The next day went by pretty quickly. I had a few classes with Jessica yakking into my ear about clothes, beauty and boys. When she started talking about boys, it made me think about the boy trouble I was having.

It felt wrong trying to consummate my relationship with Edward while Jacob would be listening outside. I knew it had to be done though and it's not like we have to go all the way. Just as long as Edward can satisfy me sexually, Jacob would get the picture.

The day was nearing an end and my mixed emotions were all over the place. I was excited to spend the night with Edward but I was also extremely anxious. What if Jacob's right? What if Edward is so obsessed with my safety that he doesn't even touch me? That wasn't going to be an option. I was going to make it impossible for Edward to resist me.

When I got home I made Charlie an early dinner, giving me enough time to get ready.

I dashed upstairs to take a shower. I washed my hair and made sure to shave my legs, underarms and especially down there.

Alice had given me some lingerie a few months ago to wear on such an occasion like this. I pulled the bra and panty set out of the draw to have another look at them.

They were light blue with black lace over the top. I quickly dried off and changed into the lingerie. The bra pushed up my breasts nicely while the underwear came up, just far enough to see the curve of my ass cheeks. Alice also gave me stockings that went with the bra and panties.

They were two separate stay up stockings that were a sheer black. As I put them on, I noticed that each had a tiny blue bow on the front where they sat on my upper thighs. I looked in the mirror, getting a good look at myself. I didn't look like I usual did, I looked a lot sexier.

I heard the noise of something coming through my window. I turned around, hoping to see Edward only to find Jacob gawking at me, his mouth wide open.

"You look so fucking hot Bella. I didn't realise you would be pulling out all the stops for this one"

"Jake" I whispered, flinging my hands to cover myself as if it would do any good. His face had been between my legs, there wasn't much he hadn't seen.

"This isn't for you, you know, so get out" I silently shouted, trying not to alert Charlie.

"I know, I'm gonna have you completely naked soon enough" he said as he stalked toward me.

"I do like the outfit though" he told me, lifting his hand to stroke the fabric that cupped my right breast.

His thumb flicked over my nipple through the fabric as he stroked me. I let out an involuntary moan, cursing in my head for showing him how turned on he can make me.

"Edward's gonna be here soon" I looked him dead in the eye, so he knew I was serious about wanting to be with Edward tonight. I saw a flash of panic in his eyes, breaking his cocky demeanour.

He brought his hand up my body to massage my neck.

"You really don't have to do this. We could go back to place and….."

"Why" I interrupted, backing away from him "you afraid you're gonna lose"

I used his very words against him. I felt confident about tonight. Even if I get half the reaction from Edward that Jacob was giving me now, I would still have Edward all over me.

"Fine…. you wanna keep playing this game, you wanna pretend you don't want me, that's fine. I'll be outside listening to everything. If I don't hear any kind of resemblance of him giving you pleasure, I expect you to be at my house tomorrow".

Before I could even think of a good comeback, he was out the window. I couldn't believe I let him get under my skin like that. Lately all I was thinking about was Jacob.

I fell onto my bed in mental exhaustion. I was in bed in my sexiest lingerie thinking about my best friend, what was wrong with me. I had to get focused. I got up and lit candles all over my room while I waited for Edward. While lighting the last one, I heard Edward's voice from behind me.

"Bella"

I turned around to face him "Hi"

"What are you doing" he asked.

"Oh, just getting some nice lighting in here" I answered.

"No I meant, why are you wearing…." Edward asked, looking stunned.

"Oh this" I pointed to my lingerie "Alice gave them to me. I thought you'd like it"

"Oh umm" Edward mumbled nervously.

"If you don't like it, I can always…. take it off" I began to unclasp my bra when Edward stopped me.

He grabbed my hands from behind my back and held them firmly in place.

"No, No I like it, you look beautiful …..It's just, I don't think we should"

I pressed my body against his and kissed him passionately. I didn't want to hear any of his excuses why we couldn't be together.

He returned my kiss with equal passion, freeing my hands so I could wrap them around his body. I pulled away from him to hold his hand in mine, leading him to the bed. I laid on top of my bed as I pulled Edward towards me. I wrapped my right hand around his neck and kissed him once again.

I think he was caught by surprise by my actions because his usual control was not present. His body was reacting to mine in ways it never had before. His hands were wandering all over my body and his developing erection was pressed between my legs. However, quicker than it started, I felt Edward pull away from me to sit next to me on my bed.

"I'm sorry Bella, we shouldn't be doing this"

Oh no Jacob was right.

I wrapped my leg over his hips, coming to a straddling position on his lap.

"We can Edward, I know you want to" I said, rubbing myself against his erection.

Edward groaned at my actions, trying to keep himself controlled.

"I'm not going to hurt you, just to succumb to my physical desires"

"Then just focus on me then, just touch me Edward. I trust you" I said, grabbing his hand and putting it between my legs.

"You want to feel how wet you make me Edward?" I asked, slipping his finger inside of me.

"Mmm, that feels so good Edward" I said, urging him on. I realised I was basically masturbating with Edward fingers, but I hoped it would encourage Edward to play with me. Hopefully, Jacob couldn't tell the difference and would think Edward was really touching me. God I felt so pathetic. Edward let out a growl and rolled me off of him and positioned himself on top of me.

"Stop Bella we can't, when were married on our honeymoon, we can try then. However, if I feel like I will hurt you we'll just have to wait till you become like me" Edward said, getting off the bed and standing with his back to the window.

"But not now, I won't allow it". He said, reaffirming his point.

I came to a sitting position at the edge of my bed as I spoke.

"I won't want you when I become a vampire. The only thing I'll want to do is eat the whole town".

"That part doesn't last long" Edward informed me.

"Maybe I can't wait any longer" I whined.

I stood up as I continued. "God you have no idea what I'm sacrificing for you. I'm giving up my whole life, my family, Jacob..." Edward interrupted my rant.

"I can understand you being upset about leaving your family but Jacob, his just a mangy dog that won't mind his own business "Edward yelled, directing his statement towards the open window.

He knew Jacob was outside listening, but didn't know the true reason why.

He turned back to face me as he spoke once more.

"Besides in a few years everyone you know will be dead, you'll get over it".

Angry shocked through me at the total casualness he had about my family dying. I picked up a crystal ball, the size of my fist, which was on my bedside table and flung it directly at Edward perfect face.

Edward quickly moved his head causing the crystal ball to fly out my window.

I gasped, remembering how good vampire reflexes are.

"Are you done now?" Edward asked sarcastically.

"No" I shouted, trying to find other less valuable, yet heavy things to throw at him.

"Bella I love you" Edward told me, as he brought his arms up to embrace me. I backed away from his touch.

"If you loved me you would be with me, you didn't even try. Just leave Edward. I don't want you here tonight"

"If that's what you want"

"I think you've established that you can't give me what I want" I looked at him in anger as my eyes began to tear up. With that, Edward was gone, leaving me feeling empty and unwanted.