A/N: Hey:) So new chapter here! This is now getting interesting, James and Kendall get into little teases again and you can see how messed up their heads are ... lol for some weird reason I love to write this, and I can say this is just the beginning, Kames is coming really soon:))
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Here, chapter 3, enjoy! Review? Maybe? haha, thanks, love!
Chapter 3 - Things will work out
Kendall walked into the school and as he was heading down on the hallway towards his locker he knew he should pass by James' locker too. He was kind of scared that he would see him but yet he ached from desire to give a single look at the gorgeous brunette for a single moment when he wouldn't notice.
He reached closer, he turned on the corner and there he was setting his hair in front of the mirror what he kept in the door of his locker. Kendall couldn't help but admired him. James always looked so awesome, didn't matter if it was in the morning, at noon or after a tiring practice, he looked perfect, always.
As Kendall got closer and the distance slowly disappeared between them he knew he should stop staring and turn his look away before James would notice but Kendall this time couldn't stop. Not when he somehow figured how it feels to kiss a guy, he just wanted to know how it would be with James.
Kendall stood in front of James and with a quick and sure movement he pushed him against the lockers and held him tight by a hard grip on James' muscular shoulders.
James opened his mouth to talk but he got cut off before he could have even started. Kendall pressed his lips on James' soft ones and massaged them roughly, passionate yet with so much care to make sure that James would enjoy this as much as he, Kendall did.
After several more seconds passing Kendall noticed that James didn't move with him, he didn't kiss back but Kendall felt James palms pressing against his chest and trying to push him away. When he realized what James was about to do, he backed off and stood there still facing with the taller brunette and waited for respond, even if he knew what was about to come.
"You… you freak" James said and rushed away.
Kendall was standing there and watched James running into Jo's arms. They were far away from Kendall but yet Kendall heard the blonde girl saying, "James wasn't a chicken like you and he let me in, he still does whenever I want" and she winked before kissed James deeply and they fell into a rough make out session in front of everyone.
Kendall got his strength and had begun to walk out; soon he realized he was already running. As he reached the door and opened it shining brightness came straight into his eyes making him blind.
That was when he woke up. He panted hardly, he knew it was only a dream when he looked around in the room and saw he was still at Carlos' place.
I wasn't a chicken you bitch. I just don't want to give my virginity to someone who doesn't even care, who just want to be the one to tell that she could get me.
He stood up, first from the sudden change he got a bit dizzy and fell on Carlos' bed with that his friend groaned. Kendall cursed in himself then tried to get up again and walk out to the bathroom.
It was still dark in the house but he knew it wouldn't take a long time and it would be morning when he and Carlos should get to go to school.
The previous day he was with Carlos and he was glad that they were going well again, it was really better now when his best friend knew about his James-thing, Kendall felt a lot better but still was scared what would come if he went to school again and met James there.
Kendall to take his mind off asked his mom if he could stay over at Carlos for the rest of the weekend too so the two teenagers would be going to school on Monday together from Carlos' house. His mother allowed him to stay there so the young boys played video games and enjoyed Mrs. Garcia's awesome cooking during the entire Sunday. Late in the afternoon they went through their homework and then watched some movies, finally they got into bed and agreed in turning themselves off for the week.
It was the very first time that Kendall had dreamt about James and he was feeling really bad because of this. He thought if he ever dreamed of him, it would be nice and happy ending but instead it was a nightmare. James turned him down, he called him a freak plus that slut Jo also made a fool of him.
He repeated in himself the same sentence what he thought to himself when he woke up a few minutes ago, I wasn't a chicken you bitch. I just don't want to give my virginity to someone who doesn't even care, who just want to be the one to tell that she could get me.
Kendall calmed down after washing his face and then he decided to go back to Carlos and to try to sleep a little bit more to be relaxed and to don't screw anything up on the following school day.
"How are you?" Logan asked James as they walked up to their lockers.
James smiled, "I'm great, slept good. You?"
"Me too. You should have stayed though" Logan said sadly.
James sighed, "Logan, I was tired and you know that mom doesn't like when I'm not sleeping at home if it's school the following day."
James and Logan had spent their weekend together. Logan was determined to take his friend's mind off so they were hanging together around Logan's place till Sunday afternoon came and James had to go home.
"I know but I don't want you to be alone anymore, then you're thinking of him and it hurts you."
