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I'm afraid of my fans …

Ross's POV

Now, when I woke up, I felt … weird. Something in my life was really weird now. Oh yeah, I got it, my bestfriend has cancer and she can die. I can't believe it. I don't know how I'll wake up every morning if she dies …

She's in my life now and I really don't know if she would leave. I really care about her, and since I learnt she'll maybe die, I care more about her.

For now, she didn't tell her fans she has cancer, she wants to wait a little. But I think nothing will change if she says it now or later, her cancer will always be here …

I met her at her house, I told her we'll walk today. I want us to live like usual, we really need to forget her illness …

So once, she's here, we just walk in Los Angeles, without knowing where we're going. We talk about all and nothing.

Suddenly, fans come to us, they are Austin and Ally fans. They want to take a picture with us.

But, then, they begin to talk to Laura and she doesn't answer. I look at her and I see her … paralyzed. She has her mouth open and wide eyes. She looks at our fans, she seems … scared.

It's really weird because Laura had never be afraid of her fans, on the contrary, she loves them.

They approach her to ask her what's wrong. But she steps back and she runs far away from us.

I turn to our fans and tell them I'm really sorry. I run after Laura and shout her name in the streets.

I lost her, I don't know where she is, I'm really worried… Where is she ?

I begin to lose any hope, but I have an idea to find her. I take my phone and I call Laura.

I can hear her ringtone, it comes from a little street, all I see is a trash can. So I look behind it and I see Laura. She's sitting on the ground, her head between her legs and she is crying. I don't like to see her cry, it's so painful …

I come to her. And I sit next to her. I put my hand on her back and I begin to stroke her. I just stay here, next to her and I tell nothing. I can't help myself but watching her.

She lifts her head and put it on my chest to mourn. I put my arms around her and my head on hers.

« Th...Thanks Ross, thanks to be here wi...with me. » She sobs when she says this.

« This is normal, you're my bestfriend, I can't let you like that. » It's weird, because when I say the word 'bestfriend', I felt my heart tightening, like I don't like to use this word. But I've always used it, but this is the first time he makes me this effect. I don't know why ...

She looks up at me. She has a little smile on her face. We look in each other eyes. I look in her beautiful hazel eyes, they're so wonderful. Wait, why am I thinking that ?

I see her look at my lips now. She bits her bottom lip. Usually, I would have been embarrassed, but now, she makes me smile. I like the idea she may want to kiss me. But what is happening to me ? Why am I thinking all this kind of thing ? It's just my bestfriend !

But, I can feel myself lean in. Why am I doing this ? It seems I lost control of myself. I am now really close to her. But she moves when I was about to kiss her.

I want to say to myself it's a good thing, because we are just friends and because I feel anything more friendly about her. But I can't, because I really want to kiss her and my heart is so broken now.

I should give me a reason, I may have stronger feelings for her that I thought …

We are now sitting next to each other again, she leaves my arms. She looks straight ahead. She doesn't look at me anymore and it's so hurtful.

An awkward silence settles between us. I don't like that so I talk in first.

« Why did you run like that? »

She looks down. I wait some seconds and I have no answers.

« Well, if you want talk to me, you know you can. »

I see a tear falling on the floor.

« I don't know, I'm just … afraid when I see some fans, I don't dare to answer their tweet ... »

« But why ? They love you, you don't have to be afraid of them. »

« I know but … If they know I have a cancer, if they know I probably die soon, they will abandon me, they will stop supporting me because they'll say that I won't be there in 5 years! » She shouts and she cries more now.

« No. I'm sure they'll always support you. Alive … or dead. » On this last word, I could feel tears forming in my eyes. But I can't show it to Laura that makes me so sad, I need to be strong for her, to give her courage to affront this difficult moment.

Even if I cry all nights since I knew about her … I don't want her to know this, I don't want her to know that I feel so hurtful since I knew the news, I don't want her to know I just want cry every time I see her, every time I don't see her, every minutes of my life ... just right now.

I can't think about the futur, about my futur life … without her. It's too hard to imagine it, I just want her to stay with me our whole life. But now, it's becoming impossible …

I can feel something hot and humid on my cheek now, think about her probable death was a really bad idea. I really want to cry because I don't want her to leave me ...

Laura looks up at me and sees my tears. She wipes them with her thumb and looks at me in the eyes.

« Don't cry. Please. »

« I'm doing my best to not cry but … it's too hard ... »

Tears fall down on her cheeks now.

« I know ... »

We look in each other eyes, now tears just fall down without I give them permission. She kept her hand on my cheek while we're crying.

I want to remember this moment, I want to remember every moment I have with her now. Because it's maybe our last …

We stay like that for minutes. Her new fear comes back in my mind.

