Hey guys. I haven't updated for ages!
Summary: My name is Mikan Sakura. Hotaru, and my parents died in a car crash a little while ago, so to get away from the memories that haunt me, I'm moving town to go to Alice Academy boarding school. Unfortunately, my life there didn't turn out exactly as I wished it too. RukaxMikan Non Alice.
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Chapter 3-
My smile disappeared almost immediately though. It wasn't guilt this time that was keeping me from smiling, It just felt so odd, especially when Yuu started grinning as though he had achieved something and Ruka who had a partially dazed look on his face as well as being shocked.
"So Misaki, are you going out with that guy you liked?" Nonoko asked giggling. Misaki spun around and stared at Nonoko, her face turning red. Tsubasa turned to look at her shocked and a little trifled.
"What?" Misaki spluttered before calming down and quickly glanced at Tsubasa before adding in a disappointing tone "No, not yet,"
"What? Who is it?" Tsubasa demanded. Misaki turned to look at him, her face turning red and didn't seem like she would say anything.
"BRRRRIIINNNGG" I flinched as the bell seemed to ring in my ears.
"Anyway, Tsubasa and I have got to go to Biology," Misaki quickly said before getting up and dragging Tsubasa away. I watched on as those two bickered with each other as they disappeared from my view.
"Well, Youichi, you had better get to class as well since the rest of us are in the same class," Nonoka smiled gently making Youichi frown but he headed off as well. The rest of us stood up and started heading to our class.
"So Mikan, do you wanna keep sitting with us?" Yuu asked eagerly but with a hint of worry in his eye. I didn't answer for a couple of seconds. Did I want to sit with them? Yuu's face dropped as he realized I hadn't said anything yet. He probably took my silence as a no. I hesitated.
"Yeah, okay," I spoke, pleased with how Yuu's face lit up happily.
"Really? Yeah!" Yuu spoke with a large smile. I rolled my eyes before walking into the classroom, the others following my footsteps.
"Aha! There are the happy campers!" Narumi smiled cheerfully. I looked at Narumi oddly before deciding to ignore him and walked towards my seat. I sat down and a moment later, Ruka mimicked my steps and sat in his seat beside me.
Sighing, I turned my head to the window again. Today was a lot different than what I thought it would be like. I thought everyone would just ignore me and keep to themselves but... in the end, I ended up in some group. It was refreshing in some ways since they were the first people to... even try to talk to me since ...their deaths. I imagine that I must give off some really depressing vibes so I definitely admired Yuu's courage to be my roommate.
Just then, a small bunched up piece of paper landed on my desk. I nearly jumped in surprise and my gaze shifted over to where it came from. A girl with ..... green hair? I stared at her for a second. Wow, who would want to dye their hair green? She stared at me dirtily and for a second I was taken aback. I didn't even know her and she hated me!
I turned and looked at the small piece of paper lying on my desk. I knew whatever that piece of paper had on it, that it was bad. I slowly unraveled the piece of paper and read it. My eyebrows shot up in surprise before I reread it again, thinking maybe I had read it wrong. It read:
Stay away from Natsume and Ruka.
They are too good for you!
I stared at the piece of paper before crumbling it up and put it too the side of my desk before staring out of the window again. So, on my first day I was already making enemies? Wow, what a huge achievement I thought sarcastically.
"Now class, you will be put in pairs for this assignment," Narumi grinned. I blinked unsure at what he was talking about, before deciding I would get the details later. Narumi started calling names out of who would be paired together. I didn't take notice who got paired to who except for Yuu who got paired up with Anna. I zoned out again until he reached my name.
"Mikan...you will be paired up with Ruka as you are probably getting familiar with each other," Narumi smiled. I hesitated before looking over to Ruka who was smiling at me. I unwillingly felt myself blushing before turning my head, determined not to look at him.
"Now, for the next hour until lunch, you will be working on this assignment and then have to work on it in you're own time," He spoke with a happy smile. I frowned before turning to Ruka again who seemed just as uneasy as I did.
"So...what's this assignment about?" I asked boredly. Ruka looked up at me in surprise. I must have given him a look which said 'tell me' because he immediately went on with an explanation.
"This assignment is to... know the person," I stared at Ruka uncomprehendingly. What did that mean? Ruka blushed embarrassedly before speaking up again.
"Well, I guess... we just have to get to know one another," I stared again, but this time I understood what we were doing, it just sounded a... little far fetched. He went on. "You know, I have to find out you're dislikes, likes, favorite food. That type of thing... and if you're wondering why we're doing this, well... we do this every time a new person comes, that's why he selects the partners. He pairs up the people who don't know each other very well," I still stared at Ruka unimpressed, before turning to look at Narumi who seemed like he was humming to himself.
I sighed before deciding that Ruka was serious and turned back to him who cleared his throat.
"Well.. uh... what's you're favorite animal?" Ruka asked curiously. I tilted my head before answering.
"Wolf," I told him "It represents loyalty and stability," I smiled sadly when I said 'stability'. I never liked things to change. Ruka nodded thoughtfully, although looked a bit apprehensive for a second.
I sighed, before deciding that I should just try and do the assignment.
How about you?" I asked. Ruka crinkled his eyebrows up for a second.
"A rabbit...Ruka trailed off before continuing "...but I don't know what it means..." He sighed and almost seemed to regret that he didn't know.
"The rabbit..." I said socially ,"... represents modesty" Ruka's eyes widened, almost disbelievingly.
"And how do you know that?" Ruka asked questionably. I gave him a slight grin in return.
"Knowing what animals represents is a hobby of mine. Next question," I said, feeling a little proud. Ruka thought quickly.
"What subjects are you good at?" Ruka questioned quickly as though he would lose my interest. I stared at Ruka doubtfully. What subjects was I good at? No subjects came to mind.
