Hello again! Sorry that I haven't updated this in a while like the last, I had some stuff happen, making it impossible. I've also been watching Supernatural, like binge watching it since the new season just came out. I'm already on season 8 so I'm really excited to catch up.
Anyways, this is the last chapter for Oh captain, my Captain! I didn't really want this to be a long story, but it was too much to have in just one or two chapters.
Also, I wrote this chapter, especially the end, while listening to 'I see fire' by Ed Sheeran. This song is super addictive and gave me the feels so I couldn't help it.
I hope you enjoy the chapter and look forward to seeing more of you for my new stories!
I DO NOT OWN AOT OR ITS CHARACTERS, JUST KATERINA WEIS AND THE STORY PLOT.
"Ah, Levi!" He pushed me into the wall hard, biting and sucking on my collarbone. He lets out a growl as he rips my shirt over my head. He grabs my breast in his hand and squeezes. It makes me me shutter. He leans in, grabbing my earlobe with his teeth and bit down, making me scream.
"Say it." He squeezes my breast, hard.
"Levi!" He lets out a growl again and slides his other hand down the front of my pants, teasing me. I squirm underneath him, wanting nothing but him on top of me.
"Now, brat, say it again." He grabs the back of my head, fist full of hair and pulls, I let out a moan. He leaned in and bit my lip, lapping up the blood he spilt.
"L-Levi!" He throws me on the bed on my front. He lifts up my back end and pulls both my pants and panties down to my knees. I squirm again under his gaze. Surely he can see how much I want him? "You just love to be punished, don't you brat." Before I know it, I heard a loud SMACK!, before I felt the sting on my bare ass, making me yelp. I quivered as he did it again, wondering if I'll end up with a welt the shape of his hand. He trailed his hand down to my dripping entrance and slowly slipped a finger in. I gripped the sheets, he moved his hand slowly, letting his finger slide in and out of me in an agonizingly slow pace.
"Mmm, please!" I could feel him move, taking his finger out of me completely. He was most likely taking the rest of his clothing off. I could feel his fingers wrap around my hips, digging his fingers into them, making me gasp. He leaned down, letting his penis rest at my entrance. I wiggle into him, hoping he'll slide himself into me, giving me what I've been waiting so long for. His mouth is at my ear again, pulling on my hair as he growled. "Say it." I couldn't wait any longer, this was absolute torture.
"C-captain!" That's when he did it. He slammed himself into me, not once letting go of my hair. I moaned loudly and he pounded harder and harder almost bringing me to the edge. He then flipped me over and ramming into me once again. I opened my eyes to look up at his handsome face.
But it wasn't that.
I looked horrified as blood dripped from his mouth. I looked down our bodies and saw his bottom half was gone, as if eaten by a titan. He cupped my face, smearing blood all over me. I looked up at his face, his facial expression stoic, as if nothing was happening. I try to squirm away from him but all I got was more blood pouring all over my body. I let out a scream.
"NO!" I sat up in my bed, a sweat resting on my brow and tears in my eyes. 'What the hell was that?!' I cover my face with my hands and just cry. How could I dream about my captain dying? He's humanities strongest solider! He was going to lead this world into victory, I just know it.
But if I knew that for sure, why do I have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach?
I heard someone open my door and I snapped my head up. In the doorway was non other than the man of my dreams.
Literally.
He looked like absolute shit. I mean he did drink a lot and I doubt that the shower helped any with his hangover. He sleepily glared at me as he walked in, shutting the door behind him. He stalked over and stared down at me. I gulped under his gaze. He reached down and I flinched, remembering my dream. His hand twitched to a stop before moving again. He used his thumb to wipe away the tears that I had forgotten about. I was then aware they were still flowing and I turned away from him, covering half of my face with a sleeve covered hand. I felt the bed move and realized that Levi had sat down. I didn't want him to see me like this. Not now.
"Oi, brat, look at me." I didn't move.
"you know you can't resist this face." So he did hear me last night! Now I really didn't want to turn around.
I felt a hand on my shoulder, it was gentle, not something that I would expect. The hand turned me to face him, but I avoided looking at him. He cupped my chin and made me look up at him. I let out a sniffle as more tears fell. He wiped them away with his free hand, and then cupped my face.
"How can I expect you to pull me from the dark if you fall in before me?" My eyes widened. Did he just..?