"Actually I haven't thought of him today yet till you mentioned" James grinned.
"Shit. Sorry, I fuck up everything lately" Logan apologized.
"Nah it's okay. I know you're trying but you can't get him out of my mind, sooner or later he shows up even if we never talk about him, even if it hurts kinda" James comforted his friend.
"Okay, uh speaking of evil" Logan motioned his head towards the corner of the hallway where Kendall and Carlos had just now came into sight.
"He looks so good" James sighed sadly and yet smiling.
Logan kind of laughed, "good to see that you finally say these things out."
"Yeah, it feels good to me too to talk about him sometimes, you know. He is so gorgeous and I would need someone to tell it because if I keep it inside every now and then I feel like I could explode. Even if it hurts because he is straight as a line, I like him a lot and it feels good."
"Yeah, I'm here. If you feel like daydreaming about him I'm listening, if you feel like don't wanna talk, that's also fine" Logan said patting James' shoulder.
"Thanks Logan" James said and for a bare moment he took his eyes off of Kendall to give a look to his friend but then he couldn't help and he was staring at the blonde again.
He was in a deep conversation with Carlos; nobody else was around the two of them now.
"That's a stupid dream" Carlos said after Kendall finished off telling his best friend what he witnessed in his dreams at last night. He was aching inside from the pressure which wanted to share with Carlos what he dreamt of since they woke up but yet he kept it back till they left Carlos' place so neither Carlos mom nor his dad would hear them talking about it.
"Maybe and with that it makes me scared. I try to tell myself that it wasn't real, nothing was real about that but it's hard when actually it all can be true. James can be straight and Jo can tell that about me if I don't give in very soon. She isn't like the girls I have been with before. She would tell it to everyone and she would make herself out of it well."
"Kendall, don't worry. Till now you were proud of it and now you seem like you are … uh"
"Yes Carlos say it out, I'm chickening out."
"No it's not that. It's just you're scared a bit that it isn't right when it really is a good thing. Look where you are, remember that everyone is all over you because you are who you are, doesn't matter if you're still haven't gotten through that. You're just now discovering something new and it keeps your mind confused but remember why you're doing what you're doing and then you'll be fine."
"Yeah, thanks Carlitos. Good to have you" he threw a smile to Carlos.
Kendall then pulled out of his locker his books he would need for first period and when he shut the door closed his eyes found James looking into his and Carlos' direction, "Carlos, he was watching us".
"What?" Carlos asked without turning around to not be suspicious.
"Yes, he was, I saw him, looking here with a serious look on his beautiful face" Kendall said.
"Shit Logan, he just caught me staring" James said and rolled his eyes so the eye-contact broke.
"He did? Then it means he was looking at you, James he might really likes you"
"Just because he accidentally looked towards me? No, maybe he was talking about hockey. We are gonna have a match today."
"You never know James. I've been thinking about him, I mean about the things he usually says and how he behaves with you", Logan said but James didn't feel like talking about it now so he shut the subject off.
"Yeah, uh later Logan. Now let's get going, class starts in a few minutes" James said and they made their way to the classroom.
Kendall was watching them leave, he knew after he caught James staring he wouldn't look back at him once again so Kendall dared to admire his crush for several more seconds before he and Logan left his sight.
"They are gone" Kendall said disappointed as he lost James shape between the crowd of students on the hallway.
"We should get going too, class begins soon and please don't look like this, you can see him again on period."
"Yes Carlos I can see him when he is sitting right behind me?"
"Uh, since it's going to be math, I guess Logan is gonna be there too, maybe they are gonna take seats elsewhere."
"Yeah, true", Kendall sighed.
"Plus" Carlos continued, "I don't think he ever would sit next or near to Jo after he saw you two together during the last week. Really, where is she now?"
"She has sent me a text that she would skip school today."
"Why?"
"Dunno but it's better if she isn't around. I'm thinking of not preten…." Kendall didn't finish himself because suddenly a bunch of girls and guys showed up next to them and wished good lucks to the game which Kendall and his team would be playing that afternoon.
Soon when they got out of the huge ring of students Carlos and Kendall stepped in to the classroom and saw that Logan and James were laughing with a few kids around their desks. For Kendall's biggest happiness they took a seat on Kendall's right a few rows ahead than he and Carlos sits usually.
