myself knowing I made the right choice. I thought for just a second after, how will I ever name my baby? I couldn't wait until the next doctors appointment. It would mean one week closer to hopefully finding out the sex of the baby. A couple minutes later I got a call from Jake.
"Bella, I don't want you to do schooling on your computer. I don't want to miss seeing your smiling face light the hallways." I rolled my eyes thinking about that for a second. He is such a dramatic person sometimes.
"I will always be here. When you get out of school, and get out of drama club, come visit me." I said hoping he would say yes.
"Fine, but it wont be the same." I could hear the hurt in his voice, and I felt a single tear fall down my face. I knew I shouldn't be crying, but I didn't want him to feel this way. We both needed to be strong.
"Jake, just think someday we will move out, get married, have our own house. Then you'll be able to see my bright smiling face everyday. All the time. I love you and that's never going to change." I knew that I had finally got to him.
"I know, and I love you so much. I sometimes wonder if you truly know how much I love you." I smiled. I wanted to talk to him longer, but he had to be at school in fifteen minutes.
"Bye, and have a good day. I promise you'll see me tonight. I might even make you diner."
"Bye, Bella. I love you." He hung up after he said that, and I knew it was time to start my school work. Over the next week I noticed my body starting to change. I was finally starting to show a little. Just enough to show that I am pregnant. I knew that in two more weeks I would be fifteen weeks, and hopefully I will have my own little baby belly. I couldn't wait. I thought about watching my baby grow up. Having a good life for the baby, but then again its going to be hard. I know it wont be easy, and I know I have to grow up fast. I just sometimes wish I wouldn't have ever said yes to Edward. I looked out the window and rested my hand on my belly. Then I started my school work not the best point in the day. All day I was ecstatic to see Jake that night. About four in the afternoon I went to start cooking. I decided to make pizza. I knew we had everything. I took my time and it was about six when Jake walked in my door. I was just pulling the pizza out of the oven.
"It smells so good," Jake said. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck. I smiled and turned around.
"Well wasn't that a nice greeting." I was so happy with him, and I hoped nothing would change. I mean I knew I had to grow up, but not for a little while. We had a romantic dinner and talked about our future. I was happy and then the baby kicked. I was so shocked I stood up and held my stomach.
"What's wrong?" Jake flew off his chair as he said this, and ran over to me.
" The baby kicked!" I was so happy in that little moment. I knew then that being a mother would be one of the happiest parts of my life. I sat back down, and thought a little bit. The next four weeks were the best times of my life. I went to the doctors, met Jake's parents, and I watched my baby and Comet grow. The doctor decided that now that I'm in my second trimester I should start going every two weeks. My next appointment was in the morning.
" So Bella how have you been feeling," Camellia asked, as I sat down in the chairs in the waiting room.
"Better, but I'm so tired lately." She chuckled and said it was time to come in.
"Okay Bella, are you ready to try and see what your baby is?" I was so excited all I could do was nod my head. She sat there look at the baby and suddenly used the machine to zoom in a little. "Bella, your having a girl." I smiled like a clown. Knowing that there was a little girl growing inside of me was what I thought of every day for two weeks. The thoughts of her consumed me. I was even trying to find names for her.
"Bella, what are you doing on there again," asked my dad as he helped me clean the litter box for Comet.
"I'm looking up baby names, I don't want something normal. I want her name to be different like mine." I said, while a smile slowly spread across my face.
"What were you thinking then?"
"I was thinking Blair, or maybe Summer. I think I found it."
"Bella, I'm confused what did you find?" My dad looked at me with eyes like daggers. I sat there for a second to breath, and I looked him straight in the eyes.
"I'm going to name my daughter, Summer Nicole Swan." My dad started to cry, and I went to him and hugged him, " What's the matter?" I said this with bewildered eyes wondering what was so wrong that my dad had to cry.
"These are not tears of sorrow, Bella. They are tears of joy. That is such a wonderful name, and will suit her very well." He smiled, as we both cried tears of joy over the wonderful dream that is my beautiful daughter.