Before I knew it, his mouth was on mine. It was a quick kiss, unsure. His lips lingered, touching mine as my breath stopped, and his getting ragged. He opened his eyes that were apparently closed, and stared into mine, unsure on if he should continue. Memories of my dream flashed and I flinched away, tears continuing their freefall. I watched Levi sigh and run a hand through his hair. He reached out to me, ignoring the fact that I flinched when he touched me, and pulled me into him, both of us collapsing sideways on the bed. I was breathing heavily at this point, trying to get a grip on reality. 'This wasn't your dream damnit, this is real life! He's alive! Breathing! No blood! Just look!' I looked up to see him just staring at the ceiling. He looked down at me and his expression softened. I reached up and touched his face, making his eyes close.
'He's really here, he's alive.' I snuggle back into the captain, resting my head on his chest. I closed my eyes and listened to his breathing, and his heart beat. It was soothing. I smile and mumble a 'thank you' before slipping unconscious.
At least not until I heard a "whatever, brat."
I woke up , a little light falling on my face, signaling that it was morning already. I felt a warmth beneath me and I didn't dare open my eyes. I just snuggled into my pillow more, hoping to catch a few more minutes if sleep.
"So I see you're awake." That's not my pillow.
My eyes snap open and I sit up. Looking down I see my captain. One arm behind his head, and a smirk playing at his lips. I blushed remembering the events of last night, and immediately brought my fingers to my lips. They tingled at the memory. I heard a snort and saw he sat up in front of me. He grabbed my hand and kissed my fingers. I just watched him, amazed. When he was done he looked up at me and pulled my hand, making me fall into him. His other hand snaked around my waist as he kissed me. It wasn't as soft as last night. This time, it was harder, more needy. I just moved my mouth with his, reaching up with one hand to cup the crook of his neck. He pulled back, letting his lips linger near mine once again. This time though, he had kept his eyes closed, and his brow was knitted together. I pulled my my hand from his and cupped both sides of his face, making him open his eyes. We just stared at each other. It's weird. I've known this man for only a short few months and he's been mostly nothing but an emotionless, sadistic, jerk that liked control. But as I look at him now, all I see is a man who wants to feel, who wants to be saved.
I give him a smile and lean in for another kiss. He grunted when my lips touched his, obviously enjoying it. He then grabbed my hair with his free hand, tangling it around his fingers. He gave a small tug, making my head lean back and breaking the kiss. He left small bites and kisses down my neck to my collarbone. I let out a content sigh as he just left kisses on my skin. Suddenly he stopped and I looked down. He was leaning his head on me, looking into my lap. I lift his face to see his eyes closed, and tears falling down his own face.
My eyes widened in shock. Humanities Strongest was crying. I frowned. I shouldn't be surprised. He had so much weighing on him. Everyone who has ever died, every mother, father, and child, who is safe inside the walls, everything. It was all on him. That's too much weight for anyone to handle by themselves.
I wiped his tears like he had done to me, and smiled at him as his eyes opened to look at me. He was confused. Was it because I hadn't slapped him, telling him to man up? Who knows.
"Take my hand." I pull a hand from his face and put it in front of him. He glances down at it before taking it. I pull him into me, like he had done, and let our breath entwine, as our bodies fell, mine under his. His forehead touched mine, eyes closed, and tears seeming to have slowed. "Let me pull you into the light." I whisper before crashing my lips to his, pulling his body to mine. His body started to relax as our mouths moved together.
Let me help you forget the hell that we live in.
–
We had an expedition coming up. What was weird was it was so soon after the last one. We usually have a a good six months before the next one, maybe. Levi was angry about it all. Erwin hadn't even talked it over with him before announcing it, like he usually did apparently. The only reason that I knew this, was because he had come into the mess hall during lunch, pulled me out, dragged me to his bedroom and practically tore my clothes off. He just kept kissing me, not saying a word when I asked him what was wrong. When he was all finished, he held my face in his hands and told me everything.
Of course I was scared too. That horrible feeling coming back.
"Stay here. Don't go on the expedition. Please, Katerina-" I put a finger to his lips, making him stop.
"I'm going." I must have pissed him off because he threw himself off of me and started to pace back and fourth. I sat up, my legs dangling off the side of the bed. I started to get myself dressed, picking my clothes off the floor next to the bed. He stopped and looked at me with a scowl.
"You're not going." He growled.
"You need me." I said. I'm not backing down. We glared at each other.
"I will make you stay."