As they passed by Logan and James, neither of them looked at them but continued their chat with the others. A girl was extremely close to James and it bugged Kendall. He couldn't help but he needed James' attention.
Only a few words to me what I need from you, Diamond.
"Having a girlfriend Diamond?" he asked .
James looked up; deep inside his heart was pumping as crazy as it wanted to jump out, he wondered how the guys around didn't notice his excitement as he heard his name spoken from Kendall's mouth, "see? I don't want yours, I have enough applicants around" James winked at the girl next to him and at a few others who were around at the moment.
"Good. Already thought you aren't straight totally."
"Would that be bothering you Knight? You might want a chance too?" James teased, didn't know how deep he went, the words just came out by themselves.
"It's your business, Diamond" there was again his name, James' heart skipped a beat but he tried to focus on Kendall's words as he continued, "till you keep your hands away from MY girl and from me" Kendall answered getting tired of pretending and wanting to say, yes I want a fucking chance you fucking tease, you are playing here with me but I will catch you once if we were alone. If I wasn't so scared of you denying me I swear I'd catch you.
"Good for me" James said and finally broke the foggy eye-contact with Kendall and turned his attention back to the girls and guys around him and continued to talk about how they are going to kick the other team's ass tonight. James didn't want to get too excited about talking with Kendall again, he needed to keep up his perfect mask so nobody around would see how much he liked the blonde. Logan saw and understood what his best friend was doing and why he was doing it, he knew why James talked back to Kendall but he kept wondering why Kendall even starts things like this? Logan started to assume there was more into it on Kendall's side too, he had gotten more sure with every word what Kendall had let to slide out of his mouth and he was willing to explain his supposal to James too as soon as they would be alone again.
Kendall and Carlos sat down. Carlos spoke up first, whispering into Kendall's ear, "You're going too far there. You give the words into his mouth, he would never admit it in front of these people, might he is scared as you are."
"I know Carlos; I just didn't know what else to say. I need some words of his from that mouth to me."
"Oh you need something much more from that mouth" Carlos sighed.
"Shut up, anybody can here us."
"Being gay isn't a big thing today."
"No but it is a big thing if the one you like isn't gay."
"Forget that dream finally! You don't know what's up with him."
"Yeah but I know that he has never given a shit about me and Jo during the last week. That means something" Kendall said disappointed.
"Look, maybe he is a good actor. Think of it. How long ago you do like him and yet you can cover it very well. He can do the same. How many times do I have to say it to make you believe?"
"I don't know. I would need to hear it from his mouth. I don't know how he is. I mean I know how I am, I know it's important for me to keep my fame because actually this is the one thing I have got besides you" he smiled at his best friend, "and I'm not sure about this whole thing if it is worth it. The gay thing you know. Just because I kinda like him, I dunno, maybe it's just the tension between the two most popular guys, the tension which is always there when we try to prove that we are better than the other one, you know? I dunno.. I dunno anything but that I want to hear him speaking to me."
"It will work out, you will see. You'll understand it soon, just give it time and when you want to hear his voice don't say things like you said now, it won't help, believe me, he isn't stupid, he knows how to give it back."
"I know, I saw it, I can see it from more than a half and a year."
"Good" Carlos said and before they could go into the topic more the teacher came in and began the class.
After first period the class had gotten a half hour break and almost everyone flooded out to the school yard. As James and Logan walked through the hallways to get out, they were discussing the scene before class.
"He told me that he thought I wasn't straight" James sighed.
Logan was thinking for a second not knowing if James was disappointed or glad that Kendall had thought that, "is that wrong or right? I mean you think he was joking or gently wanted to let you know that he assumes something? I'm sorry but I cannot decide, your voice is too uninterested", Logan finally just simply asked how his friend felt.
"Well, I dunno. I don't know anything if it's about him."
"I don't know how to explain it. Neither of us knows what he feels, why he does this to you" Logan said.
"Yeah, you know I'd like to go there and ask what he wants but I'm scared if I told him I like him he'd call me some kind of freak or something. I don't care what others think but what we are doing to each other, this little teasing, is good if we cannot be more. Because I only care about what he would say or think, maybe then he wouldn't talk to me ever again, or fired me out of the team or something, I want him at least to tease me sometimes, and then I can hear my name from his mouth, you know."
