Here you go, one day early. I hope you all like it. I guess I forgot to add this on other chapters so, I own nothing. Sadly, except for Kendall and Nova and Noelle. And for future reference, I own nothing else, unless they are unrecognized.
*Warning: Contains Sexual Content*
Kendall's POV
"Mommy!" Noelle yelled as she ran into the kitchen, "Mommy, guess what!"
I picked her up, laughing at her enthusiasm, "What Elle-girl?"
"You should hear what Daddy just told me," she gushed with a heart stopping smile on her face.
"Oh, I should, huh? Well, I'm pretty sure that it's bed time. Where are your brother and sister?" I asked her suspiciously. I had an inkling that John had let Noelle stay up past bed time again while making Nova and Alanna go to bed.
"No-no and Ally felled asleep watching Aladdin. I wasn't so tired though," she told me with a shrug, "But Daddy said the cooliest thing ever!"
"Cooliest?" I laughed, "Sweetie, you're three. How do you know the word cooliest?"
"Ally told me. But Daddy said you were gonna have a baby," Noelle practically yelled, getting down from my arms to jump up and down around the kitchen, "Mommy's gonna have a baby!"
"No, no, no! Daddy's wrong, sweets. I'm not having a baby-"
"Not yet."
I could practically hear the smirk in his voice as he walked into the kitchen and it made me want to cry. My mind was trying to make sense of why he would do all of this. He threw away my birth control pills, he refused to wear condoms, he moved all of my stuff back into his bedroom, and all but tied me to the bed to make me stay there at night.
Shaking my head, I ignored John, "Elle-girl it's time to go to bed. It's late and you are going to be cranky tomorrow if you don't get your beauty sleep."
"But I'm not even sleepy," Noelle whined.
"You are too, Noelle. Your eyes are so red and you're already getting cranky. I'll put some music on nice and quiet for you and you'll be asleep in no time," I told her.
"I'm not tired," she demanded, "I'm staying up."
"Oh, come on Kendall. Let her stay up," John said quietly as he walked up behind me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and I felt myself tense up. It wasn't very often that he was intimate like this with me and it made me nervous.
"Don't do that. Don't take her side," I warned, "She needs to learn to listen to me."
John cleared his throat, "Noelle Sicily Jane, you listen to your mom right now. If she says go to bed then you better get."
"But Daddy-"
"No buts get to bed," he said sternly.
"Fine," she grumbled before turning and running up to her room.
"Why would you tell her that?" I asked, detaching myself from his arms and going back to cleaning up the kitchen.
"Because it's going to happen," John said softly as he grabbed my hand lightly, "Kendall?"
"What?" I snapped.
"Let me," he sighed before stopping nervously as he pulled me towards him.
"Let you what John?"
"Let me make love to you, please. Don't make me take it from you tonight." The tone of voice he used caught me off guard, "I want to make love to my wife, Priceless."
"John, don't-"
He cut me off by pressing his lips against my, soft and passionate. John hadn't kissed me like this since the very first time we kissed and that was all it took for him to lift me up in his arms and carry me upstairs. He kicked the bedroom door shut before setting me on my feet, batting my hands away gently when I reached for the hem of his shirt.
"This night is about you, Priceless," he vowed against my collarbone, "I'm doing this for you."
Slower than he'd ever done it before, he removed all of my clothing and then his. He kissed the scar my brothers made after laying me on his bed, then he slowly slide into my hot sex. My hands were up and down his back as he continued at the slow pace, never speeding up and showing no signs of speeding up, until he took my wrists in one of his large hands and pinned them above my head. I was almost positive that he would start pounding into me when he did that, but if it were possible he moved even slower.
"John, please," I begged, bucking my hips up to meet his I tried to do anything that would give me more.
"Let me make love you to," he groaned in my ear, "I need to hear you say it, Priceless."
"S- Say what?" I stuttered, suddenly not feeling in the mood for sex.
"Tell me you love me."
Even though I could hear the need in his voice, I shook my head. Trying to pull my wrists out of his hand so that I could push him away from me only caused him to tighten around them. A coldness erupted in my chest that shouldn't have been there considering the amount of heat pouring from John's body. He was using me. Again.
"Get off me," I whispered, not trusting my voice to not crack.
"Say it, baby, and I can give you what you want," he compromised, "I can give you what you need."
And just like that, the coldness went away, "I love you."
His body trembled from an orgasm he hadn't let me experience as he smirked, "I know."
John's POV
"No," she whispered brokenheartedly as I pulled away from her.
"What?" I laughed, mockingly, "Did you actually think I'd fallen in love with you? Kendall, we've been married for 4 years. I'm not going to fall in love with you; I just wanted you to admit that you love me. I already knew it, of course, but now I know I can still use it against you."
She moved to get out of the bed but I grabbed her back and tucked my face into her neck. Kendall was weak and she let me see that, but I wouldn't let her know what my own weakness was. I refused to tell her what it did to me whenever I heard her say those words. Telling one person your weakness meant telling everyone that person talked to and I wasn't going to let anyone know. Not even my wife.
"Why are you doing this to me?" she asked after she'd given up fighting.
"Because I can. Because you're my wife and I'm your husband so you do as I say. Because your family is a bunch of lowlifes who drove themselves into the ground and are on so many peoples hit list right now it's actually quite ridiculous," I told her, "And honestly because it's fun."
"I don't understand why I always have to pay for my families mistakes. I have done nothing wrong-"
"Nothing wrong? I'm pretty sure doing that damn interview was wrong," I demanded.
"And you've already taped me to a wall for the whole day because of it, John. Please just leave me alone right now," she begged.
She pulled the blankets up to cover our naked bodies and rolled away from me. When I rolled her back into my chest she pushed against me until I pinched her side sharply. Sighing, I wrapped my arms around her and interlocked my fingers, insuring that she wouldn't get up in the middle of the night and run from me. I tried to take comfort in the fact that Kendall still loved me and I knew that she wouldn't leave me, but I couldn't stop myself from feeling bad about what I'd just done to her. I knew that the words I said to her would hurt, but I was so close to admitting it to her tonight that I needed something to deflect my thoughts away from how I truly felt about her.
