So I finally have chapter three, sorry if it is really serious and emotional, but it supposed to be a traumatizing time for Hitsugaya. I hope that it is any good. I finally got an alone scene with Hitsugaya and Karin. It's not very romantic but its better that nothing. Please review, as it will give me the motivation to keep writing. Also as you should know I do not own Bleach or any of the characters. I only own my ideas!

There was a whole in his chest. The chain jingled as he moved. Hitsugaya knew this was bad but he wasn't thinking clearly. He simply stared at the now dark sky. Everything was still and quiet as Hitsugaya absorbed into his thoughts and memories. All that he had, being in rukongai, the shinigami academy, being assigned on his first mission, becoming captain of squad 10 would be gone. He felt his back, Hyorinmaru wasn't there, and he never will be. Hitsugaya had spent nearly two hours just staring at the sky. But after all that time to himself, Hitsugaya had not realized that his shinigami clothes were slowly fading away. It was getting late. The moon was just a tiny sliver of a crescent barely visible. Hitsugaya finally started walking away from his favorite spot in Karakura town. Walking down the winding path, Hitsugaya let his mind numb and his heart to stop feeling. What was the point dwelling over something that was lost, something that could never be returned? It was permanent and nothing could be done to change it.

After over two hours, Hitsugaya decided he was not going to let this bother him anymore. It was done and he was the kind of person who was not an emotional sap. But still this feeling in the back of his mind just couldn't let go. It was bothering him. He had spent enough time feeling sorry for himself. Even if Hitsugaya no longer had his shinigami powers, he had the pride and honor of a taicho after all. That was something that was not lost.

"Toshiro…" he heard someone say from behind him. It was a girl's voice. Hitsugaya turned around. It was Kurosaki Karin running towards him, one of Ichigo's younger sisters.

"Kurosaki…" Hitsugaya replied without really looking at her.

"Ano, it's a nice night, a bit chilly though", Karin stated trying her hardest to keep up a conversation with the quiet ex-shinigami taicho. "Do you like looking at the stars, and the moon?" she asked quietly.

"I guess you could say that", Hitsugaya replied while staring at the crescent sliver moon. "Why are you out here so late Kurosaki, you should go back home, its not safe to be wandering out here alone".

"I should ask you the same thing, and besides you're here right so I 'm not alone", Karin replied with a slight smile.

Hitsugaya turned away from her and started leaning on the railing. Then Karin slowly walked over and leaned against the railing as well. Both of them spent a few minutes in silence just looking at the dark sky. Karin and Hitsugaya had a lot in common but they just did not realize it. Karin was reminiscing over the first time they met, and how he was always at this very spot looking at the sky. She also thought about how Toshiro had come back to visit again during the winter. She had met Haru obaa-chan and had started visiting her even after Toshiro went back to soul society. She barely knew the white haired "boy" standing next to her, yet she felt like she understood him.

"I haven't officially thanked you for all your help, you and your sister. Kurosaki-san as well", Hitsugaya ended the silence abruptly.

"Oh, your welcome…and you don't really have to thank me, its all right. But what about you…" Karin trailed off as she looked away from Hitsugaya's face. He wasn't really looking at her either. Karin knew she shouldn't be asking him this but she still felt very concerned for him.

"Toshiro, you…your chest, that chain…and your clothes" Karin said nervously as she realized the chain of faith on Hitsugaya's chest.

"Uh, yeah I am now just a normal spirit. I don't know why but this happened and I can't stay for long otherwise…" Hitsugaya stopped. They both knew what would happen if Hitsugaya stayed in the world if the living for too long.

" Matte, we have to get you to the soul society place… Ichi-nii will take care of it" Karin replied while sounding too worried for her character.

Hitsugaya closed his eyes and his usual scowl appeared. The two of them started walking. But a second later Karin grabbed Hitsugaya's wrist.

