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The_ Cavity
Edward knew he made a mistake the moment his eyes came in contact with Bella's eyes. The creature was trying to contain its excitement as it bounced from foot to foot with a smile flickering on and off of its face. Everything it did reminded him of the love he lost, and Edward was tempted of turning around as fast as he could and running to his Volvo.
"Son" Carlisle said walking towards Edward "I'm so glad that you've returned. The family has missed you"
Taken by surprise, Edward allowed Carlisle to hug him while staring at the creature he had last seen murdering his wife. It was so much like Bella, and this made him bitter and offended that the universe could take so much from him and pour it into something truly monstrous.
'Son' Carlisle said in his mind attempting to get Edward to listen to him instead of staring at Nessie 'I'm very concerned about you, and your daughter."
"It isn't my daughter" Edward whispered to Carlisle "You can call it anything but that. I can't handle you calling it that"
'Son stop it… she can hear you, and she has feeling and emotions and a soul'
"It can't have anything like that. None of us can possess souls. All of us are damned Carlisle…All of us"
'Don't do this here. Not in front of her'
"Am I hurting it emotionally?" Edward could hear his voice rising above a whisper "Am I? It didn't care when it hurt her. Enlighten me; Did it have a soul then?"
"Edward…enough" Carlisle yelled staring at Nessie's horrified face. "Let's discuss this upstairs, away from her. You told Alice and Jasper you wouldn't do this"
"I'm not the person you think I am! I can't pretend like what happened didn't happen. If it has a soul like you think it does, then it deserves to know what it did. It deserves to know it's a demon!"
"Sorry Ed" Emmet said to Edward as he restrained him and started moving him inside of the house, and inside of the Carlisle's study. Jasper and Carlisle followed Emmet and Edward inside of the house.
Nessie was trying to pretend like she hadn't heard everything her father just said to Carlisle. She wanted to pretend like she hadn't been anticipating a beautiful reunion where her father accepted her with open arms. Nessie's mouth was quivering, and she could feel saliva in the back of her throat. Tears were welling in her eyes, she could feel her body shaking, and Rosalie, Alice, Esme and Jacob were all surrounding her. The last thing Nessie wanted to do was cry or be comforted. She didn't feel like talking to her family because she felt like she had been lied to. All of them told her Edward loved her as much as he loved her mother. This obviously wasn't true.
She was confused, hurt, angry, and lost. Nessie didn't know what to do, or how she should react. If they could let her believe she'd have a beautiful reunion with her father, then what else could they be lying about?
Summoning strength Nessie wasn't aware she had, she pushed everyone off of her, and ran into the forest where she knew it would be night soon. Running was the only thing that made any sense. She stretched her legs and felt her muscles warming up. She ran until she couldn't hear anyone calling her name anymore. An owl hooted once and then twice. Nessie could feel her body tiring and then there wasn't any forest anymore. Only dark night gravel road.
The sight of the road made her stop and contemplate her situation. She should return home and talk to her family. Part of life was supposed to be about facing fears and overcoming obstacles. Of course, Carlisle had taught her the theory of facing fears, but until this moment she had never had a fear she needed to face.
Nessie like the simplicity of her problem. She reduced herself from millions of inconsequential questions to one large question: Should she return home or get as far away from the house she lived in as she possibly could?
For someone of above human intelligence her choice wasn't logical. In fact, Nessie only had $5.00 in her pocket, and knew she couldn't keep running away forever. She knew what she was doing didn't make sense, and she was proud of herself. Nessie didn't want to be the Renesmee who made sound choices and got straight A's on every prep school report card. For once, she was a rebel, and she was going against everything her family had ever told her.
A truck drove down the road, Nessie stuck her thumb out, and the car slowed down. The driver was an old man with graying hair and a little bit of salt and pepper stubble. He was missing a few of his front teeth, and spoke with a drawl uncommon to the region they were in.
"Well Missy…where ya headed?"
Where was she headed? Nessie could go anywhere. At first, she couldn't decide where she wanted to go, but one name stuck in her head. As much as Nessie wanted to escape who she was, she also wanted to learn about her past.
"I'm trying to get to Forks"
At this the old man smiled a semi-toothless smile.
~.~.
"Edward, I am very concerned about you" Carlisle said staring directly into his eyes and speaking calmly.
"Concerned about what?"
"The relationship between you and your daughter"
"Carlisle…that thing will never be my daughter. Never."
"O.K." Carlisle said defeated for the moment, but determined to work on the relationship later "Have you been feeding on humans?"
"No"
"Son, don't lie to me!"
"Then don't ask me obvious questions! Why should I pretend that I'm not a monster?"
"What?" Carlisle said somewhat confused "Edward you aren't a monster"
"I am a monster, and that thing outside could have been Bella's sweet daughter if I hadn't ruined it with my propensity for being a vicious murderer."
Carlisle, Jasper, and Emmet all sighed at once. "You aren't a murderer" Jasper said quietly. "You are good and salvageable. You aren't as lost as you seem to think you are"
"Oh what do you know Jasper? You've never lost Alice! She is everything that is beautiful in you, and you will have her forever. Our little charade of humanity hasn't damned you" Edward said with his voice straining. He grabbed his car keys out of his pocket prepared to leave again.
"Where are you going?" Emmet said using his voice for the first time since he'd thrown Edward into the chair.
"I am leaving. This is too hard. I can't do this. This is ridiculous. I can't be here anymore"
"If you were just going to go, then why would you come back?" said Jacob from the doorway his face full of frustration.
"Nessie ran in the forest, and its getting dark. You guys should go looking for her" Jacob said to the others not taking his eyes off of Edward "Don't worry, Edward and I are going to look for Ness together."
Carlisle wasn't sure if that was the best option, but he ran outside of the house with Jasper and Emmet as fast as he could anyways.
"We're supposed to go in the car" Edward said to Jacob after hearing what Carlisle was thinking to him.
Both of them ran toward Edward's Volvo in a tense silence. The car took off and Edward rolled down the windows as Jacob tried to listen for any sound of Ness. Edward pretended like he was listening for that thing, but knew if he heard anything that sounded like Nessie he was going to pretend as though he hadn't. The thing could stay lost and gone if it wanted to.
After a few minutes, Jacob couldn't contain his anger any longer "Why now Edward? Why now? Everything was going great and then you had to return"
"I don't really know." Edward said sighing. After Bella's death Edward and Jacob had gained a mutual respect for each other. They both knew the pain of loosing Bella, and the loss had brought them together. Jacob was the only person from the past Edward had talked to in the 7 years he was gone. They had exchanged only 3 letters, but Edward felt like Jacob was the closest to understanding his pain.
"I don't believe that"
"This is going to seem very odd to you, and I don't expect you to understand. I feel sometimes like Bella is talking to me and guiding some path. She wanted me to return here."
"What?"
"I had a dream…and Bella wanted me to stop running and go home. She said that there was something important that I needed to take care of for her. She said she left something behind in her favorite book. I don't normally believe in those kind of things, but the dream was clear and vivid and this is the 3rd time I've had it."
"What book?"
"Wuthering Heights"
"And when you find the book and what she left behind. What are you going to do then?" Jacob said hoping that Edward was going to find what he was looking for and not keep damaging Nessie the way he had earlier.
"I don't know. Maybe it will tell me what is next"
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