Hello, I really hope this chapter is good.
I want to show how Sammy is feeling and what is he thinking. Aand all Dean and John' feeling before the chemo begging.
Chpter 3. What is chemo?
Dean is alone in the living room; his dad is making some arrangements in the phone with Pastor Jim and Caleb about money and a new house that can be appropriated and comfortable during Sammy's treatment, and Sammy is watching some cartoons in his room.
Sam was allowed to be in his house until the chemo begins. The pain in the chest and back is gone for now, but the paleness and the troubles breathing don't and that just makes Dean and John ask themselves what all the drugs in the chemo are going to make to Sam.
Dean knows what is cancer and what is going to happens now, he has see many movies and shows and commercial about that and the famous chemotherapy, just the idea of a pale, thin and bald Sammy, makes Dean wants to cry and run away.
Sam got tired of the cartoons which was strange because he loves Batman and Animaniac, well true be told, for Sam all is very strange now since he woke up in the hospital the first time, he really doesn't understand why his father is so sad , so busy in the phone with Pastor Jim and calling to his school and talking with more doctor and reading some magazines talking about some seconds effects or why Dean is so weird making food so yucky and saying that is healthy and asking for his chest and his back and don't be allowed to run in his condition , and that is other thing weird, his condition? What condition? When the doctor were talking to them, well when the doctor were talking to his father and he just listened, he said that his condition was very susceptible and could change at any second, but What can changes?? Because to him all is fine nothing is broken and nothing is changing, except the possibility of moving to other home again. Sam says that maybe is all in his head like that monsters under the bed or Santa Claus. But why the pain in his chest and the appointment to some Chemo-something to the hospital for someone? What is chemo and why makes his dad so sad?
Now all the three mans are sitting in the table having supper, tomorrow Sammy will have his first session and John knows that this can be the last meal in completely peace for the next few months.
"Dad, what is the Chemo" John and Dean almost chokes with their food.
"Dad? What is that?" Sam asks again because he really wants to know what can make his dad so sad and almost chokes with his food. He looks His dad with curious eyes.
John can't talk, his mind is in panic his soul in pain and his heart is beating fast.
¿Chemo? God he is beginning to hate that word next with cancer and disease. He has tried so hard this last week prevent that his little boy have contact with any of the things about his illness, his birthday was just a month ago, he is just ten years old, he is still a baby his baby and the thought that Sam will have to go through some many things and could still die is what makes him cry every nights after Sam's diagnosis. And now Sam is asking this? Why and for what? Knowing what is it won't change anything just will scares him.
"Where did you hear that, Sammy?" Dean asks after a long moment of silence. His little brother question shocked him, but someone has to answer it.
"I heard dad talking about that in the phone and I read it in some of your magazines Dean. Why that something bad?" Sam just wants an answer.
John has to talk, is his job. He puts his plate to the side, walks towards Sam, moves his chair, takes him in his arms and walks to the living room, and sits down in the sofa. Dean sees this with tears in his eyes and knows that his father is going to say to Sammy all.
John clears his throat and begging. "Ok Sammy chemotherapy is the treatment that is going to help you to get better, do you remember that I told you in the hospital that there drugs for kill that balls in you chest?...well all that drugs make parts of the chemo, that treatment uhhh, the chemo…is something that the doctors and nice nurses will be giving you, that medicines will make some changes in your body so you have to be careful and let us know if something is bad. Ok?" John said with a soft and sweet voice. Dean walks to his brothers with sad eyes and smiles sadly to hid father.
"Ok dad, but I hope is not painful." Sam said with a simile and hugs his dad. Not seeing the agony that passed for his father and brother's faces.
TBC...
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