Thank you for reading and for all the nice reviews, I'm glad you like the story:) In this Chapter we will be introduced to Fabian, as this love triangle story wouldn't really work without the third party. And as usual I don't own anything.

Faking it

Celia stepped out of the Three Broomsticks and into the brisk October air ( it was almost too cold for the month) and trudged slowly to Madam Puddifoot's, the obnoxious tearoom that Fabian insisted was romantic.

She thought the place looked like cherubs had vomited all over the walls. It was pink and red, with doilies and hearts covering the floors and tables. There was also flowery shit in every inch of the main room, and the lightening was so dim it made her eyes hurt. She knew she should have felt lucky, most of the guys she knew refused to set foot in there, and most of her girlfriends were terribly jealous that she got to go. But come on, isn't less supposed to be more with these types of things?

She opened the door and was taking off her coat when she spotted Fabian sitting comfortably at a small table and drinking from a teacup while reading a book. She admired him for a moment. He was very good looking, with dark auburn hair and deep brown eyes that held just a hint of mischievousness. Yet for all of his looks, Fabian's most important feature to her, the one that had made her love him, was his ability to make her feel safe. Not even Lily and Marlene made her feel that way.

He saw her standing in the entrance and gave her a bright smile, the one that used to make her stomach do flip flops. She smiled back, not as enthusiastically as she once would have, but he seemed not to notice.

Fabian stood up to greet her and gave her a short kiss on the mouth.

"Hey princess; how was your girl time?" he asked pulled the chair out for her and they sat back down at the table.

She smiled at the nickname he had given her when they had first started dating.

"It was fun, The marauders joined us halfway though." She told him, knowing someone would have seen them all sitting together and would have told him. Hogwarts was a gossipy place and quite a few of Fabian's friends had been in the pub.

"I assume that means Black?" Fabian asked annoyed. She nodded yes. Fabian disliked Sirius just as much as Sirius hated Fabian. It was mutual at least, she supposed.

"He was there. I don't know why you two have to hate each other so much." Celia sighed drinking the tea that he had ordered for her.

Fabian just shrugged and leaned back in his chair "I don't know, he started it."

Celia laughed "Very mature"

Fabian smirked "Yeah well whatever, I don't want to spend our entire date talking about Black." he told her and grabbed her hand. That was the last they spoke of Sirius that day although she found herself thinking of him often. Everything Fabian would do was compared to the way Sirius would do the same thing.

She felt bad for all the comparisons, Fabian was perfectly fine, Celia's mother had even called him excellent husband material after they had met last year. But at 15 she had not really been looking for a husband, he was attractive and nice so she dated him and she did fall in love with him. But sometimes love just didn't seem like enough.


Thankfully they left Puddifoots after an hour and began shopping around the town. Fabian had his arm wrapped around her; normally she was not one for PDA and would have shrugged him off, but it was cold so she didn't mind so much. They passed Angie Richards, a snobby 7th year Hufflepuff, as they exited Zonko's. Angie made sure to give Celia a jealous death glare as she walked by.

Fabian had almost as many admirers as Sirius had, and Angie had been after Fabian since their 2nd year and Celia's 1st. She was used to the jealousy, and tolerated it to some degree, but Angie just rubbed her the wrong way. Celia just pulled Fabian closer to her, and smirked slightly at Angie. It wasn't her fault if Fabian liked her more was it?

After the run in with Angie, The couple walked the streets popping into different stores and speaking with friends they passed along the way before ending their visit at HoneyDukes.

It was Celia's favorite shop in Hogsmeade. The air in the store was warm and smelled sweet and sugary. She loved sweets and the shop itself was lovely, with bright walls and glass jars filled with all sorts of colorful concoctions in every flavor imaginable. If Puddifoots looked like this she might be more apt to go.

While reaching into the jar of licorice wands she peered through the warped glass and saw Marlene and Lupin standing awfully close to each other. Her eyes scanned the room shop quickly to see if she spotted Lily or the Marauders, but she didn't. Remus and Marlene were there alone. She grew very excited and was debating with herself whether or not to go over there.

In her excitement she managed to knock down two huge jars of sweets.

There was a loud crash as glass shattered all over the floor. Fabian saw what she had done blushed and pretended he wasn't with her.

The entire shop grew quiet and she could feel everyone's eyes on her and turned red in embarrassment as the owner came over and yelled before shooting a repairo at the jars.

After all the commotion she had caused calmed, her curiosity still got the better of her and she slinked over to where her friend was standing as Remus was checking out.

