I'm sorry that I haven't updated sooner, but here is chapter three. Also I still don't have a beta, so if anyone is interested contact me. Anyway I hope you like my fanfic. I apologize for my spelling and grammar errors.

Chapter three Memories of the past

Six months ago Rory was away of her own, unemployed and with no one who actually really knew her. She rented an apartment in a little town in some country in Europe which she'd get thrown out of since all her money were gone. She spent the days hanging out in a park mostly searching through ads in the newspaper, she needed a job quick or else she'd end up homeless on the street. She also spent endless hours of writing e-mails to Logan which she never dared to actually send to him and of course writing to her mom.

One night she was out at a club, sipping on a drink while feeling completely bored to death. She didn't expected to meet anyone, but she did. She decided to go home and get some sleep when someone walked straight up to her.

"Is that you Rory?"

"Oh my good! Tristan!?"

What is he doing here? Rory thought feeling a bit shaken up.

"Well hello to you too, he said and smiled at her."

"What are you doing here? In Europe I mean, I haven't heard anything from you in...well years!"

"Um... you could say that I'm sort of exploring Europe? How about you then, Mary?"

"It's Rory. I was here working but I got fired last week, it's not something I really want to talk about, just leave it. Anyway rent is due soon so now I'm just looking for a job. Any kind of job actually since my dreams actually went through a window last week."

"Okay, Tristan said. Maybe I can help you with that, I work at a strip club and I know they're looking for some new girls..."

"Um when I said any kind of job I actually..."

"Hold on Mary, I'm just kidding with you. But actually they are looking for some new girls to hire but not only for dancing, there are some other stuff to do there to."

"Like what? Rory asked."

"Cleaning?"

"Um okay, cleaning what? Rory asked"

"Floors? You now how to clean right?"

"Of course I do!"

"Good, how about if I get your number and I'll have them call you?"

"Okay, thank you. I'm not ready to go home yet, that would be admitting that I failed to make my dreams come true and everybody believed in me and I don't want to let anybody down."

"I see, well I'm gonna be around for a while, let's hang out sometime?"

"Sure, it nice to actually know someone in a foreign country."

Rory got the job, as a cleaner at the club where Tristan worked as a bartender and they started to hang out a lot after that. One time they when they went out clubbing together they ended up sleeping together, and after that things started to change.

"I feel like I don't know you anymore, Rory, Tristan complained to her a week after the so called accident. I mean I know there is something between us, I know you feel it to."

"Cut it out, Triss, so we slept together once, we all make mistakes in life. I know that you've made some to, a lot actually."

"So? Having sex with you meant something to me, you're not a conquest. I'm sick of acting like the bad guy. I think I actually want to be with you. Only you, Mary."

"Stop it. I'm going back home anyway. I do not need this now, or ever."

"You're going back to Logan? Tristan asked making Rory regret that she actually tolled him about her relationship with Logan and that he had asked her to marry him and that she had turned him down."

"Maybe, I don't know. But I do know that I'm not going to stay here with you. We're nothing but two friends that drank to much one night and ended up having sex, there's nothing to it. Things like that happens all the time."

"Rory, Tristan started to say but she cut him off."

"Just don't. End of conversation."

Even though she said she were going back home she didn't, but she never saw Tristan again. Sometimes she missed him and some other times she felt relived that he was gone. That night they ended up sleeping together was something that she really regretted doing, by not sharing the same feelings as Tristan she ended up hurting him and that was so not at all how she wanted it to end. The only thing she actually thought of was Logan and she hated that she still loved him and that she thought about him all the time.

Getting back together with Logan was great, if only she'd tolled him about the one and only night with Triss, but that would've meant that she'd have to tell him her big secret. He didn't needed to know that a week before going home she had a miscarriage being pregnant with Tristan's baby. No one knew this. Not even Triss.

"Rory is that you?"

Lorelai opened the door to Rory's room.

"Hey, she said when she saw her daughter filling up boxes with the items in her room. I see you're packing. I guess you were serious about moving in with Logan."

"Yeah, of course. But I do feel sorry for what I said. I'm having some trouble dealing with some stuff, I shouldn't have taken it out on you. I am really sorry mom."

"That's okay. I'm sorry to. All I want for you is to be happy."

Rory felt tears starting to dwell up in her eyes. She really wanted to reveal her secret to her mom, her true best friend.

"I..., she started to say but got cut off by the phone."

"I'll get it, Lorelai said and ran out of Rory's room to pick up the phone."

Even though she didn't wanted the baby in the first place she cried a lot after she had lost it. She didn't even get to make up her decision whether to keep the baby or not before she had the miscarriage, so when she lost it she actually felt that something was missing inside of her.

Lorelai came back looking annoyed.

"Who was it? Rory asked."

"Some guy who said he had dialled the wrong number."

"Okay. Before the phone cut me off I was actually trying to tell you something..."

"I'm listening. You sound quite serious, is everything okay?"

"No it's not and then Rory started to reveal it all to her mom."

When she was done talking she looked at Lorelai who were sitting beside her at the bed.

"Mom? Rory said. Aren't you going to say something?"

"Huh? Of course I am, just searching for the right words, hun. Um.. Help me?"

"No. Please say something. Anything."

"Um okay.. Do you want to order some pizza?"

Rory sighed.

"No, I'm not hungry. I should finish packing and drive over to Logan's."

"I'm sorry I really don't know what to say. Maybe you should talk to someone about it?"

"No. I just wished I had said something to Logan before we got back together, it feels like there's a big wall or something between us now, Rory said sadly."

"I understand how you feel, but maybe if you tell him he won't get upset?"

