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-Cassayah

-Chapter III

-Deception


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At fourteen, Racyene O'Toole was a small extremely beautiful human woman who could have passed quite easily for a Japanese woman had she the proper tilt to her eyes. She was full blooded Irish, though her ancestors had resettled in Wales some three hundred years prior to her fathers lust for adventure leading them to the once named SouthPearle Plantation in the western lands of Japan, quickly, and tactlessly renaming it New Wales Plantation. Why Sidney and Amelia O'Toole bothered to search out the adventure of Sengoku Jidai Japan was a mystery as they quickly made their dwellings as Welsh as possible, destroying any and all traces of its Japanese origins.

While Sidney and Amelia O'Toole came looking for adventure, their pamper spoiled daughter Racyene came with her own motives. Lore among the girls at the private catholic school she attended was rife with stories about the beautiful and proud Japanese yokai and the magical gifts they could gift a human with for the right price. Racy, as she was called back home, had just the rumored gift in mind, and now she had even had the right yokai to bestow it on her. If only her parents would quit being so adamant she marry Roarke Debunee in two weeks. Roarke could wait a few weeks...until she finished her business with the other one...

Lord Siam...

Just the thought of actually allowing him to have his way with her, to touch her body, made Racy shudder with disgust. He was an InuYokai, handsome sure, not as handsome as her original target, the tall one with the honey colored eyes. But he was completely besotted with the little dog girl, so was Siam for that matter but Racy had an eye for picking out the ones that could be lead astray and Siam was the kind with a wandering eye.

She was just going to have to take advantage of those nasty yokai traits she had learned about to get him to complete the mating bond before she married Roarke.

She only needed Siam temporarily ...just long enough to gain his specail gift. She had planned to lie to him if neccisary, his gift was that priceless. What she hadn't counted on was that the yokai aristocrat was even more boringly honorable than the human aristocrat she was betrothed to.

She had never dreamed that he would seek approval from her parents himself...or that her acts to undo the damage that simple act of honor did to her goal would be her ultimate undoing...or the undoing of others as well.

It probably wouldn't have stopped her anyway.

Racy was a reckless one.

-end flashback-

"Once Siam learned that Racyene was to soon marry this human he was devastated, he had completely coupled with her, all that remained was to complete the exchange of blood."

InuYasha was confused. "How could a human know so much about yokai mating rituals? I thought she wasn't even..."

"Correct. We never knew where she got her information, until the night that I confronted her at the end of the summer. By then the damage was done. Even after she married the human, Siam could not break the bond he had formed with her in his heart. He still followed after her as if he were a newborn pup after his mothers tit."

InuYasha felt strangled...that sounded like the way he had once followed after Kikyo. All it had taken was a glimpse of a single Shinidamachuu and he was off...leaving Kagome behind once again without a second thought to how it made her feel.

Damn him for causing Kagome such pain.

"And this is why I was so willing to follow after Kikyo even though she was dead... unattainable to me, like this Racyene was unattainable to Siam?"

"I would be lying if I said I saw no similarities InuYasha. Yet as much as they have in common, the two situations have nothing in common as well."

"What do you mean?"

"Have you betrayed Kagome? Lead her to believe you were no longer in love with the miko?"

InuYasha shrugged "Keh, if anything it was the opposite." he looked at the puzzled lift to Sesshomaru's brows "Yeah, you don't know the full story. Because of so many things...Naraku's deception, my non-status as a "filthy hanyou"...just...too many things to name...I let Kagome think I was still in love with Kikyo a lot longer than I even was."

"Did you not know she returned your feelings?"

"At first I didn't. But even once I did, what have I ever done to deserve her? Kami, I fucking tried to kill her like five minutes after we met. I was going to let her shoot the crow yokai who had stolen the jewel and then let her go to fall to her death from the sky while I was carrying her, supposedly protecting her."

Sesshomaru grinned slightly "And you dare to call this Sesshomaru a bastard when you were a bastard many time's over?"

InuYasha glared over at Sesshomaru "At least I outgrew it."

"Perhaps." Sesshomaru sighed sadly, wishing that Siam had changed as InuYasha had. Then perhaps...

"You're thinking of Cassayah again." Sesshomaru looked up at InuYasha and he shrugged, InuYasha shrugged back. "You're face changes when you think of her. Its the only time I've ever seen an expression...well, besides anger."

Sesshomaru rested his head back against a tree and looked up at the stars.

"By mid summer the human bitch was married to her human male. Cassayah was herself again, as was Siam, or so it seemed. Cassayah confessed to me that she was sure now that Siam's momentary lapse of judgment was past, she would be free to announce her choice at the final ball of the summer at SakuraPasse.

"We went on hunts, though Cassayah stayed behind now because she had developed a dislike for killing for sport. Not surprising, it is fairly normal for the female of our species. As summer grew aged rumors began to fly that Siam was still bedding the human. I confronted him and he confessed, always promising to tell the human he would not meet her again if I would protect his secret from Cassayah, as he had become aware he was her choice. In the end the one who made the final choice was Roarke Debunee."

InuYasha looked up at Sesshomaru, his eyes wide.

"He caught them?"

Sesshomaru nodded "Hit over the head and knocked unconscious, saturated in lamp oil and tossed in a cave, then set to burn."