"Tsk, sure you will. And what do you think would happen if I didn't?" I could see him playing scenarios in his head. Getting frustrated, he ruffled his hair and started to pace again.
"What if you got hurt."
"It wouldn't be the first time." He flinched.
"What if you got killed." He mumbled. I looked him in the eye.
"Then you kill the bastard and carry on. Defeat them all. Bring peace back into this world, even if I left it." That got him.
He waltzed over to me, pulled me to my feet and gripped my shoulders.
"Don't you dare. Don't you dare think like that!" He had a hint of pain playing in his voice, but I stood tall. I wasn't going to falter. Not now.
"Why not? You can't do this to me Levi. I joined the scouting legion to help win. I can't help by staying here, sitting on my ass, praying that you'll come back."
"But if you die then that's not helping anything!" I flinched. I knew he was right but I had to go. I had to help. It was my duty. This was my life.
"If I die, then you'll just have one more reason to beat them all." It was his turn to flinch. He gripped my shoulders a little tighter as he leaned his forehead on mine, his eyes closed. I started to cry. I knew there was a possibility that I wouldn't come back. A lot of people didn't come back from the last one. But I had to go, even if that meant I would die. I know that Levi would be crushed, but he would carry on. He would bring the titans down, even if that meant I wasn't there to share the victory.
He pulled his head back and opened his eyes, feeling my shoulders shake from the crying. He leaned in slowly, kissing me. It was a soft kiss. A kiss that I know I wont get often. Levi is a hot head, so soft and comforting kisses wont be as frequent as hard and passionate, even needy kisses. I leaned into the kiss, the tears falling harder. The bad feeling returned, but I pushed it away. I wanted to be happy. If not for me, but for Levi.
My captain.
Levi pulled back and reached up to my face, wiping the tears as I sobbed. I kept my eyes closed. I didn't want to look at him. I didn't want to feel like this might be the last time. I didn't want to feel like everything between us, might be gone forever.
That I might be gone forever.
The only reason that I feel it would be me and not Levi is simple. He's fought more titans than I have. He's never been caught and almost killed by a titan, like I have. He's strong, smart, fast, everything that I'm not. He's more likely to survive than I am. Of course I'm not saying I am going to die, its just I feel like if it was going to happen to either of us, it would be me.
–
Levi and I barely saw each other before the expedition. We slept together in the same room secretly every night, but Levi always came in while I was sleeping, and left before I woke up. We got to kiss and have sex during any training brakes we could manage, we even had taken a shower together a few times just to see each other. He's just been so busy with Commander Erwin on trying to perfect the formation that we used on the last expedition. At least this time, we don't need to learn a whole new formation.
–
It was only a few minutes before we had to get on our horses and head outside the wall. I had that uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. Levi just held me as I tried to calm my nerves. We hid behind the stables where our horses were waiting. People didn't know about us, except for Hange of course. But that's only because she knows almost everything about Levi.
"It's still not too late to stay." I pushed him away a little. I was tired of him telling me to stay.
"I'm going and that's that Levi. You can't change my mind about it." He let out a sigh and ran his hand through his hair. "Yeah but that feeling should." I looked to my feet. I had told him about the uneasy feeling I had about this expedition, I probably shouldn't have.
"Feeling or not you need me." I looked back up and cupped his face. He was looking everywhere but me. "Please look at me." He didn't. I pulled his face down and leaned my forehead on his. "Please."
He crashed his lips on mine, pushing me hard against the stable wall. He snaked his hands under my buttocks and hoisted me up, letting me wrap my legs around him. He pushed into me more before pulling back from the kiss. He finally looked at me as one of his hands came up and ran across my face. I leaned into his touch and looked at him. He hadn't gotten much sleep, you could see the dark circles under his eyes. He was having nightmares about the last expedition and when Petra died. I knew they were close, he would tell me about how she didn't didn't believe that he was all hard ass and that he was really a big soft teddy bear. Now I don't know about the soft teddy bear part, but he really wasn't as hard as he comes off. He cares, and maybe a little too much.
"Don't you die on me Katerina Weis." I gave a small smile, not being able to promise anything. Because out there, beyond the wall.
Anything can happen.
–
The mission was going well. Well, better than normal. So far we've only had 3 casualties. We were currently resting up and letting our horses graze before we headed out a little further. Levi and I were sitting next to each other against a tree. We were high in the trees in case of any titans. We were biting into our sour bread, and drinking our dirty water, not a word was exchanged between us, not for a while. I was finished. My bread gone, and a quarter of my water also gone. I look over to see Levi staring at his half eaten bread in his hands, which were shaking. I turn fully to him. I know that he was just as scared about this mission as everyone else, but was the only one not able to voice it.