"What's going on?" Celia asked in an excited whisper.

Marlene beamed at her. "I was trying to leave Lily and James alone, so I said I was coming here, and he offered to go with me!" Celia smiled excitedly "That's a good sign Marlene!"

Remus came back to where the women were standing and Celia smirked knowingly at him. "Well, have fun; I have to get back to Fabian." She said and darted away to find her boyfriend. She found Fabian in the checkout queue and waited off to the side so he would pay for her candies and she wouldn't incur the shopkeeper's wrath again.

"Is Marlene with Lupin?" Fabian asked her concerned and handed her a toffee out of a paper sack as they left the store.

His curiosity puzzled her slightly; he had never really cared for Marlene and had never had a problem with Remus before.

"No, why? Were you planning on leaving me for her?" Celia asked him playfully in return. That would be an interesting turn of events.

"Yeah, I was scoping out my competition." He replied smiling sarcastically. "But no, not really. Gideon kind of likes her though, he was thinking about asking her out."

If this had been 4th year Marlene would have died. She had been devastatingly in love with Gideon Prewitt 4th year;Unfortunately he was dating Abby Snow at the time. However, he had broken up with her last summer and hadn't been with anyone since. Fate is a cruel bitch, now, Marlene was head over heels for Lupin and didn't give two shits about Gideon.

"Oh, well I can her ask her about him...subtly of course." She replied as he gave her a look.

"Thanks Celia. Come on let's go back to the castle, you look like your freezing." Fabian said wrapping an arm around her shoulders. She knew this was Fabians cue for sex.


Every time they had a Hogsmeade date, they would go up to the room of requirement before the other students got back and shag. It had been the routine for the last year and a half.

They used to sleep together more often than that but with his NEWTS, they hadn't been seeing each other as often as he would have liked. She didn't mind the less frequent rendezvous; he had never been the most generous lover and after the novelty of sex had worn off she didn't really care about it much. Still, Fabian always made time after Hogsmeade.

It wasn't right to be so mechanical during a time that should have been passionate and intimate, but it couldn't be helped. She knew what sounds to make, how to fake everything perfectly so it was over quick and he never suspected. She also knew she was cheating herself out of a pleasurable experience. Some women enjoyed sex right? Celia had considered talking to Fabian about it before, but didn't know what to say and was sure he would be more offended than accommodating anyhow.

Still she told herself that if she ever did leave Fabian she would make sure her next lover was better at being a lover, even if she had to give precise instructions on how to do so. It wouldn't be nearly as awkward now that she knew what she was doing and if she nipped it in the bud. There would be no reason for any issues, but she couldn't just go up to Fabian and tell him she had been unfulfilled for the last 2 years.

So as she was faking her release, she was thinking about life and surprisingly to her, about Sirius Black. She once again found herself wondering what it would feel like if he was the one inside her. Would she have to fake it at all? Something about the way Michelle was screaming told her no.

Fabian finished and moved himself off of her, but pulled her close to snuggle. It was nice to be held, but Celia was more concerned with what had gone down in Hogsmeade after she left than with intimate, romantic moments with her boyfriend. She lay with him for a few minutes before creating a headache and making him take her back to the tower.


When Celia got back to her dorm room it was a little after 9 and Lily and Marlene were waiting up for her.

"So what the hell happened?" she asked excitedly plopping herself down on Marlene's bed.

"Well" Lily started "After you, Marlene and Remus left, Black grabbed Peter and told him they were going to Zonko's. I'm sure he was trying to give me and Potter some alone time, but that's what I needed anyway so I didn't care. I think Potter was in shock that I agreed to stay with him, and I can just hear all the gossip tomorrow but he honestly wasn't so bad."

Celia gave Marlene a small smile that Lily thankfully did not notice. You see, as well as this being operation get Remus and Marlene together, it was also get James and Lily together.

Lily continued "So I asked him about Remus and Marlene, saying they would make a cute couple. He agreed, and said he knew Remus liked her, but he wasn't sure he would be able to go out with her because of his illness."

Marlene looked a little downtrodden at this comment and Celia rubbed her back.

"But he likes you Marlene. Maybe you should just let him know you know he's a werewolf and you're okay with it." Lily suggested.

"Oh and Gideon Prewitt likes you too, so you have a backup plan if the whole Lupin thing doesn't pan out." Celia revealed, hoping it would help to lift her spirits.

