'I Just Wanna Break You Down So Badly In The Worse'- Taking Back Sunday

I sat in the kitchen, drinking O negative that Carlisle got from the hospital for me. Esme sat in front of me, smiling at my now ended thirst.

"So how did you two meet?" She inquired shyly.

"A long, long, long story." I smiled, then a young girl came to my attention, staring at me curiously.

She came and sat by Esme.

"Grandma, who is this?" She asked.

"Reneesme this is Clementine, Clementine is Jasper's friend." Esme introduced her to me.

"Reneesme, what a beautiful name..to go along with a beautiful little girl." I smiled.

"You are beautiful, too Clementine." She handed the complement right back to me.

I looked at Esme, I couldn't help the curiosity, not that I cared or not, "This isn't a immortal child, is she?"

"No, her mother had her before she turned. You'll meet Bella when she comes in from visiting her father." Esme smiled looking down at her Granddaughter.

"You broke my piano." The child accused, "But that's okay, Uncle Jasper will buy me a new one, he promised."

"I didn't break your piano, hun. Your uncle did." I smiled uncomfortably, hating to placing the blame on Jasp, but hey if the shoe fits. The child smiled, and said " He said you'd say that."

"Creator knows best." I muttered more to myself, than anything else,

Esme chimed in, " Will you like to see your room, well during the duration of your stay and perhaps a tour." She smiled, trying to dazzle me into saying yes.

"Esme, stop trying to dazzle me, of course I will, I haven't a choice." I smiled.

"Yay, house tour," Reneesme smiled running at vampire speed to my side, "Grandma, I wanna show Clementine the house, too." The child grabbed my hand. Her warmth startled me, but it was inviting, not inviting in a ' I wanna suck your blood,' way. It reminded me of my human days. My Sunkist skin in the Texan sun, with Jasper at my side, making our way to the church where we eventually said our vows. My atrophied heart started to beat at the memory, sadness came flooding to me. I took a deep breath and let go of the child's hand.

Esme looked at me with concern.

"I'm fine." I said trying to smile, looking down at the child, " Now for the grand tour."

They took me from room to room, the vampires that I haven't met yet looked at me with murderous glares. I crouched slowly, and then I felt Jasper crouching in front of me with blinding speed.

"Rosalie, Emmett if you can't feel anything nice, don't feel anything at all." He said sternly sending a heavy dose of fear towards them. Esme, Reneesme, and I was shielded from the attack. I felt him coming into his revered Major mode, that legends were only mere recollections of what he was capable of.

"Esme, take Reneesme somewhere safe before this gets out of hand." I whispered to Esme. She nodded, and grabbed Reneesme after I promised her we will finish the tour later. The next thing I know the Pixie was standing between Jasper and the other vampires that wanted to murder me. Her hands was on his face.

I growled out of instinct, and my heart just tore apart. I don't know what my face looked like but the female vampire that wanted to kill me, had this sympathetic look on her face. I began to take a step back, and was about to be on my heels running as fast as I could out of that house. Jasper turned around, with the face that mirrored mine. His was torn apart just as I was.

"Clem.."

I stopped him, " I just came to check on you, like I always did. I didn't expect to get caught or seeing you with her.." My breath became so shallow. I looked up into his eyes, and then all the sudden I had this flash back of his face when he was human. He was in his Confederate uniform and he had the same look. He must was about to leave. His forest green eyes, shown darker when he was sad. Just like his eyes was now, a storm between amber and black. He gently grabbed me and held me to his chest. I felt all his love and remorse.

"Let me take you to your room." He said quietly. The crowd let us by, as he guided me with me still on his chest. Practically carrying me, but my feet was still on the floor. It was an awkward dance, he was leading those few feet to my door.

He opened the door to my bedroom with all our relics. I stared in awe as I saw the replica to our bedroom. He closed the door as I stood in the middle of the room.

"I asked Esme to do this, when you get ready to come and stay, then this would be ours." He said quietly letting a tinge of his accent come out. The royal blue comforters and the yellow walls, was the perfect shade. I laid on the bed, and looked at the ceiling.

"Major, this couldn't be ours." I laughed a little psychotically, but this situation would make even a vampire a little crazy, " I'm not staying here for an extended length of time, especially after that little display. If you want her, go to her." The next thing I know he was on top of me straddling my legs. His amber eyes turned to black.

"I've always wanted you." He roared, "Do you know why they were ready to pounce on you? Let me answer that question, we all know collectively about at this time, you will come to wherever I am and spy on me. But will never come any closer.."

"For decades, I said ' She'll come, she'll feel the pull.' And guess what?" Jasper got within an inch of my face.

"What?" I whispered.

"You never came." He said quietly, as he got off of me and sat on the bed. His voice was so solemn and sad, I didn't know if he was projecting or not.

"I saw you with that pixie." I said quietly, "I didn't want to ruin your new life, you deserve this more than anyone."

"My life isn't complete without you." He said looking at me dead in the eye.

"There isn't any room for me in this life, Jasp." I whispered getting up off the bed, straddling his lap.

"I'm not going to sit around and watch you with her," I said looking into his eyes, gently grabbing his face. His hands found my sides gently holding me on his lap as we sat there just searching each other's eyes. I pressed my lips against his forehead, he buried his head in my chest, just holding me. I laid my head on his forehead. We sat there for hours it seemed. We were totally content just sitting there not saying a word.

Then it dawned on me, "Why do they hate me?" I said breaking the silence.

"The pain it caused me." He murmured in my chest.

My atrophied heart crushed itself within itself, hearing the conviction in his heart. He stared up at me, "You feel it too."

I nodded.

"I feel it everyday." I whispered.

He got up, putting me down. As I stood there, he got down on one knee.

"I'll promise you this, you stay here. Alice will go away. She's just a companion anyway. She will leave me alone. I will be at your beck and call. I'll never leave you behind, never again." He promised.