"Uhhh... next question..." I hesitantly said, not wanting to look like a complete idiot. Ruka looked disappointed before going to the next question.
"What's you're biggest fear?" I froze, before trying to think about about the question fashionably. My biggest fear was of losing Hotaru...but that had already happened. A deep punching feeling emerged, almost painfully. I looked away from Ruka, trying to hide the tears that were threatening to fall down and pushed the feeling away. My second biggest fear would be.... My mind came up blank. I wasn't scared off dying, wasn't scared off the dark, I wasn't even scared of when I had those flashbacks. Those felt... almost welcoming. I slowly turned back to Ruka who looked as though he wish he hadn't asked that question.
"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have..." Ruka started to answer regretfully.
"Nothing," I butted in. Ruka stared uncomprehendingly.
"Sorry?"
"I said I'm not scared off anything,"
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After that little conversation, things got a little more tense, but the bell soon went for lunch and I got dragged back with Yuu's group. I didn't say much, only answered when spoken to, and soon the end of lunch came. Before I knew it, the bell rang for classes to end for the day.
I yawned tiredly. The nights were harsh and full of nightmares, but I was starting to get used to them, but right now, all I wanted to do was go to sleep. Quickly I walked over to Yuu and tapped him on the shoulder.
"Hey Yuu, can you show me back to our room?" I asked quickly. I didn't particularly like relying on people anymore, but this time, it couldn't be helped. I was not going to wander around for a while just trying to find my dorm.
Yuu turned around and happily smiled "Sure," He said a quick word to the people he was talking to before heading out with me following him.
"How was you're first day?" Yuu asked, a bit unsure.
"It was fine," I said, grimacing a bit. He seemed to catch up on my mood and kept silent. I glanced at him and saw that he kept opening his mouth before closing it again.
"Did you want to say something?" I asked cautiously. Yuu turned a little pink before putting on a determined face and stopped his walking which quickly made me stop and turn back to him.
"I was... wanting to know about what happened to you today in the morning," Yuu truthfully spoke, but his voice was tinged with uncertainty and curiosity. For a moment I thought I saw a little bit of fear in Yuu's eyes, but momentarily dismissed it. He didn't even know me, it's not like he would care if something happened to me, but as I stared into his sincere gaze, I found myself wanting to be a little truthful. I sighed.
"What did you want to know?" For once Yuu's eyes were serious, and I could just imagine all the questions that he wanted to ask.
"Why did you faint?" His question was so abrupt that it startled me, but I frowned and thought of an answer.
"I'm not sure," I told him. It was truthful, but misleading. I didn't know why I had flashbacks, I just had them, although I could make many theories about why it happened. Yuu nodded slowly, but I could tell he didn't quite believe me.
"Has it happened before?" I nodded slowly and I could tell Yuu didn't particularly like my answer.
"Do you need to go to the doctors?" Yuu asked concerned, but I furiously shook my head. They couldn't do anything about it, how could they?Besides, I had already gone once and it didn't help, what was the point of going again.
"It's nothing Yuu, I've been before. There's nothing they can do to help me," I winced as those words came out of my mouth. It sounded as though I had some disease or something like that. Yuu apparently thought that as well since his face turned into one of worry.
"It's nothing... deadly is it?" Yuu hesitantly asked, his eyes begging me to tell him no. It was a good thing I wasn't terminally ill, I would have hated to say yes to that question.
"Nope, it isn't," I reassured him. I hesitated before gesturing for us to walk again. As we started walking, I almost forgot to ask him something.
"You... didn't tell anyone about what happened, did you?" I asked cautiously and hoping against all hope that he didn't mention it to any of his friends or teachers.
"No, I didn't," Yuu started sincerely. "I figured that you wouldn't want me to tell anyone," My heart rose at his answer. He seemed like such a nice person and seemed in tune with peoples feelings around him.
"Thank you," I murmured thankfully. The last thing I wanted was to have his friends all ask me what happened. Yuu smiled cheerfully.
"Ruka seems to get ruffled up by you. Not many people can do that," Yuu commented. I tensed, my face growing red. I chose not to comment on the first part.
"Who else gets him ruffled up?" I asked, trying to get the conversation to a different direction.
"Natsume. Those two are best friends," Yuu spoke. I smiled sadly as it reminded of me and Hotaru.
"Good for them," I spoke, my voice tinged with envy and loneliness.
"Ahh! We're here," Yuu said with a smile. "Did you want me to stay?" I frowned as I tried to read into whether or not he wanted to stay. Yuu just stared at me expectedly.
"Uhh... if you want," I hesitantly spoke. Yuu beamed before opening the door and we both went in. Sighing, I went over to the couch and practically collapsed on it. I rubbed my eyes tiredly before opening them and looked over at Yuu who was staring at me with a sympathetic look on his face.
"Hard first day?" He asked and I could tell he already knew the answer so I just nodded before yawning.
"If you don't mind, I think i'll go to sleep now. You can go to you're friends," I told him sleepily. Yuu blinked before nodding slowly. He walked over to the door before looking back at me.
"Our friends," Yuu spoke firmly. I stared before breaking out into a smile. Yuu opened the door before quickly closing it after he went out.
"Our friends," I whispered, overwhelmed.
I sat in silence for a while before my mind started going back to everything that had happened. Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face. I sobbed, hiding my face in my hands. The pain of losing my family and Hotaru never died down, but maybe, jusy maybe I could move on.... just like how Hotaru would have wanted me to do.
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Well, that's it XD
How was it... I havn't updated this story for ages. I'm soooo sorry, but I'm glad I finally got this chapter up... though not much is actually happening. I just think Mikan needs to sort out her feelings a bit first.
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