"What!" Lily and Marlene both shouted in shock; Celia laughed at them. "Yeah, Fabian was all worried when he saw you and Lupin in HoneyDukes, because Gideon was thinking about asking you out."

Lily smiled slyly, "Well it looks like you both have a Prewett and a Marauder after you then."

Ugh were they implying she and Sirius had a thing again? "What do you mean by that Lils?"

It was Lily and Marlene's turn for secret smiles now. "Potter also told me that a certain potions partner of yours is desperately pining for you." Lily told her dramatically pretending to faint, which won her an eye roll from Celia.

"What the hell Lily? Did you preform Chinese water torture on the poor boy? You should seriously go into interrogation." Celia asked, once again impressed with Lily, even if she did doubt the truthfulness of Potter's words. "But anyways, Sirius Black does not pine for any girl, especially not me."

He couldn't really like her that much could he? But maybe he thought about kissing her too, maybe he wondered how her skin would feel under his fingers. She secretly hoped he did. "Well, that's not what Potter said." Lily told her matter- of- factly. Celia sighed heavily, not really wanting to deal with Sirius at the moment.

"But how was your date with Fabian?" Marlene asked changing the subject because Celia made it quite obvious she did not want to talk about Black any longer. "The same, we shagged, it was less than exciting and then I came back here." She told her friends solemnly. They gave her looks of pity, which she really didn't need.

"Maybe you should date Black after all, I've heard quite a few girls saying he knows what he is doing in bed." Lily told her with a shrug.

Celia and Marlene laughed. "Never thought I'd hear you tell me to date Potter's best friend."

Lily blushed a little "well, I just think if you're going to sleep with someone you shouldn't dread it every time. I know I've never done it, but it's supposed to be good Celia, at least Black's slags act like it is." She finished. The thought of Sirius shagging other girls bothered her more than it probably should have.

"Lily's right, you should at least tell Fabian he not doing anything right." Marlene suggested and Celia sighed loudly. "I can't do that; it would hurt him, I know it would, it would be such an ego crusher." She said to her two best friends miserably "I made this bed, now I have to lie in it, literally."

"Well, I think you should at least think about telling him." Marlene told her before she grabbed a towel and went into the bathroom for a shower. Lily agreed with Marlene as she hopped into her own bed. " I think love should be passionate and wonderful, not a chore." Lily told her. And Celia fell asleep with that thought.


She awoke to the sound of the drapes around her bed being pulled back and a sag in her mattress. Her eyes darted open and once they adjusted to the darkness, she saw Sirius, shirtless, clad only in striped pajama pants that hung low on his pelvis.

Her mouth dropped open. She was more than surprised to see him there, but she didn't waste the sight. His toned chest with the light dusting of black hair was begging her to run her nails down it. She was just about to speak when he put his finger up to his lips telling her to be quiet and then shut the curtains around them. He muttered a silencing spell so that Lily and Marlene wouldn't wake and pulled her up to a sitting position.

"What are you doing in here? How the hell did you get up the stairs?" She asked him in a whisper as she pulled the blankets up to cover herself. He pulled the blankets back away from her and licked his lips in the most seductive way she had ever seen making her stomach flutter. "I couldn't take it anymore." He responded vaguely. As she was about to question him more thoroughly he leaned over her and pressed his lips forcefully against hers.

Their mouths moved with fiery intensity as he was wrapping his hands around her waist and tangling his fingers up in her hair. She immediately kissed him back, devouring him as if it was the only logical thing to do.

Sirius broke the kiss for a moment when he laid her down and began to remove her night clothes. He was quick and in a moment she was naked underneath his warm body as he planted kisses over her breasts and down her stomach.

"I've wanted you forever." He told her in a gruff voice, his grey eyes glistening in the dark of the room.

"I've wanted you too." She whispered into his ear before slowly dropping her hands down to the waistband of his cotton pants. His breath was heavy as she slid her hand under the fabric, he wasn't wearing boxers and all she felt was hot, slightly damp skin. Just as she was reaching for him, she was distracted by a loud beeping noise. It's blaring sound made it impossible for her to concentrate and Sirius was getting frustrated.

Suddenly Celia sat up fast covered in sweat and her heart racing and a dull aching in between her thighs. She pushed back the covers, turned off the damned alarm and looked around; there was no one next to her. "It was just a dream" she thought with relief as well as a little disappointment.

It was the best and most satisfying dream she had ever had, if only it had gone on a little longer. She felt slightly guilty and embarrassed for having a dream about Black when she was seeing Fabian, but she really couldn't help what her unconscious did could she?

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