"Fucking Kami." InuYasha gasped "Bastard."

"We buried him the week before Cassayah would have announced him as her chosen mate."

"You killed that mother fucker I hope."

"Not me." Sesshomaru shook his head, a small smile playing on his lips.

"Cassayah..."

"Before the summer had completely flown she found him in his Sakura orchard. I still wonder what he must have thought, seeing what looked like a tiny helpless girl coming towards a man that was even bigger than I. A big brutish human with bulging muscles and a cocky grin. How his eyes must have bulged out of his face when he realized her strength as she began to tear him apart, slowly, savoring each scream of pain. She told me she even stopped once to lick his blood from her claws. That's where I first heard that the blood of revenge is truly the sweetest blood of all. She stopped by the river to clean herself and I came across her as she returned to SakuraPasse...and then..."

-Flashback-

"Sesshomy..." Her voice was soft, gentle like the sakura blossoms that lined the grass that their naked bodies lay tangled on while Sesshomaru gently thrust in and out of her, claiming his mate.

"Cassayah...do you love me?" He kissed her breasts

"Of course I do Sesshomy, don't ask such foolish questions at a time such as this."

"But, do you love me as you loved...as one should love a lifelong mate?"

He felt his crest building and knew the moment was fast approaching. If he didn't stop now, there would be no turning back. He didn't want that, Kami knew that he didn't want that. No, he wanted this more than he ever dreamed it possible to want anything. More than he wanted to one day surpass his fathers greatness, more than he longed to feel Tessiaga heavy against his side. More than he even longed to hear the screams of his pups calling out his arrival home after a day of surveying his lands. He wanted Cassayah.

She remained silent.

Sesshomaru pulled back, forcing his screaming body to stop in its raging claim of her.

He tilted her face to his and she opened her eyes, tears poured down her face and she pushed him off of her. She reached for her yukata and thrust her arms into the sleeves, holding the rest of her clothings to her chest.

Sesshomaru sat up, covering himself with his hoari.

"Cassayah..."

"I had hoped you could mate me without my love, but I should have known. Not you, not my precious Sesshomy who loves so purely. Forgive me for trying to make you accept something less than what you fully deserve."

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InuYasha gaped at Sesshomaru, mouth hanging open,

"Shut your mouth InuYasha, you look like more of a baka than usual."

"You have to admit bastard, it's hard to imagine. You giving up a woman because she didn't love you enough."

Sesshomaru looked sad, wistful.

"There is much about the much younger Sesshomaru that you do not know. I was a child. I imagine it would shock you to learn that I was once not that different from how you are now. Perhaps if it would promise to shock you to death, I would perhaps be more willing to extend an explanation."

InuYasha couldn't resist borrowing one of Sota's favorite expressions "Bite me"

Sesshomaru looked at InuYasha with a shocked expression "This Sesshomaru has already explained that I am not a homosexual."

It was InuYasha's turn to chuckle now. "It's one of Kagome's little brothers expressions."

Sesshomaru nodded, deciding that it must be universal that little brothers were the oddest of all beings.

"So you were about to tell me how you use to be just like me..."

"Yes, well...I too was once a baka who acted before I thought things through."

-flashback-

"Cassayah...do you not love me?"

"I'm sorry Sesshomaru. I only meant to hide the truth from Siam, from the nosy countryside... I never meant to deceive you ... I never meant to hurt you Sesshomaru."

"The countryside sees much that isn't true, for this I can not fault you."

"What do you mean Sesshomy?"

"They see a happy Inu no Tashio and his bitch, yet mother and father can barely stand to be in the same room with one another. The countryside sees the the proud Inu no Tashio of the western lands welcoming and accepting these new humans from the west, when both father and I would rather burn their dwellings down with their wretched selves inside, yet there is little we can do because we know all of high yokai aristocracy is watching."

"I understand."

"Damn the humans and damn that wretched bastard and his slut most of all for the pain they have caused you Cassayah. For this I shall not forgive him."

Sesshomaru stood and began to dress iritably.

"What happened really wasn't her fault Sesshomy. No one forced Siam to fall in love with her."

"If only father had the backbone to have allowed it...for if it were up to me, I would have been the one to strike him down. Siam should have paid, this is true, but not at the hands of that fucking human."

"And Lord Hyak would have surely come to strike you down, then the great Inu no Tashio would strike Lord Hyak down, and so on until a river of blood filled the countryside. A yokai war on my account Sesshomy? Be not ridiculous. I do not wish to see blood attributed to my honor. Now..."

Cassayah kissed his cheek "I must go."

She ran down the lane to the plantation house, disappearing into the dark night.

-End Flashback-

InuYasha looked up just in time to catch Sesshomaru wipe the unshed tears from his lashes.

"That was the last time Cassayah and I ever spoke to one another."

Sesshomaru's head slumped over his knees and his shoulders shook. InuYasha felt helpless. Not knowing what else to do, he scooted over and sat quietly next to his older brother, he said nothing, just let his presence be known by his quiet breathing so Sesshomaru knew that InuYasha was there when he was ready to accept that he needed him.


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Chapter 4 Preview

It's far from over ...more shocks

to come in the dramatic conclusion to

CASSAYAH

Sorry updates are so slow!


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