AN: Even though this fic isn't too popular, I am so grateful to the people who are reading it. Thank you for your support. I've got something funny planned next chapter
Chapter Three - Separation
I feel desperate for him to understand what's going on. He's a really smart guy which is why I feel that I can tell him this. So much of what he has always done for me has been from a place of compassion and understanding. Still, this is a new situation for the two of us and I'm scared of what might happen next.
Kuon listens as I tell him about Mimi and what she has caused to happen, I feel it's kind of hopeless to tell him this but he just listens to me like he's always done. "I'm really scared, Corn," I admit to him and he moves towards me. I know that he wants me to be happy but doesn't he realize the complications that are involved in this.
"I'm here now, it's okay. I'm here," he tells me and I freeze. I don't know why but I feel it's more dangerous to me if she knows that we know. If Kuon doesn't treat her the way that she's demanding then it could hurt Rikuu. I feel so sad as I think about our son, he must be so confused about everything and he's such a sweet little boy who loves Tinkerbell and the fairy kingdom.
I shake my head with the tears flowing down my cheeks, "It doesn't matter what you look like to me. I'm here," he tells me and I can see how concerned he is. I have to make him stop and reflect on the situation, ever since he became Kuon the emotions have grown and sometimes take over from logic. Ren was always very logical.
"You have to pretend that you don't know anything," I tell him though it's crushing me to say this, "If she's able to do this then I don't know what she would do to either of you." I'm scared that there is some darker magic she has control on and the worst thing would be to lose my husband and my son. I need them to be safe from her.
"Well," Kuon says slowly, "She knows where we live and she's going to want to act like you." Kuon is obviously wrestling with something in his own mind and I can see that he's trying to avoid the situation. "I'm sorry," he tells me, "I can't do that."
"Can't you act," I try to convince him and he's staring at me as if I'm a ghost who has just announced that I want to haunt him.
"I can't," he tells me desperately as he looks around. I know that he's probably panicking inside his head but trying to keep his composure which he is gradually losing. "What you're asking for – I can't do it. I'm not that good an actor and I'm not that bad a person."
I freeze. What does him being a bad or good person have to do with any of this. I'm just asking for him to help me protect Rikuu and he's acting as if I've asked him to commit murder for me. Plus, his acting skills, are you kidding me!? He's Kuon Hizuri, formerly known as Ren Tsuruga, an acting god in this country. I can't believe he's speaking badly about his performance abilities.
"You're not a bad person," I tell him and I can't understand how he's staring at me, it's as if I want him to commit a criminal offense. Sure, pretending to be with someone else is hard but he doesn't have to worry about that, he's skilled to do it. "Corn, you're still the best actor in the business and you keep improving and challenging yourself, it's just that…" I trail off and he looks so heartbroken. What is in his head right now?
"You want me to pretend that she's you," he repeats and I nod slowly. He continues to stare at me and I can see how painful this is for him. "So, is it okay with you that I sleep with her? That I kiss her? That I hold her?" he asks me and I can finally understand what he's thinking about. I can imagine him with someone else whilst I'm unable to touch him. No. I don't want to see that, Him telling somebody else that he loves her, but I just want them to be safe. I sob and then see Kuon stop, he moves Rikuu into my arms and I feel a little happiness that I'm able to hold our baby. Kuon kneels in front of me.
"I can't do that," he tells me honestly, "I can keep your secret for as long as you need me to, but I can't pretend that she's you, not if she's the type of Kuon Hizuri fan who would do this to you. I don't know what sick ideas are in her head, but I promised myself to you. I love you. I'm not going to become her gigolo."
"Then what do you want to do?" I ask him and he looks at me, opening and closing his mouth as if trying to give some kind of response but he doesn't know what to say. He looks at me as if expecting me to come up with something but he is right, I wouldn't be able to take it if I knew that he was having sex with somebody else even if it was to help me.
"I'm not sure," he admits as he pushes his hand through his hair again and I feel lost that I can't be with him right now. I hate that I'm pushing this problem off on him.
