Peeta

The Peacekeepers and I are on the way to President Snow's office. Nervous on what he will say, but I need to be strong for Katniss, Haymitch, and the People that I care about. We reached the door and I entered alone. Then I saw the man I hated all my life.

"Oh, there he is! The man of the year! Brave Peeta Mellark!" He said. I gave him an odd expression. I don't know whether to thank him or not for agreeing with me, but I know I shouldn't because there's a huge dept waiting for me to pay.

"What do you want?" I ask. Better ask what he wants. I don't want to beat around the bush.

"Always so eager, hmn?" He said and smiled.

"Just tell me what you want in return." I said raising my voice.

"Well, let's not beat around the bush. I want you to be the Capitol's New Toy." He said. I'm little confused on what he said. So I asked.

"What?"

"You know just like Finnick Odair. You're a handsome man Peeta. When I mentioned it to the Capitol women they're all ready to bid. They're all excited to get their hands on you."He said and grinned at me.

"You're going to sell my body" then it sink into me. I saw my future right before my eyes, every woman in the Capitol playing around with my body, passing me like I'm some kind of a toy or rag.

"You know why they love you Peeta? Because of your unrequited love. A charming young man who's in love with a girl, who never loves him back, fell in love with her since he was a toddler. Sacrificed his life so she could live. Every woman in the Capitol wants to experience that love Peeta, even just for a matter of hours." Then he smiled deviously.

"When do I start?" I'm not backing out. He kept his promise and I'll keep mine too. I'm not letting him to my misery. I don't want him to see that I'm vulnerable and scared because if he does he'll know that he controls me.

"Tomorrow I'll give you the list of names. Go here to my office." Tomorrow? Then I can't go home with Katniss and Haymitch.

"I'll be here." I mumbled the turn my back on him and leave the room. Even outside I hear his devious laugh.

I started to walk but not caring where I am. Capitol's New Playtoy new name huh? Boy with the Bread. What else? I sit on the floor because I can't walk anymore. I started to cry knowing I don't have a way out of this situation, after a few minutes of crying someone tapped my shoulder. I looked up and saw Finnick Odair.

"Why'd you do it?" He asked. So he knows, he knows I was the reason the Quell was cancelled.

"I don't have a choice. I wanted to save Katniss. I know she'll risk her life for me and I don't want that. I don't want her to die for me. I'm not worth it" I said.

"What about you? Are you worth to be in this situation?" he asked. He seems angry.

"You're not worth to do this either Finnick. We both agreed to this because we have no choice." I gritted to my teeth.

"You're right. We are not worth it. But I'll help you Peeta, I'll tell you everything you need to know about the job that you're going to do." He assured me and I thank him for that. He helped me get up. We started to walk through the crowd when we saw Hamitch. He looked at us and suddenly he became furious. He run to me and grabbed my collar and lead me to an empty room when he found one, he pinned me on the wall.

"Why!" He yelled! He knows.

"I just have to do it Haymitch!" I yelled back. Finnick is trying to get through us but Haymitch pushed him hard and he stumbled on the floor.

"You don't deserve this!" He yelled, angry.

"No one deserves it Haymitch! But if I didn't do this, would you save Katniss? Would you keep your promise? No! Because I know you Haymitch! You think Katniss is right that I deserve to live more than her. You all think I'm a saint that I could do better in this fucked up world! But no! I'm just like all of you in here Haymitch! I killed, I watch people die right through my eyes and every day it's haunting me!" I screamed then I cried. I couldn't hold it anymore. The tortures haven't started yet but I feel broken, restless.

"It's going to be alright boy. I'll be here with you." I looked at him and saw the sincerity in his eyes.

"Thanks old man." He smiled a little. He lifts me up and patted my back. The three of us started to walk, we didn't say anything we let the silence overwhelm us. We step in the elevator when we reached Finnick's floor he mumbled a goodnight to us. Then the elevator stopped to our floor. Haymitch and I walk quietly, and that's when we saw Katniss. She's wearing her night gown. I thought she'd be asleep by now. Haymitch looked at me and nod then he entered his room.

"Peeta." She started. I didn't look at her, afraid that she'll notice that I cried.

"I thought you'd be sleeping by now." I said.

"No, I want to know what Snow wanted from you." She said.

"Oh that." I said. "Nothing. He just wanted to congratulate us that we get to continue our wedding." I lied. She frowned, I guess she still not used to the word wedding.

"We should go to sleep." She took my hand but pulled it back with me. Then she looked just like when I left her her eyes are questioning.

"About that. I don't think I'm going home with you." I started.

"Why not?" She asked, curious.

"I need to visit a doctor here in the Capitol. My leg, I want it examined." I lied again.

"Then I'll come with you." She said. No,no, no.

"No. You don't have to. I'll be here for a couple of days, a week at most. Don't worry I'll come back." I assured her.

"You're not telling me something. I know you're a good liar Peeta." She said.

"And you're a terrible one" I laughed at my own joke. And then I saw her smile.

"Alright. You'll come back home right?" She said. Making me a promise.

"Always." I said halfheartedly. But she seems to believe me so she nods. "Let's go to sleep." I grabbed her hands and we enter her room. I take a quick shower to remove my make up when I finished I climbed to bed and worm my arms around her, at least tonight I'm able to hold her in my arms and it calms me, because tomorrow I don't know who I'll be anymore and it scares me. It scares me that if she found out about me she'll never let me hold her like this again. I held her tight like it'll be the last time that I'll hold her. When I'm sure that she's sleeping soundly. I mumbled. "I love you." Then a tear escape my eye.


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