Description: this is a story I wrote while at work today. Its not really a story, its a letter to a guy that I'm in love with. I edited to fit Joey/Pacey. It's only a one shot for now unless I can think of somewhere to go with it. Suggestions are always loved if you like it and think it has potential to turn into more than just a one shot-er. This is my sixth Dawson's Creek story. I'll be writing this as well as Conflicted Love, Love Unrequited and Clueless Affection on here now.

Disclaimer: I may not own the characters but this story is original and from my imagination.

Author's note: this is my sixth try at a Dawson's creek story, be nice to me please. This could either be viewed in Pacey's or Joey's point of view. I'm writing it in Pacey's but it could also be viewed in Joey's if you use your imagination You decide and tell me who you see is as and why please. This is a Pacey/Joey fic, my version of how they got together. Enjoy and review thanks

Chapter #3

Hey Josephine Lynn Potter, Happy New Years.

Truth be told, I wasn't expecting to hear back from you either. You're right, we didn't end on the best of terms. That is all in the past now though. I try to live in the present and not look back these days. I don't want what happened last Christmas to put some kind of permanent wedge between the two of us Joe. I miss you too believe it or not.

Thanks for the congratulations. Bessie told you correctly. The Ice House is doing really great. It is quite possibly one of the best restaurants in Capeside these days. You're right, it has been six years since the original Ice House burnt down. Funny how quickly six years has passed. Can you believe not ten years ago you and I hated one another Potter? We were arch enemies since we were in diapers, you got that right.

You and I have been through a lot together. I remember how crushed you were when your mother passed away Joe. You would just cry for hours and I hated it. So of course I would resort to the only way I could think of to drive you out of your funk, I would pick fights and bicker with you. It wasn't much but our bickering got your mind off your mother at least.

Things kind of spiraled down hill for Bessie and you when the Ice House burnt to the ground. That was a rough time, you both almost lost your house. I remember when I first suggested the two of you open up the Potter's B&B. You thought that I was crazy. But look at how great the B&B is doing these days? Guess it was a good idea of me to call that critic Fred Frickey when I did? His review put you guys on the map.

Joey, you never really needed me to come to your rescue. I just always wanted to I guess. Its in my nature to come and defend you. When I heard that it was Matt Caulfield who defaced your mural, I lost it. I honestly think that I would have kicked the crap out of him if Mr. Green didn't pull me off of him the way that he did.

The last thing I was thinking about at the time was my high school education being at stake Potter. When I saw how crushed you were, I was furious. All I wanted to do was hurt the person who had made you cry. Guess things will never change, I'm still like that to this day Joe. You know how protective I am of you.

Truth be told, I was shocked when you called me that night. I was convinced that jerk AJ had really swept you off your feet. When you asked me for a ride home, I knew something was wrong before you ever said a word. I was so confused that morning Joe. I couldn't figure out why you called me of all people to come and pick you up.

Then when you told me that I was the first person that you had thought of? That's when I lost all control. Kissing you like that wasn't my brightest idea. But I figured it was time to just sort of go for it. Your reaction was exactly what I expected it to be. You yelled. You screamed. You hit me, insanely hard I might add.

I understand why you reacted that way though Joe. ….Well, I do now at least. At the time I was hurt, confused and upset by your reaction. I thought for sure that I didn't stand a chance in hell with you. Boy did you ever prove me wrong that night you finally kissed me back at Dawson's aunts house over spring break.

Your putting it lightly when you admit to being stubborn Potter. You were just plain unreasonable at times. It was actually kind of annoying. It was always your way. You were never wrong. That's one of the things that I always loved about you though Joey. Stubbornness sure does run in your family. Your a fighter just like your mother was.

You never imagined that I would fall for you? Well welcome to the club Potter. Neither did I. Developing feelings for you wasn't exactly high on my priority list. When Dawson asked me to look after you that fall though, I kind of had no choice to become close with you. All the time we were spending together, it was only a matter of time that I fell for you.

Joey, you have no idea how hard I tried to get you to notice me. It proved to be an impossible feat though. If you weren't moping over losing Dawson or trying to save him from doing something stupid, you were caught up with that prick AJ. It seemed no matter what I did, it was never enough to catch your attention. I don't know how you didn't realize I liked you. I bought you a wall for god sake Potter.

I wanted to protest and argue with you when you wrote that you haven't exactly changed all that much. But then I realized, you're right Joe. You still are the same girl. You never stopped running at the first signs of trouble. I know that you regret how things ended between us. I do too Joey. Our break up was hard, and horrible.

I did think that you were stuck in the present, in my defense though you kind of were Potter. You weren't concerned with our future. You were happy and content just living in the now. I wasn't though. I wanted to know that we were going somewhere Joey. That we were going to last. But you couldn't give me any glimpse of hope, could you?

That's all that I ever wanted Joe. I needed some reassurance. That wasn't asking too much, was it? I can't lay all the blame on you though. You're right, I was fixated on the future Joey. I wanted a future with you. I wanted to marry you Potter. Guess we don't always get what we want though. I would be lying if I said that I was hesitant about writing you a Christmas card this year. You're right, last Christmas wasn't our best. But I couldn't just delete you from my life Joe.

Honestly, I just really miss you too Potter. Things haven't been the same since last Christmas. We haven't spoken or seen one another in god knows how long. It has been torture too. Not having you in my life is killing me. I don't expect you to wisk back into my life screw things up again. It wasn't you who messed things up to begin with. It was mostly me.

I'm the one who insisted on pushing you. I wanted to define our relationship once and for all. I wanted to know if there was a real future between the two of us Joey. When you couldn't give me a straight answer, it nearly killed me. Much as it pains me to admit it, I guess you're right. We have grown apart and it hurts.

I don't think things will ever be the same between us Potter. Whats happened has happened. We can't change the past Joe. The most that we can do is try and move forward and learn from our mistakes. I'm glad that you wrote me back. I didn't think that you would. It was great to hear from you Joey. I just wish that I could have seen you while you were visiting in Capeside.

Well anyway, I should probably cut this letter short. I don't want to ramble on too much longer. All this talking about the past is getting to me. Its bringing back memories that I was kind of hoping to keep buried and dead. I hope that your happy these days with your life Joey. I wish you nothing but the best, I hope that you know that.

Happy New Years Josephine Lynn Potter.

Love sincerely, Your best friend always,

Pacey J. Witter.