Cody POV

All the way home I cried my eyes out until I pulled into my drive way. I dried my eyes and brought all the boxes to my room. Then I started packing for the concert even though it wasn't until 3 weeks from today. I was going to leave for the concert about a week before it so I can get my bearings of everything and also so I can just get out of this god damn town. I was sick of it here! I was sick of the people, the places, my parents and well just everything!

As I sat in my room on my bed holding a very recent picture of Nikki and I fell asleep. I fell into a deep dreamless sleep. When I woke up it was 12 pm of the next day. I slowly got out of bed and took a shower. Then I put on a pair of sweats and work out tee with a pair of running shoes. Then I grabbed my Ipod, turned on, and ran out the door to go on a run.

I ran out into the secluded area of my neighborhood and smiled when I'm Not Okay (I promise) came on. I looked around to make sure no one was there and started to sing "Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say I never want to let you down or have you go it's better off this way for all the dirty looks the photographs your boyfriend took remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm not okay you wear me out"

As I belted out those words I though of how Nikki and I would dance to this song out here in the middle of a field. How people would walk by and scream 'Freak' or 'Get a life'. Then it didn't matter how we looked we were having fun. God, I thought to myself, I have to stop thinking about Nik. Its only going to make feel worse. She wants me to forget about my pain. God why can't I just forget about this!

As soon as I got back home I went up to my room and wrote a poem.

Feels like something's wrong

Feels like no ones there

Did i do something wrong?

Then why does no one care?

I ask so many question

But only one is answered

Who are you they say

A marcher in the black parade

Nothings wrong

Someone's there

I am okay

Someone cares

I have myself

I have my music

I have my heroes

Isn't that what matters?

Once I finished and read it through I thought about how much this sounds like my life. I am alone, for now at least. There is someone out there that'll help me. I have music and my heroes . I have myself, but most importantly I have My Chem. They were like the only thing that kept me going. I just had to keep going on for Nikki. She doesn't want me to give up and for her I won't.

----------------------------------------2 WEEKS LATER-------------------------------------------------

I went through the bags that I packed one last time making sure I had everything since I was going to be leaving in an hour at 4:30am. I had three suitcases with clothes, another two with money one with drawing supplies, and then 3 others with other things I'd need. I also had my My Chem messenger bag that contained my laptop and my backpack the contained other things. Once I was sure I had everything I put on my Jack Skellington hoodies, grabbed my keys, and brought everything down to my car.

Once everything was loaded in I plugged my Ipod into the car, set it on shuffle, and started on the longish drive to Belleville. As I drove I sang almost every song that came on my Ipod. I still had the words from my poem floating through my head so I stopped by Meg's to get another that or my a couple tats. She smiled as I walked in even though it was 4:40am she said "Okay getting a that before we hit the road?" I nodded and said "Okay now I want this poem that I wrote tattooed on the inside of my arm and I think that's it." She nodded and went to work.

Once it was done I shivered at the sight of the needle, gave Meg a hug, and set off on the road again, but not with out drinking three Rockstars. By the time I made it to Belleville I had stopped numerous times to take a break and get some food and coffee. It was around 12pm when I finally rolled up to the hotel I would be staying at. My parents new I was coming here so they paid for my hotel room which they just happened to book at a 5 star hotel where like all the stars stay.

As I came to a stop in front of Hotel Carlata two men dressed in the hotel uniform came up to me and said "Hello miss. My name is Adam and that's John. I'll help take your bags to your room and he'll park your car for you." I just nodded and said "Kay. Let me grab some of my stuff from the front seats. You can grab all the stuff from the back. Here are the keys John." They both nodded and set off to do their jobs. I grabbed my Ipod, backpack, and messenger bag put them on and followed Adam into the hotel.

Before we walked in a saw security pulling a couple of girls dressed in My Chem gear out of the hotel. I looked at Adam and said "Uh Adam. What's with all the screaming fans?" He laughed at me and said "You don't know? Silly girl. The My Chem band members are staying here. I assumed you knew since you have My Chem gear."

I shook my head and said "I didn't know, but I don't really care. I'm not some screaming fan girl." He let out a big breath of air and said "Good cause your on the same floor of them." I looked at him confused and said "Wait what type of room did my parents book?" He smiled and said "A suit. Okay now follow me. You need a special key to get up to your floor since it's the top floor. So here's your key and now take us on up."

I nodded, took the key, put it in the little car reader thingy, and hit floor twenty. On the way up I checked my texts to find that I had one from my parents saying 'Have fun sweetie.' I laughed and put my phone away. Finally we made it to the floor and he took me to my room. As we walked to my room, number 2098, a couple a kids my age were walking down towards their room saying "Damn did you see all those girls! Security is going to have a problem with them!"

I was fiddling around inside my messenger bag and ended up making my Ipod fall on the floor. I cursed silently under my breath as I bet down to pick it up. By then the boys had probably noticed me so when I started walking again they were staring at me. I just about dropped my Ipod again when I noticed that those boys were the members of My Chem. I just smiled sheepishly at them and walked into my room.

Adam helped move all of the luggage to my room and then went back downstairs. Then I hooked my Ipod up to the ihome and started to unpack everything. I started singing the song that was on which happened to be I Miss You by Blink-182. "Hello there, the angel from my nightmare The shadow in the background of the morgue The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends Where are you and I'm so sorry I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight I need somebody and always This sick strange darkness Comes creeping on so haunting every time And as I stared I counted The webs from all the spiders Catching things and eating their insides Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason Will you come home and stop this pain tonight Stop this pain tonight"


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