"I'm sorry, I should g-" I start to say but he stares at me confused before grabs his wallet. I blink as I look at him and see him giving me several large bills. I blink. "Ku-"
"It's all I have on me right now but call me if you need anything, okay?" he asks me. "I'll set you up a hotel room to go to but please contact me if you need anything," he stresses and I can see the desperation in his eyes. I feel bad to push him so I nod and smile gently.
"Is there a number that I can contact you at?" he asks me as he takes Rikuu back from me and I feel so sad that I won't be able to be with my boys right now. I'm going to miss both of them so much. My fairy prince and our son.
"Not right now but I'll text you as soon as I know," I promise him before leaving, the tears filling my eyes and as I look back, he's staring at me helplessly and he looks like an abandoned puppy. I take a few steps forward before seeing his mouth open and he continues to watch me as he mouths out those very very important words 'I love you.'
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I've always been resourceful. I've always felt that if I couldn't do something that I should try again and that was what I thought about LME with some encouragement. So, maybe since I'm already an LME talent, I can try to find some resources there. I just have to be a little bit sneaky in my approach. When I was in the Love Me section, sometimes I would be asked to handle paperwork and they would tell me where the new talent files were kept.
That is something that I could use to my advantage now, looking into those files and finding out my information is important and then I can tell Kuon those details. I hate to think about what he must be feeling right now but I have the idea that it isn't too different from my own anxieties.
I take a few steps towards the entrance to LME only to hear someone behind me, "Hey, hey, Mimi-chan, I've been waiting for hooours," an older girl tells me and I turn to look at her. She has black hair down to her waist and I swear I've seen her on the cover of one of those magazines which promote new models. "Let's go home."
I freeze, "I had to get some work done, I am famous after all."
I hear the girl laugh and I guess that I am acting like Mimi, I wonder if this is some kind of relation. "Well, too famous to care about your big sister, are you?" she asks and I pause. I would have loved an older sister growing up, instead I got Shotaro and a mother who has had trouble loving me.
"Well big sisters should take care of little sisters," I tell her as I poke my tongue out playfully. I'm probably acting like an idiot but hopefully this quirkiness will help me cover up who I really am. Her sister seems to laugh anyway.
"You'll never guess what your big sister did today," she tells me and I wish that I knew her name, it'll be hard to pretend for too much longer if I don't have a name to work with, maybe stealing her cellphone would help but that would be extremely dishonest. I smile weakly and shrug my shoulders. "I've managed to get us into this really cool party and I've heard that your crush will be there," she winks and I freeze. Wait, so this girl has a crush on more than one person because Kuon usually does not go to parties, he's not much of a party person.
"That's great," I smile and she rolls her eyes.
"Come on, Mimi, Kyoko Hizuri posted it on her Twitter that she and Kuon are going to go to the party tonight, they don't even need an invite, they really are that VIP," she says and as she shows me, I look at the username in the corner, Nana. Wait, how is she posting on my social media account!? Is she some kind of master hacker? Right, magical powers or something.
"Kuon doesn't like parties like this," I tell her and Nana leans in closer to me.
"That's why it's exploding right now," she replies "Kyoko never tells a lie about her hubby. I can't believe we get to party with Kuon Hizuri, I've heard he has quite a wild side, his dad had to get him locked up or something."
I freeze. People are saying what? Kuon had to get locked up by…by Kuu? How dare she. That isn't something that ever happened or would have happened, they just weren't experienced enough to help him. Please leave him alone and don't talk about him in such a casual way. I pause as I look down and Nana nudges me with her shoulder.
"You wanna go?" she asks with a wink and I nod.
"Of course I do," I attempt to smile. I hope that he won't be there, I hope she won't have sunk her tentacles around him so easily. He's Kuon Hizuri, my husband. No. I'm not going to let her take advantage of him like that. I prepare myself for the best. "Are you sure that we can see him?"
"I've heard he's friendly enough," Nana shrugs, "Don't see why not, he's not that famous."
I roll my eyes. I know this is definitely the wrong thing to think, especially about someone who could be a lot of use to me in the future but I can't stand this sister. I don't want my husband's name to be tossed around as if it's something filthy. Who knows what he's going through with that bi-woman.
End of Chapter Three
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