"Mom, I know him and he will get upset and I do so not want to hurt him and if I ended up loosing him over this fucking secret I would truly hate myself for destroying everything with my dishonesty."

"Oh, I see. But how will he ever know then? If you don't tell him how will he now? You said that you didn't say anything to Tristan right?"

Lorelai looked hopefully at her daughter hoping that everything would work out for her.

"I know, but keeping this big secret from him is eating me up from the inside. Plus Triss is trying to contact me more often now for some reason, what if Logan answers my phone and Triss tells him about our night together?"

Lorelai sighed.

"I wish I could help you, she said and gave Rory a hug."

"I know, Rory mumbled feeling a bit comforted in her mother's arms." Her cell rang and she picked it up.

"Ace, are you on your way over here?" Logan said before she even got to say hello.

"In a minute, Rory answered. Are you hungry? I could pick something up on my way home?"

"Okay, I'll see you soon."

"Bye, Rory said and hung up."

"I really should get going, she said to her mom whom were sitting on her bed looking in a photoalbum."

"You were so little in this pic, Lorelai said."

"Mom, kids grow up it's what they do."

"Yeah I know, but time goes by so fast I mean you're in your twenties already! If you're getting older that also means that I'm getting older to and that really sucks."

"You're not that old, Rory smiled."

"Maybe not, but I am old enough to have a grown up daughter."

"Yeah but life does go on and someday you're going to be a nana. It's only natural getting older."

"Not to soon I hope?"

"No, we'd like to get marry first and have some time on our own and then maybe have kids."

Lorelai smiled.

"Speaking of nana, are you coming to dinner on friday? Richard and Emily would like that."

Rory sighed.

"Okay, but only if I can bring Logan and promise me that you're going to be there."

"Of course, I might bring Luke to."

"How is Luke nowadays?"

"Fine, accept that he wants me to marry him this instant and I keep telling him that I need some more time, just a couple of months you know?"

Rory nodded.

"I might actually be getting married before you then, she said calmly"

"Um are you reallt that eager to get married?"

"No, but knowing you it might take a while before you actually get to the aisle. Last time you..."

"Stop it, we all know about that time and we're truly done talking about it, in fact I think that..."

Rory's cell rang again and she picked it up.

"I'm almost on my way, she said. Sorry that it's taking so long."

"I'm flattered that you want to see me."

"Tristan, Rory said biting her lip. What do you want?"

"Well hello to you to."

"I got nothing to say to you that's all. In fact you may as well now that I'm going to marry Logan within a year from now."

"That's what you think."

"No, Triss as I've tried to tell you before I really love him. We're moving in together today."

"So what? You have lived together before."

"But this is new anyway. It's different now."

"Mary, Tristan started to say but Rory cut him off."

"My name is Rory, she said. I know that you used to call me Mary because you saw me as Virgin Mary but I'm not. I'm not an innocent little teenager anymore who goes at Chilton.

"I know, but you are still Mary to me anyway."

"Whatever then, I don't feel like chatting about old memories so what do you want?"

"I want you."

"That is something you'll never have, Triss. You really should puncture that dream you have got of you and me being an item cause it will never happen."

"Don't be so sure of that."

The doorbell rang and Rory heard her mom open the door.

"I decided that I should come and get you, Logan showed up at the door to her room. What's taking so long, Ace?"

"I cannot call you Mary but he gets to call you by something as stupid as Ace? Tristan said in the phone."

"Shut up."

"Who are you talking to? Logan asked curiously. You sound upset."

"Oh just some old classmate from my days at Chilton whom I ended up running into in Europe."

"Huh what's her name? It's not Paris is it?"

"No, Rory said. His name is Tristan."

"Have you tolled him about us? Tristan said in the phone."

"No, Rory answered. And that means that you ain't going to say anything either okay?"

"Um okay then. I'll be quiet. So when can I meet him?"

"Never."

"Are you ready to go soon? Logan asked."

"Yeah, Rory answered him."

"I always get what I want, Tristan said on the other end of the line. Always. You can't say no to me Rory."

"That's where you're wrong Triss, I can and I am saying no to you, Rory said looking at Logan who looked very confused."

"If you don't tell your little boyfriend about us I will, Tristan treathed her."

"I don't think so. Please leave me alone. I am nothing to you, not even your friend."

Rory hung up the phone without waiting for Tristan to say something back.

"Is he some old boyfriend of yours that you haven't tolled me about? Logan asked."

"No. He is no one."

Whom I slept with in Europe and got pregnant with, Rory thought to herself.

"Does he know that he's no one to you?"

"Yes, but he just can't let go of me. The word no apparently doesn't exist to him. I'm thinking about changing my number. I'm sick of him trying to talk to me, if you met him you'll see that he really is a crazy guy. He should be locked up in an mental institute. Who knows how many people he is harassing besides me?"

"It seems to me that he is in love with you."

"No, he is nothing but obsess about me. Anyway let's not talk about Triss, I only get angry. Can we please go home now?"

"You're finished packing your stuff?"

"I have and anyway if I've forgotten anything I can always come back here and get it. This is always going to be my second home and this is always going to be my room, Rory said and smiled."

"I know that."

Logan kissed her cheek and smiled at her.

"I love you, he said."

"I love you to."

"So I am asking you, Lorelai Gilmore. Will you marry me? I can't think of a better time to ask you."

Logan got down on one knee, looking up on Rory's face which turned in to an smile.

I think I'm the happiest girl on earth, Rory thought looking down at her love. I don't know if I could possibly love him more than I do know. I can't wait to marry him!"

"Yes, she said with a big smile on her face."

One word was all that Logan needed to hear. He put the ring on Rory's finger.

"I love you, she said and kissed him."