"Toshiro, my house is the other way, where are you going? Ichi-nii…" Karin asked

"Without saying a word Hitsugaya turned around and grabbed Karin and swung her around his back and quickly ran to her house. It was late at night and the wind burned Karin's eyes a little as she held on the Hitsugaya's shoulders. What was happening, Karin was on Hitsugaya's back and he was the one who pulled her on.

"What, let go Toshiro, I can walk for myself" Karin said as the struggled but soon she regretted being that harsh on him.

"Hitsugaya ignored what Karin had just said and kept running towards her house in silence.

A few moments later the two of then were in front of the Kurosaki clinic. Hitsugaya let Karin off and still with his back to her he finally said "Sayonara Kurosaki Karin, it was nice getting to know you and thanks for all your help" then he was gone.

Karin was left in front of her house wondering what had just happened. She went to find Toshiro and they exchanged a few words and looked at the stars for a while and now he had just left her in front of her house and left. Something about his words sounded like a final good-bye, as if that will be the last time they saw each other. Karin barely knew him but still she felt very sad for him.

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Hitsugaya was walking toward the Urahara Shoten. He had spent enough time dwelling over himself. He quickly arrived and opened the door.

"Ah Hitsugaya-san, I was wondering when you would get back" Urahara said in his mocking tone but quickly shifted to his serious tone "There is something I must tell you".

"Is it about me being a regular spirit and this chain?" Hitsugaya replied with a calm face as he walked inside the shop and sat down at the table where Urahara was sitting.

"As you probably have already discovered, you are now a normal spirit. This is very unusual. From what I know when a shinigami loses their reiatsu they simply become a wandering spirit if they have enough reiatsu left to sustain their existence. Therefore they have two choices. One is to return to live in Rukongai. The other is for them to use a gigai and live as a normal human. Ofcoarse I only know of one shinigami in history that lost their reiatsu and lived to tell the tale." Urahara finished.

Hitsugaya was taking in what Urahara had just said. Hitsugaya looked up and then Urahara started talking again.

"As for you, this is very tricky. The other shinigami that lost their powers did not have a chain so it was ok for them to stay her. But you have a chain of faith and this is very strange. I am not sure that it is possible for you to stay here. For now it is safe to assume that if you stay in the world of the living then eventually…"Urahara finished as they both knew what he meant. Hitsugaya would turn into a hollow.

"I will ask Kurosaki to perform a konso", Hitsugaya stated.

Urahara looked up from his green striped hat, and finally said "Hitsugaya-san, I don't know what will happen but If it works and you go to soul society…sayonara Hitsugaya Toshiro. I know what its like to lose your captaincy and your life in seretei. It is not easy but you will be fine"' Urahara said with the most serious tone to have ever come from his lips. It was so serious and out of character for Urahara that one might wonder if it really was the goofy ex-captain candy shop owner.

"I still have not informed Soul Society of this. I am sure Gotei 13 will wonder what has happened to their juubantai taicho." Urahara said as Hitsugaya was stood up to leave.

"Do you wish to talk to anyone before you go the Kurosaki-san?" Urahara asked.

"Hinamori…I am so sorry that I cannot protect you anymore. I have failed." Hitsugaya thought as he followed Urahara to his computer-like communication device. It was much more convenient that the giant television screen-like one he and Matsumoto used at Orihime's before the winter war.

"A message for the soutaicho from Urahara Kisuke and Hitsugaya taicho" Urahara stated.

Afterwards…

"Arigato, Urahara-san and everything you have done" Hitsugaya replied as he walked out the door of the Urahara Shoten towards the Kurosaki Clinic. He had been there just earlier and yet this time the whole world seemed so distant from him…

Well that was chapter 3. I hope it wasn't too depressing and serious. I will try to lighten the mood next chapter. Please review any thoughts, concerns, and suggestions. Please tell me if the story is going at a really slow pace, because I think I might but I am not sure and this is my first fanfiction.