« You need to talk to your fans, they deserve to know ... »

« But ... »

« No. Just, talk to them. »

She looks down.

« I'm sorry but I can't do this ... »

« I can be with you if you want, if you need support. Because every problems you'll have now, I'll do my best for help you. »

« Ross, you don't have to do that ... »

« But I really want to, I want to be with you everywhere, anytime. Please just let me help you. »

« Okay, so, if I'll go on a interview, you'll come with me ? »

« Yes. »

She bits her bottom lips and looks to her right. Then, she looks at me again.

« Dana and Joslyn (from ClevverTV) called me yesterday to make an interview. And, you know her, they insist for me to accept so I told them I'll think about it… And I think I'll accept but just at the condition you're coming with me. Are you happy now ? »

« Yes. And don't worry, all will be okay, I'm sure of it. »

I smile at her and I take her hand. She looks at our hand and then look at me with a little smile on her face. And I'm really happy now, because it's the first time I see her smile since she knew about her cancer.

We are now in the ClevverTV's backstages. We wait for Dana and Joslyn to call us for coming on set. Laura looks at the crowd and turns to me.

« I can't, please Ross, let me go. »

I put my hands on her shoulders, I approach my head to hers and look at her in the eyes.

« You can do this Laura, I'll be with you, all will be okay. »

She closes her eyes and take a deep breath.

« Go Laura, you can do this. »

« You talk to yourself now ? »

She sends me a glance. I begin to laugh and she laughs with me. Since we talked behind the trash can, I can make her laugh. My 'Laura's jokes' are my greatest success. And everytime she laughs, that makes me happy. That helps us to forget a little about her futur death ...

Girls are shouting our names now, that's the moment. I look at Laura. Panic is coming back. So I put my hand on her back and I'm stroking her. She looks at me with a little smile. So, I push her a little for helping her to move.

We sit on the couch. That's a normal interview until Dana asks to Laura why she doesn't tweet anymore and why she takes all this time for accept to make an interview.

I look at Laura and see she gasps. She panics again. So I take her hand and I squeeze slightly. She takes a long breath and begin to talk.

« It's just … I was scared to talk to my fans. »

Dana and Joslyn look at each other with a questionning look. Then, they look at Laura again.

« But why are you scared ? You always loved talk to them. »

« I know but … I learnt something, something seriously wrong ... »

« You're scaring us Laura, what did you learn ? »

She gulps.

« I … I have a cancer. »

Dana and Joslyn looked shocked and the crowd is loud now.

I feel Laura intertwining our fingers together. She's scared. So I stroke her hand with my thumb to reassure her.

Girls stand up to take Laura in their arms.

« We can't believe that ! But … how many chances are you, well, if you want to answer us ? »

She explains to them all of this. I can see some people crying in the crowd.

We are now sitting on my car parked in front of Laura's house. None of us tell a word. We are just sitting there in silence.

I ask to myself, what her fans think about it ?

So I take my phone and go on twitter. It asks username and password. So I tend my phone to Laura. She looks at my phone for seconds and finally take my phone.

She puts her username and password but don't press on 'connexion'. She tends me my phone back. I suppose she wants me to look at it. So I look. And after I have seen some tweets, I can't help but smile.

« I told you. »

She looks at me.

« What ? »

« They'll never let you down. Actually, they are really sad about the news but they say they'll always support you. So, say it. »

« Say what ? »

« I was right. »

« Don't make me say that. »

« You should. So say it! »

« Okay, you were right ! Are you happy now ?! »

« Yes ! »

I put my thumbs up and I laugh. She hits me on the stomach.

« Stop it ! You know I hate when you're right ! »

« Yeah, I know. »

We are both laughing now.

« Can I have your phone to see tweets I receive ? »

« You want to see your tweets now ? I thought you didn't want to watch. »

« Yes. But I changed my mind. »

I laugh and give her my phone. I look at her. She smiles when she reads her tweets and I can see tears forming in her eyes.

Since sometimes, I can feel my heart beating faster and harder everytime I look at her or think of her. When I think about the futur, even if I know she has big chances to die, I imagine my futur only with her, not without her. I realized I feel more than friendship for her, I mean really more.

I feel really stupid to not realize my feelings before, before she'll die … But I don't want to take advantage of her, so I take my decision, I'll tell her.

« Laura ... »

She continues to read her tweets.

« Laura ? I need to talk to you. »

She looks up at me.

« What ? You have a weird face. »

« I ... I just want to say you … that I'll miss you so much if you die. Because … I really care about you, well, I mean, I really really care about you. These last days, I realize I feel more than friendship for you and I want ... »

« Shh... Stop. »

She looks at me … in shock. I don't know what that means, I begin to be scared of her answer, does she feel the same way ? Or not at all …


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