**Rated M for some sexual content***

I sucked it up and knocked on the door, it took a few minutes but Randy finally let me in.
Before I could explain, he looked at me, the next thing I knew I was on the bed. I tried to listen to advice of my mother and of Nattie. Everything became a blur.

A few days later we left the hotel to fly back to St Charles, I had barely spoken 4 words to him, I refused to wear my wedding ring, I had thrown the brand new kindle in his suitcase. I was a shell of who I use to be. Not to mention I was having horrible nightmares.

Cody even noticed how quiet I was being, I put my head phones on, but could still hear them talking.
"I'm guessing by the way she's acting, you actually made it happen?" one tear slipped down my cheek.
"I have never done that to anyone, and I am hoping it never happens again, I felt like the biggest pervert in my life." Randy said before looking back at me. "So it turned into a power struggle didn't it?" Cody asked. "Not at first, but the more we progressed, she began to panic, and she turned it into a struggle."

I closed my eyes, and slowly dozed off... ***Dream/Flashback***

Randy looked down at me as he put his arms around and gave me a hug. "I won't push you but don't tell me that you're not willing to even try being in this special moment with me, I am willing to let you have control, if it gets to be too much tell me and I'll stop." He said pulling me over to the bed.

He started a movie as I threw on my pajama's I climbed into bed hoping to watch the movie he had turned on. I was into the movie, when he leaned over and started kissing me on the neck.
I tensed up but eventually got use to the feeling, after awhile the clothing slowly disappeared, I didn't think it was half bad, I ended up underneath him, with him laying on top of my legs, I felt the bludge in his underwear and that's when I was done. "Ok Randy, I've had enough for tonight, get off of me."
I said sliding out from under him, and reaching for my nightshirt. Before I could put my shirt back on, he pulled me back under him. "It's normal that you're a bit panicky, just relax like you were, everything will be fine." He said from that point in, it got real rough, sometime his underwear came off, mine ended up at my ankles. He went back to kissing the same spot on my neck, I lost my senses.

When I came back to world of the living, I knew something didn't feel right about it, He had pressed his body in between my legs where I couldn't move. "I'm not going to lie Aisha, it might be a bit uncomfortable at first, I'll go slow and let you adjust." Randy said moving one hand in between my legs, that's when I felt him positioning himself. "Get off of me, I didn't agree to this and I won't be subjected to it." I said trying to move myself out from under him. "I'm so sorry, please don't hate me." was the last thing I remember him saying. I felt the worst pain in my life, I screamed and again tried to pull away, but it was like all of his weight was pressing down on me, he didn't move for a few minutes, just laid with his face buried in my hair. I gave up, I didn't struggle with him, I let him finish what he started, but made the vow it wouldn't happen again.**** "Hey were at the airport, you ready to go home?" Randy said patting me on the knee bringing me out of my nightmare. I got out of the car, grabbed my carry on, and walked into the airport.