"Dude, it's so rough. I understand what you say, what you are scared of but what if he thinks the same? I mean if he is also scared as you are? What if he teases you for the same reason why you let him to do it? He is scared if he came up and admitted he might likes you, then you wouldn't talk to him ever again."
"You think that can happen?" James asked hoping for his best friend's honesty.
Logan stopped before they got to the door and would have walked out, "I definitely think it could happen. And since I don't think I ever could stop you thinking of him, the best way for you to get through it if you knew how he feels."
"So I should talk to him, like normal, I want that, I wish we could but he always starts bugging me and I cannot say things I would like to say because too many people are around. He forces me to say things; he doesn't let me to talk to him normal."
"That's true. But today you guys are having a game. Don't try to rush out before Kendall could blink one and might you can talk to him" Logan gave the advice to James.
James opened the door and they walked out to the school yard, "okay. I'm gonna try it for my own good. You will be there if I need you, right? I mean if things didn't happen well and I need someone to cry myself out with."
"Of course I will, James" Logan comforted his friend with a tight squeeze on his shoulder.
"So Kendall, what are you going to do?" Carlos asked Kendall as they took seats at one of the tables outside and both of them were grateful for the moment because actually no one else was around them again.
"With James? Dunno, yet. I'm not sure he would like me, I mean why he would like me? He really never gave any signs of that plus he seems so straight. Just remember those girls around him an hour ago."
"Yeah, like you aren't in a group of girls almost all the time. It doesn't prove anything" Carlos said pulling up a sandwich and preparing to take a huge bite..
"True, but yet I don't know Carlos. I don't know why he would like me? He barely even looks at me."
"Kendall. Don't wonder if he doesn't look at you. Don't you think of that what if James thinks the same? I mean he wonders why you would like him and feels ashamed to even look at you or he is scared how I said before or what so ever, plus you too have all the girls around."
"Yeah, uh but I'm not sure what to think to be honest. And also it doesn't help that I'm not sure in myself either. I told you it, I dunno anything about myself. These teenage things … ah not my topic. I hate this age, everything is a mess in my mind."
"And in your pants" Carlos laughed.
Kendall giggled, "now why you have to bring that up?"
"Just saying Kendall. Aren't I right?"
Kendall stuck a tongue out, "jerk. Don't talk about THOSE things right now. That's another thing. First here are the heart's things."
"OH you really are such a sweetie when you talk about 'heart things', you know?"
"Carlos shut up and listen to me", Kendall grinned and his best friend nodded, "okay I knock it off."
"So you know lately I'm wondering … the fact that I liked…." Kendall scooted closer to Carlos and lowered his voice so he was whispering, "that I liked when you and me kissed, it doesn't mean that I'm gay. I'm still not sure if the entire thing to get his attention is really worth it, you know?"
"Kendall. You keep saying that but you'll never know what is what worth it really if you're scared to even give it a try. The only way to know if you like him and if he likes you too if you two finally started to talk to each other without bugging the shit out of the other one. Also I think, you and James are similar in a lot ways. Who knows if he is the same scared as you? You should stop doing things like you did an hour ago and then everything or at least almost everything would be clear, you get me?"
"Yes I do, you're right. But I'm scared if my dream came true. And with everything we are talking about it gets obvious that I really am scared."
"To be scared isn't a bad thing Kendall. It's something new. I would be scared too if I were you. But you shouldn't be scared though of talking to him, at least you would know the truth and could get yourself to move on, doesn't matter which team you want to play in finally" Carlos said and then returned to his food.
Kendall fell into a deep trail of thoughts as he saw James walking out of the school's building with Logan.
"Carlos" Kendall spoke up again and literally scared Carlos with his sudden high tone.
Carlos after almost choked by a mouthful of his sandwich looked up, "What?"
Kendall quickly stopped staring James before the brunette would look at him, "what if he really is into guys but he is with this Logan boy?"
"What? Why you think that?"
"Just think of it. They are so together since James came here and they are always so close, there is a continual body contact between them. They hug a lot; they sometimes squeeze each other's hand and stuff."
"Kendall. You and I do the same but not in public because you're so freaked out that someone would think you like guys. They are just good friends I guess. Plus if we are talking about contact, you and I kissed and yet I'm not in love with you and you either with me, right? They are only friends."
"Ahh, these things make me crazy. See? That's why I didn't talk about it. Till there was no one to tell that I like him, no one asked about it and I didn't think of it this much. I didn't really wonder if I'm gay, I just took it like curiosity which would go away soon. Since you said you see that I might like him, it's too real; it confuses the hell in me."