"I know that you're scared Levi, but you need to have faith in the regiment. In yourself. You can do this." H set his bread down and looked at me.
"But what about you." I sighed and rubbed my cheek. "Look I'm not saying that I wont make it, but I need you to be prepared. I mean, not a lot of people escape the hold of a titan for very long. I'm bound to run into another. He looked back down at his hands. We sat in silence for a few minutes before he spoke.
"it was me." I raised my eyebrow at him. "what do you mean?" He sighed and turned to me, his half eaten bread falling to the ground.
"Back when you got that scar. I was the one that saved you." My mouth fell. I shouldn't be so shocked, I mean, I did hear that his squad was there that day, but I don't know, I mean I wasn't on his squad at the time. I just didn't expect that he would help someone he didn't know or care about.
"O-oh. Um, thank you, then." I squirmed under his gaze, somehow feeling uneasy. "Do you want to know why I saved you?" I just nodded, might as well know.
"It was because you reminded me of peace." I looked at him confused.
"That doesn't make sense. I was in the teeth of a titan, and I reminded you of peace?" He shook his head and ran a hand through his hair. "It wasn't the fact that you were in the bastards teeth, I don't know, I just looked at you, and everything was different. I know it doesn't make sense, but its the truth." I went to speak but a loud BANG rang through the air, followed by shrieks and cries.
Before we knew it, Levi and I were fighting the titans, that uneasy feeling returning. I chose to ignore it and just fight the bastards. It wasn't long until I was caught by one of them. All my swords, gear, legs, a few ribs, and possibly an arm was broken. There was no way I was getting out of this one. The titan squeezed me a little, causing more ribs to crack and me to spit blood as it raised me to its bad smelling lips. It was smiling down at me, like it was enjoying it, which it probably was. I faintly heard someone scream my name, along with the sound of someones gear, but by then, my ears were ringing, my vision also tunneling blurry. I closed my eyes. This must be it, the end. That feeling I got, it must have been telling me.
I felt myself feel like I was flying before being set down on something. I open my eyes, I can barely make the shapes out, but one looks like Levi, and the other Hange. At this point, all I could hear was ringing. I coughed up more blood and the one figure I can presume was Levi, turned to the other and started to scream. I smiled as my vision started to go. I tried to speak, but I think it only came out as a whisper.
"Captian, my..Captian..." The figure turned to me and grabbed my hand. I didn't feel the pain anymore. All I could do was stare at the figure who was holding my hand, talking to me, until my vision went entirely black.
–
We had just gotten back from the expedition. We had a lot of casualties, but no where near as bad as before. Even though it felt like it to me. We had named everyone that was either missing, or dead. Katerina being one of them. I couldn't feel anything at this point. Everyone that I cared for, the ones I loved. Every one of them has died. And all because I couldn't protect them. It was my fault.
We were just about to burn the bodies when I stopped Jean from lighting it.
"Katerina Weis. I want to burn her. Alone. Its the least I could do." He nodded and waited while I retrieved her body. It had started to decompose but I bared with the smell until I was away from everyone else. I went into the woods and found a small clearing that we liked to go on days off. She loved this spot. 'She loved me.' I shook my head as I laid her down on the grass. I gathered everything that I needed to build a fire and set it up. I picked her body back up and placed it on the wooden bed, arms crossed over her chest, her head up to the sky. I pulled the patch off her bloodied uniform and stared at it a minute before shoving it in my pocket.
I set the fire underneath and watched as everything slowly lit up, her body included. I sat and watched as the flame died, just as I watched her die. Tears fell silently down my cheeks. No one was there to see. I didn't have to hide.
"You were supposed to pull me from the darkness. You were supposed to stay alive. How dare you leave me here, Katerina. I..." I looked up to the now dark sky. "I loved you, how could you do this to me?"
"What if you got killed." I mumbled. Katerina looked me in the eye.
"Then you kill the bastard and carry on. Defeat them all. Bring peace back into this world, even if I left it."
I let out a sigh, wiping my face as I left the clearing and back to headquarters. My tears had stopped and my brow was furred. Pain and loss turned into rage.
"I'll kill them. I'll kill them all."
The End.
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