The Twilight Twenty-Five
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Prompt: #25
Pen Name: rubyblue9696
Pairing/Character(s): Edward/Bella
Rating: M
Word Count: 306
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It's sooner than I thought as far as where I am now.
Mid-town to no-town Nashville. But I know I am going somewhere.
Somewhere I should've never left eight months ago to begin with. And I try not to feel ashamed…stupid even. I often think someone should 'a come after me with a shotgun by now…hell.
Goddamn.
But my Granddaddy taught me better 'an that. No fear. No runnin'. You know and you just do what's right.
I can't escape it though.
That nagging gnawing rot of my choice.
Truly, though. Saving grace is you're still there.
Fuck.
You're still there…holding on…waiting for me.
Fuck knows why 'cause I just about quit on you before out of guilt. Shame alone's why I left in the first place. It was on no one but me after that. I know this. Yet there you are…beautiful…true.
Fuck me if I ain't no bastard prick cheater…even though I didn't cheat in the sense that others actually cheat…relationship wise.
I told you it would all work out but no, no, no. It didn't. And, it was not either of us causin' that fault when it happened. No one wanted it to happen but it did anyway.
And when I had to take matters into my own hands…save grace if you will.
Fuck, well…let me just say that I already knew no one would be on my side or see it my way for a while yet. It was heart breakin'.
But I knew I had to do it anyway. For every one of us.
Your family and mine.
So now, I am coming back to you…and you still choose to understand after all of the anger and misunderstanding. After all of the tears and heartache and separation and pain.
I am coming back to you, my one.
And you are waiting.
a/n …ehem…because I need to…#1, #2, #3, #4, #5, #6, #7, #8,#9, #11, #12, #14, #15, #16, #17, #18, #19, #20, #21, #22, #23, #24…*smiles*…
xxx jess