"I'm sorry. I just wanted the good for you. It's better if you see what's going on around yourself or later you'd regret that you didn't notice" Carlos said and felt guilty that he actually made a lot of reason to worry about to his friend.
"No, I didn't mean it like that; don't be mad at me again. I'm just confused. I don't get him."
"It's okay Kendall. Try to get him then, I mean you know…"
"Yes I do know."
The rest of their break spent without more words spoken of James because a bunch of boys and girls came again to hang with them.
James and Logan sat down too and for a while they were talking about some school stuff but James immediately noticed when Kendall got tied down by a lot of students again so he could stare at the blonde being totally sure that he would never look towards him from then.
"You stare at him more and more, you need to catch up after last week when he was with Jo all the time and you didn't dare to look at them, right?" Logan said, "What's going on your pretty head?"
"What? Logan you're talking so weird lately and yes, I've missed watching him for this long" James said and finally he broke his gaze on Kendall.
Logan shook his head, "sorry if I'm giving the wrong signs but I just try to distract you. You are always so careful but you stopped doing that lately. People are going to notice you staring him, just how Kendall caught you this morning."
"I just can't help it okay? I want to know if he likes me too. You said, he might does and it just doesn't let me calm down."
"Okay, look. You seriously need to talk to him more. Come on" Logan grabbed his friend's hand and led him into Kendall's direction.
James gasped for air, panicking a little bit from the thought of him talking to Kendall. Usually Kendall was the one starting their conversations and James was literally scared now. He never was this kind of guy though. He was always opened to talk to everyone but if it was about Kendall, he just got frozen and couldn't form coherent words. At least James thought he wouldn't be able to speak with meaning. The weird what he didn't notice that was when Kendall started to tease him James always went along with it so easily. After Kendall left him alone James felt both relieved and disappointed. He wanted him to stop teasing but yet he wanted to hear his knight's words and enjoy that he could manage some kind of communication with Kendall without special efforts.
Logan was the one seeing how James was acting if Kendall and he started any kind of chatting and here was the perfect moment to tell it to James.
"James, listen to me" he carefully and slowly yet with certain movements led James to Kendall and Carlos' table, "if you guys start to talk it goes easily all the time. I don't care what you say but start to talk to him, it will be fine. Plus remind yourself if he starts it, it always goes into a tease and nothing more. Maybe if you started it, it would be going well and you guys would be able to talk as both of you want."
"Logan I don't think so."
"James" Logan stopped shrugging James' shoulders, "believe me, here I am the one with the higher IQ, now I understand his behaving. The things how we talked about him and how I have been going through all of the things he usually says to you, I get it. Kendall doesn't know what to say to you, but he wants to talk to you, he needs it so he only does what is the easiest to do, tease. And since you never break down by it, more you give it back to him he enjoys it because there is some kind of communication between you two. Just go there and ask him about hockey or whatsoever and you will see he is going to be normal to you. I guess he is only scared as you were at first place when you found out you might like guys. Maybe he just now discovered it not for a long time ago and he doesn't know how to deal with it. Talk to him and you will see it's gonna be easy."
Logan finally could see through Kendall, at least he hoped everything would be the way he hoped it was because if it was then he could relax that he didn't fuck up anything with making James to admit that he liked Kendall.
"Uh Logan, you're speaking too much. I wish it was the way how you think it is" James sighed and when Logan let him go of his grip, he sucked in a deep breath and lifted his foot to continue his way to Kendall.
But he couldn't do like two slow but certain steps when the bell rang warning the students that class would start in a minute. James turned back to Logan, "next time, maybe. But keep those things in your mind. I might will need them again" James grinned and Logan only shook his head.
Neither Kendall nor Carlos notice that James was so close to their table since kids were around them but when they had begun to split up Kendall saw James and Logan standing there.
For a bare second he stuck his gaze at the brunette who was saying something to Logan but then James turned his eyes on Kendall again and the light green and brown pairs of eyes met.
Both Logan and Carlos captured the short happening, Logan was studying Kendall's look to see inside of him more and Carlos was doing the same with James so he could give advices to Kendall if he still wasn't sure enough that the brunette wanted to get closer to him as much as Kendall wanted to get closer to James.
