When they got back to the flat Dan was so drunk he could barely walk, Phil knew it was going to happen but he wished it wouldn't happen just this once. Phil carried Dan to the bedroom and helped him undress. Once they were both in bed, Dan rolled on top of Phil, who wrapped his arms around his drunk boyfriend.

"I... Loooove youu..." Dan said drunkenly.

"I know, but you need to sleep now, baby." Phil responded.

"mkay." Dan said, just minutes later he was snoring softly. Not long after Phil was also asleep.

He was 14 "You can't hide from us Danny boy!" He heard his mum yell, she pulled open the shower curtain and found him curled up in the shower. She had a wooden spatula and was hitting Dan with it. James was behind her laughing.

" what are you going to do, faggot, go succ a dick?" James laughed. Dan was crying. He was 16. Then all the sudden he was at his ex boyfriend's house. He heard the door slam. And then kris was in the bedroom, he unzipped his pants.

" Succ it, bitch." Kris was saying. Dan did as he was told, hoping not to be punished. Kris came hard into Dan's mouth, Dan had no choice but to swallow it. Kris pushed him onto his stomach on the bed. He pulled down his pants and without warning pushed into Dan. He just cried silently into the pillow. He was 17. Then he was in his boss's office.

"I quit!" Dan yelled but his boss caught his arm and jerked it up.

"You don't leave until I say you can, slut." His boss responded pushing him into the wall," get undressed you bastard." He said, Dan quickly undressed and his boss pushed him against the wall, slapping dan's ass hard. Dan woke up crying. phil is still asleep. He though heading towards the bathroom. He found a razor blade under the sink.

"Stupid. Stupid. Dan." He said cutting his wrist with each word," he won't ever love you, nobody loves you." He looked at the mirror," you'd be better off dead." He said making a deep cut on his right wrist. Dan dropped the razor blade and curled up on the floor crying.

Phil woke up and realized Dan wasn't in the bed," Dan?" He asked the empty room. He heard a sniffle come from the bathroom. He opened the door, and saw Dan crying on the floor. He sat down next to Dan and pulled him into his lap. He carefully looked at dan's wrists, he saw the bleeding cuts counting 5 in all most of them weren't too deep but one was.

"Dan, baby, why did you do this?" Phil asked. Dan sniffled.

" I... I had a dream... My mum, James, my ex, my boss... All people who I thought L-loved me... But they all hurt me and so will you, Phil. Everyone does." Dan said quietly.

"Dan, sometimes you have to take care of yourself because. Nobody else is going to do it for you. I would never ever do anything to hurt you, I love you." Phil said.

"No you don't. Nobody does one day you'll leave and you'll say I don't love you and I can't live without you, Phil, I can't." Dan said, tears soaking through phil's shirt. Phil pulled Dan up and sat him on the sink counter. He got some Bactine and a rag. He quickly cleaned the cuts being extra careful with the deep one on his right wrist. When he finished he kissed Dan softly and carried him to the couch. Phil got Dan a glass of water.

"Dan what do you want to eat?" He asked.

"not hungry." Dan responded.

"Dan, you're never hungry but you need to eat something, how about I make pancakes?" Phil said heading back to the kitchen.